yeah just thought i would say something on here since i haven't said anything in awhile.well okay!

Leah

okay im totally better now.i talked to my dad last night and he was surprisingly helpful.i love him very much!

2 weeks till school starts and im totally looking forward to it.i know im weird but college is going to be fun.

hey heres my schedule!:

MWF:

9:10-10:05~Eng. in PH

12:40-2:05~Chem.in AMG(MW)

3:00-3:55~Music in PH

TR:

8:00-9:25~Stats. in BAS

10:20-12:20~Chem. Lab in WPS(T)

2:40-4:05~Psy in LRC

yeah that is pretty much it, it's so awesome.

talk to you guys later!

Leah

okay so pretty sure i lose a part of myself today with the moving away of my best friend.but the good thing is that i got to go move her into her dorm and meet one of her roommates.her dorm is nice now that we decorated it and the campus is pretty cool to.man i miss her already.it was really hard to move becky into her dorm today and then basically just leave.band camp started today for her so we really didn't have a choice but yeah.

i hate the feeling of losing someone i trully love.that makes two best friends now that have left me and its the worst feeling ever.

I LOVE YOU BECKY!

"Hear Me"

Hear me
Hear me

You gotta be out there
You gotta be somewhere
Wherever you are
I'm waiting
'Cause there are these nights when
I sing myself to sleep
And I'm hopin' my dreams
Bring you close to me
Are you listening?

Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me
I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me
Hear me

Hear me
Can you hear me?
Hear me

I used to be scared of
Letting someone in
But it gets so lonely
Being on my own
No one to talk to
And no one to hold me
I'm not always strong
Oh, I need you here
Are you listening?

Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me
I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me

I'm restless and wild
I fall, but I try
I need someone to understand
Can you hear me?
I'm lost in my thoughts
And baby I've fought
For all that I've got
Can you hear me?

Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me
I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me
Hear me
Hear me
Hear me
Can you hear me?
Hear me
Hear me
Hear me
Can you hear me?
Oh, oh, oh, oh...
Hear me
Hear me
Hear me

yeah okay this my song to someone but i will never tell and maybe just maybe someone will read this and no my feeling and maybe just maybe God will send us together.

i can't describe how my heart feels right now.....

Just Me

 today was strange to say the least...don't ask why it just was.

i got new cloths this weekend and school supplies.....its weird.....anyways yeah....

Leah

 tax free weekend im going shopping...probably with my mom so give me a call on the cell if you need me or if you would like to meet up with us.much love. i guess.

Leah

~brian king we must hangout before you leave.....call.

~becky amonett we must hangout before you leave i haven't hungout with you since your b-day...call.

....very much like an outcast.

everything is changing so quickly i don't know what to do.im already growing apart from my friends and that makes me sad.and as most of you know i help the OHS guard and the rest of the staff pretty much ignores me including Mr.Waters,who is surpose to be my friend and what not.

i don't know i just feel really lonely....

...and the fact that my best friend and the person that understands me the most leaves in like 2 weeks and im handleing that to well.

full on depression is now in effect....crawling in a dark corner has now begun....i hate this.

hey everyone!

well DCI was kind of a flop because it got rained out but what we did get to see was pretty awesome so yeah.i guess i will just have to wait for the finals dvds to come out so yeah.

but this week is band camp and im helping the guard out and everything so its pretty awesome only problem is i have the girls with me all at the same time but they are okay so it's fine i guess.

well ill be on later....leave me comments!

Leah

WOW! it feels good to be home finally.it's amazing. i had an awesome time at the fair.riding rides were great and just having fun was awesome.

but it's great to be home i can't wait for this weekend....AHHH DCI.

okay bye.

Leah

to all of you that helped me out with my last post....THANK YOU....it means alot that you all care so very much. thanks to everyone who told me to be patient and all the advice it helps to know peole understand where i am coming from.....that remark that helped me the most was from megan though and it reads.......You just haven't found the right guy... I know this comment is a little late... Sorry... But there is nothing wrong with you only things wrong with guys... They suck and they don't see you like Becky and I do... But they will... When they are meant to...that is such an awesome statement.....thanks.

beckys bday was awesome i had alot of fun and i hope everyone else did as well.......well im off to bed.

i love you all.

i love the megan

i love the becky

and......i love the brian

Leah

hey everyone just thought i would let you guys know that everything is cool with me.yeah....looking forward to going to beckys tonight for big birthday celebrations.lol. well i love you all!

to all that left me remarks.....thanks it helped!

Leah

okay yeah....

IM LONELY! i can't take it anymore.i have been fine the past four years without a special someone in my life but now im lonely.ive been able to fill the hole with my friends and activities but i just cant do that anymore.i want a relationship that means something.i want that special bond with that someone that changes your whole out look on life.im tired of being Leah the really awesome friend...or Leah the really cool person.im tired of getting my hopes up on a guy just to find out he likes someone else.

you guys don't understand this probably and most of you probably won't read it...cuz that is how you all are....but

IM JUST SO HURT AND TIRED OF BEING ME!

what is wrong with me....that guys just don't find me the relationship type?

i know God will send me a guy when i am ready for one but what if im already ready for one....can't he see my pain...

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!

just me

okay the bluecoats are here in franklin and im going to see my best friend...if you wanna come you are welcome to....im leaving at 6 to go over there so if you wanna come with me give me a call!

Leah

okay im back! for a week atleast.... talk to you all later!

Me!

im off to florida if you need me give me a call(5456082) ill talk to you all later!

Leah

it's sad when people die when they are so young.it so awful....guys keep the murphy family in your prayers they need all they can get.

Leah

well first off HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY!

today was a pretty good day i woke up at 9:30 and hung out with my parents and then went and hung out with megan.then came home and went and watched the fireworks they were really short this year...idk maybe it was just me.

secondly.....Ashley Murphy's vistitation(sp) is tomorrow at woodfin from 5-9 and the funeral is thursday at 3.so yeah please pray for her family they are taking it really hard as you can imagin.God rest her soul!

PLEASE EVERYONE ALWAYS BUCKLE UP WHEN YOU GET IN THE CAR!

i love you all!

God Bless!

...Just Me..

first off read my last entry and that will explain some of it.

second i just have so much running throught my head right now im kinda an emotional wreck.i hate it.i have so many things i need and wanna say but i can't. ahhh i just wanna scream....i hate crying i wish it would just go away!

...

i was informed today that my mom's friends daughter passed away in a car accident and that her son is at vandy in the hospial.i am very close to the son and new that daughter well.if you all could just pray for the murphy family that would be awesome.

just me

hey hey

yeah pretty sure this week has been amazing! ill talk to you guys later!

Leah