First week of school is finally over!!!! It was the longest week of my life!!!! Then our first football game was last night and of course we lost 3 to 50. But band had a good run!!! (Wouldn't you say so???) Well, i'm outtie... i need to find me some breakfast.....

hey...just updatin

this thing finally let me back on. it's been kickin me off for the past few days.

went to the game last night, it was fun. the were goin to let me sing (with the band), but i had to leave.

i'm about to eat some breakfast, and then leave for school. i'm nervous and a little sad. it'll all work out though.

pray for me. i'll miss you guys

piece

I got up today and went to work on my day off cause I was needed. Then I helped watch 17 kids until 9:00PM. I stopped by the youth lock-in to say hi to my sister and ended up staying until about 4:30AM helping a friend of mine. We left there and went to unload a trailer full of audio equipment. It's 5:39AM and I just got home. I'm going to take a shower and eat some breakfast before I go to the Apartment move-ins today at 8:00AM. I will do that until 2:00PM when I go to work and work until 10:30PM. Tomorrow morning, I go to the church at 6:30AM to unlock the building, and I will stay until the last person is out of the building tomorrow night when I lock up (somewhere around 9:30PM).

...I'm beginning to wonder how long I can keep this up.

wow, God is so good. tonight went amazingly well and it was awesome to see the youth finally really getting in to worship and getting excited. it is now 5 in the morning and we just got finished doing the load out, and i am going to go crash. more to come later (including pictures).

Is it against some unwritting code of ethics for a guy to comb his hair once and a while? Crack Grannies people! I have like A biggillion pounds of hair on my head! I need to keep in brushed and cleaned or else it looks like some dirty greese monkey. Give me a break.

P.S. Those who attempt to counter my entry with the "cut your hair, its just that simple" response, shall be tarred and feathered by an army of Civil War reinactors.

P.S.S. Bob Dylan is freaken awsome.

Well...we lost
pretty bad to Riverdale
3-50 i think the 3 were
pitty points...haha...so sad
but yeah, i had a good time at the game
hung out with some people and all that jazz
fabuloso...hows everyone doin?
I don't get many comments on here
or on Myspace or on Xanga
but you can leave me some:-)
hope ya'll are good
have a great one

This week was a really long week. A lot of homework. Band practice. Thunderstorms. Football Game. Hot Hot Hot Hot Hot Hot Weather. someone *cough*.

Yea, we have some work to do on the show. but, it is ok. it is just the first football game.

Just got back from IHOP. Gosh, those people (the waiters) were not nice. They forgot my order , too. It was fun though.

I love you. I really do.

photo from butterfly

Another awesome concert. God spoke, I listened. Well, tomorrow I move into MC. Please pray for me. Goodnight and Sweetdreams!!!

luv in Christ~ash

Wow...I love this girl!



photo from GodsGirl615

I am Matt's sudden impulse to stop spewing useless crap on the internet.

So it's been a really neat summer..

I started out this summer really kinda bummed out because I was thought I was going to have to have knee surgery but it was definite so I didn't know when anything was going to happen or if I should try to plan to have a job, etc. There were just a lot of unanswered questions, and I really was trying to cling to the belief that God really had something in mind for me this summer but it was tough some days.

However, it was really an incredible playing out of events.

When I learned that my knee surgery wouldn't be happening unleast until July or something (insurance matters), I decided to apply for the swim coaching job at Ravenwood where I worked last summer. Turns out they had a coach! I was really disappointed, but I couldn't blame them, because who would want to hire somebody who couldn't really commit for the whole summer?

Then I went to Colorado. The day after I got back, I went to the pool and found out that that coach had quit! Kind of out of the blue! The next day, I was hired as the coach.

God taught me a lot about myself through coaching those kids. It's amazing how 45 kids can make you really aware of your insecurities and your faults, but they also respond to your strengths. I don't know if that really made any sense, but I was really happy and gracious to get to work with such great kiddos. It was so exciting to see growth and confidence in the water with some of those kids... Two little girls started and they couldn't swim very well at all.. but now, they're jumping off the diving board and swimming like crazy! Anyway, I just hope that I was a good coach to those kids.. and that God used me to love on them! :)

Then the week that swim team ended, I got hired as an associate at Kohl's. haha- It really made me furious at first because I wanted to kill people for making such big messes in the dressing room and just for being rude. Turns out- it's just been a huge lesson in grace. In our Bible study this summer, we read The Ragamuffin Gospel, and it was all about extending grace to others because God has given us so much grace. How can we not extend that grace to the people that we encounter? God has changed my heart... not always. I still struggle a lot with expectations of wanting to be treated like I'm significant and "how I feel like I should be treated" instead of being satisfied with the love of my Creator. It's also been an excellent opportunity just to be exposed to people's character. It's discouraging sometimes, but it just really encourages me to be set-apart, you know, to really put my everything in Christ so that Christ is in me and I'm not alone to fend for myself in a dark world.

Also, with my knee and everything, it's been almost 3 years since I've been able to run around and be normal, I guess... It's frustrating A LOT!! especially with my athletic history. I've gotten 2/3 shots that are supposed to take away my pain, and I'm still awaiting surgery in the near future. But I asked my doctor about getting a second opinion and he was just so okay with it that it was just really comforting. He said, "You're 20 years old and you've got a complicated knee problem. I want you to be happy!" He volunteered a doctor's name and offered to get me an appointmen with that doctor.

It's kind of funny because I really wish that I could go to my doctor and tell him that my knee's better... because I know that he cares. And for so long, I just felt dissatisfied and I just kept praying that God would just be with Dr. Reid and give him proper wisdom and knowledge to diagnose me and patience to listen to me so that I could get better. He's been there for me... and I am so grateful.

So this is a really long entry, but I just wanted to thank God for working in my heart this summer. I had no doubts, but I find constantly amazed at how much He can do in me.

photo from SeeRockCity

raise your hand if you think this is the coolest kid ever!!!!!!!

:raises hand:

My room mate Samantha is currently freaking out because she'll be 20 in a year. no joke.

we went shopping for 5 hours today. maybe 4 hours. i'm not sure, I just know that it took us a LONG time. we went to 2 wal-marts, sams, and target. we prolly spent 15 minutes in the bathroom aisle at target just discussing what we could buy, and laughing, we laughed really really hard

so, i'll be 20 in a year too

Bugger all. I had to work this Friday and I'm working next Friday.
[I should deal, I should deal, I should deal....]
I'd really like to be able to pay money to socialise at a football game at least once in my senior year.
[I'm dealing, I'm dealing, I'm dealing.]
It'll happen.

If not, more money for shopping on those Saturdays, I guess.

I had my first experience ever of being hit on by a drunken construction worker. It was interesting. Even after I told him I was seventeen. "So are you seeing anybody? Boyfriend? Girlfriend? Married?" [Married?] "Well, you're gettin' that heifer's [yes, "heifer's"] tip. So when are you gonna take me out??" "I can't do that, sir, I'd get us both in trouble. I'm seventeen, remember?" "Oh yeah...." Gets up from table, ambles over, and whispers in my ear, "But I'll bet you're not really seventeen!" "Ohh yes sir, I most certainly am; will be for some time." Eh, he was drunk and lonely. And fifty. Poor kid. Then there was the man who ate alone because his son went out God knows where, his wife died one year ago in three weeks, and took my hand and made me vow never to do drugs. Interesting times. Oh yes. Interesting times.

Tomorrow I go to look at senior pictures of the Lovelace persuasion. Yeah, pretty sure I did crap to get ready for those. *Cringe* We'll see.

Why is the lid to the butter dish up here??

so Kasey and i went to Nashvegas tonight. we went to Coco, but like, no one was there really, except Libby who got there when we were leaving. and Chris and Jill were there for like 2 minutes.
---aparently the new place to hang out is the "Huka Bar" where everyone sits around and smokes flavoured stuff from this thing that looks like a bong. we didn't go there...

so we ended up going to RCKTWN for another Battle-of-the-Bands. i only watched one band. hehe. i met the people from Kas's lunch table though, and they're awesome. ^_^

i looked real cute tonight too. i had kind of a rough look going on, which i really like for me. i had on Zach's green Hurley shirt, which was hot on me, and some jeans. had on my white "Breakdown" belt and my leapoard-print belt. wore my Asics, and wore a red bandana on my head. to top it off, i haven't shaved for a really long time. ^_^ looked awesome. and Kas wore this old shirt her mom had in the 80s with just a bra underneath it. very hot, she looked.

anyways... i'monna go to bed soon. peace out.

OH AND! there were these guys at Taco Bell making fun of me the WHOLE time we were there. WTF?! don't they have anything better to do? and they said "i bet his shoes come off when he farts" WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?! am i supposed to be offended by that, or am i supposed to laugh?

people are dumb sometimes.

had the big riverdale game tonight...proud cause we scored...3-50. well, im going to bed early cause im beat and dirty...later

We actually got 3 points aginst Riverdale.... YAY!

Band was great. We rocked the mullet as uasual.

Tomorrow is mine and Amandas one month. I am getting her a _________... wait, I can't say that. She reads my site. LOL!

But yeah, Rachel's going away party is tomorrow too... as well as Al's Halo/birthday party. I have to find time to do all three. I'll be good.

Yeah, anyway, I am so tired of writing to you people, so, I am out like a light bulb... (that was so freakin corny...)

Later,
Brett

RAWR GREEN DAY TOMORROW

even tho im not going o.O

"There's a time when a man needs to fight and a time when he needs to accept that his destiny's lost, the ship has sailed and that only a fool will continue. The truth is I've always been a fool."

So, I am reading Captivating by Staci and John Eldridge. If you haven't read it, you should...both girls and guys. It will give you a lot of insight. I am always looking for good books to read, so if anyone else has a suggestion, pass it on. Hope you are all having a great day! Nathan, I miss you buddy.

ok then... i'm here, i'm alive, school had started and if you want to know anuthing else go look at my other site because my wrist really hurts.. good night

my first week of school went pretty good. i feel bad becouse i didnt talk to that many new people but i had fun with my friends. Im relly exited about school i think it is going to be hard but im just relly exited lol i dont know why but im just ready for something new im sick of the same old same old. i think im going to do a community service group that sounds like alot of fun so i think that what im going to do and mabey i will meet new poepl.


well have a great day Loveya jess

have u ever been tired to the point where nothing bothers u at all? no matter what happens it just all seems hilarious. i've reached that state and quite frankly it works for me. i ended up having to pull another shift right after my last very frustrating day. this propelled me into a state of exhaustion just prior to hallucination. i almost don't wanna go to sleep because this overwhelming state of apathy is the best i have felt in awhile. i'm sure i'll be passed out w/ in 2 minutes tho. i just finished reading The Five People you Meet in Heaven. good book. Mitch Albom's books always capture my interest. he also wrote Tuesday's with Morrie which is a really good book. they read almost like a fiction novel but it's all true. i think that's all for now. my head is getting heavy.

I

OMG guess what guys??? Im an Aunt!!! awww to a nephew named: Parker Drew he is 8 pounds 7 ounces..he is sooooooo AdOrAbLe! Aww well nyways skool has started now..and let me tell you something..i love love love love love it!!! OMG although i have no classes with jenn or linds...but i have lunch with jenn soo that is good..and me n linds still talk soo that is good too..but umm just thot id update ill write more later..plz leave lots of remarks!! love you all! bye bye

*A PrOuD AuNt* mya

okay so pretty sure we beat Siegel soo bad


50 to 3


our freshman could beat them lol

but yeah i feel kind sorry for em you know?? lol
yeah

Hotel Motel ain't no place like RIVERDALE woo hoo YEAH woo hoo YEAH woo hoo!! lol



go RHS
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I personally thought it was kinda boring
class wise at least.
like all the teachers did were talk talk talk
ahaha.
I'm sure it will get better next week.
lunch on the other hand is fun < 3
I am probably the loudest girl in the annex
yesss. lol

I think Tyler Jones is like one of the BEST
freaking guys in the whole oakland highschool
we hung out all thursday at the football game
YES I went to the freshman game ahaha
but I had fun :]
so now we are gonna hang out after school
until I have to leave since he just walks home
what a sweetheart. < 3

this guy likes me.
tee hee
but it's quite funny.
ask me about it on aim.
I'll tell you if I am up for it.

nothing planned for the weekend
call me or i.m me if you want to.

love you guys.
you're too awesome. :D

I had a game today because we won our game last night 5 to 1!!! But we lost today 2 to 0 but we lost fighting and that is alll that matters! GO BARRET 8Th grade field hockey team!

Phusebox could use some Flickr integration - that'd be kick ass.

Pretty sure we play SIEGAL TONIGHT!

NEW HOME STADIUM
FIRST HOME GAME
FIRST HOME LOSS!!!!

Im doing so much better..thanks everyone for praying for me!

I may not go down in history
I just want someone to remember me

But if I will love then I will find
That I have touched another life
And that's something
Something worth leaving behind

I'll probably never dream a dream
and watch it turn to gold
I know I'll never lose my life
to save another soul


GO WARRIORS!!

Ranked number 3 in the nation...and most likely to win state again

Lovin' that number 73!

raiders-- awful! i show up and the commander's not there for the early practice she scheduled?! what the heck?!
the raiders-- the "real" practice..i did bad on my pt test because i'd already pted and i guess i was physically tired.

then we had a bomb threat... that was interesting, we were all evacuated to the stadium.and was there for a whole hr 1/2 until the drug sniffing dogs(haha-that sounds funny) and cops were gone.

but then the juniors won the pride stick..or whatever we call it. that was awesome!

what next will the world bring me?

Is this new? old? funky? kickin? stupid? I don't know, but I joined :)

Game tonight!!

We're gonna whip Riverdale.

Uh huh.

You heard me.



o_O



In other news, some people are crazy. But I love it. I'm a little weird too. So what if I like rainbows, and know Barney's rainbow song. And I cry at night for hours when mother tells me to load the dishes. Plus swiss cheese is really good on chicken sandwiches. So leave me alone, psssshyeah. I have my people.


Christina

I miss my Ipod... He died this week... He left me cold and lonely... How dare he... just died... without warning... without explanation... just died... but there is hope. I have friends who believe in reincarnation and are replacing him for me... but the interum... is well torture... depression is looming... Sadness.... grief... (sigh)

woot you guys im so excited about this weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its gonna be the best ever well first off we have our first football game! football games are so fun ah i never want to graduate but yeah were levin after the halftime show and go to disciple now *throws a party* yeah its gonna rock the casba times a mug yup d-now is gonna be the greatest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! see you guys later this weekend

So you know how seniors are guarenteed the first and the last pep rally, well class of '07 took the last one away from the seniors last year, and pretty sure class of '07 took the first one away from this years seniors, we are so on a roll, and it just goes to show, give your best and you will defeat. Well sorry seniors, good luck next time...

David Hyde Pierce (from Fraiser) was at the City Grill today in NYC... that is the best photo we could get of him.

Let me tell you... God truly rocks...

God has been teaching me for... well... YEARS to trust Him. He's been trying to tell me for a long time to not worry about my life; that He is in control. He's been teaching me that I just need to rely on Him, and He will handle it.

Well, guess who has a temp job next week, and wasn't even looking for it?!

So next week, I am returning to the hallways of Riverdale for a week of getting paid for filing. Just to think... I did that an hour everyday for a semester for free! Well, I did get credit and a 100... which is better than nothing! Anyhow, so I'm kinda excited about the chance to make some extra money. It'll feel weird going back to the school though...

So God's also been teaching me this: to not be afraid. I'm afraid of college, afraid I may be doing something wrong but not even be aware of it... and I just need to stop! If God could protect me in the Bronx at 1:00 AM, He can take care of me anywhere, anytime! He always does, even when I am not aware of it.

I also have no reason to fear other people- because they're just people. And also, I need to not be afraid to stand up for what I believe. Someone may persecute me for it, but that does not matter.

I heard the song "Brave" (by Nichole Nordeman) on the radio the other day, and it was the first time I really listened to the lryics. I won't post all of them, because I know it can be annoying to read out a whole song, but just consider the following lines:

The gate is wide
The road is paved in moderation
The crowd is kind and quick to pull you in
Welcome to the middle ground
You're safe and sound and
Until now it's where I've been

'Cause it's been fear that ties me down to everything
But it's been love, Your love, that cuts the strings

So long status quo
I think I just let go
You make me want to be brave
The way it always was
Is no longer good enough
You make me want to be brave

God is calling me to be brave... no matter what.

im about to loose it once more. iiiiii cant handle stupid people. (i.e. my roommate that i've never met) ive only talked to her and she's ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...i hate her. BASICALLY.

i just want to like, not go even more now. just say f' it and whatnot. and just stay here. but screw that. i cant do that either.

f' me.

-im out.

I'll see you in a while.

Wow...So today marks the day that one of my best friends leaves for college!! I can't believe that it is alreay here. It doesn't seem that it is already time that we leave for college. Don't get me wrong I am ready to go to college...the thing is i don't wanna leave all of my friends. I do have some going with me, but still.... I am going away. Some of my friends are going to TAMPA, some to UNION, some staying at MTSU, and other's elsewhere.

But yeah... i am gonna stop all of that sad stuff.....
I am going to Lunch today with Lauren, Dena, and Elizabeth. I am soo excited! I can't wait!!! It is gonna be fun!!! Then i have to go to work till i get off....and then hopefully i will be able to go to Dena's and then I am going to eat with my family for my dad's birthday. AND THEN I REALLY HOPE I WILL MAKE IT TO THE GAME.. And then on to Nathan's for movie night and then i am coming home..It is gonna be a fun but sad night!!!
But yeah..well i am gonna go... I will write more later!!

Mosaic in the News

I guess Apple was in too much of a hurry to push out the podcast-equipped iTunes 4.9 that they overlooked adding smart playlist functionality for the newly mainstreamed audio. This morning, I tried to add a smart playlist to issolate the podcasts episodes that my computer has downloaded within the last 24 hours.

Surprisingly, when I went to create a new smart playlist, the option for podcasts was not there. Thinking that I could just deal with a playlist with the new podcasts AND songs in the last 24 hours, I decided to do that. Nothing. Sure, the playlist holds the songs downloaded in the last 24 hours, but not podcasts.

It turns out that the directory that contains the podcast episodes is not included in the music library in iTunes. Ergo, there is a wall between the music and the podcast files. I understand the reason for this, but it would be nice to create a smart playlist for the podcasts I have in my episode list.

The only way around this problem that I have found is adding the directory that contains the podcast episodes to the iTunes music library. It will then index all of the podcasts into the music section and become sortable with smart playlists, but this also leads to the problem of having to sort through not only thousands of songs in your iTunes library, but also every podcast episode you have.

I think Apple may have just been too hungry to break into the podcasting market that they overlooked small featured such as smart playlist functionality. While they have made podcasting mainstream almost overnight, they have butchered the construct of the podcasting community. That is another story for another day.

i'm a very easy going person and it's very rare for my temper to reach it's breaking point. but i was so angry today i could've sworn there was blood boiling out of my ears. there's nothing like working your butt off all day in 130+ just to get cussed up and down by a jackass over things that aren't done that he never told u he wanted done. especially while he's been sitting in the ac at the barracks all day. i've never really hated anyone in my life but God help me i hate this man. anyway i look at it i lose simply because of the military's backwards hierarchy. i need to cool down.
pray for me to take the right approach to all this and handle it the way I should.

Have you ever had a time in your life when you felt like you were on the edge of something really big? Maybe not big in the world's eyes, but big in terms of the ramifications it would have for your life? I feel that way now.

I'd like to hear about anyone else's expeiences with something like this. Seriously.

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

Romans 5:1-5

I'm beginning to lose faith in the idea that I can do this. Of course, to other people I'm happy and doing okay without him. But the minute I'm alone, I completely fall apart. I know that God is doing this with all the faith in the world in me, but I'm doubting myself. I miss him more and more each day, and some days it takes everything I have to just get out of bed. And what makes it even harder is the fact that I'm doing this all by myself. Because the only person that I can talk to about absolutely everything has suddenly become too busy to notice that I am not okay. It's the absolute hardest thing in the world to lose the person you loved more than anything, but it's even harder to lose them without a shoulder to cry on. I miss him more than I thought it was possible to miss someone, and no one even knows it. Like I said, I'm not sure that I can do this.

Love Always: Me

This has been a long week. First week back at school and I'm already worn out and ready for summer. With swimming starting I'll just be getting more and more tired. But, it's all good. :-)

I'm happy with my classes. Things are going okay with my friends and I still am as single as a pringle. hehe.

Choreography is fun, I just don't remember any at the moment. We'll see what happens when I try singing and dancing at the same time.

We're havin a pep rally tomorrow in our new stadium, so that should be some good 'ol fun.

Okay. It's close to midnight. I have to go to bed. NOW.

Love you.

Skoo b coo.
lol
Im happy with tonite although I wasnt recentlyer today.
nice word - recentlyer.
I like hangin with my friends.
Isnt that nice.
Go Warriors!
Latin be for the true language crazy people.
Its interesting.
Im filled with happy.
Leave me comments on this poem.

The Poem of my school

I like the school
It fills my backpack
Hurts my back.

Has good people
Does fun stuff
Lets you ride the crazy bus with central kids.

Has a schedule with long walks
Gives you lunches with all of your friends.
Has machines to take your cash and give you unhealthiness.

Heres a poem.
No rhyme.
No structure now.
Give a comment.

I try to help, I really do...

But what do you want me to do about it? People complain all the time, and I'm supposed to help them? I'm so far away, there's not much I can do besides a virtual pat on the back and wish for good luck. I'm not the answer, so stop asking me to be.

And stop being so withdrawn when I can't help you. I'm sorry that everyone else seems so unconcerned with your problems, but last I checked, they're people too, and have their own problems to concern themselves with.

Try to be a little more positive, please. You know we care about you, but we can't do it all the time.

wow...i really dont know what to say!!! God has shown me soo much! now i just have to wait and see what happens w/ it!!! im soo thankful to have him part of my life!!!

work was a blast!!! i have to say i had fun!!! i went through some crazy things today!!! if anyone has any clothes they would like to get rid of they need to donate it to the Outreach Thrift Store...over by Jackson Heights Movie Theather!!!

im off to bed....im exhausted!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

My computer is acting up and the geeks are not online. . .i'd like to cry. my computer is really gay. . .i need the geeks

I think i'm going to PI again tonight. . .though, i don't want to. . .i'd perfer to stay and be lazy

No work tomorrow, working from Saturday till next thursday. woot woot.

oh, and today was payday.

and my neighbors are loud

and i miss anna!

Tonight a good friend(who is the lead singer for my band) and I found ourselves behind a piano. When musicians are bored and have a instrument things tend to happen. We started with a few chords and they grew into a song. While I was in NY I felt like I had a really bad case of writters block and couldn't get my thoughts on paper. Tonight the block was demolished. Words started to fly out out. Then they started to come together and a song was formed. Now, it's still in it's working stages and really nothing to speak of. I just wanted to share a piece of what makes me smile. When things come together it's good, but when songs come together I get weak in the knees. Especially when it's your heart in the lyrics.
                                           Josh

well soccer has been so much fun lately.. i love it.. except my ankles hurt, but i'm learning to suck it up. so yall suck at leavin comments.. work on it!!

wickedly fast day today. Jesus is now in my English class, i've found that i just can't work a paper cutter, i'm more stupid in algebra than i thought i was, and so far i'm totally digging band, but that could change at any given moment. we talked basically the whole time in Chem., and i actually enjoyed latin today, because all we did was write.

band was horrible, it was sooo hot, and the final run was terrible. i'm already getting sick of it, and it's only the 2nd week in.

i really miss some people. the people i don't see or get to talk to the entire day. kim, michael, brittany, etc....

i'm a planner. so naturally at the beginning of every year, i think of the route i will take everyday, but this year, is weird. mostly because i don't have a band hall locker. and it's slowly tearing me apart.

now for the seriousness....

i'm drifting from God, faster than i ever have before. i'm praying with no results, and maybe He's taking His time, perhaps to make me see that i need him more than anything. because at this moment i'm finding other things to fill the void of Him not being there.

God-Shaped Hole- Plumb

Every point of view has another angle
And every angle has its merit
But it all comes down to faith
That's the way I see it

You can say that love is not divine and
You can say that life is not eternal
"All we have is now"
But I don't believe it

Chorus:
There's a God-shaped hole in all of us
And the restless soul is searching
There's a God-shaped hole in all of us
And it's a void only He can fill

Does the world seem grey with empty longing
Wearing every shade of cynical
And do you ever feel that
There is something missing?

Chorus

That's my point of view...

There's a God-shaped hole in all of us
And the restless soul is searching
There's a God-shaped hole in all of us
And it's a void (repeat 2x)

Only he can fill
Only he can fill
Thats my point of view
Thats my point of view, yeah

Ok, If your questioning some of teh comments that I left on your site, don't. When I wrote those it was at 2 in the morning and i was so tired i could barely keep my eyes open. I'm sorry for any confusion.

"I cannot buy you happiness, I cannot by you years;
I cannot buy you happiness, in place of all the tears.
But I can buy for you a gravestone, to lay behind your head.
Gravestones cheer the living, dear, they’re no use to the dead."
-- Lyrics from the Dirt Silver and Gold album

Well it has been a while since i have updated but the lockin with northside and belle aire is tomorrow night. you might be saying i wish i could go call the church and check!!

If you are planning on coming then you MUST have a MTSU AND Belle Aire Medical Release on file in order to participate!

Also!! Guys bring a 2 liter and Girls bring chips!


Worship is going to very late so it is going to be awesome. worship is led by bj and the band and northside is bringing a speaker and they say he is amazing you will not want to miss it. ttul- proxy521 ministries

If I am alive this time next year,
Will I have arrived in time to share?
And mine is about as good this far.
And I'm still applied to what you are.
And I am joining all my thoughts to you.
And I'm preparing every part for you.

And I heard from the trees a great parade.
And I heard from the hills a band was made.
And will I be invited to the sound?
And will I be a part of what you've made?
And I am throwing all my thoughts away.
And I'm destroying every bet I've made.
And I am joining all my thoughts to you.
And I'm preparing every part for you

"All the Trees of the Field Will Clap Their Hands"
-Sufjan Stevens

Just as another form of rejoicing I'd like to share with those I love that I feel a peace from God that rivals anything else. I am taking advantage of it. God rocks. Everything is all Him.

P.S. This honky is getting inked. Keep tuning in for updates.

I LOVE you all.

Wassup everyone

siegel game friday night.

Hoooooooooly freaking cow, am I having fun doing disco in choir!! Wow. It's amazing.

Would it be just disgusting and wrong if I said I said I think a freshman guy is really cute?? He's like 14 but he's just amazing. I want to hug him. And marry him. But that would be history repeating itself (my mom's two years older than my dad.) And I swore I wouldn't follow in her steps.



Anyway this year just keeps getting better! And the day doesn't seem so long now, like it did Monday and Tuesday, when I almost froze and starved and passed out from exaustion and bain stress in every class. Things are settling down a bit.

Kisses.

Chri etc.

leave comment bored

totally bored outta my mind leave me sun

. . . the nude couple down the street is in their hot tub."

Haha, good ol' Mr. Tomlinson. I babysat his son, James, Tuesday and today and earned some extra money. That will definitely help with books. Woo, random babysitting rocks!

I hope I'm not freaking y'all out with some of my previous entries. It seems that God has layed something on my heart that I just can't get rid of, and it has left me with a question that I have asked a couple of you. I'm not sure what's going on, but I can say that I've had this crazy awesome peace from just trusting Him and a Hope that is just as great for my future. I can only pray that it continues to just get stronger.

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13

Nothing else is really going on. . . I'm not going to have a day off till Sunday, then I have to work Monday, possibly babysit Tuesday, work Wednesday, and I SHOULD be totally off Thursday. We'll see. I do plan on attending the Siegel game tomorrow night, though.

yes the doctor says I might have it
cant be for sure until tomorrow.
so in the mean while I am going to
go to the oakland freshman football game
teehee.
just dont kiss me.
then you'll be fine.

love you guysssss. < 3

SEVEN REMARKS!!
-does a little dance-

Sometimes I think to myself how cool it would be if I could be in a band and totally rock out! I watch some of these bands and how into it they are. It would be awesome to be able to pour out all your emotions into a song and playing. They are so into it. But unfortunatly God didn't give me that talent. I admire those people though. It all depends on how you use it. They are very lucky.

i want to be un-single-ized, yo
anyone wanna help me with that??? (larlar)

FRENCH KICKS BOOTY

you know it's true.

today was wonderful... 'nuff said.
i'm glad for many reasons.

Eric (Weezer) is adorable... he calls me alot now

i miss Bruce....

i love you....

i love food network... fat kids loooove food network. i want pie =P

abbbbbbs

last night was awsomeness..today was ok...it rained yesterday in downtown dallas :) im not sure if it did here...oh well...i love the rain it smells good and its fun to dance in lol...well im gonna go peace out
much love
amber

boys drive me crazy.

school is ok.
not the greatest.

so i went into this year i knew those two words words be in common with choir and everything and let me say it is pretty hillarious. for those of you who know me you might know i have no dance moves in my body! i have the rythem and all but not dance. i just kept thinking if nathan moore can get through a hour of dance class i can get through this. so yea school is ok. my 4th period is getting better God is defintly teaching me stuff through weird things. so yea thats pretty much it. later- stephen

He was trying to speak to me, I just know it!

Have you ever been in a room with someone that was talking to a group of people, and though they're speaking English, you feel like they're actually speaking another language entirely, because what they are talking about is so foreign to you? You understand a few of their "foreign" words, like you may pick up bits and pieces of a Spanish conversation, but you're still not entirely sure what's going on? Yeah, I experienced that with the InDesign workshop today (the one that was supposed to happen on Monday).

And then, have you ever...

Been so emotionally attacked by Satan out of the blue and it just made you wonder, "where did that come from?" Have you ever just had a day where the smallest things just triggered you to tears? And yet you know that all that matters is God and what He wants, but that doesn't change your emotions? That happened yesterday, at least twice.

Have you ever...

Just felt so stuck, like nothing is moving forward, yet knowing that in just a week and a half, your whole life is going to change?

Hmmm...

i'm kinda frustrated with this whole exchange student thing... (i know his name, but i'm afraid to butcher the spelling) it's like... he already knows everyone else. he doesn't need to know everyone else. and he's frineds with my frineds, but that doesn't seem to be a plus as of yet. and he's friends with Kelsey Shearron. i swear, she's competition to me in like every aspect of life. she effing goes to church with him. but, i love her to death. :shrug: maybe she can help out. plus the only time i really see him is at lunch. i do see him between like every class, too, but that's it.

maybe i was just too overzealous at first. maybe i should calm down and just be like another person he met at school, and just like wave in the hall and stuff. i don't know. i'll ask Britny about it. after all, we did adopt the aspiration to know this kid together.

but other than that, school is good. it's gonna be a good year.

I hate to leave all of you again, But Its time to go back to school, in 10 more days. I found out I ride bus 14 and i have to get there at 6:50, and i get home around 3:20 Well i gotta go im gonna miss you all!!

I guess this is goodbye.

2 more days. 2 more freakin days.

All packed, too. Everything in my room is taken down for the most part..and to think we just moved last November and I'm movin again..

I'll write in here as often as I can. No one reads it anyway but I like laying down my thoughts..

You stay classy Murfreesboro.

Survey thingy time:

1. Spell your first name backwards: alrac

2. Story behind your name: it's the feminine form of charles...my great grandfather was named charles and from what i hear he was a wonderful man

3. How old are you: 21

4. Where do you live: ugh....murfreesboro
DESCRIBE YOUR:

5. Wallet - a fake coach that i bought in chinatown ;)
6. Hairbrush- hot pink and black

7. Toothbrush- umm...i think blue and white (go MT! haha)

8. Jewelry worn daily- my swatch watch from paris!

10. Pillow cover- white

13. Sunglasses- they are MIA right now...
14. Favorite shirt- i would have to go with my diva shirt i got at the met :)

15. Cologne/Perfume- pleasure by estee lauder

16. CD in stereo right now- i don't have one in the player right now surprisingly
17. Piercings- one in each earlobe and 2 in my right cartilage

18. What you are wearing now- haha a union university t-shirt and black pj pants with socks and tennis shoes

19. Wishing- that i didn't have to do my make-up jury in 2 weeks

20. wanting- the 3rd day of school to be over with already

21. After this- going to practice before working out

22. If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what- nobody! i'm not THAT horrible ;)

23. Person you wish you could see right now- my husband...wherever he may be...

24. Some of your favorite movies- i have a lot but my top one right now is le choiriste...it's a french foreign film but it's absolutely magnificent!

25. Something you're looking forward to in the coming month - going back to school and getting back in the swing of things - OH and moving into my apartment in 4 days!!!!

26. The last thing you ate - la siesta...YUM!

27. Something that you are deathly afraid of- my make-up jury :(
28. Do you like candles - i LOVE candles

29. Do you like incense - eh, not so much. i tried to get into it, but i just can't

30. Do you like the taste of blood- what kind of question is this?
31. Do you believe in love - yes

32. Do you believe in soul mates - yes
33. Do you believe in love at first sight- no

34. Do you believe in Heaven- yes

35. Do you believe in God - yes

36. What do you want done with your body when you die - again, what kind of question is this!?

37. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be? a cheeta :)
38. What is the longest you've ever stay up? - i would say 24 hours, after that i zoncked out

39. Can you eat with chopsticks- me with my coordination!? now what do you think?

40. What's your favorite coin - umm...lets go with the susan b. anthony...

41. What are some of your favorite candies- m&m's!!!! oh and andes :)
42. What's something that you wish people would understand about you - i'm a pretty open person...i don't hold anything back

43. What's something you wish you could understand better- how boys think
44. Who is someone that you really wish was still around? nathan and maria :(

R e l a t i o n s h i p s
45. Who are your best friends? oh i have waaay too many to list here

46. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend- nope

47. Longest relationship- eh, a year and a half?
48. How many actual relationships have you been in- 3 real relationships

49. How many people have you kissed- heh, 5

50. Are you shy around your crush- well i don't have a crush right now, but the trend is yes, i am shy
51. Still have feelings for anyone you've been in a past relationship with- thankfully i can say a confident NO to this question :)

52. Do you know what it feels like to be in love- i don't guess so

53. Would you sacrifice your favorite possession for your best friends- of course!

f a s h i o n | s t u f f
54. Where is your favorite place to shop- H&M baby! yup, just got back from the one in chicago!
55. Have any tattoos or piercings- see above

56. What is your favorite thing to wear- a t-shirt and my pj pants i have on right now

57. What is a must have accessory- does mascara count?

58. How much is the most you've ever spent on a single item of clothing- i bought a $100 jacket when i was in the 7th grade....yeah i was ballin' ;)
60. Who is the least fashionable person you know- ALL of my friends are fashionable! do you think i would have friends that aren't!?

61. Do you match your belt with your hair color- i didn't know you were supposed to...

62. What is the worst thing you've ever thought looked good- that mickey mouse outfit i wore in kindergarten...those of you that have seen the picture understand ;)

64. How many pairs of shoes do you own- oh geez...i would say close to 100...i'm a shoe freak!
65. What is the worst trend you see today- skanky girls...now really, is that the only way you can get a guy????

photo from butterfly

O.K. So the concert was AWESOME!!! I am so sore today and hardly have a voice. There were some professions of faith, which was awesome. I stayed behind and helped roll cords and load the truck. We had fun. My brother won a C.D. for being loud!! lol, that's my brother... Anyway, resting today to do it all again tomorrow(Shane&Shane), then moving to Clinton Saturday. I am excited and nervous all at the same time, please pray for me. SMILE!!!

luv in Christ~ash

For the longest time, one of the only complaints that I have had about FireFox (on the Mac) is that when I fill out any forms, I cannot hit TAB to select a pulldown menu or a checkbox. It would just skip right over these. This resulted in every time I would fill out my address on a website or wanted to check the "remember info" box when logging in somewhere, I would have to manually do it.

For example, type NATHAN (TAB), type MOORE (TAB), type ADDRESS (TAB), type NEW YORK CITY (TAB), errr... skips to zip code rather than going to the pull down menu for all the states (which normally I would simply select and hit "N" until NEW YORK was selected)...

Anyways, I have found a fix to this annoyance. If you type "about:config" into the address bar in FireFox, it will pull up the configurations for the app. Use the search on that page to search for "tab." Find the setting that has the Preference Name of "ACCESSIBILITY.TABFOCUS" and double click the value field (default set to "1"). Change that "1" to a "7"

That's it. Now I am able to TAB freely between fields even pulldown menus and checkboxes. Ah. That's nice.

its crazy!!! but i have to say i like it a lot!!! i only know a couple ppl that work there! b/c i have only worked w/ 2 ppl soo far!!!
this afternoon should be interesting!!! but i like this job a lot!!!!
off to work!!!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

I pay to do something I'm not sure I really want to do.

I paid part of my MTSU bill today.

So yeah who got a job yesterday? Yeah thatd be me! Im so excited it sounds really fun. I get to be a server person for a catering company that does all the events and stuff for MTSU! i get a spiffy uniform and everything, even have to wear a tie! mwahaha! so i go in today to turn in the paperwork and i think i get my uniform today but again im not sure about that. but anyways wish me luck, hope it all works out! ttyl mucho luvies

Today I am 17 yes it is my bday yup yup I am excited but I am off to school somewhere I really don't wanna go but everyone have a wonderful day!
IN CHRIST john

so school started, and suddenly yesterday massive amounts of homework started. I guess thats how junior year goes. I did find a new pair of running shoes, so nice Nike dual ds. I think they will help me run today, but who knows.



amor!

cz


PS notice the new profile picture, thats where I want to be right now, on the beach....

Just got the new Nickel Creek album ("Why Should the Fire Die?") off of iTunes. It is incredibly awesome. In my own trying to learn the mandolin, I don't know if hearing that stuff discourages me or prods me on to greatness.

This is my first time ever using this thing.I mainly use BabyGurlModel21's Online Diary

so please pray for my grandmother cause she had surgery {knee replacement} on monday, and while she is ok...she is having a hard time getting back to herself...eating, nausea, and some other unmentionables that goes along w/ lengthy hospital stays are some problems at the moment...and her physical therapy is insane...

pray for my mom cause she is spending every waking moment (she isnt working) at the hospital. and its taking a tole on her mentally, just seeing her mother in that much pain when there is nothing she can do to ease it.

pray for me cause im having to try to keep things together and have a job and go to school...i asked my boss if saturday could be my last day and he said no...so, i dont know...but yeah...

*Lauren's post seriously spoke to me... the thing that stood out most was when she said "That's why He's my saving grace" how amazing is that?! i mean seriously... can you personally say that Christ is your saving grace?! i'm so thankful that i can!!! here i am this *mess-of-a-person*, i fail countless times... and STILL... Christ loves me... when He sees me He doesn't see my sin anymore... He sees what i can be... His sees the plan that the Father has for me. wow! He's fully freed my from my sin and grief. so why shouldn't i rejoice?! why shouldn't YOU rejoice?! if you haven't yet... talk to God tonight/today... ask Him to free you too... He can and He will!

*"Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and show thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not." -Jeremiah 33:3

Free -Ginny Owens
Turnin' molehills into mountains
Makin' big deals outta small ones
Bearing gifts as if they're burdened
This is how it's been
Fear of coming out of my shell
Too many things I can't do too well
'Fraid I'll try real hard and I'll fail
This is how it's been
'Till the day you pounded on my heart's door
And you shouted joyfully, "You're not a slave anymore!"

Chorus
And you're free to dance
Forget about your two left feet and you're
Free to sing
Even joyful noise is music to me
And free to love
'Cause I've given you my love and it's made you free(free) Free!

My mind finds hard to believe that
You've become humanity and
Changed the course of history
Because you loved me so
And my heart cannot understand why you'd
Accept me as I am but you see
You've always had a plan and that's all I need to know
So when I am consumed by what the world will say
It's then you're singing to me as you remove my chains!
Chorus
Oh free from worry, free from envy and denial
Free to live, free to give, free to smile!

People with striking eyes and nice hair can be infuriating and somewhat moronic.

That and the subject line are all I really have to say.

no more ice cream for me!! even tho i gained a lot of weight...i finally got sick!!!

goin to bed!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

ugh, i think too much....my head hurts and i can't sleep sometimes....why do i do this?

Gah, where are you?

All night long on my bed, I looked for the one my heart loves; I looked for him but did not find him. Song of Songs 3:1

That verse makes more sense now more than ever.

today in art i was flippin through a magazine and i found this crazy pic of an apple... it was weird when i first looked at it it looked like it was melted or something and then i looked at it again..... and it had boobs and a 6 pack ya it was an ad for golds gym and some apple company cause apples give you boobs and golds gym gives you a 6 pack

apples + golds gym = boobs and a 6 pack

i wish i weren't such an idiot...

For the past three days all it has done is pour down rain at football practice! I have been drenched on my way home!

School is goin good! Really busy! I have had quite a bit of homework! Our first football game is this friday night we play FRA away at 7:30! Wish us good luck

Well i gotta do some more homework so i will chit chat later! Leave me a comment! It will make my day!

church was cool tonight. Good message. Very encouraging. I'm on leadership now. Yay for that. Tomorrow is john's birthday. Show him some love. Peace out.

~G

Unchanging One by Todd Agnew

You know when I wake
When I rise
When I pray
When I Curse You
And You love me the same
And You know when I stumble and fall
And You’re there through it all
The only unchanging one

I love this song...

omg you guys i got my senior pictures back today and they are amazing!!!! im sooo pleased with them and im totally excited about showing you guys.well i can't out them up right now cuz the scanner isn't hooked up but im planning on bringing them to school tomorrow for all to see.....im so excited....wow i can't believe it's my senior year.....AHHHH!!!!

i just can't wait for this year to get started and be over with you know......

well i must go....
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!
GOD BLESS!
Leah

Well here is to another year to come of school. Not fun but its life.

I thought that maybe that would get people to read this entry thinkin it was interesting.
It has a funny story.

We were in latin today and we were learnin words.
One word was Laborant. With a little line above the o.
Mr. Ogles asked what it reminded us of.
Everyone said labor...
Except the girl behind me,
who,
at the top of her voice yells out...
LABORATORY!
That was funny as a baby peeing on someone.
lol.
Go high school...
Im startin to really like life...
Backpack almost complete...
- J 4 ( () 8

THIS IS GAYYYYY

Sooo I went to the job fair with ashley today. I filled out an application and they offered me a job. WOO HOO!!! I then went by Krogers and kindly turned in my 2 weeks notice!!! YAY!!! I'm sooo happy!!! I'm ready to get out of there!!!!

*dies from lack of sleep*