Isn't this what we all want? I do. I just don't know if I'll ever get it. Carmen seems to get it and then lose it. At least she has some kind of loveish life. I don't have any admirers except little kids. Oh well, I have my whole life I guess. I'm just way to impaitent.

So today was a good day. We went outside today, and that was a lot of fun. We probally looked like a bunch of fools though to most people. (We are very loud.) We were keeping Keri's lucky puppy and feather away from her. Sarah was singing very loudly. We were just being our normal selves. One bad thing about going outside is that I keep seeing him. Most of yall don't know the story behind it, but if you were on my hall last year you most likely know. It just frustrates me so much. I'm going to end up 50 and not married. Nobody's ever going to like me for real (except losery elementary and sixth graders.)

I feel so stupid right now. Why didn't I try-out for cheerleading. I was just saying the other day that I feel so lonely without it and now I won't try-out because I don't think I'm good enough. I totally chickened out at the last minute. I'm so mad at myself right now. Oh, well, I still have dance.

So we had TCAP today. It was boring and easy as usual. They put some of the easiest questions on those things. I really don't see how people can get below profiecient, when they are so easy. Well I got to go so I can get some rest before tomorrow's tests. See yall.

My mom and me went to the movies today and saw Disturbia. It was really good, but it was one of those movies were you don't know what's around the next corner. After the movies, we went to Goody's to and got my dressy day outfit for spirit week. It's really cute. I can't wait to wear it. We also got my prom dress. I like it, but I just wish it wasn't some cheap $90 dress that I got from Goody's that probally 10 other people will have. I really want to go to prom, but I'm really nervous. I've haven't went to one dance all year and I'm afriad I won't know what to do. I just hope my friends come. I'm going to call Sam and see if I can get ready at her house. So did yall have a good Saturday. I did. ;) Well I got to go and practice my presentation for tomorrow's People to People meeting.

Today's lunch was really fun. Keri was talking about what she would name her child, and she thought of Yo Mamma. It was really funny because everyone was thinking of instances where it would be funny to use their name. Like, someone asked who you were taking to prom and they said Yo Mamma.Then when we were walking back to class Carmen was talking about were she heard about were people in Africa throw their babies against the wall and the sound they make is their name. But if that was true how do they come up with the really complex names? Well got to go. See you later alligator.

Today's lunch was really fun. Carmen was spinning her tortilla thing in from her lunch and it went flying across the table. I was eating when she did it and when I started laughing I also started choking. I couldn't breathe for like 30 seconds. Then she was flicking pineapples at people. One hit this popular girl and she was looking around to see where it came from. Another one fell right in the middle of this guy's plate. I also noticed today how boring the popular people lunches are. All they do is sit there and eat. I would hate to sit there. I would go crazy. I laugh at least half of my lunch with my friends. When we were walking back me and Keri were talking. I hit her with my lunchbox. She started screaming. Mr. Cochran (our social studies teacher) was like ladies. Keri told him that I had hit her and he just told her that I would never do something like that. That's what you get for talking to Carmen all through class, Keri. Then when we got back in the classroom, Keri started chasing me around the room. Got to go. My mom just got here with the pizza. Write tomorrow. ;)

I'm seriously going crazy right now. I just can't handle my dad. I don't think he means to, but he constanly makes my feel bad. He'll tell me to do something and go right in behind me. Then he calls me back in there and starts yelling saying that I need to redo it because it's not right. He's constanly nitpicking everything I do. Then I start crying and he acts like he doesn't have any clue what's wrong with me. And he never lets me voice my opinion. Even when I'm right about something he tells me that I should listen to him because he's the parent. He's also said before that it doesn't matter what my mom  says because he's the boss.  I just can't wait till' college so I don't have to deal with him. I know that's really bad to say, but you just don't know my dad. It's really frustrating sometimes. What's even worse is that when my mom, sister, and I are at church he's at home watching TV on the couch. I just don't know what to do anymore. I just really don't know.

So today was an acutally OK today considering it rained. I don't like rain. It makes my hair crazy. I mean really crazy. #:( ( My afroish hair.) Nothing really exciting happened today at lunch or school. I guess everyone felt bad because it was an icky day. I had fun tonight at dance. We learned new parts. It will be really cool looking if I can get it down. I can't wait till' recital. All of  yall have to come and see me. I would be really happy. I got my new dance t-shirt tonight. It's really cute. It's blue with Vibe and the little guy on everything in pink. I'm going to wear it tomorrow. Do we have a color? Oh well.  Well I got to go so see ya tomorrow.

I helped my sister with her science project. We bought one of those styrofoam planet kit things. We had to paint them because we couldn't find any pre-painted ones. Oh well...painting is fun. Carmen was really funny today. She was drinking a yorgut thing and it said shake before using so she was shaking her whole body. She made up the name Convulsion Carmen. Epileptic Eve. There wasn't anything else really that funny or exciting today.

Have you ever wondered if people talk to you because they feel bad for you or if they really do like you. Mainly popular people. Just wondering. It's just some times I feel like a charity case. Oh well I have my real friends and they don't. That's all that matters.

So obviously, everyone had a great weekend. My little cousing spent the night with us last weekend and went to church with us this morning. We went and ate lunch with my Nannie Donna. When we were driving home my sister asked my cousing what the meaning of church was (he doesn't attend church regularly), and he said the Easter bunny. My sister was like are you joking. My mom told her to calm down and tell him what Easter was all about. After she was finished he was like, that's good, I'll remember that. It was really cute. I think he likes coming to church. He said he wants to come back next week. Monday's color(s): Earth tones. ;)

I am so sore right now. I can hardly walk. I did so many toe touches and herkies these past two days I think about doing them in my sleep. We did do a really cute dance though. We had to do a mock try-out. I hate spiriting on. REALLY hate it. I feel like such a fool. I'm always afraid I'm going to trip and fall. Well it was fun though. I really like the cheers we learned. But there was hardly anybody there though. They was only me and Allie and Leslie. There was two other people that came yesterday that I didn't know that came today. Well got to go. We are leaving to go eat.

Good morning world!!! So today we are having a boring yard sale. When we got to my aunt's house this morning at six I was like super hyper. I'm not even that hyper when I go to school at like seven thirty in the morning. So today I have a cheerleading clinic at Vibe. I'm really excited. Not making cheerleading either years has really bummed me out. It's really hard cheering for six years and then just having to sit there and watch my sister cheer. It's just not fair. :( Oh, well. So today's clinic is from five to seven and tomorrow's is from nine to eleven. I'm really bored right now. Nobody's up right now at this time in the morning so I have nobody to talk to. Except my sister is talking to her best friend Abby. They are arguing over why someone didn't get added to their buddy list on Webkinz. Well got to go do something usefull with my life. See you guys later.

Today's lunch was fun today. Carmen got dinosaur chicken nuggets and was playing with them. It was hilarious. Sarah asked her if her mom had ever told her to not play with her food, and Carmen was like when chicken is shaped like dinosaurs it is a little hard to resist. That's my crazy friends for you. Have I mentioned my friend Keri. You so need to request her as a friend. She is one of the most awesome people you will ever meet!!! Search Keri Poole. If you are still reading this you need to leave now and get Keri as a friend. Go now. What are you waiting for. Well if you are still reading you must not be a fun person so I will just continue to talk to you. I'm so excited we get an extra day for the weekend because of Good Friday. I need a recouping from 9 days of school back from our 2 week break. Well I got to go so I'll post later. Bye guys. And Keri if you are reading this...,"Goodbye Earl..." ;)

This is a blog all about my family, friends, and life. As you can see from the title my life is chaos. But I like it that way because it just seems normal and I wouldn't trade in anything to have a slow paced life. At dance tonight we learned like five new eight counts in like the last five minuted of class. It was CRAZY!!! It was so fast, I could hardly keep up. I'm just going to have to pracitice like crazy until recital in like two months. I'm so excited about reciatal. Our costumes are so cute. Although I really don't like our dance shoes. They are way to slick. My mom's making me try out for cheerleading. I love cheerleading, but I know I want make it. There is only four slots for freshamans. It's also all year instead of basketball season cheerleaders and football season cheerleaders. So if I ever possibly made it, it would take over my whole life. I like cheerleading, but I don't want to give certain things up. Also camp in KNOXVILLE is one day away before I leave for Australia. I would get back really late that nightn and get like two hours of sleep before I had to get to the airport. Oh yeah did I mention that I'm going to Australia to be an ambassador. I've always got those People to People letters,and this year I finally applied to go, and got selected to go. I'm so excited. So check back each day to get the low down on my life. Peace. :>