In light of some recent events, all I can say is why? why bother? why care?

- Daniel

I have alot of friends who are girls, and they complain about how bad guys treat them.  They say that they hate relationships because they always end up bad.  But then a week later, they are going out with some other bad ass guy that is gonna treat them bad too.  So why do girls want guys that treat them like dirt?  I mean, when me and my girl were going out, I treated her right, like all guys should do.  I just don't understand why girls want to get in a relationship with a guy that will treat them like a dog...

Lazy Sunday, wake up in the late afternoon,
Call Parnell just to see how he's doin.
Hello? What up Parn? Yo, Samburg what's crackin?
You thinkin what I'm thinkin? NARNIA, man it's happ'nin.
But first my hunger pangs I'll stick it like duct tape.
Lets hit up Magnolia and mac on some cupcakes.
No doubt that bakery's got all the bomb frostings.
I love those cupcakes like McAdams loves Gosling.

Two no six no twelve — baker's dozen!
I told you that I'm crazy for these cupcakes cousin.
Yo where's the movie playing? Upper West Side dude.
Well let's hit up Yahoo Maps to find the dopest route.
I prefer Mapquest. That's a good one too!
Google maps is the best. True dat, double true!

68th and broadway, step on it sucka!
What ya wanna do Chris? Snack attack, mutha-f**ka!

The chronic-what-cles of Narnia!
Yes, the chronic-what-cles of Narnia!
We love the chronic-what-cles of Narnia!
Pass the chronic-what-cles of Narnia!

Yo stop at the deli, the theater's over-priced.
You got the backpack, gonna pack it up nice.
Don't want security to get suspicious.
Mr. Pibb and Red Vines equals crazy delicious!
I reach in my pocket, pull out some dough.
Girl acted like she never seen a 10 befo'
It's all about the Hamilton's baby!
Throw the snacks in a bag, and I'm ghost like Swayze.

Roll up to the theater, ticket-buyin what we're handling,
You can call us Aaron Burr, from the way we're droppin Hamiltons.
Now parked in our seats Movie trivias the illest.
What friends alum starred in films with Bruce Willis?
We answer so fast it was scary.
Everyone stared in awe when we screamed Matthew Perry!
Now quiet in the theatre or it's gonna get tragic.
We bout to get taken to a dream world of magic.

The chronic-what-cles of Narnia!
Yes, the chronic-what-cles of Narnia!
We love the chronic-what-cles of Narnia!
Pass the chronic-what-cles of Narnia!


Clueless? Click here: http://chronicofnarnia.com/

Ok...so, I don't know what I did, I tried to edit my last post because I had some pics that only I could see, but I wanted everyone to see them and then I tried to edit my entry and I erased it and...well, I confused myself incredibly...so just scratch that last post (for those of you who read it). anyway...I had an amazing time iceskating last Friday. I got bruised up and sore, but it was a blast. Afterwards I spent the night at the Lewis's and then hung out with Liz and Mrs. JEana and Daniel while Beka played paintball...I had a lot of fun..but anyway...yeah. Cookout, Friday night, Church Property...I'll see ya'll there. Love ya'll. bye

May we not complain about life.  It is life! WE HAVE LIFE! We should rather indulge in life and grieve for the dead.  Death is dead.  May LIFE come from death.  Not destruction and hurt come from life.  May we live our lives to show our LIFE.  When our physical bodies die, that is not the end of our life.  I pray that when I die, I would bring LIFE, such as Bruce did.  He died, but brought LIFE to others.  Isn't that physically impossibel?  NO!  If you think about it, the dead man is living, but sadly the living man is dead.  God is truly Amazing!  My spirit is fireproof.  Sorry Satan, but you aint got me.  I AM, got me.  Thank you Lord. 

"But if Christ is in you, your body is dead because of sin, yet your spirit is alive because of righteousness." - Romans 8:10

i thought it was time to update. since it's been a frickin' month. anywho, life's been truckin, nothing too interesting. i think this year has the potential to be really exciting or really lame. my january hasn't told me much, maybe just that i'll be spending alot of time with friends. next year is really shaping up to be stressful. so many extracurriculars and stressful classes, but nobody ever said that junior year was easy right?

i'm excited because i get to go to chicago, even if it is just for a day. but it'll be really fun. i hope and pray that she moves the day so that i can go on the girls retreat too.

i'm looking forward to winterfest. i hope its the best yet, even though this is the first year i don't have someone going with me.

well have a great february!

I learned a lot about myself including what can happen when I haven't talked to my best friends in two days. lol.

I learned I still like to write notes...and fold them.

I found out I got a part in West Side Story!!! Yay...I am Graziella! and congrats to everyone in Chamber Choir...I love you guys and I am so proud of every single one of you.

Last night I babysat the cutest little boy in the whole world...ok lie...second only to Sam. Meet Patrick -



The cutest face ever.



He loved to pose for me everytime I had my camera out...wow I love this kid.



Giggles.



Patrick loves popcorn...this I learned very quickly.



ROAR! in his dinosour pajamas.





I asked him to make a silly face and this is what I got. thats a big WOW.



Intertained by Ice Age.



Patrick and Me.



Hands.



Comparing hands....oh the simple things in life make me smile.



Being a goob.

I love kids and their beauty amazes me.  That's another thing I've discovered this week - that beauty should be celebrated - not hidden. When I say celebrate I don't mean run around in skanky clothes and show off to get attention. I mean appreciate it for what it is - a gift from God. When someone compliments me about how I look or act I usually say thank you just because I think they are trying to be nice. I should really appreciate what they are saying and use it as a chance to glorify God in making me his creation. He wants us to notice all that he creates in us. Not just in a pretty smile or in a magnificent sunset, but also in the work he does through us - in everything that is life.

The king is enthralled by your beauty;  honor him, for he is your lord. - Psalm 45:11

+ML+

Happy Birthday Brett!

well life lately has been a series of ups and downs... i hav come to realize that the only one person who actually cares how u feel is GOD. i hav gone to church a lot lately and i cant truthfully say that god is the only reason i was going... but now he will be. we hav hit bible study really hard lately and i hav realized a lot of stuff about myself. the best way to say it is the title of this entry. The hardest part of holding on truly is letting go.. me and ben (6 ft 5) both agree about that. we r both going through similar things right now so we know how it is. i hav been praying hard on the feelings i hav for this one person. i hav asked god to take them away if they rnt meant to be. idk if he heard it or not  though cause it keeps seeming like they rnt from him, but they rnt gone yet. so HE must hav a reason for them being there i just wish he would let me know wat his reasoning is... but i truly thank god for the amazing group of friends that i have... they r awesome. idk wat i would do without them. man this was a long one.. i hav to go. hav an amazing rest of the week. GOD BLESS-forrest

i talked to dave today... he called...i was suprised... happy... and every othe GOOD emotion u could possibly feel...
Miranda: "trish... phone!!!"
Me: "who is it?"
Miranda: "who is this? ..... ITS DAVE!!!"
me: "phone now hurry...     HELLO ... OMG .... hey sweetie.... omg.... how are you... I MISS YOU!!!
Dave: "... im doing good... just bored.... and i miss you too..."
 and Ect... just thought u should feel the excitement... LOL...

... yah so... for those of u who have been askin... hes good and he cant wait to come home...  he hasnt even left for his training thing... so hes basically just sitting around doing nothing as of now and he probably wont get a chance to come home till like april... oh well... i'll wait... i mean i am waiting... he told me that he almost just wants to leave b/c him being there is pointless till he leaves to go to training... he sed he thinks about me every day... WOW... im just speechless... what more could i ask for... oh i know ... him acctually being here in my arms...  OH....  another phone convo....

Me: dang i miss you sooo much
 (silence)
Dave: I-I love you
Me: huh?
Dave: I LOVE YOU!
Me:..... i love you too.... alot....

  yah i love him... but am i in love w/ him... i guess we'll find that out when he comes home... if we're ment to be then i WILL wait for him... and so far i am....

oha and i have a new name... its Susie rotten crotch... or so thats what the marines refer to their girlfriends as...

*background noise*   "creasy lets go"... but we still have like 10 minutes... "no we gotta go, so tell susie rotten crotch u miss her, u wanna bang he,r and u love her and lets go...." ... then they carried on a short convo discussing the size of my breast... hmmm...  funniest junk in the world!!!!      good night guys!! sweet dreams... i know mine will be!
~tRISH
AkA... susie rotten crotch
.... i love you sweeetie!!

i'm really excited that the olympics are soon. and really sad that i don't have tivo to watch them. oh well, i'll get over it :) having a dvr really changes the whole olympics experience. you don't have to stay up until 3 am to see your favorite figure skaters or that luge race you just didn't want to miss or my personal favorite, curling. Which brings me to the question, what is the point of the curling event and can it really be considered a sport?
on a totally different note, my upstairs neigbor either has a really low voice or has the bass on his tv turned up, cause all i hear is a really low voice rumbling. he talks way too much. see tracy's phusebox for back-up proof of this claim. we hear them screaming at each other every once in a while.

OK, So here is the deal... i am in love with a great guy that my parents don't approve of and neither do my friends. Well, not all of them... most of them support me, even though they don't fully agree with my decisions...Anyways.. my parents told me that they want me to be happy... well, how am I supposed to be happy without this guy that fits so perfectly with my life? We get along so great and our schedules are pretty much the same. He makes me laugh constantly and we never fight. He knows exacly how to keep me happy and surprises me all the time. He knows what and how i am feeling and we really connect with one another. That's what i have been looking for.. for the last year! Now that I am happy, i have to keep it away from my family. Although I feel like it is a horrible thing to do, I don't feel like it is not all my fault. I wish they would just accept. Is anyone else in my situation?Now prom is coming up and my mom is trying to tell me that I am not going to be able to go to prom with him. Maybe I should take someone else and just meet up with him, you think? I don't think so. I can't handle lieing anymore and i want them to know. Forget all the people in the community. They never approve of what teenagers are doing and pretty soon  I will be away from this hell hole. College is  so much different. People don't care about things like this. That's why I can't wait until i graduate, go to college, and move away to Colorado with him.  I will give you more information when it comes to my mind. Right now I am just in awe because of him. I love him and no matter what I am going to be here for him. Somehow I will work this is out, right?

So for those of you that have always wondered what my pets look like, but have never had the chance to come over....i give you pictures


yes ..they are the best pets in the whole wide world

Best "do something stupid and get this free something" banner:

"Shoot the rapper and get a free ____."

I forgot what the _____ was because I was too busy laughing at the "Shoot the rapper" part.

My heroes of the day:

Jeremy - bought me a chocolate milkshake from Reeve's Sain.

Leah - was willing to part with Michele's pre cal for an hour or so.

Michele - made photo copies of her pre cal.

Eric - didn't get us killed while trying to find Osbourne.

oh praise the one
who paid my debt
and raised this life
up from the dead...

aflj sdflkjdsklfjkladjs

and thats been my life in the month of January

hehe... sup kids?d

13-1 in district

number one!! all by ourselves!!

i love my basketball boys

yeah i am just gonna edit this for a while... 

I'm moving on up in the corporate world - new responsibilites and privledges at the office, and now I'm part of a production team.  I'll have actual contact with clients and write profiles and all sorts of neat stuff.  Oh yeah.  Be jealous.

In a few weeks I'll be Cuban.  I anticipate it will be fun.

You know, I've been looking recently at Pepperdine.  It's completly outside my comfortable distance range for college - every other school I'm looking at is in TN, and it's in CA, but it would bring all sorts of opportunities.  And the campus and general area is gorrrrrgeous.  What do you think?

ok...Minus The Bear is one of the best bands ever! you should definately check them out! minusthebear.com

I'm back!!! I'm back!!!  I love Union, and I'm back!!!

Chuck Norris roundhouse kicks don't really kill people. They wipe out their entire existence from the space-time continuum

Hellen Keller's favorite color is Chuck Norris

Chuck Norris has the greatest Poker-Face of all time. He won the 1983 World Series of Poker, despite holding only a Joker, a Get out of Jail Free Monopoloy card, a 2 of clubs, 7 of spades and a green #4 card from the game UNO.

GIRLS!?

Are they even worth it?

Because if they are

They sure aren't convincing me...

By the way, my sister is coming home from the hospital today.

EDIT:

I take back everything I just said about girls

Because

There's this one

That is special

And we are currently dating now.

HAPPY BIRHDAY BRETT!!!!

This is part of what I do for God.  I praise Him through polynesian culture.  Last Aug. my ministry, Polynesian Praise, had the opportunity to open a tahitian competition event on Maui.  There were at least 20+ participants. 

Here's a closer shot.  It was so awesome...

 God's presence was there.  The annointing was so heavy that I personally didn't want to stop dancing.  It was almost at least a 12 minute routine of constant shaking and a little swaying.  Boy oh boy was it tiring...  This is just the beginning of what God has in mind.  Tahitian is not the only thing we dance.  We're in the process of learning a Samoan dance called the SASA, next we be learning Maori, Hawaiian, Cook Islands, and Tonga.  So excited... 

    So today as I was walking across campus, this lady stops me and asks me if I want to go to this weight loss seminar. I take the pamphlet because that's way easier then explaining that I don't want to, then as I was leaving she's like "I knew you'd be interested." Sooo... yea I'm walking away thinking "gee that makes you feel great" haha... yea anyway...
   
    On another note I HAVE WAY TOO MUCH HOMEWORK!!!! How I'm gonna get it all done is way beyond me!

for some funny stuff go to www.chucknorrisfacts.com

or www.jerrythefrogproductions.com

Here's something I'd appreciate any of you people who read my phusebox to fill out.....


Dear Kaylei,
You seriously ______ me.
I want to____untill the day I die.
I think you're_____.
If I could dedicate any song to you it would be______.
Remember when we______.
It was pretty____.  I can't wait untill_____.
I love it when_____.
I _____ you and hope we ______.
P.S. _______ .

So last night I went to the Oakland vs. Seigel game. It was a good game. Both teams played hard and there was alot of team spirit. But all in all I saw a bunch of my friends there.

I went to the game with my boyfriend (who graduated from Oakland--and particularly didnt want to sit on Oakland's side from bad experiences in the past related to Oakland--) and we went with friends from work who went to Seigel so to us it didn't matter we were going to enjoy the game. Then i get to school and I get caled a traitor. It wasn't very nice... And I had good reason. Sure I had friends on the other side but i personally wanted to be with sam.

I was the only kid over there surrounded by Seigel Nation and wearing an Oakland shirt! and no i didn't cheer for Seigel. Its just stupid that I get called a traitor (when part of the people were just joking with me) and hey! bite me! I can sit on the side I want.

but i didn't appreciate it and i don't think you would either. but it was a good night (:

i got my car fixed so i can now drive once again. :D

anyways... back to art class to work on my design for my new project. Its going to be a collage and my quote is from an Evanesence song.

"In my field of paper flowers,
and candy clouds of lullaby.
I lie inside my self for hours,
and watch my purple sky fly over me."

yes... just let it sink in. :D

teacher: It's a gas, it's brown, and it's lethal.

student: Does it have an odor?

teacher, I don't know, I've never tried it.

Go back to Africa? Damn thats just uncalled for. I'll explain da whole "n" word thing.

When black people say it, we say it to turn negative 2 positive like i told Brigette. But if a white person says it to a black person cuz they think, "I can use it if they are!" what kind of sense does that make? And whats up with this "they" thing?

Sorry but you gotta watch some of the things that are said cause it affects "people like me".

People shouldn't try to use cultured words to try to fit in with other racial groups. They should liek you no matter what. Just be yourself!!!!!

Im out!!! Holla Back~1~

so, i'm going to become a vegetarian for a little while.  we watched a video about it today during first period...

Is Hilary a gangsta now????? LOL Just kidding but wat really good with this pic? Holla Back!!!!! ~1~

I have sooooo much on my mind that I can't unjumble the thoughts and place them on this page.......February is such a hard month this year..... (I like dot, dot, dots) ......................

Matt B's B-day,  Honey's B-day, V-day,  Mel's shower, Mel's PARTY!,   2 big doctor apps. in Nashville, I had to buy a new vacuum cleaner,$$$$$,   and  the list goes on....... 

I am very excited don't get me wrong but I must admit, I am slightly overwhelmed!!!!  I guess it just means I have a lot to look foward to this month right?

Kelvin Hill is really cool.

"Do you think you have controlled everything
With a knowing look?
We are not dolls
Who are only dreaming"
-Ayu (my name's WOMEN)

"Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out"
-Muse (Time is Running Out)

In about 3 days my life is forever going to change and my life will be completely different. It is such a thing to have happen to you in the first place, but to know it is going to happen makes your stomach drop. I feel like I'm on the Scream Machine back home just doing continuous circuits and my stomach can't catch up.

I'm a little worried, but I know its the right thing to do. Let's just hope I keep up the nerve to do it and don't chicken out. I know its the right decision so that should get me through, as will the words of my Grandfather last thanksgiving:

"Joey, you follow your heart; and you'll never go wrong."

i was curious if whoever is reading this could pray for me...
i ask this because of a few things... my mawmaw (dads mother) has been dealing with stage-4 melanoma cancer for about a year now...the doctors had expected her to have died around new years, but obviously God has had other plans for her. its been a beautiful road to see how God works and how we human do not in the predictions of ones life and how they can do things or cannot...her medication has tripled due to pain (she is barely 5 foot)... so if you all would please keep her in your prayers...im hoping to see her once more during spring break if possible so please do that...in this pray for my family...
...aslo this a minute prayer compared to the one above but i stress easily when it comes to school work and i have sooo much reading so please pray that i be comforted some how or another.
thank you so much... much love

well well jsut sitting here in class learning some gay front page. ha i pwn it. lol. well anyways this is one of the favorite links i had to put down so yea. lol.

"They all work.  Brent's just retarded."


quote of the day #2:
Kim--How do you spell retarded?
Dani --Just like it sounds.  r-e-t-a-r-d-e-d
Kim--I didn't know if it had a t or a d.

Kim---Well, Erin calls people tards....Oh.
Dani---Tards not tarts honey.  You don't eat them.

Well, I'm on the job hunt again. Anyone who knows
of any place hiring let me know. I've worked one day in the last month
and a half. My wallet hurts far worse than my sore muscles ever did.

I went to dinner last night with my fam and got informed that my grandfather is BACK in the hospital.  i think the deal is that his legs were bothering him again real bad (he has restless leg syndrome) and they also think he might have pnemonia again (which he had LAST time he went into the hospital around Thanksgiving/Christmas) pleeease pray! also, steve's daddy is in the hospital in the ICU because he wasn't feeling good and his oxygen and CO2 levels are at the opposite end of the spectrum from where they're supposed to be. so, please pray for both of them!!!! thanks!

I love my little brother so much! He is my hero!!!!! I don't know what I would do without him. He means so much to me. Oh how I love my little man!

DISGUST DISGUST DISGUST! That's the way I look at myself. I am just completely and utterly disgusted with myself! I love that I'm oh so totally dedicated to my music but everything else, my looks, my height, my everything just completely disgusts me! I don't know why. . . well yes I do. . .I don't have a date for prom. . my senior year and it SUCKS! I want a date and not just as friends. . . I guess I'm just getting my hopes up! *sighs* I've just randomly thought about asking this one guy that's in my 2nd period that i'm just crazy about but his answer will probably be. . .'NO-diss your face!' and then I'll cry. . . seriously. ..  .i guess no is the worst answer I could get. . . .wait. . .no. .. that's not. . more like omg you're ugly. .and all that jazz. . i know it's true but *sighs* ANYWAYS! I must go. . need to do my paper!

LUV YA!

Cay

I really do feel sorry for people that bought Google's stock yesterday... I told you it was unstable...

{nt}

People say you should pick out a picture you want done to yourself and see if u still want it like a year or two down the road, while i am all for this idea im to impatient i juss say you should find something that means something to you. Thats what i say. Im planning on getting 2 :p one of my name on my neck so my hair will hide it if i have to and the other one is gonna be on my shoulder blade , its gonna be a clover. anyway wht do u guys think?

Hey well if ne-one reads this ne-more I give up....I quit im tired of this shit....im out c-ya

--Curtis--

it's a damned of a lie,
and a dull one at that,
to say that Misses Buttonbaum
Died because of her cat...

why it's plain to see,
Just who caused such a horror,
Twas' her husband, Sidmund,
Who made the decision to floor her..

For you could see him,
Strolling the garden he helped to grow,
but long now he's trotted, and
He's traveled so slow

Only a fool could ignore,
The aura of his eyes glow,
And act like the "trouble"
Was nothing possible to know...

I say it again,
I've seen it coming,
At pace of a marching boy
Who's stands in front drumming

Slowly, slowyly
I watched it approach
Did I say anything,
No no, not this lonesome roach

For I never seek interest
I stay locked inside my room
But I laugh at the thought
of someone's own gruesome doom

Like a school boy for a girl
I idolized the Buttonbaum event
Watching daily for even the slightest
Of the Mister's attempt to "vent"

Nawing at my mind
Like a cat for a yarn ball
I could not help but let myself
Scratch the happenings in my wall

Though now I can not satisfy
the inkling of an itch
I feel that no nails
is but a price, or a stitch

it will not keep me
from seeing this show
no no no, this is an event
perhaps that only I will know!

Oh here it came,
The fist with the knife
Mr. Buttonbaum swang
And then murdered his wife!

The blood rain like
God's forty day flood
Then grew hard, to chips
of solid, crimson mud

Oh and then came his,
He took his own time,
Minute by minute,
He let the rope climb

Oh and his was much worse
Just like his wife
For he hung himself high,
There ends his life

Hanging from a fan
Above the remains
Of where our story
Started out sane

But little did you know
Just what would unfold
Amongst the lines
Of this story I've told

I sincerely hope
You have a great, fine day
Please don't become
another story for me to say...

Or maybe you should....

Background, I am A zeta tau alpha... and i am on leadership for alpha omega.......

so i have come to a conclusion : I am too greek for the churchy guys, and to churchy for the greek guys, is there no in between?

although i don't really care for the greek guy, not my type, but iti s true.

I would have given you all of my heart

but there's someone who's torn it apart

and she's taking almost all that I've got

but if you want, I'll try to love again

baby I'll try to love again but I know


The first cut is the deepest, baby I know

The first cut is the deepest

'cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed

when it comes to lovin' me she's worst

but when it comes to being loved she's first

that's how I know


The first cut is the deepest, baby I know

The first cut is the deepest


I still want you by my side

just to help me dry the tears that I've cried

cause I'm sure gonna give you a try

and if you want, I'll try to love again

but baby, I'll try to love again, but I know


The first cut is the deepest, baby I know

The first cut is the deepest


'Cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed

when it comes to lovin' me she's worst

but when it comes to being loved she's first

that's how I know


The first cut is the deepest, baby I know

The first cut is the deepest

The First Cut is the Deepest by Sheryl Crow.



I know most of you skip over lyrics, as do i, but it really hit me tonight...once again.

I feel so stuck in this moment that i don't think i can move on.

and go figure, it is a concert night.  it always happens on concert nights.

::b

In the words of Kathrine-Claire...
Blackman:57
Riverdale:46
Heck yea

so the game was waaaay to much fun.. waaaay to crazy.. and seigel sucks!!!! we sooo should have won and number 44 SUCKS too! lol

it was too much fun though!

meag

The road of life I'm supposed to walk...is very much gone from me, if it was ever there to begin with.

...Sitting through history class made me realize something.  What is it I speak of?  Our lives have become quite trivial.  I would say useless, but I'm sure there's something there.  I mean, we don't care about making the world a better place anymore, do we?  We're more interested in going on diets to make ourselves thinner than we are about helping children become better people.  We're more worried about how many people we can score with than we are about what we can do to end needless violence. 

Hell, I even go so far as to say that we're more worried about getting into a good place in the afterlife than we are paving the path to such a place; we don't care how we get there, we care about getting there.  Or at least that's the impression some give me, those of the praying-all-the-time-gets-me-into-heaven type.  Bear in mind, I don't deem Christianity bad by any means, there are just some people that don't uphold what it stands for and thus really shouldn't even be considered a part of it.

Do I apply what I say to my own life?  You bet.  I play World of Warcraft and other video games and spend my time with Marissa.  Other than that and studying, I don't do much of anything else.  I don't stand for a cause that I believe makes the world a better place, I don't go and help people in need...  I keep to myself, and I do what I can to better my position status-wise and financially.  Why?  Because in order to live in this society, you have to constantly do things for yourself if you want to eat, go places, and buy your child a Christmas present they deserve.

It's difficult to explain to you what I feel is wrong in America and our modernized society, other than only money talks and doesn't talk to humanitarian efforts.  Well, that, and people...hmm...how could I put it...don't care.  I care for Marissa, my family, my friends...but I don't exactly care about the rest of the world...

...It really is difficult to find the words to even begin to convey how I feel right now...  I suppose another way of saying it is, quite simply, life is boring.  Life is boring.  Yeah, I suppose it is a sort of way of saying things...  I really do find life as we know it to be somewhat boring.  We simply exist.  No one cares about doing something that'll be a page of history for everyone to look on, I daresay good or bad.  We live out our lives, we work at a job, we get married, we have kids, we retire, we die.  Does history care about this sort of life?  Is this the kind of stuff people will read about in books and whatnot and say, "Wow?"  Hell no.  So many people live lives like this that it's most definitely not noteworthy in the annals of human civilization.

Will people do anything about this?  Probably not.  I'd be lucky to find someone upon reading this to not call me crazy and say, "Oh, he's got a point," and go back to what they're doing.

...I'll be honest and say I really don't know what can be done about it.  I want people to be motivated, but I couldn't begin to tell you what to do to change things.  I suppose, really, that's something you'll have to decide upon for yourself.

...All I know is that society has become stagnant and pointless.  Perhaps sometime I'll figure this out...

...So, what does this huge long-ass talk have to do with me?  Well, everything, really.  It's an incarnation of how I feel to some degree.  I really haven't the foggiest idea on what I want to do with my life, partly because so many paths are so pointless.  There isn't much of anything that I could get out of college that could make life not so pointless in this view.

I guess, from a nerdy way of saying things, is that I don't want to be just some random NPC.  I want to be the hero, I want to do something I feel is right that will lead to hopefully make the world better, I don't want to just be like, "Oh, well, the inn in town is over there."

And until I find that something I must do...my life will be for naught, frivilous, and dull.

 im not gonna blame it on the refs im not gonna blame it on the refs...

wait yes i am

im madder than mad

but i will cope... ater i stop shaking  

i dont care what the happened at the game.. i dot know waht im trying to say but all i know is that

I LOVE OAKLAND!!!!!

So today the faculty jazz ensemble from Cumberland Univserity came and played for us. They were so cool! You could tell the drummer and the sax guy were jazz musicians. The drummer had dreadlocks (sp?) and he would randomly yell Yeah, that's hot! during the music, it was funny. The sax player had a shaved head with a really long goatie, like 4 inches, I was jealous. He played the alto and tenor saxes at the same time, it was really cool. His quote was "save a gig for jazz" for the iPod owners, lol. It was interesting listening to them talk about what influenced them.

Prof. Mueller from UM called today because he wants to bring the brass quintet up from Memphis and play for us. That's exciting...lesson with Dan (if there is time)!

I went with Maegan after school to look for a bird. It was fun, she's funny. Her dog is dumb.

I talked with Brad (this short, half-Jewish clarinet player from SCMI last summer) today. He's a fun dude. We talked about music and how short guys who don't tan were the hottest things ever (because we're both short and don't tan well). Ha. It's kinda not fun that we didn't hang out while we were there, we just kinda looked at each other all the time, lol.

Do you like the music on my blog (and profile for myspace users)?

I'm job shadowing Mr. Kinney on Thursday, it will be fun. I get to dress up and feel pretty in the clothes I baught last week. I also get another lesson with Radu (that's right, two in a row!) to make the 3rd movement sound better. I'm nervous about my audition Saturday, but not really. Mr. Rhody told Prof. Mueller that I was weird, lol.

Right now I'm watching Ellen and she's too funny. I think she's prank calling people right now, it's funny. I kinda want to call the band directors one day and pretend I'm the IRS or something, lol. That would be funny. I should roll the office one day...but then I'd have to clean it up. Just kidding.

hah.. gangsta pardises & free lunches
couldnt have been a better night.. well if the outcome had turned out differently... BUT

i <3 my gangsta paradise, free lunches (& dinners too!), ghetto school!

& we're still number 1.. we just have another team to share it with.. we're nice.. we dont mind sharing!

ok well my life is pretty much boring! just finished some homework. got a few tests this week. and DESIPLE ( yes kate i spelled it wrong just 4 u!) now isn't untill FRIDAY!!  i'm gonna die! i can't wait that long! grr. ok well i guess i'm gonna have to live with it. well i'm off to go study for those tests i'll def. need some prayers on those! ok ttyl

<3 always,

lindsey

So....my English Class is killing me!!! So we are having to write about a historical event that happened the day we were born...Well... NOTHING HAPPENED!!!! I have searched the New York Times (what we have to look in) 2 times front to back and nothing is it in.. So..I have to go and talk to my professor tomorrow about it...

Well...School is hectic again!! I am gettin so much homework and test are also starting up again!! My first one is tomorrow!! But it is history so i think i will do pretty good on it!!  So yeah!!! Well that is about it!! I am gonna go and study somemore!! So i will write more later!!!

    I am going to Florida! Yeah! So tomorrow I will be there and it will be hot! Yeah!

Since half the world already knows....

At faire this year I'm playing Anna Vasa, Princess of Sweden!!!!!

I'm so excited.  Unimaginably so.  Unfortunately, I only know two words in Swedish.  One is incredibly profane that I had no intention of committing to memory.  Whoops.  The other is "yes," which won't get me very far and may in fact have terrible consequences.  For example:

"Will you deed Sweden over to me?"
"Ja."
I think not.  :-P

Awwww heck yes.  This year is going to rock so much.  You guys have to come out and hang.  Our court even has a chef!

"Heerdy, heerdy, heerdy."

Let me tell you! I  love that my Night and Weekend minutes start at 7.

because. . when a verizon user in the Eastern Time Zone calls me @ 9 their time. . .it's 8 my time. and FREE!

Loves it!

I've already used 1200+ night and weekend minutes this month. . .thank goodness their free!

I never thought it would happen to me. Perhaps, because I was thought myself too motivated, or taking too hard of classes. There would be no room to slack off. Let me tell you, you might feel like you are slacking off now, but it is nothing like Senioritis.

So I was sitting in the middle of English with lovely Mrs. Juergens. I am seating there listening to her ramble on about a term paper or something. This idea just came to me, what would happen if I just walked out of the class. Really could they do anything to me? I am a senior who has never gotten in trouble. I soon realized that I was just being lazy, and quickly tried to bring my attention back to Mrs. Juergens. This was unsuccessful; my mind began to wander towards college and the classes there. My want for to do homework has gone down hill, mind you I never had much of a will to do it anyways, but now I find myself not even bringing any of my books home or for that matter, trying to do it at school. I have caught Senioristis, let's just hope I don't come down with a serious case.

Still no prom date..don't know if I am going to be brave enough to ask...but enough about that.

Cara

 So yeah...should write in this more.

Interesting things I heard today...or just thing.

After my Electronic Media Writing class, my professor (also my advisor here at GCCC) caught up with me downstairs and told me I had the "spark" to be on TV, and that I needed to hone my skills. Now, up to this point I had tried my best to stand out there, since I'm awake and aware. But just to hear that...

I'm back in the groove I was in back in high school. I've come to the conclusion I was falling into some kind of depression last Spring, from a combination of things (my fender bender, relationship fears/troubles, and just a general feeling of malaise), and if not for the time I spent with my friends, no matter which ones, I'd have been absolutely emo, which is a bad thing to be (see below).

Now, even though I'm 10 hours away from you guys, I'm upbeat, I'm happy, and most importantly, I'm motivated. I'm taking classes for my major, which I wouldn't be doing if I was still at MTSU. I could actually be a DJ by the end of this semester, thanks to my audio class. I'm amazed at the whole thing, though. I wish I could be back there...but I'm here, and apparently, I'm making the best of it.

I need to read for school... but here I am posting...

Ok, so yesterday at work I found out that a woman that comes in to work in the business office once a week fell and had a hemophobia. Things weren't looking good for her. But now things have turned around and she's doing great and talking and remembering so that's awesome! Praise God!

Oh darn it... I so had something else to talk about... *thinks*

I have to say that my history teacher is so awesome. Regardless though, I'm kinda anxious to get out of these general ed classes and move on to something more interesting. In the business office I see a lot of schedules, and sometimes I'm surprised to see freshman taking a lot of classes related to their major. And then I see sophomores and juniors that may be (or may not be) taking classes in their major, but are still taking general ed classes. It's tempting to wait until later to take some of them, but man, I would hate being a junior stuck in a class full of freshmen. Though it would be significantly easier other than my other classes... ha ha.

Ah yes, now I remember what I really wanted to talk about. Sunday, after a long weekend doing 3 for the Son, I was forced to partake of the class known an New Member Orientation. And I've been a member of Belle Aire for over two years! That's procastination for you, folks. But Lindsey, Adam, and Nate were there, and Nate and Lindsey and I totally cut up and wrote notes the whole time. Then afterwards, Nate took Lindsey and me (and Wes) to the roof! It was so awesome! Everybody should hang out on a roof somepoint in their life. It was a cool experience...

Ok... guess I oughta do that schoolwork now... bleh...

well havent updated in a while

The past week has been fun I guess.. nothin outrageously exciting or anything..

This weekend I get to go see my mom.. She is graduating from Basic Training and so yeah.. She should be home by Thursday I think.. I get to miss 3 days of school next week! heck yes! I'm excited! We are leaving on Sunday real early in the morning so we can get there in time for the Superbowl.. I can't miss the superbowl now can I?

I hope the Steelers lose!!!

Friday SMYRNA LAVERGNE GAME SHHHAAADUH!!!

Saturday I am probably going muddin with Becca!! yes maam I love her lol.. i have to get "initiated" into their little group thingy and so I have to get dragged behind a four wheeler on my stomach for 5 minutes.. that should be loads of fun lol! 

Love you tons and gobs

Jess  

Ok.  About prom.  Still need to find someone to ask.  Still need to decide on a tux.  I was thinking that since I'm getting dark green contacts that I want some kind of green on my tux.  Not really sure.  I don't want to look like everyone else, but I don't want to stand out like a sore thumb.  Somewhere in between so that I can impress my date, but not embarrass her because I look tacky.  I need help I don't dress up much.

When i woke up this morning after hitting the snooze button about 2 times, i opened my eyes and looked around.  i began to analyze my thoughts asking myself, "am i over it?  is my heart healed completely?"  i sat up in bed and pondered for a few more minutes.  Then, all of a sudden an overwhelming feeling of Joy began to fill my heart.  God's Love covered me.  I sat in bed drenched in God's spirit.  The feel of His arms tightly wrapped around me.  The sound of His voice that was harmony to my ears softly spoke " I love you more than words can say.  I love you more than what actions can do.  I love you more than what you can understand.  I love you so much that your broken heart is no longer broken.  The joy you feel is ME patching your brokeness of your heart.  When you cried your very last tear, without you noticing, while you laid down to sleep, I held you in My arms.  As you curled into my arms, I watched my tears fall unto your face as you slept peacfully.  My tears were not tears of hurt but of Joy that you now feel in your heart.  I have seen how your brokeness drove you into depression.  I have seen how your brokeness kept you away from me.  It killed me watching you weap by your bedside.  I could not do anything but to weap next to you.  I desperately wanted to hold you in my arms and take care of your sorrows, but you didn't let me.  When you gave me permission, the Joy that I felt, is the Joy you are feeling now.  I heard your cries from day one.  I tried to take your hurt and I tried to wipe your tears.  But you took it away and told me that you could do it.  My love, remains in you.  My spirit remains in you.  My joy remains in you.  I live in you....."

sometimes..i just...i just don't know about everything. but then i think of you..and everything we've been through...and im just reminded that you're worth it.

still praying and looking. there are some things i wish would change..but..idk. we'll. see. i love him too much to just give up and let him go.

<3

Before the MySpace/Xanga/Phusebox frenzy.

Before the Internet & text messaging.

Before Sidekicks & iPods.

Before MIKE JONESSS

Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX.

Before the 5 hours of homework you put off every night.

when it was cool to have a pager not a cell phone

WHEN LIGHT UP SNEAKERS WERE KOOL

When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.

When u had a walkman because cd players were way too expensive

When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.

When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.

When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.

When 2Pac and Biggie were alive.

When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.

Way back.

Tag.

Up, Up, Down, Down, Left, Right, Left Right ABA means something to you

Get Over Here!!!! means something to you.

Hide-n-Go Seek at dusk.

Red Light, Green Light.

Heads Up 7 Up.

Playing Kickball & Dodgeball until your porch light came on.

Hopskotch.

Slip-n-Slides.

Tree Houses.

Mother May I?

Red Rover.

Four Square.

Hula Hoops.

Reading R.L. Stine's Goose Bumps.

The annoying Nano Pets & Furbies.

Playing Street Hockey with the neighborhood friends.

Falling off your school chair for leaning back on it's hind legs.

Running through the sprinklers.

Crying when Mufasa died in the Lion King.

Happy Meals where you chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car.

Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car.

Drinking Sqeeze It "Squeeze The Fun Out Of It"

Wait.

Watching Saturday Morning Cartoons in your PJ's still wrapped up in your Garfield comforter.

Hey Arnold, Doug, Rugrats.

The original Power Rangers

Beast Wars

Or what about:

The Secret Life of Alex Mack.

Ren & Stimpy.

Beavis and Butthead

Double Dare.

Rocko's Modern Life.

AAAHH!! REAL MONSTERS.

Wild & Crazy Kids.

Clarissa Explains it All.

CAMP ANAWANA

Hey Dude

Are You Afraid of the Dark?

All that(The original cast members.)

Kenan & Kel.

Who could forget Snick? & Nick @ Nite with Bewitched, I Dream of Jenie, The Facts of Life & I Love Lucy.

or when they actually played music (other than just rap) on MTV

Where everyone wanted to be in love after watching The Wonder Years.

Not finished yet.

Kool-Aid was the drink of choice.

Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school.

Class field trips.

the yo-yo craze(x-brain,fireball,etc.)

finger boards

POGS(Damn, thats way back!)

When Christmas was the most exciting time of year.

When $5 seemed like a million, & another dollar a miracle.

When you begged to go to McDonalds for dinner everyday.

When Toys R Us overuled the mall.

Go back to the time when

Decisions were made by going 'eeny-meeny-miney-moe'.

Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming 'do over!'

'Race issue' ment arguing about who ran the fastest.

Money issues were handled by whoever was banker in "Monopoly".

It wasn't odd to have two or three "best" friends.

Being old referred to anyone over 20.

A chance to skate as a couple at the local roller rink was like winning the lottery.

The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was cooties.

Nobody was prettier than Mom.

Nobody was cooler or stronger than Dad.

Scrapes & bruises were kissed & made better.

It was a big deal to finally be tall enought to ride the "big people" rides at the fair.

When playing Nintendo was the hardest thing ever.

When Ninja Turtles ruled the world.

If you can remember most or all of these
then you have lived in the 90's!

dengg wishh i couldd go bacc to tha 90's ... those were tha best yearss ....

went to memphis this past weekend.

it was nice. but wouldn't want to move back

parents won't to get rid of my dog.

i want to move.

Hello Loves...

                  So how has everyone been?I have been Good I guess....ok I lied I like someone that probably wont  like me back..*I feel like crying...but I wont.... the only thing that makes me wonder is  Whoever said  love isn't supposed to make you cry...**Lied**....Ohkayy...I guess I will ttyl I heart you!!

                                           <3**Ashleigh**

I'm looking for a new job. It's a long story, and I don't want to get into it. If you're oh so interested, you can ask me in person or ask Amonett. She was there, too, lol. So, if you have any ideas, or know of any places hiring, let me know.

so i think my mum just disowned me as much as she can without kicking me out or anything. oh well.

    So a lot of times you can mess up and beat yourself up for it for so long that you don't get yourself out. I've noticed with vices that sometimes we feel like we have to fix them or fix ourselves first and then we can come to God. But you can't say well I have to have this thing that I did gone for x-amount of time before I can say I'm through with it or before we can say that we are right with God. I hate sin that is in my life. But I refuse to let it hold me down this time. It's over, it's done, by the grace of God. I am going to put my eyes on Him and His work instead of my problems. I drove home today and it was such a beautful day. I sang praises to Him all the way. Yea there's stuf that's going on, and I am in no way saying I'm perfect. But He has in a way shown me the extent of what is in my life, and He has set me free. It's almost tangible this feeling that I'm free. God is so great!

hey guys  dont for get tonight is tuesday and at 7:07 pm it will be Encounter so invite all college and career 18-30 come and check it out!

school is going well.
I, for once, have an easy schedule..

which will give me time...to study for the first actuary exam..

plus with my english class [crime fiction!]...I get to read...a lot..10 books a semester..

its easy to see how much of a nerd I am..
which brings me to:

I got a retainer yesterday, which I have to wear all the time [invisaline]...thats what I get for not wearing my retainer 6 years ago..

Yeah... I'm So Excited... I Made The Track Team For Siegel High School... We Are Gonna Do Our Best To Bring Home The Gold This Year.. And Today I Have Practice.. Well I Gotta Go... Peace Up, Throw The M Down... Where We From? Murfreesboro!!! M-Town's Down!!!

so far my day has gone pretty well. my friend jen found me in the hallway this morning and asked if i liked ben. i said that, while i did have feelings for him, i did not think that a relationship would end up working. things went way too fast on a trial relationship, so there is no way i could survive a real one with him.  i have to take things at a steady pace. this means no putting the arm on my shoulder, no hovering over me, and no following me.  oh well. at least i gave it a shot. i would gladly go with him if we could just take things one step at a time.  that is, unless greg moves first. which i think he is so i believe that i should do what a former m.b. told me. drop him and move on. i know that sounds harsh but, unless he or i can come up with a better solution, i might just have to take it. so my heart is torn in two.

i also have to get my grades up before i can officially date anyone.  my math is doing pretty well and i think that i actually understand what we are doing right now. my english grade is soaring because we are doing the holocaust and i know a whole bunch about that and adolf hitler. so i am no longer worried about those grades. i saw this awesome movie on the sci-fi channel called, dark prince: the true story of dracula. i already knew most of the things that was in it. i did learn something new however. i had read that when the turkish ambassedors did not remove their turbans they had them nailed to their heads. i thought that dracula thought of that, but apparently his son did. there is alot of things that i wish that they had shown but even so it was a really great movie. i am going to special order it from hastings.

oh well, lylas everyone

ok wht is up with movie that like came out in the 80's or early 90's having sequels? it makes me sick and i for one am boycotting them!! Movies like little mermaid 2 and jugle book 2 and all that stuff!! NO means NO they should have juss stopped! they were to greedy and wanted more soo the juss messes everything up! on the subject of that wht was with JayZ grouping with Linkin Park????! I can't even listen to them now! im ruined! SO lets tell the movie and the music ppl to get original and stop the torture!

Future Career = Nightclub manager. [TECHNO BISH]

Cool, huh?

:]

I've started putting pictures from China on my personal website. There's about 80 right now, but that number will go up considerably in the next few days. I'm not using phusebox for this particular album because I needed to be able to transfer a large number of images and transferring five at a time via http wasn't going to be good for my health. I also had some greater flexibility with StuffedCouch as I have ssh/scp access. Anyways enjoy!

StuffedCouch.com

have you ever wished that you could do more

i'm gettin me a clarinet! ^^

somethings i love (in no particular order):
Dirty Rotten Scoundrels the musical
Soymilk
Wicked the musical
Elissa
cake
Ayumi Hamasaki
my mom
Gackt
Big Red gum
Jackie
Sherie Rene Scott
my computer
CDs
Norbert Leo Butz
sleep
Rae Rae
my TV
Brady
Aida
Adam Pascal

"hello, Steven? Steven! HAHAHAHA! Steven, you stop calling the dressing room! Steven Speilburg. HAHAHA! Steven! I'm not naked! You stop! I'm not naked this time! You silly! I know you're married!"- Sherie Rene Scott (on the phone)

http://www.broadway.com/gen/Buzz_Video.aspx?ci=512808

For some reason my parents keep pushing me away from college and giving me all these other "options". I don't get it. They discourage everything I really want to and get ticked off when I won't settle for less. They constantly confuse me. I have no clue what to do- I guess praying wouldn't hurt.

I have found love again.  I wasn't looking for it.  It just stumbled across my path.  Jennifer Cage.  I was seriously checking her back for her scars where her wings used to be.  It took me awhile to find her house last night because I can't read my own damn writing.  But once I did, I was in heaven.  I have honestly never been this happy.  And we aren't even dating.

Beautiful

Just one look into your eyes
One look and I'm crying
'Cause you're so beautiful

Just one kiss and I'm alive
One kiss and I'm ready to die
'Cause you're so beautiful

Just one touch and I'm on fire
One touch and I'm crying
'Cause you're so beautiful

Just one smile and I'm wild
One smile and I'm ready to die
'Cause you're so beautiful

Oh and you're so beautiful
My darling
Oh you're so beautiful
You're so beautiful
Oh my baby
You're so beautiful
And you're so beautiful
Oh my darling
Oh my baby
And you're so beautiful

To the folks who said life would be easier if they turned to a rock: Don't worry--it happens soon enough. by the way, socrates said that the definitiopn of "Nothing" was "That which rocks dream about."

He's so cool.

Okay so I'm an angry little girl.
and I'll just vent on here,
so take note this is not to offend anyone;;

So Ms. Gregory posted the list...
&& I didn't make stage manager.
I wasn't too highly positive I would make it.
but she put me as a dresser again, and
that was perfectly fine..
till I read who made stage manager(s)
Okay, so the main stage manager
was the dress mistress last year,
she skipped out to go to Jazz fest
and left me to do her job.
How frikkin reliable.
&& THEN there's the fact
that there are 2 freshman assistants,
first off-Is it not one of ms. Gregory's big statements
that Freshman don't get stuff like that,
but there are 2.
second-yes I am jealous of that,
seeing as how i've worked my butt off to
get this, and last year I put in
SO much, and I get to be a dresser again?
I was thinking she'd take something into consideration.
It just makes me so mad she'd do that.
ughhh....

but that's my ranting,
the rest of the day was alright,
I came home, ate pizza,
fell asleep at 5
and was woken up by a phone call at
uhh 10:30 =)
haha, It was nice to sleep.
I went back to sleep at 12:34ish
and woke up at 6:00 this morning.
so yeah...lots of sleeping.

I'm babysitting this weekend,
then Keith Urban the next next Tuesday,
and the following Sunday,
yay I get to get out of town =)

but that's about it.

Nameless girl,
Lit up on a bridge, Lost her mind,
and then fell off,
If only an answer
had sooner been found, perhaps then
She would've walked

But instead her doom was sealed
On the day that she was born
Where the idea to ignore her came to rest,
An ideal now long since worn...

If only someone had cared enough
Just to ask, "What's wrong?"
-------------------
Another day in my world
The darkness is thickening
All of these headstones
Seem to be creeping in on me
Let me know that all
Is not real
Let me know that all
Is okay
This is my place
This is my home
And yet I wish that I'd been found
Somewhere else
-------------

It has been brought to my attention lately by a few of my fellow phuseboxers that I have a lack of melanin... a.k.a. I am not tan.... or as others would want to put.... I'm very white...... thank you for the epiphany that I have never been able to quite grasp as I look in the mirror for myself. Funny, I've never been told that I'm extremely white... oh wait, yes i have, in fact, even by a homeless guy. So, for all of those out there who would like to comment on my lack of color, please feel free to let it all go on this post. Please hold nothing back so that we can move on from here.

Eph. 4:29,

-Jeff

(this is not an attack to anyone's comment, unless it would be considered to be to the original comment left on the "Great Saturday" blog)

"Who needs a boyfriend?  I got my girlfriends, and when we get together the summer never ends."
- Jessica Andrews

so i'm not the type to blog about my problems ( ok not this area )
but i'm starting to get scared
i've been having a lot of pain in places i shouldn't
and the drugs aren't getting rid of them
it we can't fix it soon
i'll have to go get it really checked out
my brother has Chrone's disease
and
anything like this really scares me cause this pain goes hand in hand with Chrone's
please pray
thanks
always
Dani

4 days ago i joined the coachT site so i could hang out in the message boards

wow

4 days ago a new topic was started the OHS vs. SHS game today it had 250 replys and 16 pages i read the entire thing

you wanna get pumped up before the game ??? im sure you do

wether you are a PATRIOT!!! or a seigel kid youll get quite a rise out of the forum so click here for your reading pleasure

*disclaimer*

i do not comfirm nor deny anny of the crazy rumore that are contained on this forum and this in no way reflects my opinions

 WOW I have had a crazy ass life! well first off... I am have been so busy with Band, Work, Boyfriend, and Friends... plus my family! and moving shit.....

Nathan and I  are still together... it has been 3 months!! yaya us!

Work is amazing.. I love working it is such much fun!!!

Friends... can be bitches... and backstabbers... but you have those special ones.... Ben I am so sorry I haven't been able to talk to you!!  I have been so busy and Internet doesn't work in my room yet... and I only get on every now and then! so ya!

 Band is always so much fun! I love it! all of my friends but a couple are in band.. so I see them all the time... and you know what is weird... all of my friends now are boys but like 2.... SCARY!! just kidding I love hanging out with guys! I am such a tom boy myself so what does it matter!

well I am dead tired Ijust got off work! I love you guys!!
I love YOU Nathan!
*Kris* 

but mostly for the one person who didn't appear to know why i would say that about the nazis, it was from the producers. it was a line that made me laugh. i'm not really a nazi... or am i?

i'm kidding. i'm not a nazi.

i love you!

i found out today that my phone doesn't have a thingy to attach to the computer so i cant share my pictures i'm extremely sad

It's official people...I've totally fallen for him.

His charm...his eyes...his laugh...his walk...his everything.

Dazed and Confused...

See...he reminds me of this song...because as much as we might care about eachother we can't be together...we understand it...we know it...we accept it...we embrace it...it's our life...

Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I belive that fate has brought us here
And we should be together babe
But we're not
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
And I'll try to keep my cool, but I'm feenin'

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

I may appear to be free
But I'm just a prisoner of your love
And I may seem all right and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front
Just a front, hey
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
And I'll try to keep my cool, but I'm feenin'

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

Here is my confession
May I be your possession
Boy, I need your touch
Your love, kisses and such
With all my might I try
But this I can't deny
Deny

I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
(but I'm dreaming of you babe)
And I'll keep my cool, but I'm feenin'

I try to say goodbye and I choke (yeah)
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not near aahh)
Goodbye and I choke (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I try to walk away and I stumble (hey, hey, hey)
Though I try to hide it, it's clear (say it lord)
My world crumbles when you are not here

Goodbye and I choke (I'm choking)
I try to walk away and I stumbe
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not near, yeah, yeah yeah)
Yeah, yeah..

I try--Macy Gray

i feel like the worst person ever. = (

Today was one of the worst days ive had in years...

First off, my car seriously went  crazy on my way to school, so i was stuck in the Walgreens parking lot. Then, i got to the hospital late for orientation for clinical internship. Luckily i found a way home from school (Thanks Trish and J Byrd). Then, as i was walking (yes, walking) to work, one of my friends from work just drives on by me on his way to work-didnt even stop. So yeah..im guessing its gonna cost me a few G's to fix my car, which means for the next few months or so i cant be spending any money. :-/

Some people define it as the realization that it's God's life, and not yours. Personally, I don't like that definition. I think that God has given us a life of our own, he just wants us to turn all control over to him. At least that is the way I see it.

Tonight at bibe study, was nothing short of amazing. I could really feel the presence of God in that place. Here is a kind of a long story that I told my brothers in my bible study group that I felt might be a good idea to post on phusebox, just because I am so fired up about it. It's a little long, but I hope you will be blessed by it.

Last week I was sitting in class waiting for the bell to ring and for 3rd period to end. I am just brainstorming and then I look up and a girl walks in through the door. This girl, (although I will not mention a name) looks like she has been to hell and back. Hair is a mess, mascera (sp) running down face, etc. You paint the picture. So she sits down at her desk, secluded at the back of the room where no one else sits, and begins to cry. I really felt I should pray for this girl, so I did just that. I prayed that God would send me an opportunity to encourage this person. I waited, and nothing came to mind. I think it was just one of those times where God was just telling me to pray, and there was nothing else I could do. Sometimes, being a guy, I fail to show emotion and how much I truly care. But this time, I think God was just telling me to yield to him and let him have control. Anyway, after that the bell rang, and I got up and left with the rest of the class. But then something happened. I began to think about that girl...that girl that was hurting. I started to think about all the crap she is probably going through, and I painted a mental picture in my head of her life. Then I began to look at the people around me. As I walked through the crowded hall of my school to proceed to my 4th period class, I began to think about all of the lost souls in my school. Right then and there it hit me...THESE PEOPLE ARE ALL GOING TO HELL FOR AN ETERNITY . My classmates, the people that I see, many of my friends, a few of my aquaintances, and many of my teachers. And guys, there is no way to water that down. I began to make mental x's on people's heads of all of the people that I knew would burn for eternity with the smell of sulphur and eternal separation from Jesus Christ. Then I began to cry. Tears poured down my face as I walked through the halls of my school, just looking around at people and prayer walking my school, just like I have done so many times before. I felt the burden of the sins of the Siegel High School student body. And I felt so helpless. It makes me think of what Jesus had to go through, when he was nailed to that cross. This man actually took on the sins of the entire world, something we could never even begin to fathom. But it doesn't stop there. I want to encourage every one of you to have a burden for your school, no matter where you go. Siegel, Oakland, Blackman, Riverdale...we are all one body in Christ. We cannot save souls on our own, but only THROUGH THE SPIRIT, BY FAITH. And we have a great cloud of witnesses to do it with. The facts are that we have all the tools, but the job is not getting done. So I encourage you to ask yourself where your witness is this week. Make the most of every opportunity, for His glory. At all costs.

~Garrett

isnt it crazy how much you can get done in the day if you take it one step at a time.