I don't understand boys....

August 17 2005
okay so I have come to the conclusion that I don't know if a boy is interested in getting to know me or not. It just seems to me that they'll talk to me for a little while and all, and then they go and stop talking to me and get all friendly with some other girls. I just feel kind of rejected by them is all. I mean I would love to have a great group of guy friends but I don't and I just wish I knew what I was doing wrong. I mean, am I just acting too shy around them that they just don't think I'd be cool to get to know. I just am confused is all....
and I want to understand more. I mean I don't have to understand all of it, but I just wish I could have some light shed on this whole thing. I just am right now feeling like a boy-repelent or something.
well that's all I have right now....you all have a great day!

what a day...

August 17 2005
Ok, I'm just flat out tired.. I've done way too much in a short amount of time, and I'm drained. I'll try to get around to everybody( because I care) and check up.

I just got out of an Officer meeting for Y.A.W.S., and If you go to OHS and are interested in the great world of art, see me about joining. We really need peoples support this year; The Celebration of the Arts is in jeperody of not being held at all. Only relatives and close friends ever showed up for our performances, and after all the money, time, and effort put into such a huge performance, we barely filled half the auditorium... This makes me sad because I had to FORCE myself onto that stage: I have the worst case of stagefright and it all the strength I had just to keep myself in sound mind. Y.A.W.S. is really important to us, and we need a few good recruits with a mind full of ideas...

Thats all I got to say right now, I'm exhausted..

By the way, I love you guys.

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August 17 2005
It's amazing how one little tiny thing can mess up so much..it really is..

School/Oath Nite/Band= LONG POST AHEAD!

August 17 2005
Just when you think your life is great, school starts. I love all my classes for the most part. Childcare is gonna be great, minus all the projects because I'm not very creative but little kids will make it fun when they come in October. So far, I absolutely despise my english teacher, Mrs. Jackson. What kind of teacher makes you take your summer reading tests the second full day of school and doesn't tell you over which book? I'll tell you...AN EVIL ONE! Mr. Scudder is HILARIOUS! That class will be fun too. Math is math and my 2 band classes will be fun too, especially Guard class. Sheesh, school really wears you out though. I'm seriously prolly gonna take a nap soon!
Oath night was...interesting. I think I'll write more about that on my xanga , that way this post isn't really long and I can update both.
First football game Friday against Blackman. We chose buses last nite and all the cool kids got on Bus 2. Oh and we're SO not ready for the game either! Mr. Lawson isn't having us practice on the field and all the freshman are gonna get so confused but whatever. If he wants us to look stupid that's his problem, not mine. Just like last night when I complained because he made us go outside in the rain and rain ruins woodwind pads all he said was "I pay for the piccolo!" Uh! Frustrating! If I ran things...hehehe. MYO starts up tomorrow night. I'm so excited about my first practice. I hope I got a good chair and I hope it's tons of fun! Anyways, this is long but it's been awhile.

If you could only see....

August 17 2005
i love that song.... well, hope everyone is doing great... and i hope you get to feeling better jamie : (
how can life be so complicated?
take care and keep smiling


If you could only see

at a long days end...even though the day isn't over yet

August 17 2005
Honors World History--- not bad at all- it's gonna be fun
Honors Chemistry 1--- i'm not to big on science, but i have a cool teacher... so it's all good
Honors Precalculus--- wow..we haven't done much, just a pretest...and letme tell ya.. i really need to study!
Spanish 1--- ehhh..let's just say it's not at the top of my list
JROTC--- busy, busy, busy... it's gonna be a long year
Honors English 1--- the usual english stuff...
Rifle team--- try-outs tomorrow! i'm gonna have an awesome team!! but it's sorta stressful being the commander.

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August 17 2005
man i had something that i wanted to say that was really cool or whitty or idk somethin... i forgot it

school

August 17 2005
Idk if it is that I have an early morning or that I like my teachers, or both, but my school day goes by REALLY fast, and I totally like it, it is so awesome. Well there isn't much more to say, if you have nothing to do you should come to the Oakland vs. Blackman game and see the band during half time, we are so awesome, and I'm so excited!!! Well that is about it...

Life in NC

August 17 2005
So i finally have a day off and just thought I'd update on how things are over in NC. Josh started his job yesterday - but still won't have students for another week. Now that August is here and everyone is starting back to school it reminds me that I'm an "adult" now, which isn't that great - bills, bills, work, bills, ect - well you get the picture. But life here is still good and Josh and I are enjoying the many things to do in a new city. As he wrote on his page, we went to the beach a few weeks ago - we're only hours away!!!!! There's also a state park a few miles from my apartment where we've gone running - not together of course ( I think Josh ran 10 miles and I ran 2!). There's also a lake nearby that we have been wanting to go - and Josh is dying to go kyacking. Big suprise, I know. We've also found some good places to shop with just about any store that you can think of. However right now, we're both BROKE - so shopping isnt all that fun. So there has been plenty to do to keep us busy. As I wrote before, we've been going to a church here and are really enjoying the teaching and worship. The people are so nice and you can definately see that God is at work there. We continue to pray that God will lead us in the decision about where to get involved and where He wants us to be. There are alot of people in my apartment complex that go there and so it has opened up doors for us to meet people. We miss you guys so much and hope to keep in touch! I'm sorry I havent gotten to respond to your remarks you've left - once I figure out more how to use this thing, I'll get better about it - but know that I enjoy getting them and I read each of them! God bless you!

Steph

terrible vibrations in this place

August 17 2005
not much to say. actually i have alot to say i'm just not sure how to express it all right now. maybe i should think this one through some more.
i miss my family and friends like crazy.
that's about it.
listening to Pink Floyd:A Momentary Lapse of Reason

On the Turning Away is by far one of my favorite songs by them, or any band for that matter.
definitely check it out if u haven't heard it.

Where the Love Last Forever

August 17 2005
Your mercy found me,
Upon the broken road,
And lifted me beyond my failing,
Into Your glory,
My sin and shame dissolved,
And now forever Yours I’ll stand.

In love never to end,
To call You more than Lord,
Glorious friend.

(Chorus)
So I throw my life upon all You are,
‘Cause I know You gave it all for me,
And when all else fades,
My soul will dance with You,
Where the love lasts forever.


And forever I will sing,
Lord forever I will sing,
Of how You gave Your life away,
Just to save me, Lord You saved me.

With You, where the love lasts forever.

Take time a read these lyrics. I was at a United concert last night and this song blew me away! By far my favorite. "So, I throw my life upon all that you are"... "When all else fades, my soul will dance for you!"... When life goes to the can, I'll still dance for Him. Because you see, the Joy thats in my heart is not dependant on the circumstances around me. It's deeper than that, I can't control it! I have the creator of the world living in me, taking every step i take with me, and He's not going anywhere. The same one who painted the sunset yesterday, the same one who told the ocean waves where they had to stop, the same one who put the stars in the sky and knows each by name. So, no matter what happens in life, I'll be dancin, cause He is right there with me!

derpy

August 17 2005
hi!,
School lol, hahha....last year of this booty chatter. Im still gonna enjoy the fuck out of it though. Once we're out we're gonna want back in.

car.....

August 17 2005
well someone finally got my car...w/ tha car chalk stuff!!!
to tha ppl that did it:
i laughed sooo hard when i saw it!
my mom thought it was funny!!!
next time it happens do it better!! lol!!
my dad didnt like tha idea that we have red paint on tha driveway now...since were trying to sell our house...he said it looks like someone was shot on our driveway!

this morning was interesting!!! i had to wash my car at 7 this morning b/c tha stuff stuff was running and my dad didnt it to ruin my car but i have pictures!!!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

tourist days

August 17 2005
lori has been in the city this week so i've dropped all my work at graffiti and become a tourist. it's been nice to get away from it for a little while. but being a tourist makes me even more thankful that i know i have a job to go to. in a way, the church is a retreat from the city. anyway, we've experienced:

} brooklyn tabernacle choir
} live with regis and kelly
} financial district
} chinatown
} little italy
} soho
} greenwhich village
} washington square park
} nyu
} statue of liberty
} ellis island
} wtc site
} times square
} central park

and she's done a few other things without me, as i had to entertain other engagements. it've enjoyed it and now i'm ready to get some sleep :)

surprise suppers and ultimate frisbee

August 17 2005
So the past couple weeks I have been planning a surprise get together for alex and stephen and it was tonight! It went really well, a smaller group than I had planned but still, I think it turned out great. Im sooo glad they are home. After supper we went and played ultimate frisbee... actually the boys played while me and mary sat and talked... I

was he jewish?

August 16 2005
i am one tired cookie. i bet you didn't know i was a cookie, did you? and yes, i do like to eat my own kind...

er, i mean, ummmm....

anyway, hillsong played tonight at rocket town. a group of us went up there. luckily, i was able to eat at sbarro, which was all fun until amy and i got left there. oh yeah. true story. left and forgotten by our friends. tis tis. we had to walk all the way back to rocket town by ourselves at night. but we managed.


hillsong put on a great show!




i was a lot closer than this...check out the picture in the photo box kids. but yeah, we just go back because we had to take some guy from tulsa to his hotel. on the way back nathan made us do some riddle. it drove me crazy. i can get impatient with those, especially when i am tired. but i want to go to bed. i hope everyone has a great night!

So long, Fare well...

August 16 2005
Well, bright and early tomorrow morning I am moving back to Cookeville. I guess that pretty much signifies the end of the summer for me. I have been running around crazy the past two days trying to get everything together, but I think it is finally done. I can't believe I am moving into an apartment... so weird. I wasn't ready to move out of the dorms yet, but God definitely had bigger plans and I will trust in that. Anyway, this summer has been good and I have learned quite a bit by being home. I had a great time with everyone that I was able to spend time with and get to know. I can't wait to come home and see you guys again. Anyway I'm tired, so goodnight and see ya later. :)

I Just Can't Spit It Out

August 16 2005
I have a lot on my mind. I've started three different blogs and I either couldn't complete them because I couldn't express myself in writing or I wrote soo much that it would wrap for several pages. I decided to scrap it all and just sit here and think some more.

The new semester is starting soon. Pray for MTSU, my returning to school, and most importantly for AO. With the lack of a central, permanent leader comes issues that I pray God will work out so AO doesn't implode. I want this to be the beginning of something magnificant, not the end of something cool.

Rather then religion, we need relationship.

August 16 2005
Here is something that I saw in my notes from a sermon that I heard this summer....

Gods plan wasn't to be housed in walls in a church. The power of the Lord is in us. Its wherever we walk!

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August 16 2005
the four word post

I love this song

August 16 2005
Yellow - Coldplay

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.

I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called Yellow.

So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all yellow.

Your skin
Oh yeah, your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
You know, you know I love you so,
You know I love you so.

I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.

Cuz you were all yellow,
I drew a line,
I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all yellow.

Your skin,
Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know for you,
I'd bleed myself dry for you,
I'd bleed myself dry.

It's true, look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine.

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.

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August 16 2005
True or False or even if you believe this!

you can fall in love with one touch?
one saying of your name?

answer that.......?
~*Kris*~

links. . .

August 16 2005
i have to work tomorrow. . .so here are some links for your entertainment pleasure

Buy a Laptop

Mini Beyonce

I am waiting for something to go wrong

August 16 2005
^Death cab for cutie^

Oh how ironic. I turn around and see that 3 of my ex "flings" are sitting in the back of the band room: alex, steve, and andrew. Ha.

Alex is back [duh]. Its a bit weird. Okay, no, it's really weird. But Im gonna try not to make it too awkward. We hugged today. So thats getting somewhere, I guess..?

School is good. 2 AP classes scares little ole me, though. But I think they'll be fun ...especially english. Woot.

Fazoli's = grrrrrreat.

Band is good too. I

New PhuseBox Badge

August 16 2005

Here is PhuseBox badge to stick on your other sites (like xanga, myspace, livejournal, etc.):

It looks like this:


here is the HTML code to put on your site (make sure you change the USERNAME in the code to YOUR username):

<a href='http://phusebox.net/user/USERNAME'><img src='http://phusebox.net/myphusebox.png' border='0'></a>
For example, Mine would come out like this:

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August 16 2005
my mom definetely paid for my gas tonight.

yay for cool moms!

Fifteen Months

August 16 2005
Yay.

Garrett and I saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. It made me hungry for chocolate of course... ha ha... I loved it again, and Garrett enjoyed it as well.

Nothing else to say. We've been looking at a lot of cars, but the right one hasn't come along yet...

umm..

August 16 2005
the sun was shining today i think...lol all i know is that its night time so its not shining any more :(....today was boring...tommorow will be better i can tell....friday will be great or maybe its saturday...im not sure....lol....well im tired of writing all of my nonsense lol...call me you know the number...

amber

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

August 16 2005
gas is freaking INSANE.

and...
i'm already making frineds with the exchange student.

who's good?!

yup im there

August 16 2005
set ill be there, always forever - toby mac

deja vu

August 16 2005
do u guys ever have deja vu, where u think that you've done something before, or been somewhere at the exact same place where the exact thing has happened already before? I had one of those today. I hate those b/c u don't know if u saw it in a dream or if it really did happen before or if its just all in your head....yeah I hate it. Or maybe i'm just a weird guy idk....that is all.

have a superfantabulous splendiforous day!!

August 16 2005

Darling, wait. . .

August 16 2005
"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4

Darling, did you know that I dream about you? I'm waiting for the look in your eyes when we meet for the very first time. Darling, I pray about you and for you. I pray that you will hold on, and keep your loving eyes only for me. Darling, I dream about life together. I know it will be forever; I'll be yours and you'll be mine. And darling, when I say 'til death do us part', I'll mean it with all of my heart. Now and always, I'll be faithful to you. I know you may have made some mistakes, but I will forgive you and give you a second chance. Just wait for me. I'm waiting for you. I'm praying for you, darling. Wait for me, too. Wait for me as I wait for you.

-paraphrased from Rebecca St. James', "Wait For Me"

Tuesday

August 16 2005
well it's love.
make it hurt.
i deserve it.

First couple of days..

August 16 2005
So I am a Senior..A Fuckin Senior..I am still getting over the shock. Schedule is good, except that I feel like a complete slacker. Maybe I should have kept the science class. Perhaps, I’ll feel better next semester when my real classes kick in. I suppose having 6th period with Salty isn’t helping this feeling of slackism. I think that is a new word.

First race this week, I have a feeling that my alter ego, Negative Nancy might want to make a visit. I hate this feeling of being neurotic. I need to just not focus on it. That is it, it is just a practice.

There isn’t much else to say, well except. I am a FUNKIN SENIOR!

friends

August 16 2005
i love mine! especially Ashton, Carissa and LJ! thay are the best! love you guys!

YAY

August 16 2005
Hullo! I hope y'all are having fun at school. I finally got my hair appointment fixed so it's being dyed thursday before MYO. YAY!!! I'm very excited about MYO too. And I got my schedule changed and it's much better.

HAHA We started coreography in chamber today.... great fun.... I ran into the wall... lol... I have trouble remembering all the stuff but the rythm parts no problemo! lol It's great fun!

God bless,

Gloria Patri!

Nathan

PS I'm so getting an mp3 player soon yess!

Back on the Battlefield

August 16 2005
Classes start back tomorrow. I am praying up for strength, boldness, and guidence. Between the 18 hours of class, two jobs, and everything else, I need to stay focused on my mission and not get distracted by my surroundings. Granted, school is important and it should come before lots of things, but my missionwork comes first. That is how i have to see being here, by seeing my campus as my missionfield. Without that vision, I could se easily get bogged down by other people's expectations, rather than His.

2 Sam 22:35 -"He trains my hands for battle, my arms can bend a bow of bronze."

:squirm:

August 16 2005
i wish i had something interesting to say...

school = exhausting
but it was fun times, i suppose.

there was a circle of my friends sitting in the middle of the courtyard at lunch.. so of course i walked up to them and tapped each one on the head "duck... duck... duck...." then i got to ashley "GOOSE" and she cheated and ran through the circle. but i totally got to her seat before she could catch me

^_^

haha... i'm so lame..

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August 16 2005
"Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly, and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love- for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the council of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world."
-Max Ehrmann

golly, i love that quote.

That's Me In The Corner, That's Me In The Spotlight.

August 16 2005
Okay things are much better.

Everything is wonderful again.

What's happened to movies?

August 16 2005
Alright, this is going to be the more lighthearted of my places to go and put out my thoughts.

I thought this would be a time killer and it was, it killed about two hours. I've thought about this before.
Soundtrack of my life:

Opening credits: “Remember” Jimi Hendrix
Waking up: “Everyday” Dave Matthews Band
Average day: “Back To Good” Matchbox 20
First date: “Here We Go Again” Ray Charles
Falling in love: “Your Song” Elton John
Love scene: “Crash” Dave Matthews Band
Fight scene: “Whipping Post” The Allman Brothers Band
Breaking up: “Dream” Roy Orbison
Getting back together: “Bridge Over Troubled Water” Simon & Garfunkel
Secret love: “Feels Like Rain” John Hiatt
Life's okay: “Days Like This” Van Morrison
Mental breakdown: “Mrs. Potter’s Lullaby” Counting Crows
Driving: “Everybody’s Talkin’” Harry Nilsson
Learning a lesson: “Dying To Live” Jonny Lang
Late night walk: “The Sound Of Silence” Simon & Garfunkel
Deep thought: “River” Joni Mitchell
Flashback: “Free Falling” Tom Petty
Regret: “Angie” Rolling Stones
Long night alone: “Two Out of Three Ain’t Bad” Meat Loaf
Death scene: “Colorblind” Counting Crows
Closing credits: “Not Even the Trees” Hootie & the Blowfish


PhuseBox: Greenbox

August 16 2005
To clear up any confusion, "Greenbox" is just the codename for the new site version. When this version goes live, you will not have to update anything or transfer your account... it will all be automatic.

One day, you will get on the site and notice that everything is completely different (but better) and that is when you will know that the new version (Greenbox) has gone live.


PhuseBox Update: Aug. 16

August 16 2005
The new version of is moving right along. I had originally planned to have it ready by the time started for most of you, however, with all the additional new features and stuff, it is still not ready to go live.

I can tell you that the new site ("greenbox") will be awesome and definitely will run circles around the current version. Everything in Greenbox is more integrated... The Blog Manager is much easier to use and is loaded with features (I am currently writing the post from the new blog manager). There going to also be a new way to browse photos and link between photos that are in the same topic.

I, along with several others, are really excited to go live with greenbox. I am working on it almost non-stop every weekend when I have free time.

We are also planning to move to larger servers soon to accommodate all the new users, space, and bandwidth. Along with the new site design and switching servers, is about to become incorporated. This will allow for greater growth of in the future.

As always, let me know if there are any features that you would like to see in the new version of the site or let me know of any bugs that you run into. Though, I am programming the new version from scratch and so many of the current bugs will be taken care of, still let me know of them.

Continue to spread the word and get more users on PhuseBox!

-Nathan

thats a negative on school.. i hate it.

August 16 2005
life is insane..

between ap classes, twice a day cc practices, and dbs..
i barely have time to breathe.



dbs meetings are every sunday.
but i worked it out where i only have to go every other sunday.
but that still means i can only go to samson sisterhood once every two weeks.
makes me really sad.



my classes.. eh they're okay.. mac's will be amazing of course.
media production is the only class i really really love.



cant wait til tomorrow night.
im ready for church. i need my youth group.



im so tired.
but i love ya'll.

eeek

August 16 2005
oh the woe of a heavy load.



so I think it's time for a change. maybe I'll lose 25 pounds, dye my hair blonde, and get a few piercings. Maybe i'll dress preppy. Maybe I'll try to be happier. Shall I paint my face in heavy make-up? Kiss a few boys? Do a few drugs? Anything to escape the monotany that is me.





because me, just isn't good enough right now.

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August 16 2005
ah man the dead tree in our back yard just got blown down... i wonder if this means no marching???

*edit*

did anyone happen to catch rK on trl today i ws a slacker and missed it

greatest day of my life

August 16 2005
today was the greatest day of my life
no special reason
i was crackin up in homeroom
it was hilarious!
and its storming
i love storms
anywho...
i have no remarks things
thats ok its not like anyone reads this anyway!
james and i are are jsut so retarded it was so funny
i love to be with him he makes me feel special!
but yeah
Bekah OUT! (that was gay)

Work Rant. Be Prepared. It's Nothing Interesting, Though.

August 16 2005
Freakin' a.... Work last night was a bitch. First off Janie, the supervision terror, decided to pay a visit, and got incredibly pissed off that I was waiting on half of a near-empty section because I hadn't completed my eight days of training. (We had squeezed eight days into seven, because it was easy.) So Nick offers to put me in section 1. "No, then you can't watch her to be sure she doesn't mess up!" So she puts me in section five. All of section five. All of the section-five, by-the-bar, busiest-damn-section five. I swear, it was filled so much. I was running around for hours. Then a table gets pissed off, doesn't mention anything about it or try to flag me down to fix it, and insults me behind my back to another server. Bitches. I pictured them wrapped around a telephone pole. But no blood. Okay, maybe a little. Them and their screaming, spaghetti-throwing children. But it's all good. Tips were very satistfactory. *Grins* I'm heading out right after this, lol.

Aww crap. Our weather alarm's going off. I better get a-running.

Retail therapy.... I love it. ;D

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August 16 2005
like what g-muny said siegel is way overcrowded its not evn funny

Its Raining

August 16 2005
It just started raining outside. Its awesome. Its cooling everything down and stuff, so thats good. I am really ready for fall time. Here's a question.

Whats your favorite season?

Alright, later.

Jonathan - Master of the Vibe

I love/hate

August 16 2005
I love you .
I love holding hands.
I love butterflies
I love flowers
I love writing poems
I love singing
I lovelovelove music
I love the summer of 2004
I love oakland :]
I love friends!
I love dr. pepper
I love pink
I love relient k < 3 hehe

I hate stupid people
I hate smoking
I hate snakes
I hate repeated questions
I hate bees
I hate heights
I hate satan
I hate great expectations
I hate people that "think" that they are bad

randoms facts about me.

school was okay.
actually better than yesterday aha.

I have to go to the doctor's tomorrow. :/
lauren thinks I have mono
hmmm..ahahaha
but hopefully not.
especially the begining of school
ughh

Hehe

August 16 2005


photo from Causchy

YAY!

Please excuse me if i have a breakdown...

August 16 2005
I have this pit in my stomach.... which i think is fear and of course anticipation. The fear part all began this morning when my mom informed me that i cannot come home for both Thanksgiving and Christmas... I have to pick one. So obviously I am going to pick Christmas. But STILL. That is SEVENTEEN weeks away. Oh I love having no money. It is amazing.
So now... I think i'll go sit in a corner and cry. not really....
but maybe.................
I dont want to go to New York anymore.
Ok... YES I do.
I know that God is going to work it all out. It is just so weird.... not being with your family for Thanksgiving?
I am so frustrated.

yeahh

August 16 2005
yeah i have no clue what im doing... so when jonathan tells me, ill like starting updating and put pictures and stuff

Check this out.

August 16 2005
http://www.hallmark.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?catalogId=10051&storeId=10001&partNumber=SHOEBOX_COMMERCIAL&CatIDsList=18052;57555&tabOn=stores&isShowStoresLink=true

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"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4

Lonely . . .

August 16 2005
I'm currently sitting in my apartment, alone. There is the option of going to the meet and greet. . .but that means taking the ghetto bus. . .and i don't really wanna do that. at all. so here I sit. alone. and kinda bored. . .

I might read. . .or something. . .but we have TLC in my apartmnet. . .and I enjoy it. . .

well except that the people in a makeover story are putting clothes on their dogs. . .I kinda find that silly.

Work is long. though I did get off of work last night @ 11:30 rather than midnight. YAY!

I can't wait to meet more new people

on a sidenote, I think i'm gonna try out for a character on friday

I love this city

August 16 2005
I love New YOrk. There is a guy in Starbucks who is singing Sweet Chariot to himself but loud enough for those around him to hear.

Makes me smile.

SPeaking of which...
Things that make me smile:
+New York City... all the time... except when walking.
+ Old Men singing in starbucks
+ People from Georgia and Mississippi
+ Monkeys
+ The four men of the apocalypse
+ My brother's cats
+ Late night phone calls...
+ COFFEE
+ My ipod when He works
+ Storms in this city
+ Friends
+ People randomly quoting movies
+ Naps
+ Hearing new music
+ People laughing
+ PEople holding hands
+ New York Greetings... (kiss on the cheek)
AND MANY MORE

God's little gift to the world

August 16 2005
well, i guess sometimes you don't realize the extend of how important things are in your life until they are gone. i have an aching in my heart to be able to play, laugh with, and help my lil loves. i was looking through a few pictures of them and i just cried and a smile came across my face a couple of times remembering the fun times. being firemen, birthdays, and of course all the fun times with my little "boyfriend". i would tell him i was going to eat his pudding (man that kid loved pudding!) and he would just laugh. i remember the first time i heard him laugh. that made my day. his giggle was something special. i just laugh thinking about it. i was laughing so hard that day, i was crying. his face would light up when he saw me. i never got tired of the little arms that would wrap around me when i came in. i loved being their friend. if that meant playing dress up, building with blocks, sitting next to them, making a band, having an art show, dancing, acting silly, listening to their BIG adventures or maybe even participating in them, or just helping them... man, i miss those kids. but i know God is in control. and everything will be okay and He will help me. it is all for His glory. so i am going to get ready and go search for another job now. i hope everyone has a great day and remember that no matter what happens, good or bad, God is in control...trust Him in every situation.

vanilla ice, mtv

August 16 2005
i wasnt goin to post today cause my lifes kinda boring right now. but i thought i would cause i just heard somethin kinda funny. vanilla ice released a new cd today. does anybody else find that funny. in "ice ice baby" he talks about shells hittin the pavement, but has a guy like him ever heard shells hittin the pavement. c'mon, i think he's makin that one up.

i was watchin super sweet sixteen yesterday, has anybody else wathced that. personally, i think the poeple on that show are just a little spoiled. hold on, did i say just a little. i meant a lot. oh ya, and i also saw a commercial for jc penny, they've come out with a line of "home furnishings", i think thats what they called it. it's supposed to mimik what you see on "Cribs". personally, i dont like copying other peoples style. but i guess some poeple do.

i think i might go on a really long bike ride today, just cause i dont have much else to do. i need to start gettin packed though.

piece

The men in my life

August 16 2005
5 Things that need to be said to 5 important guys in my life:

Guy # 1: You are very special to me. I love the way you love everyone, you have such a big heart. Everytime I see you with those kids it makes me so happy to know that there are still amazing guys in this world. You are the guy in every dream, but right now isn't the right time, and only God knows when it will be.

Guy # 2: I don't know how one person can make one girl feel everyone emotion at one time. You had the love that you are searching for, but it is gone now. I can not wait for that day, the day you realize that I was the one that loved the real you, and not the guy that you want to be. It is nice to know that everything is back to normal for us. I miss you, but I can't be around you b/c that can lead to more unneeded emotions.

Guy # 3: You have grown up so much, and that amazes me. I know that you are tired, and Stressed, but you have resposibilities that need to be taken care of and I hope that you have a new outlook on life after that incident. You really and truely mean a lot to me and I am so glad that God has blessed me with you.

Guy # 4: You are stubborn, arrogant, and you have a part of my heart. We went together like Twinkies & cream filling, Beer & baseball, and a cigarette after good sex : ) (j/k) What happened? I guess life moves on, but I have learned a lot from you. I miss our long talks, listening to con-hoptry, Silly qoutes, Big Daddy & Skeetor, and your hugs.

Guy # 5: You are not right for me at all, but I think that God has placed you in my life for many reasons. I know that you are trying to get your life together, but if I am with you I know that I will fall b/c I am not strong enough, and you could probably be a weakness b/c you are very charming! All I can say to you is Don't be somebody that your not. Do not change b/c I don't agree with your ways, but change b/c you want too!

1st Entry....???

August 16 2005
Well i have a freakin xanga....YAY!?!?!? so i thought i would be cool and fit it with everybody else and make a phusebox...so yeah.....:-D

It Occurred to Me

August 16 2005
It occurred to me that before the attack on Pearl Harbor, we were not trying to get involved in the beginnings of WWII and Hitler's tyranny in Europe. But then when Japan decided to bring us trouble we retaliated.

I understand there was an alliance between Nazi Germany and Japan, but I wonder this:
if our focus after the December attack was on Japan, but then we turned our attention to the Nazi regime, especially in France on D-Day, how is it any different than what our military is doing now?

Our original focus was on the attackers from 9/11, but the "ball was dropped" as Kerry said when we diverted our attention to Iraq. Interesting to me, though, there is much trouble in Iraq, but the media will not show any of the good sides of the war like children celebrating with U.S. soldiers (I have pics for those who do not believe me) or the new government being placed.

To me, a simple citizen with no real knowledge of such things, it appears to be quite similar. To sum it up, we are getting rid of a tyranny ( like the Nazi regime) which was aligned with the same attackers of our Twin Towers (like Japan to Pearl Harbor).

If you agree and are just as confused I encourage you to ask around. Ask your teachers, professors, anti-war friends. Be nice, kind, gentle, and loving though.

Have a good day all,
Josh

Ah, rest.

August 15 2005
Ok, I just had a burst of energy. I'll be checking EVERY friend who has updated since my previous response. It will take some time but, hey, give me a break.

Now, ladies and gentlemen, it is now story time (everybody circle around and listen heh..)

This past weekend I learned of my father's childhood. He took me to Hickory Hollow mall, but afterwards we ended up over near Hermitage, then over by the Old Hickory lake and the DuPont plant. This also happens to be where he was raised through alot of his childhood. He showed me his old house, his favourite hangouts and most of what he hadn't seen in 40 years, and it was a shame of what had happened to it. Once grand and lush farmland was now vaccant, overgrown fields barracaded off from the public with long rusty fences. His old house now condemned and falling down; his favorite tree struck by lightning and incinerated, just leaving a hollow shell of the decaying tree. Afterwards, we drove through Mt. Juliet to Lebenon. We ate at the only Pizza Hut in their town, and It was great. This is because they still have the big dine in restaurant with the salad bar (totally awsome). Afterwards we took Cainsville Pike all the way back to lascassas. Cooincidentally I used to live in this road, and got to see my old house... well, where my house USED to be: its now just an empty feild and lot. It got tore down last year. It didn't matter, I guess. Its a shame how much we phisically we lost of our childhood, but in the same sense, my father and I just realized how great our lives have become and how lucky and appreciative we really are of what we got now.

power failure

August 15 2005
*it stormed today for a little while... Mike was playing around... and decided to dare God (big mistake)... he said "Okay God... let's see what you got?!" and at that moment... guess what? the lights went out. they were out for like... i dunno... 30 minutes to an hour? we couldn't do anything... except stock... and the back cut lemons and stuff. i'm serious... we couldn't serve dinks b/c the fountain is somehow electrical... we couldn't keep the food heated... we couldn't ring stuff up... we couldn't do ANYTHING!

**so now i'm thinking back on it... and it hits me... just like Chick-fil-A has to rely on the power of electricity... we have to rely on the power of God... but you know what's awesome? God never has a power failure! His power supply is endless!!! isn't that amazing?! nothing is too big for Him!

*Jeremiah 32:27 "Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh: is there any thing too hard for me?"

August 15 2005
I love that new Ranch Tooth Wendy's commerical...it makes me smile!

I love. love. love. all of my friends!!!!!!!

I love shopping...I hate feeling guilty about spending $$!

I love listening to old school music with good friends!!

I love you!!

eliz

My Brother Flies

August 15 2005

This is my brother. He tends to fly sometimes. This is really just a test post.

Moving Out

August 15 2005
So this is my last night in my house...weird. I feel like i am ripping 11 years of memories apart as I'm packing up my room! Man, I really hate change. A lot. I move into tomorrow so i hope that all goes well.

Oh yeah, today i had my interview at Eddie Bauer...and now im not so sure that i will like that job as much as i thought i would...

I'm not really sure if i got the job or not, the interview wasn't so smooth...

apparently you have to be good at picking people clothes out and making them match, or some crap like that...

why can't i just fold them and be friendly when people walk in...i would be so good at that.

I hope that things get normal again soon, i don't know how much longer i be able to handle this craziness!

Auf Wiedersehen!!

tim

Photo From blizAke

August 15 2005


photo from blizAke

BORED

August 15 2005
TEN Random Things about me
10. I hate needles...
9. I have never moved in my life. Not even rooms in my own house.
8. I love to dance, but only when i am by myself or with my friends.
7. I was a football manager for 4 years. and it was the best time of my life!!
6. My first kiss was during my Senior Year, with one of my best guy friends.
5. I have no clue what I want to do with my life.
4. I can not stand feet.. not even my own..
3. Some of my best friends are guys.
2. I love my friends to death.
1. I decided to go to UT Martin in the 7th grade

NINE Ways To Win My Heart
9. Call me anytime during the day just to let me know that you were thinking about me.
8. Surprise me. Not with presents all the time but just with things that you do or say.
7. Protect me but don't hover over me.
6. Hold my hand around your friends.
5. Don't lie to me.
4. Let me hang out with my friends and you with yours.
3. Sing to me. Even if you hate to sing
2. Leave random notes in random places just to see if i will find them.
1. care for me. TRULY CARE FOR ME!!

EIGHT Of My Favorite Friends(no order)
8. Dena
7. Ashley
6. Rachel
5. Amy
4. Elizabeth
3. Jacob
2. Ryan
1. Andrea

SEVEN Places I've Been
7. Paris.................TN
6. Orlando, FL
5. Gulf Shores, AL
4. Calica, Mexico
3. Cozemul, Mexico
2. The BAHAMAS!!!!
1. Atlantic Beach, NC

SIX Things That I Want
6. A closer relationship with God
5. To make it through COLLEGE
4. To read my Bible through and not stop this time
3. A NEW PHONE
2. Closer relationships with the friends I have
1. to figure out what to do with my life.

FIVE Things I'm Afraid Of
5. Losing my friends when we all go off to college
4. Failure
3. losing my relationship with God
2. Being Alone
1. needles

FOUR of My Favorite Items In My Bedroom
4. My eeyore stuffed animals
3. My pictures
2. my bed
1. my books/ BIBLE

THREE Things I HATE
3. Liars
2. Cheaters
1. FEET

TWO Things That I am Thinking about Right Now
2. My friends and I leaving for college
1. my dirty room

ONE Person I Want To See Right Now
1. can't really say!!!

Too long of a day

August 15 2005
It has been too long of a day for me to describe it right now. I still have to get my notebooks organized, so I give my regards and love to my friends.

I'll update with a story later.

Batten down the hatches, make sure your trays are locked in the upright position, and hold on tight.

August 15 2005

It has begun.

The school year that will kick my ass.

[Well, the first one to kick my ass, anyways.]

To be perfectly honest, I'm terrified of the upcoming year.

Anyone else afraid of roller coasters? Well, have you ever finally psyched yourself up to ride a huge coaster that you'd normally be too scared to go on?

If you have then you'll know the feeling of how badly you want to prove yourself when you sit down and strap in and the ride starts. As the ride cranks up that first big slope, you start doubting yourself with every chink of the chain. Then you're at the top; you ease over. At the split second between easing over and plummetting down at light-speed you have the perfect view of what you've gotten yourself into:

And it just may be the most terrifying thing you've ever seen in your life.

Once you're past that split second, it's too late. You're free falling and then you're roaring around the track that has been laid out for you. You scream and cry and you're terrified. But before you know it, you come to a sudden stop. You're eased back to the loading dock. You're released until it's time for you to board the next thrill ride.

Just like that, the year's over.

You walk away thinking to yourself, "Well, that wasn't so bad."

Just keep telling yourself that until you once again find yourself looking straight down into your own academic oblivion.

. . . . ?

Ever get the impression that I take school to seriously?

VBS@BCI

August 15 2005


photo from susanrloyd

isn't she the cutest thing? oh the joys of being assigned to the 3 and 4 year olds at evening VBS when they're falling asleep all over you at 8:30 pm :)

I'm Moved in!

August 15 2005
well it's been a long, long day today....moving boxes after boxes of stuff into my room. But the room looks so nice now, even the other girls in my suite love the look of my room. My roommate, Rachel...she is such a sweetheart and I can't wait to get started with everything now well that's all I have right now. I'll fill you all in more once I get settled more.

back to school

August 15 2005
hey, we are all heading back to school and that means reading, writing, and everything else.

have no fear people...whenever you sit to read a book or write a paper remember this:

Josh Hornbaker is reading a total of 16 books and writing somewhere around 50 pages in papers, but he fears not because it's all worth it in the end.

so have fun, enjoy, and think of Christmas.

I TOOK SUM QUIZZES

August 15 2005


What Kind of Rocker Are You?

You Are an Emo Rocker!


Expressive and deep, lyrics are really your thing.
That doesn't mean you don't rock out...
You just rock out with meaning.
For you, rock is more about connecting than grandstanding.



What Jones Holiday Soda Are You?
You Are Fruitcake Soda

You're gonna get tossed like a drunk midget




What's Your Power Color?

Your Power Color Is Indigo


At Your Highest:

You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you.

At Your Lowest:

You require a lot of attention and praise.

In Love:

You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are.

How You're Attractive:

You're dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic.

Your Eternal Question:

"Does This Work Into My Future Plans?"



How's Your Taste in Music?

Your Taste in Music:
90's Alternative: Highest Influence
Adult Alternative: Highest Influence
Alternative Rock: High Influence
Classic Rock: High Influence
Punk: High Influence
80's Pop: Medium Influence
80's Rock: Medium Influence
90's Rock: Medium Influence
80's R&B: Low Influence
90's Pop: Low Influence
Country: Low Influence
Dance: Low Influence
Hair Bands: Low Influence
Old School Hip Hop: Low Influence
Progressive Rock: Low Influence
Ska: Low Influence




happy bday

August 15 2005
happy bday to me!!!!!!!! Sweet 15!!

High school is good.

August 15 2005
Hey, Well high school is really diffrent. But i guess in a good way. It has a whole lot more freedom. And more stuff to do. So i think i will really enjoy it. But I still can't believe I got homework on the first day of school.

-Tanner-

Day 1 Dun

August 15 2005
Day 1 is done.
I had a successful but LONG day.
I gotta go to bed cuz I have a headache.
Hope Im not sick.
That would suck.
Im gonna ride Bus 84 home from school tommorrow.
Talk to yall lata.
- J 4 ( () 8

New Thing

August 15 2005
Okay, I am going to start something new, I think. At least for a little bit. I am going to give a daily fortune, either from myself (no likely) or from a previous fortunes cookie, or from the internet. This one today is one I found on the kitchen counter.

As soon as you feel too old to do a thing, do it...in bed.

Comin

August 15 2005
Everyone is starting back to school this week which means that summer is just about over. 9 more days and it'll be over for good..

I've learned alot this summer..alot about myself and a whole lot more about other people and it's been fun.

Planned on having a cookout or party toward the end of the summer..and I wish I had put more thought/effort into it. I'm gonna miss you guys..especially Lyndi. I love you so much!

This has been the absolute best summer of my life. The first summer I can remember actually staying in town was unbelieveable. I've called the one or two weeks out of the summer I got to go to the beach or on vacation my "week of sanity" which means I was in contact with only one or two people from home and I didn't worry at all while I was gone. These past 3 months have made me realize that all that time I thought getting out of Murfreesboro was the best thing to do over the summer is absolutely crazy. This summer and everything that's happened will be hard to top..if ever topped.

Its hard to say how I feel right now. I'm so excited to be starting college but I'm scared of falling from my expectations. I'm gonna enjoy the football games and the parties but I'm gonna miss my family, friends, and most of all Lyndi. Too many emotions right now..

I always imagined leaving for college as me standing in front of my car..it packed to the brim with everything I could possibly need..saying goodbye to all those who wished to see me off. I'd get in the car, give one last little grin and wave, and drive off only to be seen again at Thanksgiving and Christmas..or when I needed laundry done, hehe.

Friday, the last day here, is going to be one with alot of emotion. Taking Brett to school. Breafkast with mom and dad, making sure everything is packed, sitting at home for a few hours letting it all sink in that I'm not a kid anymore while eating ice cream and playing some classic Nintendo, having a big dinner with the family, and being with Lyndi for as long as we can be together.

I sure am gonna miss this.

NCAA Football 2006 is so unbelieveably awesome..

August 15 2005
I don't want to be with just anyone. . .

. . . I want to be with him.

I'm praying for you, darling.

First Day of School

August 15 2005
Well the first day was awsome.....got bored in most of them but yep yep........and thursday is the our first football game oh yeah.......im startin........................what now..jp. Ight well out. Peace

-Josh-

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August 15 2005
siegel is WAY overcrowded

God Works Always!

August 15 2005
Hey hope everyone had a great weekend and a great day! Thanks to all those we left me a comment it really brighten my day and means alot.Life literally sucks right now I am sooooooo uoset and need alot of prayers and words of encourgment I never felt like this and I know its not in my hands or control over what happend and it will take time but life will never be the same. Thanks to everyone again I love yall and yall mean alot to me.Haley

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August 15 2005
today would of been the first day of school, if i was still in high school. high school was pretty cool. i enjoyed it.

this past weekend was pretty dang good. friday we went to the band performence and then we had the bon fire and the metor shower, which was pretty awesome. then on sunday young came over and we watched Guess Who, it was cool. guitar lessons were good and then i went out to eat with my dad and grandmother. my grandmother is a trip.

todays been kinda boring, i've just laid around the house. well, i took my dad to the air port this mornin. but other than that i've just been around the house. i'm kinda tired, maybe i'm not as well as i thought i was. i just had a good thought, maybe i'll have another game night at my house this week before everyone has to leave.

i was plannin on goin to the game friday night, it should be fun.

so really thier was no point to this entry, oh well. oh ya, i dont really know how right that name thing was on my last entry. cause no is perfect, i dont think i'm romantic, and i dont exactly know what chic is, but i'm guessin i'm probably not it, thrilling, well, i guess i can be fun sometimes, i dont really know.

piece

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August 15 2005
And I would give the world to tell Your story
Cause I know that You've called me
I know that You've called me
I've lost myself for good within Your promise
I won't hide it
I won't hide it

Jesus, I believe in You and I would go
To the ends of the earth
To the ends of the earth
For You alone are the Son of God
And all the world will see
That You are God
You are God

Mmm hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm

August 15 2005

The first full day of school. I think we'll do nothing in my early day and 6th period, serving as bookends to an otherwise insane schedule. And yes, I have Latin homework tonight. There is simply no justice. But Ms. Tinsley claims that homo doctus in se semper divitas habet. So what can you say?

I want some ice cream, please. Ben & Jerry's Half Baked with Chocolate Tornado.

Yessssss......I have Mr. York again for Etymology!! "I'll take up your homework whenever I feel like taking it up...and we'll be eating in here about once a week."




Oh, oh, oh, oh, staying alive, staying alive...

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August 15 2005
hello to all

*dejected* well, not really. Just disappointed.

August 15 2005
Who here hates miscommunication?

I do!!!

Is it that I don't listen, or is it that all the information I do have magically changes behind my back just to spite me?!

...
...
...

I'm done ranting now. I think there's a perfectly logical explanation for this.

If not...



Well, we're all human, aren't we?


But I bet is was my error, after all.

Cant. Stop. Laughing.

August 15 2005

Your Daddy Is Darth Vader

What You Call Him: Big Daddy
Why You Love Him: He takes you to Disneyland
Who's Your Daddy?




You are







What Rejected Crayon Are You?



Those quizzes courtesy of Stephen.

Holy crap. *wipes tear*

Summers over :(

August 15 2005
Hey guys!
Well school started...kinda cool kinda not lol...i onlt have one mean teacher...and it happend to be my favorite subject so that kinda sucks...Umm nothing much has happend really cept i went tot he movies Sat. night with a bunch of people to see Dukes of hazard..pretty funny! lol and umm we threw my mom a surprise 38th birthday party...that was cool i guess. Ive met some pretty cool people tho at BHS..all the hot guys are upperclass men..ive only seen like 3 hot freshman..o well lol well i just got home from soccer im gonna go...leave some remarks!

DBS, lifeway, and such things...

August 15 2005
so we filmed another lifeway video. this director had a very low creepy factor unlike the other one. good times. we met these cool guys. 4 from franklin, 1 from cincinatti. they were there filming with us. this video actually had a story line. it was hilarious.
i also got rushed for DBS. rush night was fun. and then we had a skating party, a swimming party, a video scavenger hunt (which included 16 people in an armada for a few hours.), and other so-called "sisterhood bonding" times. but sarah moore is my big sister whom i love very much, and we have oath night tonight.
schools okay i guess...actually its pretty good. i have good classes but i have to get one fixed because im trying out for either womens chorale or singers.
my head hurts, i think beacuse im really tired.
but i just thought i would update. i love you guys and ill talk to you later! leave me one.
_kt

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August 15 2005
honestly, i don't really think it's cool. i understand but i don't think that means i have to be cool with it. does it?

I AM IN HIGH SCHOOL!!!

August 15 2005
Well the first day of school was awesome but it felt like any normal day to me because I pretty much know most of the people there. So right now I am soooo exhausted that I have never been before coming home from school. So I am going to go to bed early tonight. Well got to go now. Love yall
*Katie*

HOT HOT HOT!!!

August 15 2005
Man will I be happy when it starts to cool down a bit!!! My skin gets lighter as well!!! Its a tough life when youre black and getting BLACKER!!! jk, I love myself, but not like that or that much!!ummm....ok bye

Hillsong

August 15 2005
yea so i just found out that Hillsong was in concert tomorrow night!! its there only concert in the us and its free!! one of the best praise and worships bands in the world is coming to nashville tomorrow night to do a concert for free! i can't believe it! well i just felt i would throw that out! later- stephen


p.s. hey i just saw brett younker joined the phusebox people!!

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August 15 2005
Today was shockingly good

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August 15 2005
i dont like having a phuse and a xanga..cuz when i write on one, i have nothing else to say on the other, and if i do, then ppl who only know my phuse or only know my xanga, miss the other part..hmm................

hey thweet thang can i buy you a fish thandwitch