I know those are lyrics to a Blink song, but, thats the way it is with the Green Day concert. It got postponed. One of the members of the band became sick. I just hope that they perform on a day that I don't have band. With my luck, they would make it up on a Tuesday or Thursday.

Anyway... today was pretty cool. I already have a report though. That blows.

Thats really all, so, I'm out.

sorry if I dont update for awhile.
just probably wont have the time.

love you though. < 3

how was your first full day of school?

Hey people I just got back from school and from all the people bugging me to ask out Jacqlyn. Calm down because I don't think she has realised that I was the guy who said she played soccer. Jacqlyn I was wearing a blue shirt and black pants so I don't know yet.

photo from GLAMOURxGiRL

umm well this is fun...i have xanga sites and myspace sites if you want them IM me thanks loves

"I want to ask you about school... if you're late for the first day of school, will they kill you?" -Sally to Charlie Brown in a Peanuts cartoon

Well, while many of you returned to high school for your first full day of the new year, I actually went to my new school, though it has not started back yet. This semester I will be working with the Honors College's literary magazine staff, so I went to MTSU for an InDesign worskshop. I ate lunch with Mom at the KUC and got some books at Phillip's. (I didn't see Garrett or Robert, but I did see Justin.)

But anyhow, the guy who was supposed to be showing us how to use InDesign did not show up... go figure! But it was still neat to be at the university. I know some kids go to MTSU because that's their only choice, but that's not the case with me. I chose to go there, and I like it, and I can feel how right it is whenever I'm on campus.

I have had some concerns like Sally, however, like what if I'm late to a class because I have trouble finding it? But I know that God is in control, and it's all going to work out for His glory.

simply amazing, check it out. . . and maybe you can grow your own crowder.

http://www.growyourcrowder.com

David Crowder's influence apparently goes far beyond music...

Hey Hey, my names nate and I just started my page today!!!! Feel free to leave comments and such to kinda get me started!!!!! Thanks GOD BLESS

ahhh i just stood out in the rain. i just stood their laughing. it was fun! and my dog came out with me too. it was great! i love the rain. and even more than that i love the joy God put in my heart despite current cirumstances.

Okay, I told everyone that I would collect quotes on our mission in AZ and that I would post them. Here they are, with much ado and even more public demand:

"Oh, look at the rocks! They look like little turds!" --"Hard Core Bacon" Erin Kelly

"What's wrong? Can we pee?!" --Branden Baker, after a long drive to the Grand Canyon

"You can come in, but I'm warning you: we're not wearing any pants!" --me, after a long day and a lot of caffeine

"I'm completely ignorant!" --Hard Core

"ROCKS!....Rocks, rocks, rocks, rocks, rocks!" --Tiffany "Talks-in-Sleep" Manning

"I'm a lousy expert!" --Rachel Dozier, describing her status after checking all 44 WVians and Alabamans for lice (which, in its singular form is "louse")

"I want everyone to be peeing clear!" --Jay Barrow, on the dehydration situation in AZ, prompting us to then ask if there was a prize for the first clear peeing individual and what process would be used for proof...yikes.

"Carefree Highway...Happy Valley...these people are on a lot of drugs!" --Tiffany Manning, on the geographic locations noted driving from Flagstaff to Phoenix

"I wonder if we can fit one of these coffee tables in our luggage..." --Tiffany Manning, on the amazing hotel we got to spend the night in after a week of roughing it during tarantula season near the Apache rez (thank you, Jamie Waugh!)

Guess what I've been doing the past few days? Painting! Again! Thank goodness nothing is in Caribbean blue!
University Christian Fellowship recently received a much-needed budget to refurbish our campus house at Marshall University. We decided that the off-beige interior was getting old, so project numero uno is to paint the whole building. We have a purple prayer room (my favorite so far), a very green main room, an amazing electric blue kitchen, and a very, very red bathroom that has been the subject of contention for many. Some have mixed feelings. Some, like my friend Jess, think it is "horrid" (but she meant it in the nicest possible way!). I, personally, think it's great! I love red. Next on the list after painting is putting together the computer lab which has been much contemplated and pontificated for the past year, but little progress has been made. The goal is that the campus house will be more of a hang-out (a la "the Max" from "Saved by the Bell"). This way, we will have more of an outreach.
In other news, I am, for all intents and purposes, gainfully employed. I was offered a job teaching music at two elementary schools in a local county. I took the job. I prayed that the first job offer would be the right one, and I am trusting that God granted that request. It's a bit of a drive to work every morning, but I am, nevertheless, excited. :-)
Anyway, that's life right now.

Yesterday was a good day! Meredith and I went to Staten Island to hear our friend George Ippolitto preach. He is such a passionate speaker. He did a great job!! He introduced us to the congregation as "missionaries" and I for the first time realized that is what I am. It was a very humbling realization.

The subway was totally messed up because of construction so it took a while for us to get around. I took a cab, then the 2 train, then a shuttle bus to the ferry, then a ferry to Staten Island, and then hopped on a church van to go to George's church.

I spent the afternoon with Lane and Hodg-E. I had the best time with them. We talked for hours just catching up on each other and then watched a movie. We went to dinner at a restaurant on a street that reminded me of Harry Potter. On our way back, it began to rain. So to that I must say I got soaking wet. It was fun though. All of us running from cover to cover. It was quite a sight.

When I finally headed home, the 2 train was closed down at their apartment because of floods. To make a long story short, let me just say that it took me an hour and a half to get home. It normally takes about 30 or so minutes. And when I finally made it to where I needed to be, it started pouring again. And so I got drenched again.

All in all, as many mishaps as there were, I had a wonderful day. I love this city!

I am nothing without GOD and I am completly thrilled about it.

photo from blizAke

The highlight of my night...haha. It looked even worse in person!

heey, well i decided i would give this phusebox thing a whirl...i kinda like it. Anways you guys are the best and i am going to miss you all very much!

photo from kat625

if only i had one wish
id want a million trillion lifetimes that I could spend with you
fall in love with you again and again

Thats my clay...my favorite...my best friend. the guy who makes me wanna be a better person, who makes me smile and laugh and not to mention the best back scratcher around. Tonite was his last nite at home. Tomorrow he's movin in up at lipscomb, which is very exciting but also it's kind of sad. Okay its very sad....but it will be okay because God's in control...and if I had to choose someone to be in control of it....it'd definitely be Him. Im gunna miss seeing him all the time...but it's gunna be alright. Not even an hour away..... i know it could be a LOT worse.

Well I need to finish my summer reading.....YEA i know....in COLLEGE.

You know those are really the only words that can describe my insanely crazy weekend. It all started thursday night had the rehersal dinner for my brothers wedding which was very fun!! Saw alot of old friends of his that I havent seen in forever. Then woke up friday morning round 8ish and relaxed bc I knew it would be the only time I would get to all day. Then left at 10:30 to go get my hair done. Then headed to work to get my check then headed home, didnt like my hair so I took it down washed it and headed to get mine and my mom's make-up done then back home to curl my hair then headed to Riverwood Mansion, let me tell you this place was GORGEOUS!! Well got there saw my brother for a few minutes then went and talked to Amanda for a minute then I got dressed and went down stairs to sit with my dad and ashe to wait for the guys to do there pictures, thats when it all started happening, I started cryin when Derek and the guys came out I was just bawling. Then I tryed to control myself so I went and walked around for a minute or two, then came back and sat around then ppl started arrving then it came to go and sit down outside for the wedding. It was a beautiful wedding, if you want major details ask because this is gotten long enough lol, but it was so pretty and Amanda looked amazing but I cryed throughout the whole wedding lol no surprise there. The reception was sooo much fun, didnt get home till 3 lol! Then slept till one on saturday then headed to work at 4 and got a very special visitor that night and that was sooo much fun!! Ahh love it if you want details on that one come talk to me too lol!!! But spent the night at a friends apartment saturdat nnight and woke up today to go to Derek's grad then ate here and went and got some Ice Cream with my girl Rach gotta love her! Then headed to Starbucks to meet up with him and that was nice he is soo nice!!! Oh and we got a new dog its a blue heeler and he name is Maggie she is a doll I love her!!! But Im exhausted and feel sickly so Im headed to bed and the pics from the wedding and graduation are in my photo box! Love yall if you read it all lol!!

And the profile pic is of my brother and my beautiful new sister-in-law!!

**So you stole my world...you're the best I ever had***

TEN Random Things about me
10. My favorite TV Station is Nickalodeon GAS.
9. I named my cat after the cat from Alice in Wonderland. (Dinah by the way if you didn't know!)
8. I have over 40 picture frames (w/ pictures) in my room.
7. I have a pink furry pillow on my bed.
6. I own all 5 Spice Girls dolls unopened and everything.
5. I passed out the first time I gave blood.
4. I keep all my shoes in two big bags.
3. I am really really nervous around people I don't know.
2. My favorite candy bar is a Milky Way.
1. I have never been grounded.

NINE Ways To Win My Heart
9. Be a Squishy guy...no overly muscly or overly skinny.
8. Hold my hand where everyone can see.
7. Talk to my parents.
6. My me laugh until I think I'm gonna pee my pants!
5. Be sincere
4. Don't be judgemental or shallow
3. Talk when something is bothering you...don't bottle up emotions and don't let me bottle up mine!
2. Call me at 3 in the morning when you can't sleep and don't be mad if I call you at 3 because I can't sleep!
1. Ask how am I doing and really care!

EIGHT Of My Favorite People(no order)
8.LizBeth
7. Julie
6. Dena
5. Rachel
4. Amy
3. Lauren B.
2. Lauren N.
1. Gracie

SEVEN Places I've Been
7. HotLanta AKA Atlanta
6. The Bahamas
5. California
4. New York
3. New Mehico AKA New Mexico
2. Arkansas
1. Tan-pa AKA Sticks of Lightning

SIX Things That I Want
6. A better digital camera
5. My senior scrapbook to be finished!
4. The O.C. to come back soon!
3. To be closer to God
2. To never have to wake up before 10
1. To own all the movies I love!

FIVE Things I'm Afraid Of
5. Running out of $$ in college
4. Failure
3. Never finding the one
2. Trusting too easily
1. Growing Up

FOUR of My Favorite Items In My Bedroom
4. My shoes
3. My quilt
2. My pictures
1. My Bed

THREE Things I HATE
3. Shallow people
2. Judgemental people
1. Liars

TWO Things That I am Thinking about Right Now
2. Can I hack it in college
1. Will I meet the one in college?

ONE Person I Want To See Right Now
1. LizBeth

Hands down, Burger King has the worst ad campaign of all time. Even worse than those "I have genital herpes" ads.

disciple now is this weekeknd... im scared the past 3 years some highschooler has died this weekend and its REALLY scarry like im afraid for real but i know Godll take care of it all... and speakin of d-now that bring up last year and my gangsta of love by this i mean Bruce ah man its almost been a year and for the 1 year anniversary ill b with noone else who understands........ it sucks really bad and im afraid that ill be caught up in the d-now excitement to really think about what happened and then ill feel bad for the rest of my life and man its not cool but you... well some of you know how it goes

on a brighter topic church was great today had fun hangin out with my church kids there so great and school tomorrow im so excited im pumped to get to see my buds all the time now i hope they dont take me out of my cool classes when they change my schedule... well im excited to see you all i love you

so, I've been to the brooklyn tabernacle twice now in less than 6 days and both times I've been taught some things about prayer... mostly about how much of a privilege it is to come before God and put yourself aside and really pray for the needs of other people, even people you don't know who have cried out admitting their desperation for God to move in a particular situation. It really is such a gift to be able to ask God to align our wills with His and to draw us closer to Him. I think naturally we usually bring our own problems and burdens to Him first, but that’s not really the way it should be. He’s given us the body so that we can care for one another and rejoice with each other and really depend on one another as brothers and sisters in Him…

a pastor at our church proposed today during the benediction and everyone was yelling and screaming and taking pictures. It was a little strange, but sweet. Our church really is family to one another, and he wanted to share the moment with all of the people closest to him. It was a really great example of what the body of Christ should look like.

So it looks like now the prayer service IS happening this Tuesday night at the tab. We misunderstood and did bad research...

a lot of you have already seen my new pictures but there are a few more than when i first added some. these pictures are long overdue from new york.

i got my hair cut tonight! thanks elizabeth! i like it a lot.

i'm not so excited about school starting tomorrow. like i'm seriously dreading it right now. grrr.

I cant believe Im in high school.
I'll be short tonite cuz I gotta get to bed early.
Today was good.
My friend Jessica had a goin a way party cuz she's goin to UT.
That was sad but I couldnt stay for more than 15 minutes which kinda sucked.
Oh well.
She'll be back soon.
I'll miss her alot...
Talk to yall after the FIRST DAY OF HIGH SCHOOL!
Yall comment...
- J 4 ( () 8

Journal entry dated December 12, 2004:


Forbidden love is the most passionate.


"I had a dream the other night...it was very unprecedented. It was about one girl, a very beautiful girl...One night, quite late, I find myself running for my life from people I can't identify. Through an abandonded warehouse I sprint, frantically looking for an escape. A set of double doors are ahead, the kind that have a distinct look of leading into a commercialized kitchen. I burst through the doors, and appear to have temporarily confused those hunting me. As I look around to gain my bearings, I see her, standing for no apparent reason in front of an old freezer. This girl, through unwritten but understood rules, had been theoretically forbidden to me. I stop running from-- and worrying about-- the people chasing me. I slowly walk up to her, admiring her beauty. I then hold her tight, very tight. As if letting go would symbolize discovery by those attempting to find me. Not a hint of air passes between our bodies, yet it was not in any way sexual in nature. Then, unexpectedly, I lean in and kiss her. Not a long drawn out kiss, but not a superficial peck either. It was a simple kiss, but it had so much meaning and hidden desire wrapped into it. I pull back, though, and I step back and I tell her that it can't work, that we can't be together. I continue saying, "They (referring to people she knows) won't approve of this and they won't let it happen." She simply responds, "Don't worry about them, this (gesturing to "us") is more important. I will handle it..." and we proceed with one more short but amazing kiss and a short hug, and then the memory is gone, ending quickly.

That dream gave me an amazing feeling. I want it to happen. But she doesn't know, and she probably never will....

But it felt incredible."

it is patient

i will see cassie in 22 hours!!!!!! yipee!!!!!!

mai doggy threw up dis morning....
cuz of da pizza mai sister gave her >

summer is over. school starts tomorrow. ehh. i'm still trying to figure out how i got put in geometry first period. i hate it. i suck at it. my brain already doesn't work in the morning. blah. i'm not really sure i like my schedule. i mean, most of my classes are fine. but some of the people in most of my classes...ehhh. o well. it'll work out fine, right?

that's about it. i love you.

If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.
~Luke 9:23

glad i went to church this morning!!! im glad i have deicded to go back to sunday morning worship just not sunday school!
it was tuff this morning tho! my foot was killing me tha whole time!!!!

went to look at houses today!

had ice cream w/ my best gurl Jamie!!! we got a chance to catch up! we have soo much fun! lol!

got to work tomrorow..and then goin to Denas!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

Ok so now I take it all back, I'm not the one to usually take things back all the time, but I realized b/c of a friend by the name of Miss. Jana Johnson that that last entry is harsh, and mean and I don't want one of the last things he remembers me by is she is the girl that hates me and that hurt my feelings, so sorry _______ ____, hope you will forgive me and hopefully we can still talk every once and a while.

and a little side note...I really want to see Red Eye and that movie where the woman falls asleep and when she wakes up her son is gone and isn't on the plane, idk what it is called but I'm sure you know what I'm talking about

being back in society is pretty boring. i was isolated for two weeks and it was great. i guess i tend to forget how sinful people really are. i dont know, it was just a perfect place with really cool people. work was okay. i just drive 60 miles a day. the people at the schools are pretty nice. i think they enjoy my company. i enjoy theirs. i made $107 this week on driving. thats pretty cool. im really bored right now. ill talk to ya later. peace

im ganna think of a really deep entry, then ill tell u about it. lol

i really like to laugh. i know that is random but the best thing is to have a good laugh. You know those ones that you can hardly breath because you are laughing so hard. Those are awesome. okay that was it.

lightening is pretty...

hey guys! this is my first entry. school is tomorrow, summer is over....:( oh well its been fun!!!

so i come home yesterday from work at about 6 30 and im DEAD tired...id been workin since 8 am...so anyways..i come and hit my bed and in about .56899 of a sec my mom bursts in telling me that my grandparents are coming and that i have to help her clean the house..

so i clean till about 9 ish then i ate some leftover stuff and just as i was about to fall into that wonderful magical glorious bed thing.... my dad calls me outside to help with a water leak under the house....

so for the next 4.5 hours i sit in a light drizzle in the darkness on the side of the road with a crow bar waiting for my dads signal to turn the water off or on...

it was quite funny.


then after all that trauma i got up and went to the DBS mother daughter tea, it was interesting, my favorite part was the chocolate covered strawberries.

lol...

so school tomorrow..i really hope theyve got my schedule fixed..

love YOU.

Hello hope everyone is good , I miss all my paint the town buddies alot! Anyways I am sure school about to start back for most of us oh the joy of college lol. Ok moving along some of yall know some of yall dont as of 3 days ago my life will never be the same with the news I got so PLEASE pray for me and my family, I am REALLY hurting and trying to be strong but feel so weak.Haleybug

just kidding. ah yes, so today was the mother-daughter tea @ the Country Club. hardy har. so, this woman talked for at least 10 years. but seriously, like an hour. and i almost died. it was bad enough that she talked about the beginnings of DBS, but then she went into an oration on how "since 1933, the price of jeweled pins has gone up significantly...." and how if you resign from DBS, you have to give back your pin and all that jazz. or else they chop off your fingers and make you stay in the Country Club dungeon (it's underneath the pool). i felt like such an uncouth retard sitting there laughing my bum off, (quietly of course), but she was too hysterical for words. but i really did have a good time. they had fondue, which was funny to me for some reason. tomorrow is mucho busy-o. i have school first yo, then i gots ta go to el orthadontist-o. then, i'm going to Penn Station with Kelsey and the gang, and after that, i'm going to Oath Night @ Stroop's house. woot woot. i'm pretty excited about tomorrow. and then i have Bible study on tuesday, which is always good. so i overall Rush week has been pretty fun. i'm not nervous at all about DBS anymore. it's all good. well, i gotta go. but i'll talk more later. word.

School started... :-( I have two classes with Jacob... :-) YAY! Well I guess i'll see everyone tomorrow at school.

coldplay's in a month...
oh and my birthday but...
coldplay's in a month.

i have a chunk of metal stuck in my hand.
kiss it & make it better?

"Music is everybody's possession. It's only publishers who think that people own it."
-john lennon

beatles > jesus

my heros:
john lennon, tim burton, andy warhol, and mitch hedberg.

my grandfather has gone to see his wife in heven

"we morn a loss here, but he is having the time of his life now" mrs phylis

I Have not updated this thing in forever but anyways nice to know that its still here

Question
Should I Dye my hair blonde or red??

Hey everyone I dont think I have many people that se this so I may quit and just stick to xanga b/c I cant keep up with three of them b/c I have a myspace too. Well im out c-ya
--Curtis--

"Do everything in love." -1 Cor. 16:14

Possibly the most fundamental of all Bible verses. Could also be one of the most important.

Love. It's what the entire Christian faith is based on. God sent His Son because He loved us. Jesus died on the cross because He loved us. Every single Christian idea is based on the act of loving one another. So why do people today have such a hard time doing it??

People always tell me that I have one of the biggest hearts they've ever seen. I would do anything for anyone that needed it. I will cause myself pain so that others may avoid it. It's just what I've always done. It's all I know *how* to do.

God has blessed me with this massive heart with so much love inside to give that I could explode. So what happens when that huge heart puts everything it has into loving someone, and the person runs away from it.

I believe with all that I have that Josh is the one for me. I know it in my heart and not a single thing could make me believe otherwise....Not even him saying he no longer believes it. I know that he loves me, and I know that he knows what we have together. Someone extremely important in my life told me that while Josh and I were togther, everything else just seemed to fit. And now that we're not, everything else seems not so perfect anymore. But Josh needs to figure that out for himself, and he needs to quit running away from it just because he's scared.

I knew that God had something to teach me through all of this. I knew that He wasn't just causing me to go through this pain just for the heck of it. I just hadn't figured out what that lesson was until this morning at church.

Maybe Josh and I aren't meant to be with each other right now. He and I both have a lot of growing up to do, and my part of growing up needs to be done before I bring another person into it. Like I said earlier, with my huge heart comes this incredible amount of love to give. And even though my heart will always belong to Josh, it needs to have another focus for right now. My heart needs to be focused on getting my spiritual life where it needs to be. I need to put my heart into my faith and it needs to be focused on figuring out what God has planned for this heart He blessed me with. I've got to focus on that for a while, and I'm not able to do that with my focus being elsewhere. And then, when God believes I'm ready, my heart's focus will return to Josh while still putting everything I have into my faith.

Even though I've realized all of this, not being with Josh is still harder than I ever thought imaginable. The pain intensifies more each day and the tears still flow at their own free will. But I'm trying to learn to be okay without him for a while, because I know in my heart that we will be together again. Though most everyone else has stopped believing in us, I still have faith in Josh and I. I just wish that he would allow himself to believe it also.

Love Always: Me

April is staying till next January.






I'm so happy. I love her.

I worked out last night and today. But then, my mom gave me a cinnamin roll. So now I wish I didn't eat it.











Ba Ba, Ba Ba, this is the sound of settling.
I love Death Cab for Cutie.




They are in fact, one of my favorite bands.
I have quite a few.









"I don't think they conceal my boobs."

well Mrs. Cindy is the BEST!! she changed my schedule!! goodness i love her... now i can just go to my new classes w/out waiting until tues. well.. i'm sorta dreading school, but i'll try to make the best of it..cuz that's all i can do right?

have a wonderful week! later dudes and dude-ettes

Yeah, so i'm new to this, i'm rather confused.
I have a myspace though, so add me on there:
http://www.myspace.com/princesskarla826

these are my classes in numerical order

English
French II
Chemistry
Drama
U.S. Government
Economics
Geometry

oh yeah...this is going to be fun.... :(

ok...yeah..."Diary of a Mad Black Woman" is amazing...i love it! i have decided to put it in the "favorite box" in my head right now...so everyone in my circle of friends should see it and put it in their box, too!

*groans* School isn't tomorrow. It's all an illusion. They calender is lying to me. My mind is lying to me. School can NOT be tomorrow.

But it is.

So, I went school supply shopping. The only good part about starting school. Seeing all the millions of pencils and pens makes me a happy camper. I even got white out. Do I need it? Nope, but it is awesome anyway.

I've also been working on my summer reading objects. I doubt Mr. Marlett will take them up tomorrow, but just in case. I probably won't do the Their Eyes Were Watching God one just yet though, seeing that I still need to read the book.

Tommorrow, I am desperately going to try and change my scedule around. If I could move third to first, and first to fitfth, and fifth to third, everything would be great. But I am trying not to get my hopes up, because everytime I do get excited about something it goes horribly wrong. Plus the guidence counselors are bitches. At least I have an excuse to change my history class.

Anyway, this entry was way to long for my tastes. See you tommorrow at not school.

I feel like crap. Yes, crap. I'm tired, and I had to chaperone a children's trip to Chuck E. Cheese today for church. Screaming children arguing over tokens and pizza + tired and exasperated teenage girl = a really big headache. And I still have to do those summer reading card thingies. Yuck. So yes, that is my life at the moment. School again tomorrow, hate my classes, desperatly alone in most of them, miss all my friends. That's about it. Hope your day went better than mine.

haha im back.well i was gonna quite but what the hay ill keep it...plus i have some kewl new pictures so check em out!

stacy

I uploaded more picture...yay! There are more coming, and these will be in color...haha. I accidentily took several photos in black and white. I actually kind of like it, but I wish you could have seen the vivid colors of the coast of California! I guess you will just have to go yourself.

it feels like tuesday. just in case you werent aware.


but yeah, id have to say one of the, if not the best, moments of band camp was:

krista and kayla writing on sam's car: "sam

photo from SingAHappySong

Yesterday Garrett's dad turned 50, and I went to his birthday party last night. It was pretty fun. It was the first time I had played a real game of pool. I played against Hannah McKnight, who had also never played before. I lost because I sunk the 8 ball too soon. Oops. I stunk pretty bad at first but thankfully improved throughout the game. I'm definitely not that great though... Garrett's Uncle Ham nailed Chuck (Garrett's dad) in five minutes... Well I guess we'll see how well he does when HE'S the one turning 50... ha ha... ok, so 50's really not THAT old...

And just to think, sometimes I think 18 going on 19 is old. Well, not really old, but sometimes I feel like I've let the best years of my life slip past me. Wasn't high school supposed to totally rock? Well, I had a pretty good three years (I hated freshman year) but I think it's going to get better (but probably also harder) as God works through my life more and more.

And speaking of age... have you ever found yourself having to console someone older than you? It's a strange feeling. It makes you realize that growing up doesn't mean you'll always be confident or have all the answers. So that means that even on that first day of college when I feel oh so timid and not confident... that doesn't make me any less of a young woman... HOWEVER, I should rely on God, because He will take care of me!

So where are some good tennis shoes? I decided I wanted to take the Reeboks back... they're not my style... and I took back the pair of tennis shoes I had bought before those... I'm having a serious shoe crisis! I've been having a hard time finding shoes that fit me lately... odd... my old shoes still fit fine... so it can't be my feet... I don't think...

I went to Emily's bridal shower for a little while. That was kinda neat. I had never been to a bridal shower before today. It's the most I've gotten to talk to Sarah B. since she came home.

And last but not least, I have a theology bit for the day. Yes indeed... so my dad was talking about the sermon this morning and was saying something to me about how we can't come to God unless He calls to us, because we really can't come to Him on our own. So for a moment I was confused, but then I realized that this is very true. I'm not a Calvinist, but I believe in predestination. I also believe in free will. Contradiction? I don't think so. The Bible has verses about both. God predestines those He foreknew. Meaning, God knows who's going to believe in Him, and those He predestines. And those are the ones He calls to Him and accepts. We have the choice, but He knows how we will respond.

School=Tomorrow
Tomorrow=Offically offically a freshman.
Freshman year=whole new world of possibilities.
Whole New World of Possibilities=good thing or bad thing.

Summer is over in less then 12 hours.
Wow.
This summer has been one of the best,funniest,amazingest,happiest summers of my life.But its also been painful.

I am over him.I don't want to date him.He's practically a manwhore.

Then I see him smile.>.

yoo hoo...anybody there???

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.



What Are The Keys To Your Heart?




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i FINALLY get new jeans today :excited:
school tomorrow ♥
i helped out at "childern's church" today. i love 3-year-olds. they're funny.
next weekend = ONE YEAR (yikes) i can't believe he's been gone that freaking long...
:my tummy hurts:
i want a boyfriend.

♥♥♥
abby

-sighs-
school

tomorrow :( summer is over :(

BUT ( this year is gonna be good )

hahahahahah

Well the open house was kinda silly, it went great for the arts academy but PXS didn't really play lol. So I left early and went to the mall for a while. Haha saw ML and she thought I was Jimmy and was really mad lol. Then went to the movies with Alyssa, Chelsey, Emily, Mady, Sean, Jordon, Kathrine Claire, Alyssa's friend, and some other ppl lol. Then STARBUCKS!!!! YESS! Church was FANTASTIC today! And I just got back from a MYO meeting, great fun! I'm Excited. Last Wednesday's Asitia thing went well too! Oh and my hair dying appointment got messed up so I have to make a new one.... *sigh* School tomorrow! Hmm....

Gloria Patri

Nathan

PS: Wicked is such a great musical!!!!!

My Pig Personality

Wow....this is the first time I have updated within one day of another update! LOL! I really wanted to get on here, and just thank God for the call of intimacy he has made in my life especially with starting at Belle Aire. Guys, I grew up in another church for 12 years, but I sensed that God was calling me to Belle Aire. I was a little worried that I hadn't made the right decision, but God really has met me. God has worked in so many wonderful youth, college students, and adults to make me feel welcome there. Dean's message this morning really affirmed that leap of faith for me because for so long I felt like my parents would never respect the decision I made to leave. I told them in January that I was sensing a call to leave everything I had known to join Belle Aire. Like any loving parents would do, they tried everything to keep me where I was, but as time went on I felt like God was still tugging on my heart. When my parents finally did let God take me away, they realized like I did that God only had good intentions for me. What God showed me this morning was that when we enter that narrow gate as his disciple without any other influence, we become the person he intended for us to be. I feel like each day God is continuing to mold me into the man that he intended for me to be, and that excites me! I just want to again thank my new family at Belle Aire for just being by my side to encourage me. I realize there will be weeks when I miss being where I was, but the feeling I have by living in God's heart and his calling for my life, is a feeling that I never want to release. I'm right where I need to be. Thank you Daddy....

Matthew 7:13-14: Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a FEW find it.

Idk if I will hurts someones feelings by saying this, it is basically only one person I MIGHT hurt, but who cares, I take the whole I want to lay one on him thing I said 2 post ago, scratch that, it was never said even though it is there, I don't know what I think about it or him now, but not that, I don't want to lay one on him and I don't even know if I want to see him again for a very long time, but he is leaving, going off to college, and good luck to ya, you know who you are, and I guess I'll keep your going away present on my dresser until you come and get it and want it or until I go off to college and forget about it, idk, hope you don't feel hurt, but you kinda hurt me so yea...

I love Fight Club. But i disagree with what Brad Pitt said when he said that "We are born a generation raised to belive that we're all going to grow up to become movie stars and rock gods. But for most of us it won't happen." That's crap. If you want to be famous...work at it. Want that perfect body? work at it. Want to accomplish something extraordinary? Be a little bit crazy. It takes a little insanity to make great things possible.

Today was the last official day of the seniors being in the youth group. . . so I came to Sunday School in my best hat.


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Then a few of us ((plus Joey the 2nd year college sophomore)) went out to eat at Demos'.


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What fun it's been.

"All that we love deeply becomes a part of us."
- Helen Keller

I remind myself of this quote every time I have to force myself to walk away from the one I committed to love. I was surprised by my reaction this morning - I thought I was long past a pounding heart and a fluttering stomach. I remember well the day I chose to love him - I knew it was a risk, I knew I might get hurt - I weighed all the options, examined all the alternatives and chose to love him anyway. Not the immature and situational kind of love that we see so often glorified in our society - real, genuine, unconditional love that extends beyond circumstances. So, it is no wonder that walking away from him has created so much havoc in my life. I have full confidence in God's sovereignty, and I know that His plan will prevail. It breaks my heart that he has strayed so far from the God that loves him and I know that I cannot allow him to take me down that road with him - so please pray for him (most of you can do that by name). I am doing fine, having to adjust, but God is so faithful to walk beside me every step of the way - my biggest concern is for his spiritual walk - i want him to make it back to the top of the spiritual "mountain" where we met.

Jesus stands at the door and knocks, you have to open it, go through it, and close it behind you.

tomorrow is the first full day of school.
excited, yes
nervous, mmhmm

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I love you guyss
lots

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you know what?
I think I am the most horrible person alive
at the moment at least..
-sighs-

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Woof, all my fury and non fury friends. I'm growing! I had worms really bad, I know that's gross, but it really made my tummy hurt. Mom took me to the doctor and he gave me this really cool banana (watch out Call Call) tasting paste. I'm better now and I want to eat everything in site! I tried to eat a SOS pad the other day and my mom dug it out of my mouth. Funny thing is, when I drank from the evil cats water bowl, it made bubbles. HMMM
My chew toy, Josh, had an operation on my favorite chew part of his body and now he wont let me chew on his leg. He says it hurts and I'm too rufffff. I have 2 new toys from wally world, but i would really rather have the SOS pad, yum yum. I can't marry you keaton, mommy says i'm too young, i'm only 10 weeks old you sick O.

hey,
Yeah, so i was closing last night at work. I looked at this weeks schedule, and to my disbelieving dissapointment, I work every day again. Thursday, I call in at 4 so I probably won't have to work. My manager is breaking my bawwwwwls. Its cool though, because some jackass stole 160 dollars from me the other day while i was asleep. So i kind of need the money.

ive never fallen so hard

im really obessessing of this one song.
amazing.

School.
Why does Wil have to be in my English class idk.......
and the fact that I hate gym is not too good either.
Oh well. Life goes on.
but i lovvve my algebra 2 class
*Abs*

The Whisper song by the Ying Yang Twins. There some fly ass nigguhs B) Literally.

Wait 'till you see my dick.
Wait 'till you see my dick,
Aye bitch!!!

Beat da pussy up.
Beat da pussy up.
♥The song for me and my backseat lover (:
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one thing i learned from Land Of The Dead,
is that Zombies are only trying to find somewhere to go. How cute. :_(


what a night.
seriously.

The Band is REALLY good this year!!!

Why do I even try when it comes to guys anymore? I'm so disappointed right now.
On a better note, I think I know what senior pics I'm gonna get but I must warn you all that I can only get 2 poses. I'm getting one formal and one casual.

So I did something I've never done before this weekend. I went kayaking down the Hiwasee river!!! :) It was a blast!! I went with Jake and his family and Wes. 5 and a half miles of river rapids! Funny thing was though, that it started pouring down rain a third of the way down. It was *fabulous*!! That is of course, until Jake and his dad pushed me in. lol But I hope you all had a great weekend! Too bad I'll be sore out of my mind tomorrow at church! :)

i think i popped a blood vessel in my thumb. or i severly pulled a muscle. or i broke it. either way, ouch, it hurts.


anyway, school monday. im really excited, actually. i cant wait, shall be a great year.

anyway, i will leave you with some fall out boy lyrics:


"Always weigh what I've got against what I left
So progress report: I am missing you to death..."

happiness has found me the last couple of days and it's been so wonderful. things are working out so nicely... i can't even believe the way things are working out. i'm doing my best to trust God and it seems to be working insanely. i got a new cd today and that makes me super happy. my new purse-ish bag thing makes me happy too. so does sitting in black dog for 2+ hours discussing future children's names.

yep.

Well, for once school is completely awesome, this is going to be the greatest year ever. My classes appear to all be easy, and I know everyone in them, and once I drop AP Statistics, I have nothing to worry about all year.

Aug. 19 is the first football game, and I was supposed to go to a church lock-in afterwards with my church and Belair, but I didn't buy a ticket soon enough. So I suppose I'll kick it with the usual crew.

Your Daddy Is Ozzy Osbourne

What You Call Him: Big Daddy
Why You Love Him: He takes you to Disneyland
Who's Your Daddy?

that's right.

well i had like the best night i've had in a REALLY long time. Alyssa was home for this weekend i guess, and we went to Pizza Bell, Sonic, Fantastic 4, and Starbucks. i haven't laughed that hard in a while. plus it was with people i don't really get to hang around, so it was even funner.

oh and apparently i'm in a fight with some girls in Tampa, who were being really mean to my friend so i called them sluts and now they're IMing me and commenting on my xanga saying i smoke pot and do shrooms. yeah and they can't spell worth a flip.

i find it kinda amusing...



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chels, em, and me



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being silly



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can't wait!!!



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Seanie and Alyssa



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mmm Mint Chocolate Chip Frappacino!!!

well, since i'm a seasonal employee at Hot Topic, and Back-to-School is over... i'm on a break from working there. i get to go back for Haloween, which is only a month away, so it's all good. and i'm still an employee, and i still have my discount. it's basically like i'm just taking a break. and, if a position opens up, i have a chance at getting it. so... it's all good. i mean, i understand completely.

man... today was fun too. mainly cause i worked with Ashley again, who is seasonal too. she was acting all ghetto and stuff. fun fun.

some guy (fat and weird looking wearing hot pants) tried on these high-hell boots and a skirt (didn't buy the skirt) and bougt every colour of makeup that we have. omg. funny shit. Ashley had fun with that.

so yeah... that's really it.

This is what I think the perfect guy is:

Humble
Handsome
Polite
Gentleman
Opens doors for you
Romantic
Buys you small meaningful things (not all the time), not anything expensive
Easy to talk to about personal things
Listens to you
Tries to comfort you
Gives you a shoulder to cry on
Intimate
Humor
Talks to you
Calls you
Takes the first moves
Understands the word “no”
Will talk to you about intimacy, etc.
Truthful
Will tell you anything and can listen to anything

So, that might be hard to find, but it's fun and a wonderful thought to think of =)

hey guess what....in 2 days...school starts...big time

arnt ya glad i reminded ya?

i love you to

Let me set this up for you. About a month ago, my mom gets an invitation for a wedding reception, but it's not just for her and my dad, no it's addressed to.......

Sherry, Lynn Jr., Lynn III, Ben, and Luke Wilhoite.

So the invitation is for the reception for the daughter of teacher at my mom's school. She has become a dear friend of the family since I was in the fifth grade. So, I forget about it. Today I was reinformed about it. I spent the rest of the day, muttering the phrase, "I really hate stuff like this...."

It's true... I dislike anything that falls into a big social gathering. I just don't see the point in making a big deal about stuff. Plus the bride and groom had been married for like two weeks.

The young ones and I tried to get out of it, come to think of it, my dad even tried to get out of it. However, mom won, and we went.

The highlight of the evening was when Coach Bell walked in the room. I didn't see that one coming.

I've been taking mouth numbing medicine all week. *frown*

I am literally teary-eyed right now thinking about all that God is doing in the lives of people that I love and care about. I got off the phone with one of my good friends about an hour ago...she was telling me all about what a blast she was having at college...(thank you Lord!) He is trustworthy...and He is ever leading us. My mind is blown, it really is. I am so thankful that even though I am not with her I can rest assured knowing that God is always working and taking care of His children...He is soooo amazing!
And to top that...my old youth minister is planting a church...which makes me want to dance out of excitement for what God is doing through him.
ahhhhh...I feel great and extremely sentimental right now...I want so badly to live whole-heartedly for God...I am so in love.

Oh, and a random note...I bought a new camera today (since I lost my other one) and I have to say...it is awesome!

photo from BeautyFromPain




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"John, I want to be your husband."

. . . oops.



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The very handome, Nathan Miller as a groomsman.



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One of the most wonderful people to ever grace the planet, Mrs. Hopkins and me.



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This is my favorite I took tonight; it's my grandmother and her great-granddaughter ((my 2nd cousin)) Samantha.



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I might actually get my summer homework done by the due dates...

Pre-Cal is a lot easier when your Dad has two master's degrees in math.

I finished Gatsby today. I was sad, but not displeased, with the ending. I'm assuming that the way my English teacher answered the questions about summer reading on thursday, he won't demand the papers first thing monday morning.

So I should have plenty of time to read Raisin and write the dinky little reports for both books.

WOOHOOO!

I Wait for you Lord
My Soul Waits
I Wait for you Lord

In Your Word I place my Trust
In Your Word I Rest
In Your Word I Place my Trust
For I know I must, Wait

I Wait for You Lord
My Soul Waits
I Wait for the Lord

God is sooo amazing!!! He has been teaching me soo much...mainly WAITING and haveing PATIENCE!!! it is soo hard but yet he works eveything out in time and when im ready!!

tha past couple days....i have gottin griff over who i have been hanging out w/....Julie Eliz Ashley Dena and Patrick leave in a week or soo! Im spending as much time as i can w/ them! everyone that is staying here for school I have all this year to hang out i dont w/ these ppl!!!

i could go for a long hard run right now...far away from here!!!

everytime i look at Tennessee Techs website...i fall in love w/ the campus, the atmosphere all over again! but yet God hasnt shown me y im at MTSU!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

Long day today, but alot of fun. My company had an MWR day (morale, welfare, and recreation). so basically they force you to spend your free time hanging around all the people that you're tired of working with. they usually stink but today turned out to be great. we went down to the Persian Gulf and did some water survival training w/ our battalions diver team and then we swam in the Gulf for the rest of the day. way too salty, but it felt good to just get a chance to swim after swallowing sand for so llong.


photo from Habas

For lunch i ate a bunch of s'warma which is a local middle eastern dish w/ beef or chicken and a bunch of peppers and spices and stuff.


photo from Habas

very good but so very spicy. love 'em! still can't wait to get back and get me some camino real. now my mouth's watering. and i'm tired. time to hit the sack.