1. trying new things with my girls, like sour slushies
2. taking pictures in a grocery cart at the movie theatre parking lot
3. guys stopping to ask us what we are doing with the shopping cart.
4. yelling at movies only to discover that they can't really hear us screaming at them
5. being mature enough to be imature(you girls know what i am talking about)
6. lauren yelling at boys as we drive by them and then getting embarressed when they speed up to talk to her

::tonight is what i needed. its been fun hanging out with just the girls and knowing that something crazy will probably happen, whenever all of us are together there is always something. when we were sitting at an intersection i looked over towards the corner and there was a stand down at the gas station. these two men were on their knees with their hands over their head while the cops had their guns pointed at them. it was like the show cops. rachael decides she wants a picture and that made it even more funny. but it was kinda scary at the same time. you just don't see that stuff in the boro. well i hope everyone had a great night too. off to buy my books tomarrow.::

so i was ravaging through an old notebook, and i found this really cool quote.

"There are two kinds of people in this world, the saved and the unsaved . The unsaved need to be saved, and the saved need to serve ."

also, my bro found a quote on the floor at church. it says:

"When I die I pray that all of hell will throw a party in celebration that i am no longer in the fight." C.T. Studd

i was just kidding with the literally part, but the hours are correct..11:30-8...i have a 30 minute break..leans forward...im not retarded...leans back and smiling at YOU.....but yeah i saw a lot of cool people..hopefully i saw you.

This is amazing. I  have been challenged all week on how much I trust  God. Now sitting and thinking it through it is one of the biggest issues for we christians. When I trust God and my trust meets his faithfulness amazing things happen. Look at Joseph, He was thrown in a hole by his brothers because he recieved his fathers blessing. Well theey felt guilty, got him out and decided to have mercy on him and sold him into slavery. He then excelled in pottifers home and was given everything in the home on one codition he was not to touch pottifers wife. She was the original desprite house wife and wanted what she couln't, Joseph. While he was running from her tempting him she grabbed his coat and lied to her husband saying joseph tried to sleep with her. Joseph was jailed. In jail he thrived and was put in charge of the prison. Then he found favor in the pharaohs eyes. Pharaoh put him in charge of all of egypt saying I am king but right under me is you. Well we all know the story his brothers come begging for food in the famine. Joseph revealed himself later and welcomes his family and takes care of his people the israelites. He saved the house of israel which would go on down the line to birth another Joseph who became the earthly father of Christ. Through wells, slavery, and jail he trusted that God had a plan. God proved himself faithful and amazing things happened. We were all saved from our sins. So today I ask myself if I am truelly trusting og God in all aspects what can he do through me. Amazing.

God is at work within you, helping you want to obey Him, and then helping you do what he wants.- Philippians 2:13

Oh taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who trusts in Him. - Psalm 34:8

Let God rock it, ML

I had to update because Michael Gibelu's grandfather has gotten in a motorcycle accident. Michael is such an awesome guy, and he's been an encouragement to so many people in the youth group. I believe that God wants him to know that even in his time of trial, God is right by his side. He wants to communicate that through his friends at youth, and he's already doing that. From what I heard, his grandfather is doing okay, but if you guys will lift his family up in prayer that would be great. It's awesome to know that so many people care enough about someone to encourage and be there for that person when it's really hard! Michael, we love you buddy!

Consider it pure joy my brothers whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
James 1:2

Praise God for the valley days! He only desires to see us become the men and women he wants us to be!

JimmeHendrix42: yay!! lol so
what do u think about those poems on there?

dandelion xx: they are sweet.
they always make me smile.
I look at them when I feel upset or something heh

JimmeHendrix42: lol like now?
what did happen jamie

dandelion xx: I just feel like I cant do anything

dandelion xx: when I do want to do something
I have to lie about it..I'm just tired of it..

JimmeHendrix42: aww jamie u can do something
u made me fall in love with you
i think thats a pretty big one

< 3
hehe
I like this feeling.

school is great here are my classes

1st dirvers ed/spreadsheet aplications
2nd art
3rd algebra 2 adv. honors
4th spanish-tomlinson
5th english 2 adv. honors
6th chemistry adv. honors

i have dirvers ed with all the cool kids
art with no one
alegbra 2 with most of the cool kids
english 2 with kayla & some cool kids & some not so cool kids
chemisty with kayla's freind ashley that i met at church

steven

WOW....Tonight at youth hit me hard. It isn't the part that I am leaving that hit me. It was the part that I was living my life for Jesus and I didn't do a thing about it last year.. I was always soo scared that I was going to lose a friend if I tried to talk to someone about God and His love for us. But as Mickey was talking tonight, it hit me that I shouldn't have cared if I to scared to do it. I should have just done it. Now who knows if this person will ever have someone else come up to them and ask them if they personally know Jesus. Or if He would even like to know the Lord... It was such a turning point for me. I know I might not get another chance with this person but I do know that I am going to a new school with new people all around me and this is my chance. My chance to go out and tell people about God and His love for them. TO ask them if they would like to come to church with me. or even if they would just like for me to talk about God and let them decide.

I am so glad that the sunday b/f I leave to go to College, that Mickey talked about this. I felt that God was pushing me to go to Church tonight and this was why. It was just sooo amazing!!

wedding sucked! and i didnt get to go to the movie with shawn! very angry - i have my angry face on! hahaha

i missed shcool friday so i have to make up this test tomorrow :( im not ready for it at all.

but this weekend is new frountier with youth group!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahah!

I just wanted to share an old journal entry of mine with all of you...

August 20, 2004 ~ It always happens when you least expect it...

Today started out as a good, normal day. School was fine, I went home, and everything was fine. About 5:30 Garrett called and said we were gonna hang out at Amy's in an hour. So I was like "great, I'll see you then."

I get there to see Amy, Garrett, and Graham standing in the driveway. That was unusual... They didn't seem very happy... no joking or laughing.

So I walk up the driveway, and I'm glad I get to spend time with my friends, especially Garrett, and wonder why he doesn't look equally happy to see me.

And that's when he told me- "Bruce Gilley had a cardiac arrest and died."

There went my world again. It was the same feeling I got when Ellen died- this is not real, this cannot be happening, someone please wake me up from this nightmare!

...We eventually went to Amy's bonus room, and I continued to cry. There were times I would stop and be ok, but then I would think about Bruce again.

At one point, Garrett and Graham started quoting Finding Nemo and that made me laugh for a few moments. I knew Bruce would want me to not be too deeply grieved (he's in heaven- he's so lucky! As Brian said tonight at the memorial service- Bruce probably thinks we're all crazy crying over him!)

Anyhow, so there was a memorial service tonight at Belle Aire, and yet again, it was a lot like the night of Ellen's death. Hugs from friends... long, meaningful hugs. "I love you" 's were exchanged. Tears were shed. Shoulder were cried on. It was rough.

...He was such a cool kid. I have been racking my brain... trying to remember what I can.

I remember one Sunday after church we were both just waiting for our parents to be through with whatever and we had a good twenty minute conversation. We talked about his freshman orientation at Oakland, and he told me how he wasn't sure if he wanted to go there. I just told him to pray about it, and I prayed for him some as well. I think him staying at Oakland was definitely God's perfect plan for him. He had some lives to touch there before he left.

I think that was the same day he was baptized...

I remember Brian telling me he felt compelled to pray for Bruce... maybe it was preperation.

I did not remember this, but I found a journal entry where I recorded that Bruce gave me a hug. I thought that was so cool.

Oh... my... goodness...

I was just looking through that same entry... it was the Wednesday before we left for New York, and at House of Prayer there was a prayer thing for the people going on the trip... "and Bruce was saying how much he looked up to me."

Looked up to me?! I'm he one still here on earth, trying to figure everything out. He's the one who was so close to heaven...

Oh Bruce... how much I love him...

I found another entry- once Bruce ate with a bunch of us at Cracker Barrell.

I remember leaving him a comment (on Xanga) encouraging him when he was having a tough time, and then he left me one saying thanks and how much it meant to him...

I remember when Garrett and I were at the mall and we ran into Bruce (and his mom). Bruce had gone to the Buckle where he won a free bag, and we were telling him how he could use it for whenever he went to the pool.

We thought he would have plenty of time to use it...

And I remember on the night of Josh and Cindy's wedding when Bruce was waiting for his parents to pick him up, and Garrett told him to hotwire the Corvette and drive it home. Ha ha...

I remember always seeing him with a big smile on his face. Whenever I saw him, we said hi to each other. I passed by him and Cari a lot on my way up to the youth room. He won't be there anymore...

For the moment, I have reached the point where I can no longer cry. More tears will come though...

Man, he's so happy now, and in such perfect peace....

Bruce will be (and already is) greatly missed. We all love him so much...

Garrett pointed out these verses to me, and they are so perfect and comforting-

The righteous perish, and no one ponders it in his heart; devout men are taken away, and no one understands that the righteous are taken away to be spared from evil. Those who walk uprightly enter into peace; they find rest as they lie in death. -Isaiah 57:1-2

They enter into peace... though Bruce was running and suddenly had a cardiac arrest... and though he was rushed to the hospital and was in pain... he entered into peace... eternal peace, away from evil...



photo from milly

guess ive changed around some people. im sorry, i dont really know how ive changed. and im not trying to make u mad, but maybe u are changing around me. maybe its u that is seeing me different. just something to think on. anyways forget about all that. i got a more serious thing on my mind. Michael Gibelu's grandfather was in an accident. hes got a lot of broken bones too, but hopefully he is in good condition. thats about all i know
so what can we do? pray, anytime u think about him or his family, just throw up a prayer request. god bless

*deep breath* yeah I'm good, Im ok... Im ready...

So how is everyone else doing?

I feel like such a bum. I've left my house twice this weekend: once yesterday to go to Kroger and then today to go to church. I am almost excited about school tomorrow. I don't know, I guess I like being busy and school helps me with that. Oh well, I guess I'm weird.

So this evening on CNN they did a special on "Hollywood and Religion". It seems I missed the bit they did on Mel Gibson, but I saw Kirk Cameron (actor: Growing Pains, Left Behind) and Ralph Winter (producer: X-Men). They both seem very solid, and it is so awesome to see that in Hollywood. It's very refreshing to know that there are Christians in Hollywood surviving and thriving and making God known.

I'm so glad that AO is splitting up into different Sunday school classes... maybe this will make it more personal and less overwhelming, especially for the new students coming in. I'm definitely interested in the world religions class.

So, is it just me or is Phusebox slowing down? Is it because school is back, or does everyone else just have more of a life than I do? I just haven't received as many comments, and I'm noticing the same with the other daily users, and those seem to be decreasing as well.

That's about all I have to say here... I'm going to post an old journal entry about Bruce on my other Phusebox so check it out! I've decided to use it for old journal entries I want to share and devotions. I hope everyone has a marvelous day! I'm a working woman tomorrow! Whoo hoo!

i'm so young.
in numbers.
but here. in my head.
i feel old. and tired.


and when i looked at the pupil in your eye.
((into the nebula.))
i see nothing.
i don't know you.

everything seems unreal.

even when i am awake...

my head just weighs more than i can take.

i don't think i have ever been this anxious to go back to school tomorrow. i think maybe i'm losing my mind just a little bit. speaking of insanity...today was my first ever Delta Beta Sigma meeting. wow. i felt like an ugly fish in a gorgeous pond. but i'm still excited. god...i have so much crap to do. between student council, DBS, school, and church, i barely have time to breathe. but i guess i can juggle them all. but gosh...i can't wait to go back to school tomorrow. woot woot. i heart OHS. grief is weird. i don't like it. no fun. Anna Nalick is the shiz. i think i'm going to try out for Varsity Cheerleading. ha. yeah, i would look great in those uniforms. no spankies for Cari, thanks. so, i have a lot of thoughts going through my head right now. thus is the reason my thoughts are so erratic (not erotic, as my friends thought is said the other day). anyways, i'm at this stage in my grieving process where smells and songs affect me the most. i don't understand the smell thing. but certain scents just release a catharsis of memories and make me cry. weird, huh? Rufus Wainwright is also the shiz. random thoughts. may i just say, that i love a lot of the people at my church. also. my cousin makes me sad sometimes. my mind is in crazy mode right now. like, i seriously can't even keep one thought in my head for an extended period of time. man. something is wrong with me. well, i guess maybe i'll write more later when i'm not going insane.

hey i just got this thing so i dont know what im really doing..so yeah it might take a me a few to understand this..but i love you guys

I wonder. Is everyone alone in their own hell when they wind up there?

She's gone.


And so begins the hell that is the next four months.

Rain is falling down
I can’t tell anymore where the rain begins and where my tears end
My heart breaks when I know I have broken yours
Each day I start anew
Hoping today will be different
Hoping today I will make you proud

But today it rained
I stood amongst the storms
Knowing my part in each lightening strike
I saw you slowly disappear into the night
Though there was little trace left you stayed near

I walked home in a tornado of pain today
Given a chance to prevent the storm
I chose the way of distruction
I saw the clouds roll in
And knew there was a way to prevent the rain
But I chose my own path
Which led strait to the rain

Today it rained
I stood amongst the storms
Knowing my part in each lightening strike
I saw you slowly disappear into the night
Though there was little trace left you stayed near

a pink sparkley cast is on my leg--oh funnnn=\
volleyball has being going great;;
God is definately teaching me patience!
He is good though--hope yall have a great week..

"Whenever anything begins to disintergrate your life with Jesus Christ, turn to Him at once, asking Him to re-establish your rest. Never allow anything to remain in your life that is causing the unrest. Think of every detail of your life that is causing the disintegration as something to fight agaisnt, not as something you should allow to remain. Ask the Lord to put awareness of HImself in you, and your self-awareness will disappear. Then He will be your all in all." -Oswald Chambers

and another one...

"A child of God never prays to be made aware of the fact that God answers prayer, because he is so restfully certain that God always answers prayer." -Oswald Chambers

when i was reading these the verse that came to mind was definitely, 1 timothy 6:12. "Fight the good fight of faith". daily we have to fight against the things that try to pull us down. hold on to faith. fight for it. let God be the center of your life. let Him develop your faith. know that He is indeed faithful, so your faith may be unwavering.

praise God for that little reminder in my life. i hope everyone has a great night!

dont know what to say, im not in a good mood, but im not in a bad mood. so what mood am i in? i dont know? o well, talk to all the cool people later, and if ur not cool, who cares, i think ur cool.

Blessed days lay behind me
and Blessed days lay ahead.

Today is one of those days where music/songs can just sum up the mood... better then i could ever...

TOday's play list:
Wreck of the Day- Anna Nalick
Scream-zoegirl
Stupid-Sarah McLachlan
Hide- Joy Williams
The Real me- Natalie Grant
I can't do this- Plumb
Nice, Naive and Beautiful- Plumb
Make Me Over-Natalie Grant
Grace's Amazing Hands- Dave Barnes
Held- Natalie Grant
Taking OVer Me- Evanescence
Hear Me- Kelly Clarkson

LORD, who may dwell in your sanctuary?
Who may live on your holy hill?

2 He whose walk is blameless
and who does what is righteous,
who speaks the truth from his heart

3 and has no slander on his tongue,
who does his neighbor no wrong
and casts no slur on his fellowman,

4 who despises a vile man
but honors those who fear the LORD,
who keeps his oath
even when it hurts,

5 who lends his money without usury
and does not accept a bribe against the innocent.
He who does these things
will never be shaken.


that hit me this morning. it's a definition of who I'm supposed to be with when i grow up. as well as something i should strive to be.

i didn't know Bruce, but somehow I know i would've loved him, as so many of you guys do. i'm sure he was the epitome of Psalm 15.

Rest in Peace Bruce...

*important edit* If you have any pictures of me and have a copy I could have I would love that... I've realized I don't really have any pictures of myself and maybe I'll work on gettng a camera soon. Thanks, I love y'all my homie-g's lol!

"Darkly romantic, hot and humid, haunted and gothic. This is music that seems to have grown slowly from some rich, dark soil."

My goodness! I tend to forget what talented 2nd causins I have until I see them perform. My goodness, Jennifer has the best voice and Jeff is SO talented with a guitar or madolin. Ha, so it was at this coffee house at University of the South, and it started raining half way through the concert (which was outside) so they had to move inside. So Jennifer went in and sang and played for them and me and Mike helped Jeff back up the equipment. GREAT FUN, good coffee, FANTASTIC music, and even better relatives! Great fun!

gloria Patri
Nathan

PS: TOTALLY go to their site www.jenniferdaniels.com and listen to a stream of her music/ support her by buying a cd! TOTALLY! lol God bless!

Jennifer Daniels!
One of the best indie artists on earth! And my 2nd causin in-law lol!
Check our her website!p>

(click here to go to her website.)

photo from SeeRockCity

leave me some comments on my delicious pictures.

pretty please.

truth, trust, wisdom, guidance, patteince, tha one, love, friendship....and many more...are things you recieve when you WAIT FOR THE LORD!

well last night was fun!!! went up to Nashville!! to hear Justins friend sing! w/ Jennifer, Nate and Amy! we met Justin, Kayla and some other ppl up there!!! tha music was by far tha best part of tha night!! tha lyrics were my favorite!!!

church was amazing this mornin!!! i was having some problems staying awake but i made it and Brother Deans sermon was great!!

slept when i got home after church! and i think im about to go back to sleep!!!

yall pray for me!! im workin 38 hours this week! and i have to wear closed toed shoes well w/ just having surgey on my foot...it kinda uncomfortable!!! soo yeah!

i REALLY MISSS....Jason Patrick Kyle and Dena!!! this morning at church wasnt tha same without Patty Boy and Jason!!! ill be okay tho!!! I guess i better go ahead and read Denas letter! i havent gottin tha guts to! i guess its time!!!

luv yall!

Love through Christ!
~Rachel~

Well im off to Lovely St. Petersburg Florida!!!! Im sooo excited about my new job!!! Except for the fact that im working w/a bunch of acrchitects!!!

But I consider myslef very blessed!!! Ill be gone for about 12 days and then be back for about a week, maybe more, until they fly Ryan and I out to the next job!!! pretty good way to live until you wanna settle down and have a couple critters...you know!!! aight wel im off to pack and stuff...... we`ll holler

hey yall...well school was ok this week! i have pretty good classes i guess! math is first whoo hoo! then us history and then english w/ mere! then child ed. and then earth sci. and then spanish i hate spainsh...i dont like my teacher is is kinda rude! but oh well! i have 3rd lunch which isnt that bad bc i have it w/ mere! thats good! and then dance is great we might go to nationals!!!!! i hope we do! but summer reading starts tommrrow oh joy! but i g2g study for that bc Eddie Sally is getting baptised tonight and im going!!!!!!!!!! so leave some remarks!

Much Love

~* Big O *~

Freshmen, come get your books, tomorrow. Bring at least $300, unless you're taking A & P, then bring at least $500.

photo from Raisin

I

Oh what can ail thee, knight-at-arms,
Alone and palely loitering?
The sedge has withered from the lake,
And no birds sing.

II

Oh what can ail thee, knight-at-arms,
So haggard and so woe-begone?
The squirrel's granary is full,
And the harvest's done.

III

I see a lily on thy brow,
With anguish moist and fever-dew,
And on thy cheeks a fading rose
Fast withereth too.

IV

I met a lady in the meads,
Full beautiful - a faery's child,
Her hair was long, her foot was light,
And her eyes were wild.

V

I made a garland for her head,
And bracelets too, and fragrant zone;
She looked at me as she did love,
And made sweet moan.

VI

I set her on my pacing steed,
And nothing else saw all day long,
For sidelong would she bend, and sing
A faery's song.

VII
She found me roots of relish sweet,
And honey wild, and manna-dew,
And sure in language strange she said -
'I love thee true'.

VIII

She took me to her elfin grot,
And there she wept and sighed full sore,
And there I shut her wild wild eyes
With kisses four.

IX

And there she lulled me asleep
And there I dreamed - Ah! woe betide! -
The latest dream I ever dreamt
On the cold hill side.

X

I saw pale kings and princes too,
Pale warriors, death-pale were they all;
They cried - 'La Belle Dame sans Merci
Hath thee in thrall!'

XI

I saw their starved lips in the gloam,
With horrid warning gaped wide,
And I awoke and found me here,
On the cold hill's side.

XII

And this is why I sojourn here
Alone and palely loitering,
Though the sedge is withered from the lake,
And no birds sing.

well...although it's sad, school has started back...i guess i just want to get outta school...it seems pointless this year...it's sad that i've realized i don't know who my real friends are...and that i can't get rid of my feelings for him....it's just so sad i wanna cry all the time...all the times we had together were amazing, he treated me like royalty, and i treated him like crap, if i could, i would take it back, but God wants me to learn the lesson as to not take someone for granted, i really screwed up big time, i hope he sees how truly sry i am.....but he doesn't have a myspace, so i can express myslef on here, and him never see it...unfortunately i want him to...but oh well....have a good school year everyone
kales

well... yesterday my nephew, Noah, had his birthday party. he's going to be six. there were 400,000 kids there, and it was insane. but whatever, we got to eat Rice Krispy treats, cause Noah hates cake.

then i went to my other sister, Becky's, house for one of my other nephew, Adam's, birthday thing. he turned 16. that was cool. i got to see Niles, and i haven't seen him in forever. got candy too. and Adam hates cake as well, so we had yummy pie. ^_^

and i spent the night at Becky's and went to church this morning.

Kasey is sick. pray for her. i'm afraid she may have what i had, and that's no good.

love you guys.

I am content

I've been doing my devotions
My passion for God gets stonger everyday
I can't ever get enough of Him
He does so many things for me
I don't think I can thank Him enough

He's given me a wonderful family
even though 95% of the time they irritate me
I love them
especially my sister
I don't think I could make it everyday without her

He's given me an awesome bestfriend
He blessed me with her in the 5th grade
She's always there, she understands me
She's my shoulder to cry on
when my parents are being parents
& boys break my heart
she knows how to make me laugh
I love her, more than she could ever know.
I just hope I can be just as great as her

He's given me amazing friends
everyone I hang out with is just positive
I don't think I would be where I am without them
I love them so much. like Joshua, Tiffany, Sam
Laura, Tyler, Elizabeth, Abby, Stephen, Chelsey,
Kayla, Alexanna, Cody, Michael, Rachel, Josh W, Barrett,
Drew, Mike, Scott, Darius, Shea, Lauren, Donald, Erik,
Kristin, Laura M, Kayla G, Ashley G, Paige, Suzanne,
Shawn, etcetc.
a little shout out. teehee
If I didnt mention you
I still love you

hey y'all~ well today is my last sunday going to Lighthouse. Im really sad and Im gonna miss everyone soooooo much, you just dont understand.... its crazy~ But I've got a lot planned for this week so it should be good. And I plan on sharing it with all my friends and family~ Well thats all for now! I have lots to do~ Ttyl~
Love y'all~
Julia

anyone wanna go to the movies?
hmm im bored
call!!!

Well... I made it. After the 15 hour drive... Im here.
Everything is cool... my roommate is pretty nice and most of the others I've met are cool.
I put some pics up of my room... It isn't quite as bad as it looks. lol. Caitlyn and I are going to paint it soon... so that will help.

photo from emilydarby

W00t, I'm free until Wednesday! Now who wants to go do something??

I found the best chocolate bar and the best t-shirt ever at Target yesterday. [M*A*S*H 4077th.] It is love. As is the Seattle Chocolate Company espresso bar. Dark chocolate. Milk chocolate. Ground Turkish espresso. All in shiny gold foil. You must try it; it is delirium. Do not consume while driving.

They're building two houses down the road from us, in fields that used to be Mrs. Heaton's farm. Buggers. They're going to stick vinyl clapboard houses in a field that used to graze donkeys that let us pet them and cows that ran away whenever I walked by [disturbing at the time but nostalgic now]. Pretty soon this place will no longer be the BFE haven I admittedly love and instead will be populated by families with SUV's and wandering children who will no doubt infilitrate the boundaries of our hallowed plot of land. I'm thinking landmines and taking a ratchet to every crucial part of the bulldozers that will respond. Who's with me??

Granted, I plan to move to an urban wasteland someday soon. I love cities. I do. Where they are.
Not where the one house I've lived in my entire life is.

Okay, that's about two paragraphs of negative energy right there. I need something cheery.

Nuclear warheads, for instance.

I have finished reading one of the greatest books of all time. Check out Phillipa Gregory. She is astounding genius when it comes to historical fiction.

I'm out. Have to get ready for auditions. Woot!

Yeah so its been a super long time since i posted on here.

well i got a job at mcdonalds and its a ton of hard work that i dont wanna do lol

and thats it lol

bye bye
-Ed

IM DONE WITH IT!!
ok so to be a little more clear. i was talking about this. i just dont know if i like it that much or not

Well we got crushed by Tallhoma 6-0. But its was okay b/c we played hard and thas all that matters.Yesterday we played Warren county that was a good game we tied 1-1. Well thats all t2ul
kel

ewwwww... i totally dislike stomach viruses..and i have one, it's the pits

i'm like never sick, so when i get sick, i totally dread it. goodness...i hope i get better soon!

So, let me tell you...I had a perfect night. Matt and I decided to go out on a "real" date. I told him to plan it. So, he picked me up and we drove to Chattanooga. We were going to eat at a restaurant on the river, but we couldn't find it, so we went to a place called 212 Market (I think thats the name). I ate the filet mignon (I don't usually order somthing that expensive, but I splurged) and let me tell you, it was fabulous. Every bite I had made me smile. It was served with garlic whipped potatoes and fire grilled vegetables (mushrooms, summer squash, zucchani, etc.) It was awesome. Then we went and walked down these stairs that had water flowing over them. It is kinda like a mini concrete water park. There were kids playing on them. Then we walked barefoot through the grass down by the river until we found a perfect spot to lay in the grass and look at the starts. We talked about the stars and the ability to fly amongst other things. We finaly decided we had to head back because we have church in the morning. We rode the whole way there and back without music so we could talk and we had amazing conversations. It was a great night, and so needed. It is so important to take time to spend with your significnt other...time away from the hustle and the bustle of everyday life where you can talk and just enjoy each other's company. It's important for girls (at least for me) to feel like your significant other wants to spend time with you, so much so that he will take a night to take you out and plan things he knows you will enjoy. I just wanted to share that with each of you and to encourage all of you guys to go out of your way to make the woman in your life feel special.
On another note, I know today is the one year anniversary of Bruce's death. I did not know Bruce very well, but I know he was an amazing guy. I know today has been hard for many of you and I just want you to know that I prayed for you (not by name, but for those who were close to Bruce)
Love you all
B

So, I still maintain that xanga owns all. But, I have no life outside of the internet, so this shall be another instrument of time wasteage. Nobody I know has one of these phusebox contraptions. We're all myspace and xanga whores. I'm not going to tell anyone about this...I'll just let people find me...chances are no one will read this...
ps.
you can have unlimited blogrings here, unlike xanga, so i guess thats cool..

It's been forty hours since my head last touched the pillow. In seven hours, I'm to be at the church to open up. Until then, I need to do laundry so the churched people won't complain again.

Tonight was fantastic! I got off work early and was invited to go with the Bonins and Jennifer Hood to Curb Cafe at Belmont to see a guy I met last weekend play. We met Justin Vance, Kayla, and Natalie up there. The music was great, but the people in the crowd wouldn't stop talking! Jennifer and I were going nuts and about to go off on people, but the music overcame and soothed.

The Gist: I had so much fun tonight!

My life is currently about as messy as my room.

I'm SUPPOSED to leave for TTU in oh lets see...not even 3 full days and Im not close to being finished packing. Im just disorganized. I thought having all organized up in the ol' noggin would be just fine but hey guess what i was wrong!! lol Im very afraid I'll forget stuff, like my toothbrush. And I mean I know if I forgot anything too major, I could always just run back home... oh wait... well I KINDA can, if I have the time and/or gas and/or car!! And anyways, I HATE not having everything with me. Plus if I have everything it'll seem more like home.

My poor dad had a heart attack. He's stable and everything, but.. you know how it is. Once you have a heart attack youre never really the same again. I mean it's gonna effect a LOT of things.. like his job (he works at Bridgestone, lifting heavy tires, and guess who cant lift anything over 5lbs for about 6 or 8 weeks?), his home life... I'll be gone, Brett wont be home much b/c of band... so who will do all those "necessary" chores, or whatever, like mowing, i dunno, stuff like that? Anyways, this whole thing kinda came out of nowhere, b/c my dad's pretty healthy in general. I mean his cholesterol and blood pressure are great, he's a diabetic, but he's not really what you'd consider "overweight," and he doesnt smoke... so this was just kinda sudden. And it just really sucks, not only for him, not only for his health, but i really feel for him b/c it seems as soon as things in all 4 our lives are getting back on track and everythings going alright for a change, something major happens to mess it up. like this. i mean it'll really change things.

Not ONLY that.. but tying it in w/my college life, this means I might not be able to attend the first day or so of band camp. becauuuuse, he MIGHT have to have heart surgery, and heart surgery is always major. and if he has it, it'll prolly be on mon. or tues.. and tues. is the day im SUPPOSED to move out lol. so of course if it came down to it, i'd stay.. it just REALLY SUCKS b/c i was so looking forward to moving out ~ and i know i still will but that would really make things harder. it would be more hectic, i would miss the first day of my college band camp life ever, miss learning all the basics, have to play catch up.....

geez why does everything big ALWAYS happen at once!!??
thats it. im becoming a nun and... wait that doesnt apply here does it... damn

ok so i don't really know of anybody that regularly buys gas at these places, but if you do, go to kroger or walmart or somewhere else instead!

Join the resistance!!!! I hear we are going to hit close to $3.00 a gallon by the summer and it might go higher!! Want gasoline prices to come down? We need to take some intelligent, united action.

Phillip Hollsworth, offered this good idea: This makes MUCH MORE SENSE than the "don't buy gas on a certain day" campaign that was going around last April or May! The oil companies just laughed at that because they knew we wouldn't continue to "hurt" ourselves by refusing to buy gas. It was more of an inconvenience to us than it was a problem for them. BUT, whoever thought of this idea, has come up with a plan that can really work.

Please read it and join with us! By now you're probably thinking gasoline priced at about $1.50 is super cheap. Me too! It is currently $2.79 for regular unleaded in my town. Now that the oil companies and the OPEC nations have conditioned us to think that the cost! of a gallon of gas is CHEAP at $1.50- $1.75, we need to take aggressive action to teach them that BUYERS control the marketplace....not sellers. With the price of gasoline going up more each day, we consumers need to take action. The only way we are going to see the price of gas come down is if we hit someone in the pocketbook by not purchasing their gas! And we can do that WITHOUT hurting ourselves. How? Since we all rely on our cars, we can't just stop buying gas. But we CAN have an impact on gas prices if we all act together to force a price war.

Here's the idea: For the rest of this year, DON'T purchase ANY gasoline from the two biggest companies (which now are one), EXXON and MOBIL. If they are not selling any gas, they will be inclined to reduce their prices. If they reduce their prices, the other companies will have to follow suit. But to have an impact, we need to reach literally millions of Exxon and Mobil gas buyers. It's really simple to do!! Now, don't whimp out on me at this point...keep reading and I'll explain how simple it is to reach millions of people!!

I am sending this note to about thirty people. If each of you send it to at least ten more (30 x 10 = 300) ... and those 300 send it to at least ten more (300 x 10 = 3,000)...and so on, by the time the message reaches the sixth generation of people, we will have reached over THREE MILLION consumers. If those three million get excited and ! pass this on to ten friends each, then 30 million people will have been contacted! If it goes one level further, you guessed it..... THREE HUNDRED MILLION PEOPLE!!!

Again, all You have to do is send this to 10 people. That's all. (If you don't understand how we can reach 300 million and all you have to do is send this to 10 people.... Well, let's face it, you just aren't a mathematician. But I am ... so trust me on this one.)

How long would all that take? If each of us sends this e-mail out to ten more people within one day of receipt, all 300 MILLION people could conceivably be contacted within the next 8 days!!! I'll bet you didn't think you and I had that much potential, did you! Acting together we can make a difference.

If this makes sense to you, please pass this message on. PLEASE HOLD OUT UNTIL THEY LOWER THEIR PRICES TO THE $1.30 RANGE AND KEEP THEM DOWN. THIS CAN REALLY WORK. Kerry Lyle, Director, Research Coordinator

tonight i went up to nashville to see my family. we went to eat at johnny rockets. it was my first time there and it was pretty good. i think my fun was merely in taking pictures and attempting to take a picture of some hippie couple behind us. which by the way, i failed at because i think they noticed. bad idea.

i found out that my other cousin is engaged now. so now all my cousins in the jackson family are engaged or married. fabulous.

overall, today was one of those rare "faking it" days for me. i smiled and went through my day. but if someone would of looked a little deeper they would see my eyes were a little more red than usual and i had an ache in my heart. but praise God even in bad times, i know good times will come soon.

and may i rant for a moment...girls please don't fall into the trap that some families set up for you. the trap that your worth comes from having a guy in your life. you are important and valuable whether or not you are in a relationship. don't let them bring you down. remember that your worth comes from a relationship, but not with some boyfriend, it comes from a relationship with Jesus.

that made me feel a little better. a little. there is always hope in every situation. God is good. i hope everyone has a great night!

wow.. so its been a year huh?
i can't believe a year ago chelsey was at my house.. & mady called her..

i still can remember that phone call.. chelseys phone ringing.. chelsey saying "one of madys friends died" & i asked who & she said "bruce gilley"

& everything just stopped...

i miss you bruce..
but i know you're in a better place now..

today was a pretty good day for a change. thank God for that. i am exhausted tho. i complain alot compared to some but when the chips aren't down i realize how much i really do love life. maybe not this part of it but the journey is the destination right?

so it's been a year...

want to holla at the folks movin to ut. hope all is well and hope you are having a blast. i'll prolly be up there in october or sometime in between there cuz im goin to caralina for a yl thing. also gettin baptized tomorrow. starts @ 6:00 @ the belle aire religious establishment if you wanna come. peace

so, yeah........summer reading really sucks. especially when you leave a book you could have read anytime this summer to finish in one weekend. grrr...

well, at least I had -some- fun today. I bought not one, but TWO dresses. I haven't bought a dress (besides a costume) since I was 11. that's saying something. they're both -really- cute. now the problem is deciding which one to wear to Grace's partay, because that's the reason I bought them. the pretty dress part is required. how well i'll hold up for two games of laser tag in a dress and heels.....i'll take bets on that one.

I guess I'll go back to finding symbolism in a literally homoerotic victorian novel and trying to finish Crime and Punishment. cya monday.

A few days worth of getting to bed late and bein in the sun doin stuff has got me quite tired. Im watching Lord of the rings.

I feel pity for myself.
Then I feel like my pity has been wasted.
I count the bad things.
Then I count my blessings.
Im depressed.
Then Im full of happiness.

Im tired.
Im goin to bed.
Gunite all... - jacob

Well the last few days have been awesome, and weird. Yesterday I went to the movies and i had an awesome time. I thought everything was okay. I dont know, I got home and Ross was upset at me again. We had an arguement last night..things werent going so well. It was bad. I mean, I hope things get better, but I want us to learn something from it, even though I know that wont happen. But anyways..We didn't really get everything settled completely I dont think. I havent even talked to him today because he has been at work and I have been here at Stephs. Thank God mom hasnt called today. I dont wanna go home, ha. But yeah, ill talk to him in a bit when he gets home and then ill let you know wat happens. But today me and Steph got up and We went bug hunting, because she has to do it for a project, and we caught like 5 bugs, but we lost them all. Then we spent like 10 minutes trying to gte this one bug in a cup, and realised it was a piece of wood, haha. Yeah, it was funny.But then we got super hot so we came inside and watched this really sad movie. Almost cried. But then we ate and got online some, and now here I am. But thats all for now, except I am talking to Kyle. By the wasy..I miss kaci, ha.

Peace out
-Ash

From the game last night:



photo from SingAHappySong

Ah... being at a high school football game... it doesn't feel the same when you're not in high school anymore. I don't know it felt different. Maybe it felt different because Garrett was sitting with me instead of with the band. Maybe it felt different because... well I don't even know. Maybe it was just the new stadium. It was fun... but not the same. But that's a good thing. I don't want to go back. I want to move forward. Which is good... since that's my only option!

Anna and I did decide last night, however, that we should have been in band. It just looks like fun...

So I went to Starbucks with Aimee and Anna, and randomly ran into Lauren and Emily. That was pretty cool. I used my Starbucks coupon from the Bronx, so I got to drink a free grande java chip frappucino. That was nice.

Shopping is fun... if you're a girl that has trouble finding jeans, you may want to check out the new "curvy" (or "straight" if that describes you better) jeans at Gap. They fit me PERFECTLY and that's amazing. They're also super cute! If you try on a pair you get a free iTunes song... I'm trying to decide which song I want... oh the many choices...

One year without Bruce... it seems longer to me... it seems like a very distant memory...

Today was interesting. To start things off, it was Rachels "going away party" just for family. That was okay, besides the argument between my grandmother and the rest of my family. Today was also my one month with Amanda. That went well. I gave her a white rose and she gave me a picture of us. I fell asleep in her arms. It was the best feeling in the world. Anyways. Also, my Dad has had a heart attack, so if you could everyone keep him in your prayers. That all pretty much sums up my weekend.


Later,

Brett

So we ran our first 5K of the season today. I ran a 24:05. It wasn't that bad especially since I am not in shape. I love competing. Something about racing makes me go hard. I get so aggressive and into it. I think I might have even cut an old guy off at the finish. But yah, I love to run races. I lvoe the feeling of doing good and knowing your doing good. I love when people compliment you and say you are amazing (or something to that effect).

Daily Fortune: Good things are being said about you...in bed.

Well, yesterday was one of the more painful I've ever had. I'm talking physical pain, not emotional. Unbelievable......

Today was hot. Really hot. I tried to some things, but it was just too hot. When I got home I just stood in front of the freezer for about half an hour.

That's the good thing about depression, you get your rest.

I worked today. It was actually a short shift. 12-6. I didn't know where I'd be working until I clocked in. . .and then i was informed I'd be at Space Dog. Now let me tell you about Space Dog. it's outside. under this little train ride that goes around above tomorrowland. but the main point is that it's OUTSIDE. which means when it's hot, you're hot, and when it rains, you're wet. so pretty sure it rained. I guess I was lucky that it didn't start until I started closing. . .but then I had to walk downstairs and change clothes, and then walk to catch the first bus away from MK. I lost a shoe at the tunnel entrance/exit. That was the moment I removed my flip flops and didn't put them on at all. . .I walked barefoot from one bus to another, and then across my complex. . .and by the time I got home, I was wet again. YAY!

so that was today

OH, I also got to practice spanish. and everyone in Orlando isn't from here. . .and let me tell you. . .I enjoy the hot british males. hahaha

I really don't know what else to say. . .except that I'm ready for bed. . .gah!

and on a lighter note

thatguyclint (10:57:24 PM): It's funny...Anna works for a local lube shop, I work for a phone company that covers PART of the state, and you work for a multinational BILLION dollar corporation...
thatguyclint (10:57:30 PM): And you make the least amount of money.

photo from milly


On a different note. . . God was being totally awesome this morning. I'd managed to sleep straigh through my alarm, and Mom woke me at 7:10. I stumbled around, eventually got in my car, and headed to work. I only had about fifteen minutes to get there, and with lights and traffic, it's almost impossible to do. I kept praying "God, let the light stay green. . . make the light turn green." and He did! I clocked in work at 8:00 on the dot. Woohoo, lol.


And I have to add this because it's SO funny. . . Clint said this to Laura over AIM:

thatguyclint: It's funny...Anna works for a local lube shop, I work for a phone company that covers PART of the state, and you work for a multinational BILLION dollar corporation...
thatguyclint : And you make the least amount of money.

Today began as any other
One step at a time
I made some decisions
Made many mistakes
One led to another
Before I knew it I was falling hard
Not sure if I’d hit ground
That’s when I remembered

That you surround me
Your glory keeps me from hitting bottom
My humble voice cries out
And your strong arms catch me
You lay me down ar your feet
In safety I rest in your comfort
And you watch over me

Another day comes forward
Remembering yesterdays
I keep my feet in check
Hoping you will walk with me today
Wanting to invite you to my day
Praying you’ll join me

But then I remember:
That no matter what
You surround me
Your glory will catch me if I fall
When my pridful voice calls out
I know you’ll catch me
You’ll lay me down at your feet
In safety I can cling to your comfort
You’ll watch over me

quote of the day:
"hey look it's farmer john!......oh wait, it's farmer jose"

im really tired and only worked on a wittle bit of my homework today. *oh well*

question of the day:

most adorable freshman in band?

life is defnitely good...besides the f act that i left my algebra 2 hw at home one day. yah i know thats so NOT like me....oh well i have learned that life does go on....
Leave me remarks,
amy beth

ok i dont kno how to work this thing
PLEASE HELP

heyy!! ok our first game was last nite against riverdale in our NEW STADIUM!! yea yea we lost 50 to 3 o well the band did good as to what everone was saying!! it was soo amazing...the rush of performing on the field in front of all those ppl!! and everyone is like everyone was perfect no one messed up.....but they dont really kno lol but im soo gald it looked good!! ya it was soo fun...performing, wearing those gorgeous uniforms and makeup, the nervousness, the happiness, and most of all the FUNNESS!!!! well ill ttyl im goin to jessi's house!!
*lauren*

things are insane right now...but i have to say God is turning tha insane things into wonderful things!!!!

i told myself i would never like this certain type of guy again! well God slapped me in tha face!!!!

goin to church late tomorrow!!! Eddie gets baptized tomorrow!!! YAY!!! im soo happy for him! i remeber when i got baptized i got baptized w/ Ellen!!! i think that is my favorite memory of her!!! i miss her and Bruce!!!

well im off to see Justins Friend play tonight!!! wooo hooo!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEX!!!!!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

i am soo bored doing my homework..
and i dont feel good
i ate too much junk.........

this sucks

Ok.So..first week of high school.
It was pre' coo'.Yea.I like high school.It's fun.

Classes=pretty fun.

Last night,we got smashed by Riverdale.Um..Score was 50-3.

GUESS WHO DIDN'T WIN!US!
OH BOY.

and in other news-Patrick broke up with Ashley last night,and both are just dandy.
Almost had a panic attack last night,too.Long story that I really don't want to go into.

Oh and....don't die,because I've been having weird dreams about everyone dying/killing themselves.So,no death/dying is allowed.=D

So my old bass has just been sitting around since i got my new one. I have played it once and hated the way it sounded. But an idea finally poped into my head today. I could fix it up. I can replace the pickups. I need the frets to be replaced also, but better yet would be if I could get someone to remove the frets and make it fretless.

I miss you Bruce....

Father God, we lift up this day to you. I pray that you would give the Gilley's and all of their family and friends strength as we recall what happened on this very day one year ago. But more so, I pray that you would continue to use the life and testomony of Bruce Gilley to reach out to others and better your kingdom. And Father, we know that Bruce touched more lives in his short 14 years on this Earth than most will ever touch in a lifetime. Knowing that he is sitting in heaven with his savior smiling down on us, we are thankful. Thank you father, for changing my life as a result of taking Bruce's. Thank you Father, Amen.

I was helping my mentors in the church paint up their house because they found a new one and are trying to sell the old one. These guys lead my college group at Christ Community (see photo titled: Deeper). Well, they told me that the group has grown over the summer and they are looking for leaders to help and take over the small group aspect of the ministry. They asked me to do it. Haha! God rocks. On top of that, they asked me to share on Wednesday about what I learned over the summer. Exciting! Now I am praying that God will give me the words.

enough said.


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yay for daddys that stick up for their daughters.

woot woot

we won my 1st football game at oakland!! yay

the score would be 42-21 GO PATS

i adore my schedule, freinds, class, lunch, school, grandfather, & bruce

have an awesome day

okay
here's the thing
I have been wanting to meet this guy Max
because we've been talking for like two months
& today we were supposed to go to Starbucks
he called me at the last minute & said that he couldnt go
I was really upset but I was kind of used to it
well I decided to go anyways with Tiffany
I went there & saw this guy that looked like him
& Tiffany kept getting these phones called from
"someone she didnt know"
ahaha I didnt put it together until
I saw her talking to the guy
they had planned to get me off guard.
I was like so horrified but now I am happy.
he's like the best freaking guy.
we might date, I dont know
but I know I like him alot
so I met Max, finally
& I am like gleaming with joy.
hehe
< 3

i miss you, Bruce Gilley

it has been on eyear since bruce passed. i was on my couch watching t.v. when my mom called and told me. i've learned to cope with it, but it's till hard.

siegel lost last night. big surprise.

if i could sum up last night in one word, i would say....
couch.

it was amazing. i really had fun playing mafia at 4 in the morning.
defintely hard to drive home after an all nighter.
very, very hard.

Life captures our attention
We serve it with passion and determination
Compromise is no longer an option but a must
We give in to the chatter around
We run a race not intended for our feet

But I choose to seek your kingdom
This day I choose to say yes.
This moment I choose to follow
Not focusing on tomorrow
Not consumed by possibilities
But aiming for the goal of your pleasure
One day at a time
I choose you
I choose

We are told we have options
But one way is always what’s preferred
Our decisions are made for us
We fall prey to lights and action
Hoping we will find refuge from it all
But instead we choose to go quicker down a lonely path

But today I choose you
This moment I choose your love and your grace
I put tomorrow aside and live on the hope of this moment
THe one you are in
I choose to love you back
I choose to serve you

I cannot believe that it has been exactly a year. It still seems unreal. It is almost impossible to escape the constant repetition of the events that occured that day and the phone call I received while I was helping move my brother in at Lipscomb. My life and my perspective on life was changed forever with that one phone call. Thoughts of doubt and confusion flooded my head then and they return again because of the significance and the tone of today. The somber mood is revived today.

It is the type of situation that you hope you never have to go through but still are thankful because of the perspective that you gained. God uses every situation to magnify his glory and that is true even in this. Looking back, that fact has been evident. Even so, I think the pain and confusion will always remain on some level.

It is one of the most gut-wrenching feelings: to feel imeanse pain but still know that you have to be strong for others. I did not really know how to handle the situation other than to withstand it. It was almost like knowing that you are about to walking through almost blizard-like winds to get to your car across the parking lot... you just hold your breath and face it. As you start to walk, your nose starts to go numb and your lips go dry. You can almost feel the redness of your eyelids getting brighter. The snow is blowing in front of your face and you cannot see but six inches in front of you, but you know that at the end, you will reach shelter from the storm and you just have to keep pressing on.

It was tough to see people that I love go through this. It was tough to see a youth ministry deal with a tragedy of this magnitude for the second time in less than a year. Yes, there was growth in both of those situations, but you never wish for these events to come. However, it is these events that shape and mold us as people. It shapes who we are and what we believe. It prepares us for the hardships of life while still reminding us of life's blissful moments. It is what defines us as humans. It is times like these that we have to take it in and move forward, never forgeting, but also never allowing it to hinder us from what God wants to do with it. It is times like these.

We miss you, Bruce.

photo from rachael

well-- it's been my first week back and i already have 3 projects.. fun huh? gah.. but it has been good to see everybody again. i ewnt to the siegel vs. riverdale game last night. it was bad.. the only reason i went was to see my friends. they keep doing this and i wont be at any more football games. but it IS riverdale, so what can i expect? i think they'll do fairly well this season, i hope.. well, i guess that's all. have a delightful weekend..

Ultimately, life comes down to choices and nothing more.

_bruce Gilley

I hate being let down..
I guess it's God's way of telling me
that I just don't need to go that way
or be with that person
I'm sure though, that He has something
planned for me :]
that's what I love about Him

And we know that in all things, God works for the GOOD of those who love Him, who are called according to his purpose.
Romans 8:28

I was sitting in my car one night worrying about where I was headed. Have you ever done that? Have you ever asked God for reaffirmation that he's in control of your life. I know when I'm riding with a friend, I often want to take control because I'm so insecure of his maniac driving. Guys are crazy drivers, girls you can account for that. But when are we going to stop listening to the world who tells us a walk with God is disaster? I spent half of my life ignoring God because I wanted to fit in at school and wherever I went. I tried to meet the standards of so many different people I was around, and it just brought me brokenness. When I finally discovered that I had always been acceptable in the eyes of my Creator, my life changed. Part of a surrendered life with Christ is allowing God to gradually take control of everything inside of you. Satan tells us that by doing this, we are becoming abnormal, and we are just following a road that will become a dead end. But what he doesn't want you to know is that you are on the right road. By being hand in hand with Christ, a passion is ignited in your heart that only makes you want to follow Him that much more. It feels so good, and what's amazing is that by allowing God to take control of our lives we become involved in an eternal plan far better than our temporary plans. I mean think about this...You probably desire things that last how long...2 months, 2 years, 30 years. God is crying out to us. He wants you to be with Him. He wants you to enjoy a plan that never ends. We have an amazing Creator, who created you so that you could enjoy the love he has to offer you. Allow God to share his plan with you bit by bit. Walk hand in hand with the man that will never leave your side. He only desires to see you happy, even if that means changing some uncomfortable areas of your life. Remember, that just because your plans may not be his, doesn't mean that he's not dying to give you far much better than what you want right then. Know that he loves you, and just wants to see that smile on your face. He longs for the moment when he can finally embrace you face to face...How exciting!!!

ahhh.
we won the pep rally.
seriously.
how did that happen?


bomb threat.
2hours outside.
crazy hot.

[virginiarose♥]


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ryan bought me a blue rose.
mainly because I nagged him to...
but that's okay.
he's still cute.
♥

work was fun.
the mall was fun.


however, I hate skanks with boys' names.
they make me throw up in my mouth a little.


"every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end."


there IS life after ben.


♥

holy crap. you know, i really love Oakland. and i never thought i'd say that. but you know what's getting old? being criticized. i've been getting crap from people all week about being so involved this year in school and other stuff. especially Delta Beta Sigma. i'm really getting tired of people who don't even know what they are talking about criticizing me for being a pledge...gosh... and so many people think i'm selling out because i'm President, and i'm in a bunch of clubs, and all these other things. i'm so tired of being told that i'm a sell-out or that i'm shallow now just because i happen to be well-rounded and happy. gah...some people just suck. so i went to the OHS-BHS football game last night at Blackman. fun times X 3. i saw the whole McFadden posse. (Bridgett, Norrisha, Logan, Britt, and a few others...) plus like, a bunch of my friends were there. and i loves me some band kids. except for this one little freshman jerk...grrr....anyways. Oakland was spanking Blackman when i left, so YAY FOR OHS!! i was trying my hardest to find cloudy day...but it wasn't workin out. but that's ok. maaaaann....i love OHS games days....and that's all i have to say about that. oh yeah, so i'm just hanging out at the game last night, and a bunch of Delta Beta Sigma (i'm not allowed to abbreviate) members were there. so freakin Brittany comes up to me and taylor, and is like, "you guys really need to go up to all the members again and ask them if they want candy." and i already had once that night, but she stayed on my butt about it the whole time, so i went back, and then freakin none of them gave me any sunshines! poop on them. and then Liz told me i needed to wear my pin. grrrrr.....nayways... i am in love with all of my classes this year. Biology is great, but i think i'm gonna fail. all i do is stare at people. algebra 2 is the shiz. so here is the crowning moment of the year.
Kaitlin Beck: (whispering really loudly in a completely silent room) " Hey Cari! Do you have any feminine hygene products?"
Me: "No..."
Kaitlin: "Damn... Hey Milly! Do you have any feminine hygene products?"
Milly: "No..."
Kaitlin: "Damn..."
and then, this freshman kid that we call Moonpie says, "Hey Patrick.." and the room freakin explodes in laughter. he definitely wins the "Coolest Freshman of the Year" award. so anyways. then i have history, which is all freshman...and there's this one who said hi to me everytime i was within 100 feet of him....gosh...it's a pretty good class. then i have espanol...which is great, but i'm gonna fail because i stare at people...ug. then i have choir...which is freakin hilarious. we're all so white. and last, but certainly not least is english, which i love, even though i have sit beside Allison Murphy. but that's ok. i'll be nice. but i also sit behind Tyler, and in front of Milly, and Kaitlin, and near Matt G. so all is well with my world. today is the 1 year anniversary. i'm a little perturbed by all these people going to the Cherry Tree today for the concert. like, i understand people going to the concert that didn't know him, but most of the people he was really close to are going. even Cory. but who knows. maybe that's how they deal with it. but it's rather strange that the first thing i thought of when i woke up was that day. i really miss him you guys. and i know i say that all the time. but yesterday was killer. thankfully, i don't get picked up at the annex anymore. that would have been way too hard. and i'm so glad that the game was an away game. but i just hate the fact that only a year ago, he was here. and i still had a best friend. gosh. well, i better quit talking about it before i work myself into a frenzy. overall it's been a good week. so i guess i should count my blessings. love you guys.---Cari

Well... I pretty much feel reeeally stupid right about now.

WHY do I always let myself get like this?!

I guess I'll just say I'm sorry, and yes--I really mean it.

I'm sorry.

Missing Bruce for 1 year . . . .

roommate = STUPID and is going DOWN.

last night was sad... i said goodbye to some friends... and it sucked. buttt hopefully i'll be going up to ut to see all my friends!...hopefully.

well-im at work at the moment... and im not really enjoying it... BUT i need the money more than ANYTHING.

still no trailblazer...still getting fixed...i have to drive the most ghetto car ever rite now.... the NEON. you know...the paint peelin' runnin funny' piece of CRUD. heh... but hey, atleast it runs and has better gas mileage and gets me out of christiana and lets me have a life.


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poo.

Is there any way to change the font and colors on this!!!!

Me and Maegan have a obsession with spice girls





I used to love them when I was little. I had a shirt, a movie, 2 cd's, stickers and pencils (which I lost within two weeks or something), and I think that's it.








Maegan got me listening to them. So I downloaded Stop. Me and Emmitt made up a dance to it. I still remember it.

















I'm going to the Green Day & Jimmy Eat World concert tonight. I kinda don't want to go, because my sister's going. And none of my friends are. But I still want to see them at the same time.


My mom's making me go.

Haven't updated here in a LONG time! Well things are going good..friends are leaving for college, kinda sad. Still haven't fiished my book for summer reading. I am working like 35- 40 hours a week now...good money : ) Something bad has happened to my family & I, pray for me please, I'm gonna need it.

Wow...so all i have to say for staying awake from when i got in at 1 till 4 something this morning..then heading over to a best friends house to tell her goodbye was worth everything. Gettin to see her face when turning on the light to wake her up was great!!! I love ya DENA!! And I can't wait to hear from ya..Which will prolly be today and I call you..But still..LOL!!

So last night was great!! I went to Fuji with my family for my dad's birthday. Ash is texting me the scores for the game, and then at like 8:45 i have finished my meal and asking to leave..LOL!! I get there right after 2nd half kick off.... I got to go on the field again!! I can't believe how much I missed it now that I am not doing it!! but hey..COLLEGE CALLS!!!! LOL!! Then after the game ash and I went to the training room waiting for the parking lot to clear and hung out with david and then to the parking lot with some of the guys!! Got to tell some of them bye but then i realized that I will be back prolly like monday or tuesday right before I leave....(kinda scary to say that) then we went to nathan's house to watch a movie and made posters for dena's car!! Then we were sneaky and went and put them on her car..It was funny!! It was a sight to see with 2 girls running through a yard to dena's car at like 12:45 in the morning..It was great!! Came home and then I decided to go and see Dena this morning right b/f she left b/c I never really did get to tell her bye. SO I went and woke her up this morning... GOOD MORNING!! LOL!! Stayed with them till like 5:30 and then came home... Slept for like 3 hours and then we to breakfast at waffle house with mom, dad, and amy before amy left... Now I am back here.... SO yeah!!

well it was a good week. We had activity after activity and I was tired a lot, but we had some fun. Yesterday we did a service project with our english classes....my class went to this church and fixed up the home that it owns that the church uses for people who need a place to live here in Nashville. We painted the porch area and shed doors, and put dirt out on their lawn so the people who run the house can start putting grass in where there wasn't any. It looked great after we had finished and I was really glad I went. We've had information sessions about different clubs and stuff, and we've had to sit through some boring sessions about campus safety and all of that, but there was also some fun stuff like "What'd You Say?" Karaoke audtions which they'll be having the show on Sunday night so I'm thinking I'm going to go and watch. It should be quite interesting, lol.
Well I hope you all have a blest week! I love you all and miss you a ton! :)