So I'm sitting here in the hotel lobby studying for the music theory exam in the morning. Radu said that we should go ahead and to the 3rd movement because it sounds 80% better than it did on Monday.

:some creepy man just looked at me:

I'm sitting in the hotel lobby by a window, looking out at the university. It's so calm looking, very relaxing. I'm going to go clean my horn later.

Dan Phillips (horn teacher) wants me to come to the brass quintet rehearsal at 8:30 in the morning tomorrow, so I have to get up around 7 and warm-up. The audition day starts at like 9, but I'm the first to audition at 10. After that I'll have the music theory exam and then I get to leave and go meet Abby at Olive Garden in Jackson.

Wish me luck!!!

so between model un, school projects, and mandatory basketball games i hardly have any time anymore.

however i am now cuban, which will be the coolest delegation at the conference. no doubt about it.

i also have a stuco convention the weekend after that.

i am torn between ap spanish 4 and psychology. i was never good at making decisions.

oh, and i'm in love. probably not the best thing for me right now.

okay well maybe ALL guys don't suck. atleast i've found one that doesn't lol. i always have fun whenever i get to hang out with danny. idk why. he's just...fun. i love him to death. but ne ways. i'm done rambling now. ciao guys.

So Nathan and I created a wedding site. Not all the details are up yet, but you can go visit if you want!

http://rachaelandnathan.com

I hope everyone is having a great night!

My neck is hurting.  There is a weird little lump on the right side of my neck that hurts constantly.  I'm not sure what it is.  Today is the first day its been hurting, and I haven't noticed the lump there before. It really hurts.  I showed to my mom and shes poking it and stuff and I'm like OOOOWWWWW...  It hurts without her touching it lol...

Almost a month with Ali...and almost V-Day...

    why the fuck do I even update. you guys fucking suck. This whole idea of "online Journals" suck. How about this I wish hitler was still alive, i am a neo nazi/ kkk clansmen and i had sex with your mother lastnight. I bet you wont even leave me a fucking comment for that.

Don't bother saying you're sorry
Why don't you come in
Smoke all my cigarettes again
Every time I get no further
How long has it been?
Come on in now, wipe your feet on my dreams
You take up my time
Like some cheap magazine
When I could have been learning something
Oh well, you know what I mean, oh
I've done this before
And I will do it again
Come on and kill me baby
While you smile like a friend
Oh and I'll come running
Just to do it again
You are the last drink I never should have drunk
You are the body hidden in the trunk
You are the habit I can't seem to kick
You are my secrets on the front page every week
You are the car I never should have bought
You are the dream I never should have caught
You are the cut that makes me hide my face
You are the party that makes me feel my age
Like a car crash I can see but I just can't avoid
Like a plane I've been told I never should board
Like a film that's so bad but I've got to stay till the end
Let me tell you now: it's lucky for you that we're friends.

                  My favorite song from the movie Great Expectations

                               

photo from ohsnapitskarla

so, after exactly one hour of shopping, pretty sure i found my dress. like, i'm not even settling. and i found it. it's black, and pretty simple, but ahhhh...it's super pretty. and i don't look like a cow!!! yay! too bad my costume for the play is so stinkin ugly...w/e. at least it's not as bad as Joey and Katie's Pierrot and Pierrette costumes...nayways, just wanted to rejoice! yay for formal! much love to you all! ---cari

p.s.- ya'll pray for Joe-Bob's recovery. i'm sure he'll be fine. thanks ya'll!

Hey Beautifuls..

                   Ohkayy....So How Has Everyone Been?I Have Been *O* So Good Lately..lol!Lets See....Yesterday Was Not Very Fun Becuase I Had To Get My Braces Tightened....Gah It Hurt Soo...Bad....But I Am Feeling Much Better Now!I Got To Stay At Home...Ate All Day,Was On The Computer Forever and Watched T.V For Forever...What More Could You Ask For??Haha..Well Anyways This Weekend Should Be Fun..I Have A Premier Cheerleading Competition on Saturday And Then On Sunday I Get To Sleep In....YES!!Then Monday School Again...Gah Such A Good Weekend Wasted By Thinking About Moday!Nothing New In My Life Except I Have Feelings For A Guy That I Know Are Real But ... For Right Now We Are Just Friends!!But Thats Ohkayy Right?All I Know Is As We Sit Together...I Turn Away Afraid He'd See The Tears That Are About To Form In my Eyes...He'd Ask Me If Anythings Wrong..I Smile And Giggle and Tell Him I'm Fine...But I Just Cant Help But To Wish That He Was Mine....

Another rainy day/ I can't recall having sunshine on my face/ All I feel is pain/ All I wanna do is walk out of this place/ But when I am stuck, I can't move/ When I don't know what I should do/ When I wonder if I'll ever make it through// But I gotta keep singing/ I gotta keep praising Your name/ You're the one that's keeping my heart beating/ I gotta keep singing/ I gotta keep praising Your name/ That's the only way that I'll find healing/ Can I climb up in Your lap/ I don't wanna leave/ Jesus sing over me/ I gotta keep singing// Oh You're EVERYTHING I NEED/ And I gotta keep singing

amazing song my mercyme...Keep Singing

my life is pretty good these days. there's some pretty stinky stuff going on. but that's not what i focus on. i like secrets. i like big fonts. and i like you.

love/ Britt

Blondeoutkast12 (4:16:40 PM): lol.....president megan on flying pigs
I am Not Ok 13 (4:16:45 PM): lol
Blondeoutkast12 (4:16:49 PM): lol
Blondeoutkast12 (4:16:57 PM): no clue why i had that dream
I am Not Ok 13 (4:17:34 PM): who knows
Blondeoutkast12 (4:19:02 PM): lol....funny tho
I am Not Ok 13 (4:19:08 PM): yeah and odd

yeah my best friend had a dream about me running for president w/ flying pigs

Raye and Bos Day!

We're gonna go hang out, maybe do some shopping, and rent Kronk's New Groove ^^

Goin to Scott's tonite! w00t! ya gotta love the Russell's! ^^

"I don't want to hear nor speak
The fine words any longer
The pain will be getting worse
So I just accept it"
-Ayu [(miss)understood]

R.I.P. eric encarnation

he died feb 1st around 8 am in a car accident.. i didnt know him.. but i know his brother alex.. eric was ONLY 16.. =(  i feel so bad for alex.. and their family. please pray for them... ive heard alot of gossip about what happened.. not really sure.. just pray please!! thanks

well, whitney and jessica dyed my hair. it's pretty cool. i like it. it's faded a little bit because i used shampoo on it the same night they dyed it. i didnt know any better. i thought a change would be cool.

we have disciple now this weekend, it should be fun. i havent started packing yet, but thats my style.

dont you hate it when your waiting for something in the mail and it doesnt come. i guess it'll get here next week.

so far this semester has been pretty dang good. not too bad.

i wore shorts today, that was some good stuff. i need to go to the mall and get some new shoes.

piece

This is my new friend.  He's been so nice to me lately.  He talked me off of  some ledges today.  SInce there aren't any dogs to kick, as my friend Dano likes to offer... don't worry kicking dogs is not in my nature... but Spike is the next best thing. anytime someone wants to join me for a game... its electronic... Good ol' spike.

I am so completely frustrated right now... all because of my stupid mistakes and a substatutes assumptions... I don't really want to go into it right now but if you really want to know ask me later.

hey but something good happened though... In art I apparently painted a really good tree with water colors... my art teacher was so excited because I had been working on getting the right technique for two weeks... so I am excited that she's excited. Watercolor is alot harder than one might think.... 

I absolutly love my photo editor!

The __nym show went really well. We had an awesome turn out. Scott wants all of us to have more shows together....we'll see how that turns out I guess.

I submitted three mixed media pieces for the Watkins student show. Wish me luck. I really want to get in.... but I'm trying not to get my hopes up, because there are a lot of really talented artists at Watkins. Lots of competition. Unlike last year, I have friends/acquaintances that submitted some awesome stuff, and if I don't get in, I'll be happy if they do.

I so skipped Women's Lit. today. It twas an accident....

That's all, folks.

So yesterday on my way home from school I got in a wreck it was AWFUL! Let me tell ya rain is the complete devil and light way cars stink! Well I have to go to work but I'll write more later bout it.....I'm fine my car is not...

"What do you really want?
What do you really wish?
Where do you really aim for?
And with whom?"
-Ayu [(miss) understood]

Here is some funny stuff that my bro e-mailed to me. It made me laugh really hard.

Toys that are hard to find:

When the phrase "oh crap" is considered appropriate

Lol well I hope that made u laugh. That is most of them. The rest were a little too inapropriate to put on phusebox (for instance...mary kate and ashley's easy bake meth lab...lol)

~Garrett

Hey everybody. I am new to phusebox. Lookin'  to meet some new ppl.

I like candles. I was going to put some pics of candles, but I wasn't exactly sure how, so, I'll just stick with saying 'I like candles' I especially like watching them burn...the fire...oh yeah. Have you ever blown out a candle and then put your fingers in the hot wax and had the wax dry on your fingers? Or taken white glue or something and put it on the palm of your hand, waited for it to dry and then peeled it off?

I didn't get to talk to Jen last night.  And I didn't feel like getting up early for school today.  I got here in the middle of 2nd period.  I really want to see Jen and hold her in my arms.  Maybe if I'm lucky I'll get to see her Sunday.  I don't know.  Maybe.....

photo from LuvPet

Hey well i jus got one of these bcause the dumb cpu at school are gay so ya no one will comment me but whateva ttyl Drew

I posted a paper on here about 2-3 weeks ago and I just got it back. I got a 95, thats awesome. I never get good grades in English which is ironic because I speak english... never really got that one, hummm.
The Super Bowl is in 2 days and my sister moves out in 22 days. Life is good! I miss my nephew.. :( I havn't seen him in like 2 weeks. Well I still have homework so adios!
Peace,
Katie

nothing new to report.  i just took a math test which i hope that i made at least a 70 on. oh well, i am doing extra credit and i turned in my homework so my grade shouldn't suffer too much. will write more later.

lylas

it is not like anyone reads this anyway

should i put more photos up?

i am so tired. today is friday. i have to be up in half an hour, but oops! im already up. at 526 AM. 926 in TN, though.

We are going to Kmart sometime this weekend in Kapolei because the one in Waikele sucks, and Walmart Sucks. We went to Waikele the other day, like 2 days ago, and I got a migraine. I was miserable.

My dad came in from the ship yesterday, like right as we sat down to eat dinner. It scared us to death, he opened the door and slammed it shut. We were all like "What?!" Then he walked down the stairs to the living room, and then dropped his stuff and sat down to eat.

I do not want to go to school today. I do not want to get on a crowded city bus today. I do not want to face my teachers today.

Anyway, I have to go.

Aloha kakahiaka (Good morning)

MATT

man i can't believe oakland lost!!!!!!!!!!!!! but oh well alls good. anyhow todays payday so that means time to go shoppin for some new cds!!!!!yeah!!!

what is up everyone I am Confused today and I am bored to death but I am so good today

Wow I kind of miss this whole blog thing. So here is the last three months in a nutshell: sleep, change rooms, eat, study, drive, eat, Christmas, sleep, New Years, drive, skiing, sleep, study. Yea that is about it. So Im getting ready to go to Trinidad playing some basketball with the team and just hangin out like you do. I got to watch Monty Python is my engineering physics class, it was amazing.

i look weird without glasses.

agreed?

you all thought it.

i know.

so hi. im ally.

im 17.

and im sure no one on this site is quite like me.

So today was rather interesting.. twice today I found myself on my phusebox profile clicking on the artists on my favorite music section and getting great pleasure out of finding that I was the only phusebox member to cite any given one.. weird I know.

Also, this morning I was watching HGTV and they have this show called "weekend warriors." It really made me want to paint a room.. sooo alas, I've been painting all day. My parents think I'm crazy. I am.

"Poetry is a flaw,

The common man's guffaw,

The truth you vainly seek,

Hides beneath the crow caw.

An angel's blessing of which I wish to claim,

The power of love to send my heart a-flame.

A pureness that I deem myself unworthy to feel,

Drowns my souls and revives it the same.

Musical quality of an inperfect tune,

Your tears glisten underneath the moon,

Futile effort of a broken dream,

Where the dish ran away with the spoon."

And that basically sums up life.

Danny

well the past couple of weeks have just been well .. different. I cant say that it has been normal, but what is normal? i have been thinking about faith? what is faith? how do i think faith runs in my life. i have come to many comclusions on what i would say faith would be. i have not only learned about myself through my faith but others. i know that i wasnt just put on earth to live a life of just normalty, but i was sent to live a life through him, jesus. it's amazing what a little faith will do to you...

oh yeah, I practiced tonight 3 hours, then an hour earlier in the day... totaling 4 hours. Thats not even including the hour and a half of concert band, and hour and a half of trio. heck yes. I quit practicing tonight cause I couldnt hold an embochure anymore. How aweomse is that?! I was able to stay focused for that long... go me =)

A deeper look into the Chronicles of Narnia, and what a lot of children and adults should get out of it: So, who is Aslan? In the last chapter of The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, Lucy, Edmund and Eustace travelt o the Very End of the World where they meet a lamb who suddenly changes into the lion, Aslan. As he talks to the children, Aslan reveals that he is not just in Narnia but in our world as well. "But there," he says, "I have another name. You must learn to know me by that name. THis is the very reason why you were brought into Narnia, that by knowing me here for a little, you may know me better there..."

    When a young girl from America wrote to Jack to ask what name Aslan used in our world, he replied: As to Aslan's other name, well, I want you to guess. Has there ever been anyone in this world who Arrived at the same time as Father Christman? Said he was the Son of the Great Emperor? Gave himself up for someone else's fault to be jeered at and killed by wicked people? Came to life again? Is somtimes spoken of as a lamb? Don't you really know his name in this world?
    "Its a funny thing," Jack wrote two days before he dided, " that all the children who have written to me see at once who Aslan is, and grown-ups never do!"

Why do those friends or aquantances the ones that you expect to be there whenever you need them. Those that you conjure that they wouldnt let anything anyone thought would happen to the friendship.

I'm feelin like a total LOSER FACE with no comments after like a week. I guess its my fault for forgetting to comment on others, maybe because I keep forgetting I don't know. I dressed up wacky tacky today and was one of like 5. That was embarrassing so I kinda hid it.

I gotta stop this negative thing...

OKAY!

Hilarious Story- This morning's excitement

We were on the way to school and my mom said that my sister was gonna be late since we had to take me first. We noticed that my neighbor Ashley was in front of us on HighWay 99. We called her house to get her cell phone number, called her cell, and asked if I could run and get in her car. She said yes and my mom yells, "RUN! RUN! RUN!" So I grabbed my bag flew from the Boxcar volvo to Ashley's van in like 1.2 seconds, closed the door, and we were off! I laughed like halfway to school between breaths. GOOD TIMES!

- JACOB

Wish me luck, I am off to my first college interview weekend..it is at Carson Newman..I'll have my phone on me if you need me..

Its about time to kill my Impala. Im so mad at it . The freaking check engline light won't quit coming on. Last Friday I was on the way to admissions to get that taken care of so I can finally get the title in my name and the Check Engine Light came on. This isn't the first time that has happened either. I have took it to the shope 3 times to get them to take it off. I took it once because I had a Gassy smell in my car. It was horrible if I lit a match I might have blowed up. We figured out from the oter place I had a leak or something in my fuel tank causing the check engine light to come on. So we took it to a new person today and he had some kind of special equipment to figure out where the leak is or whatever. I was planning on taking my car straight to admissions right after school. That didn't happen. I have to get a whole new gas tank put in. This stinks. This car may have been alot cheaper than most cars. I wonder if its worth it though. Im hoping I won't have any more problems with her after I get this new gas tank put in.

At school today Lindsay Person left her keys in the hallway. I picked them up and carried them through 1st and 2nd period. At breaktime thats when the fun began. I took her car and drove it to Kingwood Heights across the street.I backed it up on the very first row and then went back to school. Alden told me to go move it to the very back of Kingwood so I did. Of course I backed in and everything. Ya gotta back in if you have the oppurtunity !

Then at lunch time I was just waiting for the oppurtunity to take one of the Girls keys. I saw keys laid beside someone and I thought I got Lindsays again but it was Gallys.Gally chased me like none other down the hall and tried hard to get it back. I got in her car started it up and Josh Hatvey blocked me so I would't move her car. I then walked back into school and acted like Zach had her keys. I walked out the back door and darted towards Gallys car. Josh ran as fast as he could to his car. I started to back up and he blocked me in again. Oh well it was a fun thing. Josh wasn't mad at me and neither was Gally. I asked Gally if she'd be mad at me if I took it. I watched where Gally put her keys when I was walking into 5th period and I took them when I was in 7th. I just felt like taking them that time. I didn't go outside. Stacey took them away from me and put them back where they belonged.

Gally your freaking amazing !

Ben came over and we were "Studying". Yea right we just hung out and talked. ben got him some good ole food to eat and we set my car alarm off and couldn't get it to go off. My dad goes Is that your car going off? I said yea. He said please get it off.

some pics from LaDonna's Going Away Party:

Rae stuffin her face lol

Donnie (i surprised her)

Donnie's counting off to sing Happy Birthday to her nephew Andy ^^ he's 5 ^^

Donnie and Andy ^^ awww

Donnie's Going away cake

Andy's B-day cake

Bos eating his ice cream

 like sister...
like brother lol

Tomorrow... Raye and Bos Day! ^^ w00t!

I also hate the feeling of having to miss someone who lives 12 minutes away. Ok, I think I'm done now.

I'm feeling quite down. I hate the feeling of liking a certain someone and them not really knowing you exist. The feeling of thinking you know someone for years and then waking up to see they are suddenly a stranger, of having a life long best friend that turns out to be just an aquaintence(pretty sure I spelled that wrong), the feeling that your life will never be the same because you ruined it, that you are the one that caused all the feelings you hate. Feeling of failure, disapointment, and brokeness, of being lost in a world you used to know so well, of not knowing what to do or where to go. So many feelings that I hate and they've all been flooding me for like 6 months or so. I'm gonna go cry now. Maybe talk to God for a while.

helloo!

well the weekend is comming and i'm EXCITED LIKE NEVER B4! now i prolly won't do another entry till monday. or i might do one tom. if i have time. * i'm so excited and i just cain't hide it!!* lol i was singing !! ok well ig2g ttyl

<3 always,

lindsey

Hockey=Amazing

AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
GUYS SUCK ASS!
they tell u one thing when they mean another, you think you have a good time and then they don't call u for a month, they say they are over someone when in reality they will NEVER be over that person, and they won't even bother to even think about telling you what the fuck is going on inside their head!

(and to clarify this is aimed at no one guy in particular but just guys in general!)

So MTSU does not offer any musical theatre classes, but they do, in fact, offer Japanese Landscaping.

Wow.

Oh the joy of knowing that I do not have to be good enough, because Christ covers all my imperfections, and works through me in spite of me. As long as I remain in His Will, I can never be a failure.

i hope it snows alot tonight.
please, please, please God.
i could really use a break.

i've decided to give up
makeup for a whole week.
a fasting if-you-will.
because i realized i've been
a faithful makeup wearer
since about the 5th grade.
and i'm going through one of
those "clensing" stages..
y'know.. alot of alone time
alot more reading, less tv, and
long baths. and a whole lot
of prayer. i'm also trying to become
less materialistic. it feels amazing.
i can feel myself growning. i
think i'm on to something, here..

abby

Bad day...but I just read something on Lisa's site that helped me with what Ive been sturggling with today and I wanted to share that with you..

Beauty says, "All shall be well."

And this is what it's like to be with a women at rest, a woman comfortable in her feminine beauty. She is enjoyable to be with. She is lovely. In her presence your heart stops holding its breath. You relax and believe once again that all will be well.
Beauty invites
Beauty nourishes
Beauty comforts
Beauty inspires
Beauty is transcendent. it is our most immediate experience of the eternal. Think of what its like to behold a glorious sunset, or the ocean at dawn. Remember the ending of a great story. We yearn to linger, to experience it all our days. Sometimes the beauty is so deep it pierces us with longing. For what? For life as it was meant to be. Beauty reminds us of an Eden we have never known, but somehow know our hearts were created for. Beauty speaks of heaven to come, when all shall be beautiful. It haunts us with eternity. Beauty says, "There is a glory calling to you."
Beauty is without a question, the most essential and the most misunderstood of all of God's qualities--all of feminine qualities too. A woman knows, down in her soul, that she longs to bring a beauty to the world.

There is a radience hidden in your heart that the world desperately needs.

I cant wait until the day comes when I realize the beauty God has placed in me....

Christ died on the cross  for an ultimate purpose, but think about this. He died because he saw the true YOU, and it was too beautiful to hide under the sin that once conquered you...

I miss those days

so... she likes stuart... i wish she would of told me sooner... and hows about EVERYONE and there mom knew... but no one wanted to tell me... what friends

i got sent to daniel mckee... no im not joking... so yeh... im a junior but im in sophomore english right?... well the writing prompt was yesterday and mr tomlinson said i needed to go... so i went and asked the lady if i should take it and she told me to hold on and she would check... well she never came back... meaning i didnt have a prompt paper or a topic to write on.. so i was written up for skipping!!!... and i got sent to daniel mckee... it was nice to know u oakland friends... ill see u next year...

stuart said he was gonna ask her out... i want to be happy for her... i really really do... but im selfish... i want her... i want to be her boyfriend... i was the be the one she calls at 3 in the morning cuz she cant sleep... i want to be the prince in her bed time stories that she used to tell me... i miss her... i really really do...

this week has been the worst week ever... i went to church wanting to get right with god but thoughts of my day and lauren shot through my head and killed my spiritual focus... i know i need to get right with god... iv REALLY thrown my life away the past 4 months... and i need to change NOW... but i cant do it alone... please pray for me

take your time,
don't live too fast
troubles will come
&& they will pass.

i need to let go of a l o t.
its just so hard..

why, hello there february! =]

life is good.
school is bad.
that's normal.

cookout tomorrow night...i get to see all the friends i've missed =] (mucho happiness)

leave me some more amazing comments!!
[becca]

If God created so much beautiful things on earth, just imagine how beautiful God is.  If He placed the solar system at the center of the universe, just imagine where He places himself in you.  If my God created blue skies to complement the sun, just imagine what God does to complement you.  If an artist paints a canvas of his heart, just imagine what color God painted you.  We are one color.  The color of His Blood. 

An artist always loves his creation.  An artist never makes mistakes in his paintings.  An artist pours out his heart into his creations.  An artist creates perfect master pieces.  In the artist's eyes you'll see passion.  Passionate of his work.  If an artist can create perfect master pieces, just imagine how perfect God's master pieces are.  If God is the artist, and we're his canvases, just imagine the time, desire, love and patience He poured out onto us to create a portrait of His heart.  Imagine.....  We are HIS!!

Who do you admire and look up to?

Why?

"we went to the moon to have fun,
but the moon turned out to completely suck"

_feed

Hey guys, this is Courtney updating for Kayleigh (my best friend :-]), she doesn't know that I am, but I guess she will soon lol.
Have a great week!!

--Kayleigh & Courtney

i have come to admire old people because they don't care what you think of them.

they know you think they are stupid . . .

they know that you are the stupid one.

they have fought their fights,

lived their lives,

and what has that given them?

stories.

and maybe if you are lucky—very lucky—they will share with you.

you can sit on your great aunt's lap and hear stories of life as a child in florida, traveling in greece, or teaching at a college in scotland.

you can listen to your grandfather tell stories of landing on a beach in normandy, wading through the jungles and swamps of korea or vietnam, or being the editor of a paper in atlanta.

and if you get really lucky, you will get cornered by a distantly related elderly lady at a family reunion and hear stories for hours of growing up in the hills of south carolina.

old people are willing to give you a window into another time and place, a look into their souls . . .

and all you have to do is ask.

old people are wisdom.

they have been through the poverty of the depression, the horror of a world war, and the fear and paranoia of the cold war.

they survived . . .

and they know that you will, too.

(no matter how bad life gets or how alone you feel.)

in a world of fading memories and weakening health, they have realized that all that really matters is the present.

will being 10 minutes late to work matter in 10 years?

will missing your child's first day of school?

old people know what is important. they know how to survive.

to remember.

to live.

i have come to admire old people because they are willing to share the secrets of life.

will you ask?

as i been told to day i look like i could run for president

but there's another thing i also got told(and i just found out today)

that.....i am.....

BUSH'S WHORE

and it's kinda funny...... lol

All of a sudden, I have been really tired.  I mean, like all week.  Tomorrow I have training for Poland.  I am soooo excited.  I can't wait till I get to go.  I really want to head off to Poland.  I'm kinda just bored this semester.  I'm not as stimulated as I think I usually am.

well that picture was for your viewing pleasure.  Several BSU-ers went to go see the groundhog today.  That must have been exciting.  Too bad I don't take such risks.  But I am spending the summer in a different country so I can't complain too much.  Well, I think I need to run to the BSU for rehearsal.  So I will talk to ya'll later!

Hey Beautifuls...

         So how have you been.... good I hope!I have been good things are looking up for me right now.... Ummm... Yesterday was fun I guess.I was supposed to go to Church but nooooo.......... I had to go to a game and cheer...fun*fun ((lol))...well it wasnt worth it becuase we lost ((but only by three points!I cant wait until this weekend  beacuse  I have a Premier Cheerleading competition....and then the weekend after that I am gonna go to the movies with Chris Slate* ,((hopefully Jessica)),and some of Chris's friends...It might be fun..Who Knows!!Well anyways.....Dont you think it's just crazy how you can like someone Soooo...much but you dont know what it is about them that makes them soo special?All I know is that you shouldnt settle for the person you could be with.....settle for the person you couldnt be without..**I Luv Ya...........<3 **Ash** 

i hardly am on the computer anyone. My life is so cRaZy. i don't know what i'm gonna do anymore. I've about drove myself crazy! not as bad as everyone may think tho,.......ok, so

whats new

Clinical, my new love of ACTUALLY LEAVING at 2, going to work @ 6, service desk, being outrageously nervous, being very, i mean, very maternal...evern when i dont have kids!!! ZOUNDS!! what will i do...*emily*

i am really happy but confused... i still like jordan but i'm not sure if we are talkin or not. and then i really like zach and i know we are talkin but i'm afraid that if i seriously start talkin to zach again i won't ever get back together w/ jordan. i dunno. i just guess ill see how things flow. im kinda anxious about what's gonna happen.. yay! this is good drama.

love forever and always,

Tiffany Marie

as of lately it seems like some stuff just does not make sense or that many things have no purpose or lack hope...i think this type of thinking begins to set in when we begin to rely on our own thinking instead of relying on the promises God gives us. (His plans) they are beautiful plans which involve joyous and sad times of lament. its so easy to get out of our element (that is, Christians with a personal relationship) and to rely on our own plans, desires, and hopes. i sit many of times looking into the future (one thing man CANNOT do) and i think to myself what am i? or what is it that God has instore? what will i do after college? will i find the woman that has been promised for me to be with? ... and ah, just so many questions fill our minds and we try to answer the questions that we can NEVER answer... and when we get to the point of frustration of our own questions and trying to fathom the way we want our life to be, i think we sit back and nod our head (or laugh), and at that moment you must sit back and rest. Rest in the stillness of knowing that God is in control and not us.

I am not going to rant and rave about how mans pride is the source of this question/answer frustation thing because i think for many of us thats been preached on and we know that pride and self is the source of too much of our sin... but in all this im talking bout the importance of recognizing our Savior and our Lord as the reason man exists, the reason we have purpose, and the reason we breathe day by day is Him. i think it is so easy to look to ourselves, instead of looking to Him. we know he has answers and we know He holds every ingredient to life in his hands.

im not sure if any of this makes any sense to anyone, but i am just pouring out my hope for those around me and for myself... its so hard to go day by day and see people around you weather those you see daily or at home, the people you love and demonstrated care for, or just the strangers walking into you on campus or in any random location you may be... its hard to see whether they grasps your perspective of the beauty of God...its hard to see if they have the passion that you strive for them to have... its hard to accept that God is truley indescribable and is just this HUGELY LOVINGLY CARING JUST OPEN father. you want those around you to embrace that. you want to see fruit of the Spirit. you want to see an abandoned worshipper. you want them to have just a heart for God and experience that in return...

when Hope is lost, i call You Savior. when pain surrounds, i call You Healer. When silence falls, You'll be the song in my heart.

Skunk.

http://www.nasa.gov/audience/forstudents/5-8/features/F_Apollo_35th_Anniversary.html

Sickening, huh?

Bo and I are having a Superbowl party on Sunday and I am super siked. I finally coaxed him into actually hanging pictures on the wall. There are several original paintings from family members and I just finished a painting of the two of us for his wedding present. People are REALLY hard to paint. I usually stick to landscapes and plants...that sort of thing.

  I have been reading a really neat mystery series written by Patricia Cornwell and I get easily scared. Well, I am on book 3 and I read while I am at work. At my work I am the receptionist and all of the other people in the office reside upstairs. I basically ward off any crazy looking people and artists that they aren't interested in.

   Yesterday I was happily reading when a tall skinny black man walks in and heads straight for the candy dish. He wouldnt tell me why he was there. He said that he wanted only to talk to me. ACK! He had to have been on drugs because I couldnt understand anything that he said and he kept asking me to lunch. Needless to say, he finally went away saying that he would come back. I locked the door and freaked the rest of the day.

   My boss doesnt care if I have the doors locked. He wants me to feel safe. This guy who named himself as Eric, was the second random non-music person to walk in yesterday. He was missing three fingers on his right hand.

that's the key word for this present life.

unfortunately i have it.

so i probably wont be updating becuase i dont have a lot of energy. but thanks to all those praying for me.

<3

Chuck Norris can hit you so hard that he can actually alter your DNA. Decades from now your descendants will occasionally clutch their heads and yell "What The Fuck was That?"

Chuck Norris originally appeared in the "Street Fighter II" video game, but was removed by Beta Testers because every button caused him to do a roundhouse kick. When asked bout this "glitch," Norris replied, "That's no glitch."

Please Don't Let It Go

We're drifting apart
But I want you to know
Wherever you are I belong
Love's singing our song
But we fail to sing along
Wherever you go I will follow

So please don't let it
Please don't let it go
'Cause if you won't let it I won't let it go
So please don't let it
Please don't let it go
'Cause if you don't let it I won't let it go

You try to be strong
But you're always so alone
Whatever I do I do it wrong
Death sings our song
And we eagerly sing along
Whatever you do I adore
I adore

So please don't let it
Please don't let it go
'Cause if you won't let it I won't let it go
So please don't let it
Please don't let it go
'Cause if you won't let it I won't let it go
Oh no

Don't let go of life
Let go of love
Let go of all we have

So don't let go of trust
Let go of lust
Let go of all we share
All we share

So please don't let it
Please don't let it go
'Cause if you won't let it I won't let it go
So please don't let it
Please don't let it go
'Cause if you don't let it I won't let it go

So please don't let it
Please don't let it go
'Cause if you won't let it I won't let it go
Hey my darling
Please don't let it
Please don't let it go
'Cause if you won't let it I won't let it go
Oh no

To Jen.  I am still in awe.

I paper cutted my finger... :(

what do u do when a guy says that he will wait for u until the end of time? when someone likes u so much that they would do just about anything for u. it hurts when ur are torn between what ur friends think and what guy seriously likes u.

 that is what it feels like to be torn in two.

Yep.. ok.
Journey is in 3 weeks and i'm really excited. Nobody here even knows what Journey is but if you lived here i'd invite you to come and you would think it was awesome to.
I'm having "issues" with my quiet times or lack-there-of. Blah, life sucks sometimes. ya know?
Well anyways, my sister moves out in 23days! *oh yeah baby* there's some good news!

Peace,
Katie

i'm new to this thing...

are there any nice guys in this site? if so, holla back ;)

hi everyone i am new to phusebox so i hope to meet new people:)

Welcome to New York, Brett, where we humiliate our friends. 

Sorry guys, forgot i took these.

Hope you had a great Birthday.  Tell your mom thanks for the cookie... I was so sad when you took it from me.

This week has been HELL...

so much bloody homework... I welcome next monday, Just so i can start over.

So i've realized this week through all of this work... just how much time i have in one day... 24 Hours.. its not a lot but it is definetly enough.. Yet i dont use it wisely at all..

I slip yet agian into procrastinating... My life .. My calling..  I do ZERO of my work at home because i can not work unless i am under pressure.  I sit in my room and become distracted. Even if i was to sit in and empty room and do my home work  i think i would like play with my fingers or some shit..ANYTHING to not do my work.

But then the morning comes... and there is this RUSH... holy shit i have to get 5 sections of Precal done by 3rd period..The pressure is on, and im ready for it..

This is what i live for. those mornings, when my 3.8 GPA is on the line.

When i really dont care any more.. but yet i still do...  I get my 5 sections done.. whether copying or putting my nose to the grind stone and doing it myself.

So i say to myself.. " i will never put it off for this long ever again"  i kno i am lying to myself though... b/c i cant' not do it at the last minute.. It is my habit my addiction...  And it has never failed me yet.

I've yet to make a "C" in  a high school course.

So my cell-phone is officially dead. It is decapitated. If I don't answer you, it may not necessarily mean that I hate you, I am just incapable of recieving call right now.

I have started a new tradition. Every night before I go to sleep, I lay in bed and pray for each one of my friends, individually. Even though this abvously cuts into my sleep, it's amazing how much more rested I feel in the mornings. It really puts me in a great mood, and I know my friends need prayer, so we all win.

I have So many Friends on Phusebox now that I can't Say this to you as individuals right now.......HELLO...How are all of you? My week has been so great that I don't know where to begin. Okay, Here goes:

Sunday- My mom came to church, I was an usher for both morning services, I got to spend time with my mom for the first time since CHRISTmas, the guest musician who came told the entire congregation that God told him to buy me and my foster brothers a brand new suit, and he told everyone to buy his CD's and his books so he could give all of the money to me and my foster brothers to buy a brand new computer.

Monday- I said some things and did some things that I shouldn't have done, yet God gave me His favor....I didn't get in as much trouble as I should have.

Tuesday- My day was just awsome. I didn't have hardly anything to do in ALL of my classes. God helped me a little with my short sermon. (of course it's not done yet, we are still working on it)

Wednesday- I left school at 2:00pm to go to church for a fews minute until the pastor showed up, he drove me and my foster brothers to Nashville to meet with David Bayerly ( the guy who said he was going to buy us some suits), he bought us each a brand new suit, we got the suits tailored, Pastor Darla's uncle gave David Bayerly the money to buy all of us a brand new pair of dress shoes, (my uncle gave me and my biological brother three pairs of black dress socks), and I went to church to praise God for how much He has blessed me this week

Today- I don't know yet. I did start the day off by thanking God for how much He blessed my life since I became a Christian.

last nite, bible study actually went pretty well... we're doing a pretty funny skit this Sunday that my brother will be starring in. come check it out! Sunday morning @ 10 @ Blackman High's gym.

tonite is LaDonna's going away dinner @ Ryan's >.< it'll be fun but i'm gonna miss her.

tomorrow is Raye and Bos Day! my brother and i are gonna spend some quality time together! i love him! he's so awesome! ^^ we'll prolly go see a movie or maybe even just hang out, go shopping, etc.

I REALLY can't wait to see Wicked >.<


http://www.beyondtherainbow2oz.com/wicked-a-new-musical-in-pictures.html

"Giving a smile fit for each situation
Saying plausible words
I go blank
It's about time to end up pretending to be impassive"
-Ayu (INSPIRE)

Okay, Last night @ church = AWESOME
like always.
chyeah.
If you've never been to Emerge, you seriously need to check it out.
'specialy on Wednesday.
It's on the little stripmall thing that Ci Cis pizza is on, it's right beside Sallys and it's called Emerge Worship Center.
so...check it out.

well i'm kinda sad now . my friend angela that just moved was gonna come visit for spring break but her mom and dad aren't fond of the idea so i asked my parents if i could go to canada but they shot that idea down. they are freaking out worrying about me coming across the border so they said no. and yeah. i was all excited. =( oh well, back to the florida plan then. i'm just worried stacee and i won't both be able to get off work at the same time. oh well. jackiekins: don't forget to ask your mom about florida!!!

LOVE YA GUYS!

beth

Ohh Boy you looking like you like what you see
Won't you come over check up on it

--check on it by beyonce [[yep feeling pretty gangsta today]]

this week has been okay
and I've got the teachers fooled at oakland
but I'm kind of a kiss up
so what did I expect?

& also this week someone thought I looked
1-- a mexican [I dont know]
2-- an indian [laura white]
3-- a hawaiian [emily from spanish]
4-- extra asian [laura white again]
ahaha, I just that was hilarious
I can pull off any ethnic look

knoxville was amazing
and the chior was beuatiful :)
but of course it wouldnt have been
if morgan, tiffany, and I werent there

so life's been too good to me.

great friends, a wonderful boyfriend, amazing relationship with my favorite, God. :)

peace out kids.

Ok guys… here’s the challenge for ya… The locals here in Maui (as well as the other islands) have their own dialect called “Pigeon”. Pigeon is basically a mixture of English and Gibberish………. So, your quiz is to see if you can translate the following saying. Justin and Leslie are disqualified to this contest, b/c all they have to do is get a local to translate it for them. (sorry guys) Also, if you happen to have lived in Hawaii for any good length of time, you need not apply.

 

Ok… Here goes…

 

What kine dis?

 

Eh so what u guys like go beach & small kine swim and den go grind aftah? When u guys like go? I stay bored la dat… We go bu. Shoots den! Shpoock ya latahz.

 

Not too hard, but we’ll see how you do. I hope you did better than the spell check on Word…. It’s wiggin out.

 

-Jeff, Hodge, and Jah (thanx for providing the dialogue)

This is my first of many flows so dont copy it cuz i'll sue you lol.

I've neva gone for of just any beat

but da type of beat that gonna get freaked

it'll have u atin a foll like cats when in heat

and its more gutter then most sh*t you'll find on the streets

Before i keep goin i have to explain

how i got the name, Raw Krak Kokaine

so sit back relax cuz this sh*ts insane

i used to push white back in da day

it hit harder then a hit from Mike in the face

i had everyone wantin to get a taste

it had the same affect as sniffing spray paint

now lets get back to moving the keys

i had to watch my back for snitches like lil Cease

It was like i was the king of the east

but then life came to a stop with a sudden screach

but damn story is not to be told

i know the way i left ya is kinda cold

but for me to be spitting this is really bold

im done with this story, rest will be sold

I stared out, upon a dark sunset
The light I saw, but with deep regret
As I watched it fade away
And with the disappearance
Left my smile for the day
And so I turned and slumped off
What happiness is there with no light in the world?
When all you had is stripped in the dark?
I swear it, you'd once felt something
Even if so slight.......
And I prayed and I focused
We smiled and we laughed
Perhaps it was my fault
And we weren't built to last....
but all I ever said was I love you

Hope whoever cares to read likes....

Breathe in,
and take Him in.
Exhale, and let Him be,
Something more to you and me,
Than just a theory, or a thought,
But the Creator of everything.
Inhale, and know He's there.
Exhale, and give a stare,
To the countless stars in Heavens realm,
Of a God sitting at the healm
Of all that exists past the skies of blue,
Down to someone as insignificant as me and you.
Breathe.
He's there,
From the beginning of substance to the end of no where
Unto all the world and to all mankind
His throne that reigns beyond all time.
And breathe, let the air flow through
Your heart and lungs, your spirit too.
Breathe,
It's simple.
His air, His truth, His life, His love.
His power, His creation, His arm from above
Do you see it?
Can you breathe it?
Will you believe it?
And will you mean it?
His arms stretch across eternity
And grasp things beyond concept
His truth reaches deeper than the cosmos,
His infinince can not be met.
There's nothing that ever was or is
That His finger did not create,
And all I want every day is to sit back
And meditate
On Him that is, was, and is to come
The one to whom all will succumb
Who's power stretches beyond all match
With a presence that permeates down to that
Which holds everything in every day
And for which I can only manage to say:

Breathe,
And take Him in.

doot doo doo

doing my how stuff works for mrs daniel and i turned it into me helping her reach her dreams of becoming a world famous tambourine player i wish i could do papers like that for every other class... o well

oooooo obought a string quartet tribute to relient K cd today its the bomb!!!!

much love!

Man, this is how my relationship with God feels...woefully inadequate.

What is old is getting older, and the Continuity of Monotony reigns.

Or does it?

Where the Spirit of the LORD is, there is freedom. God blessed us with His Spirit through His Son, right? Doesn't that mean that freedom resides here in my chest?

Have you ever been worshipping, and out of a desire to see no one but Christ, you envision this place: there is the Cross, and there is you. You just sit down in front of it, letting the comfort and joy and freedom that comes with His Sacrifice wash over you and ebb and flow about you, and tears roll down your face as you look up at the Cross, while the sun rises swiftly in the East.

Love.

I want to go there. I don't want me get in the way of my relationship with my One and Only Love, my True Dad in Heaven.

"...And You're covering me with Your majesty. And the truest sign of grace was this: From wounded hands redemption fell down, liberating man. But the harder I try the more clearly can I feel the depth of our fall and the weight of it all. And so this might could be the most impossible thing: Your grandness in me making me clean. Glory, halleluja..."

-Lyrics from 'Wholly Yours' by David Crowder

I have been using and working on my own website lately. So check it if you are interested about what is going on in my life...

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Later,
JT