I always forget I have this thing!

 

I hope everyone had a good New Years. Mine was okay nothing special. There a couple of things I decided I wanted to do this year in 2008.

 

1. Move to Nashville.

A lot of people think this is crazy because i have about a year left in school and the traffic from Murfreesboro to Nashville is insane. My best friend Jenny is graduating this spring and is thinking of moving to Nashville so she's been asking me if I'll move in with her. I tried convincing her to move to Murfreesboro but she hates it here. lol. A lot of friends are going to grad school in Nashville and at least I wouldn't have to drive to see them.

 

2. Go on a road trip/travel more.

 I haven't been anywhwere outside the South in about seven years. When I was a kid we used to travel and go on family vacations all the time. 

 

3.  Make more friends/be a better friend.

More than half of my friends will be graduating in May so I virtually will have very few people to hang out with or socialize. I wasnt' very social in the past year. Maybe it was because I was in school, working constantly but whatever the case I never made an effort to really spend time with people or really even talk to friends and people from church. I feel awful about that and I'm going to do better this year.

 

4.  Find a new job.

I'm proud of myself. I've already turned in a few applications. Its time to find something that is isn't as stressful and actually cares about the employees.

So today was my 21st birthday. I had fun but I wish more people could have come and hung out longer (Monday is not the ideal day for a birthday get together especially with school starting). I was also sad some of my friends left and didn't even say goodbye but I don't want to elaborate.

 

Anywho first we went to Fuji and after we sat down we all realized there was no way we could afford it so we left (I felt really bad but we didn't order food or drinks or anything so I suppose that wasn't terribly bad). We ended up going to Golden Eagle Mongolian Stir-Fry which was way more reasonably priced and really good.

 

As far as presents go my mom got me Apples to Apples since I've been wanting that game forever and my grandma sent me $20 (to most people that doesn't seem like a lot but my grandmother really gives anyone anything so I felt special!)

 

I also had a sip of Boone's Farm and then quickly realized it didn't taste that great which sparked a debate over the drinking issue. I mean hello nothing can beat a Cherry Coke! (which of course I mentioned! lol). You would think alcohol would taste amazing, like liquid candy the way people around here get drunk but it doesn't.

 

It just suprises me how causal people treat drinking and getting drunk. No one in my family ever really drank. (I suppose this was because my grandfather was an alcoholic until the day he died. I also have a cousin who was just 8 years old when he was killed by a drunk driver walking to the bus stop.) My mom never drinks and my father had a beer every blue moon but we were always encouraged to follow the Bible standards in that regard. I believe that it is okay to have a drink (hello one of Jesus first miracles was turning water into wine!) but the Bible does warn us about being drunk and the consequences:

 

 *Ephesians 5:18: *

"Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit."

 

I also believe we should respect those who choose not to drink at all (that means if drinking is offense to them then you shouldn't drink in front of them since this could be a stumbling block for them). We also shouldn't snub our noses or talk badly about those who do choose to drink. Now if they are getting drunk and being irresponisble when drinking then I feel it is okay to warn them in a loving and non-judgement way.

 

All in all, I suppose I wanted my birthday to mean more to me than it did. I didn't have a bad time or anything its just in some way I am a little disappointed.  I wanted to invite more people and be more friendly, socialable, and not so quiet but I didn't. I know this is something God is pushing on me to change as well.

 

I guess I expected it to be great or something as I do a lot of things but I also know I need to not try to over analyze everything. I need to learn how to enjoy things for what they are and to just be content. At times I fear i am unthankful and complain too much. Maybe I just like to actually get things out of my head that I can't say out loud. I don't know but I do know I am blessed.

 

Thank you Jesus for a lovely day.

Is it just me or is Japanese music way more happier (and when translated its even funnier) than American music? Of course in general it is often worse but very entertaining! :)

 

I'm pretty sure my friend Katy and I are always putting on some random Japan pop or techno during the day (which she got from her study abroad trip) and just start dancing in the kitchen. This is my favorite:

 

"Party Join Us (TV Theme for Shin Chan)"

 
Woke up late this morning
A storm was really rollin’
Frogs and dogs were raining from the sky
Everything seems awkward to me
Nothing’s just as it should be
If this keeps on I’m sure I won’t get by
 
But then I close my eyes and try to smile
I know things are bad and getting worse
But after all this I can rest awhile
And then I’ll party party
 
Party Party Join us Join us
Party Party Join us Join us
Party Party Join us Join us
Shake your day away and you can
Party Party Join us Join us
Party Party Join us Join us
Party Party Join us Join us
Shake your blues away

 

(Reggae Breakdown)
 
Yo Reggae vacation Mon....
This party’s shakin’
and it ain’t just shakin’ me here
I see that smile
You’re grinnin’ ear to ear
Sing this song
And you should really sing it clear
Just sing along with us
 
Party Party Join us Join us
Party Party Join us Join us
Party Party Join us Join us
Shake your day away and you can
PARTY PARTY
PARTY PARTY
PARTY PARTY

 

I always feel really weird writing about my personal life online but I just needed to find somewhere (particularly on a site where most of my friends aren't on. lol.) to write and put my thoughts.

 

So anywho today I was totally excited to see all my friends. I haven't seen most of them in a while (since school ended) so naturally when they came back to move I rushed home after work to hang out. It was cool and all catching up and just laughing about silly stuff (which I really needed after having a not so good day at work). I was having fun until someone suggested some not so wholesome activities. I declined but that they decided to go head and leave me behind.

 

For some reason I wasn't mad. (maybe I should have been I don't know) I was just disappointed and shocked at them for even considering doing something like that. When they came back I decided to leave and just go home. Its like what happened to these people I thought I knew? I would have never imagined three years ago they would do some of the things they've done in the past few months and its getting worse. I don't even recognize them anymore. And don't get me wrong I love my friends. We've all had some great times together and I really do consider them family but this is becoming hard for me to just sit back and watch them get out of control. When I do say something its always "Whatever. Stop being so uptight!"  I don't want to lose them but I feel their behavior is getting worse...

For some reason I have devolped a slight obssession with songs and music on commercials  (like the music playing in the background on the iPhone commercial.) Most importantly I stumbled across the full version of the song from the M&Ms commercial! I love it. It reminds me of myself! It makes me happy! :) And yeah I know i sound like a dork but oh well!

 

(its by The The) "This Is The Day" 

 

Well... you didn't wake up this morning
Because you didn't go to bed
You were watching the whites of your eyes
Turn red
The calendar, on your wall, is ticking the days off
The calendar on your wall is ticking
the days off
You've been reading some old letters
You smile and think how much you've changed
All the money in the world
Couldn't buy back those days.
You pull back the curtains, and the sun burns into your eyes,
You watch a plane flying across a clear blue sky but..

THIS IS THE DAY -- Your life will surely change.
THIS IS THE DAY -- When things fall into place.

You could've done anything -- if you'd wanted
And all your friends and family think that you're lucky.
But the side of you they'll never see
Is when you're left alone with the memories
That hold your life together like
Glue

 

You pull back the curtains, and the sun burns into your eyes,
You watch a plane flying across a clear blue sky.

THIS IS THE DAY -- Your life will surely change.
THIS IS THE DAY -- When things fall into place.

 

Sorry i haven't updated this thing lately. I know a few of you messaged me and asked me about my uncle and what not a while ago so I do apoligize. He's doing fine now and recovering from his back surgery. He's still in a lot of pain and is still in a wheelchair but he's expected to recover in a few months and starts his physical therapy soon. Grandma says he went out fishing with my other uncles and friends yesterday and ate catfish all day (one of his favorite pass times! lol.) so I'm glad he's getting out of the house and all. I'm just so thankful he is okay and God blessed his surgery!

 

I still haven't been able to land another job so I've decided to enroll in Goodwill Career Solutions. Its a free service to the public and they give classes on how to make a resume and provide job leads. I'm also looking into some internships within the social work department as well so wish me luck!

 

By the way if any of you know someone who is looking for an apartment in Murfreesboro or is signing a lease at Campus Crossings please let me know (even if you already have roommates in mind, I would pay the transfer fee and we received a discount so my rent is cheaper than if you sign up now). I am considering leaving MTSU to move with my mom (to South Carolina) for the Spring semester but if I can find someone to take over my lease I could leave the apartments at the end of this summer and just live on campus or something.

I think I'm becoming an insomniac! I can never fall asleep anymore. Its 1:07 am and although I am sleepy something inside of me keeps wanting to stay up!!! ( I have a job interview tomorrow or I shall I say today so that's not good!).

 

Its weird. It really sucks though because if I stay up late, I'll be tired and feel "hung over" or sluggish the next day. This has been going on for a couple of weeks now. My sister sugegsted I take sleeping pills but I really don't feel comfortable doing that. I don't want to get addicted or randomly fall asleep while I'm driving my car or something. lol. I guess I will have to continue forcing myself to go to bed. :(

If you guys can, please pray for my uncle. His name is Timmy. He was in a motorcycle crash Sunday night and is in critical condition. That's all I know right now.

I don't if any of you have heard of this or are already going but there is going to be a day of fasting and prayer for a Great Awakening in our country this summer in Nashville!

Massive, United Fasting and Prayer Can Shift a Nation…

On 07.07.07, tens of thousands from across America will gather in Nashville to fast, pray and cry out to God for another Great Awakening! 40 years after the start of the Jesus Movement and 40 years after the rebellion of the Summer of Love, it's time for a new generation to step forward and return to the Lord and to renew our covenant vows of love with Him.

In the Bible, the word for 'oath' literally comes from the word 'seven' because they would repeat their vows seven times. 07.07.07 is a divine opportunity to divorce our false loves and remarry the Lord.

2007 is a covenant year for America, the 400th anniversary of the planting of the cross in Virginia. We believe that if the Church will gather to fast and pray, God will visit America in an historic awakening again.

Join The Call! Registration is required! Register at www.thecall.com Titans Stadium on 7.7.07. Be there. This is quite possibly the most important event of this year and can shape the future.

*Check out their myspace as well*:

myspace.com/thecallgathering

I plan on going and I would love to go with someone else besides myself so if you are interested in going let me know! -Ebony

I'm starting to get frustrated with my job hunt. No one is calling me not even the fast food places I've applied to! When I do go and try to check up on the applications I've turned it and ask about it the people working there act like they're extremely annoyed or inconvienced. I'm trying to say positive and be thankful for all the things I do have ( a nice apartment, car, food to eat, my family) but I'm still human and start to worry. I guess I can do is pray about it and keep trying. I do still have a couple of hours a week as a sub for the front desk at Scarlett so many I can get more. But yeah if you guys know of any jobs available in Mufreesboro or anything let me know! (hehe)

Oh and I think there might be something wrong with my ignition switch in my car. Daniel and Jacqueline helped me jump start it and it ran fine when I drove it for a bit around town. I turned it off when I got home and now it won't start again. At least I won't have to get it towed when I go to get it fixed so that's a blessing.

Anywho I hope your week has been better than mine.

I don't know why I feel compelled to mention this on here but anyways I felt like I needed to write about this somewhere. Is it just me or lately has tv been over saturated with sex and scandally clad women all over the place? I can not turn on the tv without seeing some product, tv show, or movie that features women in tight revealing clothing, sex jokes, or even worse showing nudity and sex scenes. In most of the scenarios the nude scene or "sexy" chick doesn't even tie into the story, plot, or purpose. Its just there to be there (maybe they think that what guys want to keep them interested I suppose). Its seems like lately I'm always having to change the channel and if I'm at someone else's house I always end up having to leave the room or just go home. And the bad thing about it is because this is so common now I think a lot of people have become indifferent to it even some of my Christian friends.

I think being a girl its a lot harder when your guy friends adopt this attitude because to me watching these things doesn't show much respect for their sisters in Christ. It makes me feel like they do not appreciate a godly woman who is living her life for Christ (check out the Proverbs 31 woman!) and obeying his commandments. Ultimately I know it only matters what God thinks of me. Only He knows my true heart and I am supposed look to Him for approval not man.

When I mention how we need to be careful of what we watch sometimes they get mad or say I'm overreacting but the Bible is clear about this in Ephesians 5:1-5:

 "Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God. But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God's holy people. Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving. For of this you can be sure: No immoral, impure or greedy person—such a man is an idolater—has any inheritance in the kingdom of Christ and of God."

Its hard sometimes when to know when to stick up for your beliefs and what you know is right because I know it can be very annoying for others to hear you say something everytime someone does something you don't like. I do believe there are times you have to speak up and then there are times you have to keep quiet. I think most importantly God is teaching me not to judge others as much. Although I may hate these kinds of shows and movies I have my own personal sins I am struggling with too. They are no less sinful than what someone else does so I need to always remember that.

Anyways that is enough for today...

Why is it that sometimes we can never get over that someone special that we have lost in a previous relationship? Why is it that no matter how many other people you have dated you still think about this person knowing that it will never work out? What if you really didn't get the chance to tell them how you really felt? As much as you wish you could forget about them and get over it why are they still in your head after all this time? I keep thinking perhaps only God knows why.....

My dad's in the hospital. Please pray for him if you can. He was having breathing problems and bad chest pains. He went into cardiac arrest and now he has some brain damage. He's responding a little to us when we talk to him and the doctors as well. Keep us in your prayers please.

So I guess I'm gonna give this Phusebox thing a try. I just wanted a place to write online where i can talk about stuff like Jesus, what he's doing in my life, music, pop culture or whatever. People don't really seem to respond to stuff like that too well on places like Myspace but oh well.

Its snowing here in Memphis right now and its so pretty. Its actually sticking to the ground maybe I'll get to make a snowman sometime.