Pretty cool day, well a cold day too.  This morning, school delayed, 2 hours. Alright.  Still had to take the test for 1st period.  Bummer, but it was easy I think I passed it.  I had my hair spiked up today, it looked decent I guess.  5th period was cool, I'm gonna find out if I can get on the Engine Diagnostics team for the competition.  Haha I was right on the C-10 pickup truck that wouldn't start.  I said that it wasn't getting gas, wasn't getting spark, and the battery was low... Yeah, I was right LMAO...

So I'm ready to go to Poland.  Training was awesome and I love all the girls that I met and are on my team.  Made some new friends: Jared, Amber, Kent, Josh, Levi, KAYLA.  It was good times.  I loved it.  This week has been a little rough for me.  I learned that my tags on my car expired on Jan. 31.  That's not cool.  I also learned that I haven't had a valid form of insurance in my posession since Nov. 5, 2005.  That's no good.  So I can't drive my car until I get my new license plate that my wonderful Father sent me yesterday.  So, I might be bumming rides.  I don't know.  I need more fabric and I need zippers.  I don't know why I've been so bummed and down this week but I have and it's starting to frustrate me.  I need to perk up and I don't know how I'm gonna make that happen.  I know that I need to work on it because other people are starting to ask me and I'm supposed to be the happy one and I usually am.  So I will work on that.  That's my homework for this weekend.  I will work on it diligently.  Lauren's been gone all this week and won't be back til Sunday and I miss her.  I miss her a lot.  It's soooo lonely in the room by myself.  Well, PBS is going to start soon so I will talk to ya'll later.

"Prodigal" by Casting Crowns

Living on my own, thinking for myself
Castles in the sand, temporary wealth
Walls are falling down, storms are closing in
Tears have filled my eyes, here I am again

And I've held out as long as I can
Now I'm letting go and holding out my hand

Daddy, here I am again
Will You take me back tonight
I went and made the world my friend
And it left me high and dry
I drag Your name back through the mud
That You first found me in
Not worthy to be called Your son
Is this to be my end
Daddy, here I am
Here I am again

Curse this morning sun
Drags me in to one more day
Of reaping what I've sown
Of living with my shame
Welcome to my world
And the life that I have made
Where one day you're a prince
The next day you're a slave

>>>>so i guess you could say this song sums up the last 2 1/2 months for me....

so yeah i know i havent updated in a while..

Bekah doesnt have a valentine.

thought i do have my eye on someone

but i dont think he is interested..

but hes...me makes me speechless..

so yeah anyway life is now back on track and everything is well with the world. for me anyway!

so i am going to try to keep updating on this!

i love you all soo much! leave some lovins!

B.

"money doesnt talk it swears...obscenity who really cares....propaganda all is phony..." --bob dylan
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you walk onto the crowded street...only looking at your feet and all at once you start to see the people...free...set off to meet and talk and be...time goes by and this goes on but then you see theres nothing more...and you turn to run but then again....they grab you in...door to door....

beating faster and faster still....youre trapped within against your will...these stepford wives have got you son...and when you reach for you gun...they lull you in with talk of green...money...change...its all the same....and yet you came....and came again...

throw it off and run outside...only to find youve got nothing to hide...pick up yourself for one more round...this time you wont end on the ground....youve seen this hell...this shopping spree...for the latest fad..starched and pressed theyre all the same...conformity's the game...but you wont go down that way....youll change it all...make them see....

-D

IS ANYBODY ELSE LONELY ON VALENTINE'S DAY??? LOL!

Yes I'm throwing a pity party!               

Introduce yourself in one bold, honest paragraph.
My name is Sara Shaban and I am many things. A dreamer, a thinker, and a beginner are among some of those things. I am a growing christian with more than enough questions. I change my mind alot therefore I have a wide variety of goals and dreams. I plan on studying journalism because I want to travel the world and let everyone else in on my adventures. If you were ever to give me a gift make sure it's a book or a giftcard to a place where I could get one.

Tell me what people think about you.
On first impression their reaction is most likely "Weird, but I like her." I like that impression.

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
To have the ability to just sit and listen for a while.

Have you ever felt at home with someone?
 Completely besides my mother? not yet.

Describe your appearance.
I'm 5'2. I have long dark brown hair but you might as well call it black. My eyes are brown as well. I have hands the size of a 5 yr olds and an arab looking nose.

Biggest revelation to date?
"Unless you assume a God, the question of life's purpose is meaningless."
and
"It's all about relationships."

Biggest issue weighing you down?
College. Accepting the Future.

Theme song?
"Do you love me now that I can dance?"

Give me some final parting advice.
Form as many relationships with as many diffrent people as you can.

What is Love?

sorry i haven't been responding.... youguys, i've been having a crazing time and i haven't been on the net to update in a whle..... i rode all the way down to the square to update for all of you guys....... please be patient with me.... it is cool that you you guys keep up with me..... that makes me feel cool..... take care you all.........................

    So I didn't got to work today because I was sick, I was watching movies on tv and I saw a John Cuzack movie that i had never seen before called "The Sure Thing", let me first say that I have a love for John Cusack, and it was a good John movie. It was not that great of a movie, but a pretty classic 80's teen John Cusack movie. It was no say anything but not nearly as bad as like better off dead. So it was just like a sick day in high school where I stayed at home and watched a stupid movie! Got to go deliver some cookies to the RA's on campus and then we are bowling tonight!

UUUUUHHHHHH i hate being sick.  so i've been out of school since tuesday and feeling really bad but oh well.  and then on top of that today i slammed my finger in my car door and it hurts like nothing i have ever felt before!!! but hey maybe i'll get better.

                  

i wish i could feel lie that again that was a gret feeling!

life is good, life is bad, life is life. 

Alright so I have gotten my new car finally......thought I would just share a couple of pics of my baby..........I have 4 in total but I will give my fav. pic......

Yea its my bumper......alot of people gunna be seeing it too.......haha nah j/k yea right......well yea this is the back of my car check my photos for more......peace out bye

cant believe we had school today.. so gay.. its SNOWED N STICKED BUT we STILL had SCHOOL!! gayness i know!! haha.. its SUPPOSE to snow like THIS WEEKEND!! =D hopefully it DOES!! hehe.. i would be SO HAPPY IF IT DID!!

Well...........yesterday I got a flat tire, and this morning the spare was flat..............so today I had a friend drive me around looking for a new set, since it was time for one anyway........do you know what they cost?! 550 bucks! and then another 60 for alignment!  $550 dollars for 4 pieces of rubber!  Apparently someone is getting rich off of this scam..........too bad it isnt me....................anywho............not much goign on aside from that........I will update later on.

Over the past couple of years, I've gotten pretty good at knowing when a guy likes me, especially if I've just met him. This can be annoying, for I know the only reason the guy is even talking to me is to try to get a date. Now, there's nothing wrong with a date, but I don't feel comfortable being one on one with a guy if I don't know him very well. Now, the simple solution is to hang out with the guy in group activities without feeling pressured; however, I have yet to find a guy who doesn't mind doing so.

That's my afternoon rant for the day.

My life has come down to nothing but school, studying, and work. I'm now working Mondays, Fridays, and every Saturday. I study between 12:30ish - 2:30ish on Tuesdays and Thursdays at school, and on Wednesday, I try to make a little more time for myself since I get out at 11:15 and am free the rest of the day.

I hate having to take general education requirements. They may as well keep us in high school two more years.

Hey guys.  Sorry I haven't posted in a while.  I guess if you wanna see most of my life you'll have to check out my xanga.  I know, I know.  Phusebox is better, but I guess I'd just be faithful to my xanga since it came first.  Please forgive me.  On receiving Linda's comment, I figured that I would add my status on here.  I started taking voice lessons this semester and I told my voice teacher (she's awesome) that I was gonna audition, and she asked me to show her what I had.  Now the pieces that I chose were merely for entry into the music program and not really to impress a whole lot, but she wanted more so she picked a German song for me to sing, and I'm gonna also sing a song that I did in the musical of Guys and Dolls.  She suggested that I wait a until a later date to audition, and since the actual title of music major wouldn't help me after I've signed up for classes already, then I decided to wait.  I'm excited about this song in German, just because it's more challenging and fun to pronounce.  But yeah.  That's what happened.  I'm going to Murfreesboro this weekend to see STEPH, and I am also gonna see the musical that my broham is in called The Boyfriend, and I can't wait.  Everybody should come out this Friday at Oakland at 7:00.  It only costs 5 bucks.  Oh well.  I gotta go.  Leave me some comments!

Today is my little brother's birthday!! He's growing up so fast! So far today has been pretty super, that extra two hours of sleep was mighty fine! Oh my goodness, lately I have been really excited about God and what he is gonna do in my life! Even though things are rough right now and my future seems uncertain, I have a sense of joy and I know that no matter what God has a plan for me and will see me through. I don't know what He has in store for me, but I can't wait and am full of excitment!! Hurray and Happy Birthday to my little Chad!!

oooo guess what i did yesterday

i stepped on a screw. yea, it went thro my foot. it bled. and it hurt.. and still does actually. i'm all limpy and stuff. wee

yea.. um.. valentines day is coming up. it could be good, but it could also be very bad.

did u ever have a day when all u wanted was for people to leave u alone but no one seemed to get the hint? thats how its been all freakin' day long!!!

its been driving me insane.  people, if a person doesn't talk to u or says that they want to be left alone then listen to them.  u can't always be social. get the hint and walk away. geez.  and no ben i don't have an answer. so please let me think about it some more.

It shouldn't be this way.
I care about him to much to walk away.
He says I'll move on day.
But I just want him to stay.
He's the only one I care for.
He was the perfect score.
Last night ended it all.
That was the last call.

I cry, I weep, I mourn.
I feel so torn.
From Love and Passion
To a new kind of fashion.

He says he'll always care.
But it's just too hard to bear.
He says for me to trust Him.
But my hope for him is dim.

He'll become a man one day.
And I know I'll hear him say.
"This way is best."
And as he thrusts out his chest.
He smiles at me knowing eyes
And flies away into clouded skies.

I may might see him again.
But if I do it'll be in ten.

My man's a military man.
With a golden tan.
Black hair and eyes.
Knowing and wise.
Loving and Caring
Keen and Daring.

He'll be in my heart forever and ever.
I love him, he's my military man.

It wasn't supposed to be a poem or really make a lot of sense. I just wrote it because it pretty much sums up my thoughts.
I'm gonna miss him a whole heap.
He's becoming my best friend.
And I guess it's just hard.
Because we care a lot about eachother.
But we can't even be together.
And that sucks.
But anways...
Hope u all have a great rest of the week.
Teresa

Someone stop me

Do Re Me,the notes of his song whent A happy tune without heart felt intent The boy sung for fear of losing the tune The notes of which were as the moon For he could no longer see the sphere This boy had lost all he fellt dear The love he felt never intended Torn from his heart,to which would never be mended Do Re Me, the notes he will use To silence the requeim,his hearts true muse

my school is so stupid. way to go nardin. way to put fucking SURF CONTROL on xanga and myspace!!! now what am i supposed to do during my frees? homework? yeah. ok.

no.

and dammit that's the bell. way to tick me off nardin.

I'm really sorry about yesterday.  I wasbeing a whiney little emo bitch.  I am over that and will try to never go back to that again.  Today is my birthday, YAY!!!!.  I'M LEGAL.  I bought some movies the other night after work.  I got Donnie Darko, Corpse Bride, Invader Zim Vol. 2, Constantine, and Fritz the Cat.  I haven't even gotten to watch them yet because of work.  I am gonna have fun tomorrow night, no matter what happens.  It will be great.  I am glad we got two extra hours outta school this morning, I actually got to catch up on my sleep.  If my grandmother gets me that bass I asked for then I'm going to give away my old one to the first person who asks for it.  I won't need it.  So if you see me, wish me Happy Birthday.

For those of you that are into investing and have some extra money around, now would be an excellent time to invest in Apple (AAPL). Seriously.

{nt}

Yesterday was interesting...
My friend entered in a contest to be the opening act for U2's concert on Feb 21st, or maybe it's the 20th?? I'm so excited for him and the band. I can't wait to hear if they made the top 3 or not. IF they do, everyone on here will be required to vote for them. (it's an on-line thing) it will be awesome!!!They're supposed ot find out on like Feb 15th or something like that. It's a crazy awesome oppurtunity. If they get to be the opening act then they also get a chance to win a record deal. Music is his passion and if it means that he'll be leaving us to become some big rock star, i'd still love to see him do it! even though i'd be very very sad..
Enough of that. My nephew is offically 11weeks and 2days. My goodness he's big and adorable.
Now I gotta do some actual school work, adios people.

Peace

yeah im sick.
ewww.
and i have the hick ups.
right now.
hmmm weird.
and im coughing.
all at the same time.
can you die like that?
that would be weird.
ok well im out.
i love you.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Just remembered that there is a websie with stupid stuff like ways to annoy the pizza guy, and stupid stuff to do in walmart.  So I decided to try some of them and guess what? wal-mart wll let you put a bag of m&m's on layaway!!!  They told me yes and then an hour later told my friend no, she told them that they might run out and they let her do it!!  There's a WHOLE bunch of stupid stuff on the website, you can also try to order term life insurance through the pizza guy, it dosen't work, i promise!! lol!!

lovealways

hola como estas how is it going I am bored right now and I need something to do I saw mrs. Maddox at work last night and she was happy to see me will bye for now

and yay! 2 hrs late to school! and... i think we're not going to 2nd or 3rd period! ^^ i can't stand my 3rd period! Drivers Ed.! >.< bleah!

I had dinner with LaDonna at Toot's yesterday. and then we went to Hastings. I special ordered the High School Musical soundtrack and i bought Lindsay Lohan's new album lol yeah yeah i know! but itz pretty good! everyone should check out her song "Confessions of a Broken Heart (Daughter to Father)" itz awesome! ^^

"When the white snow colors the city
Let me stay by your side
Though I may bother you
Again and again
When the white snow melts
And the city becomes vivid and colorful
I like to keep you closest
To my heart"
-Ayu (CAROLS)

i got my acceptance letter to MTSU!!!!! well, actually, i got it like 2 weeks ago. they even give u this cute little email and everything! this is so cool...oh, yeah...i'm excited!

OKAY ELIZABETH THANK YOU!!! (shes over my shoulder cough up a lung and laughing at me) u know wht i mean dang it

"it was snowing lol yay ok ok its 10 and im slow but at  least i updated! 2 hours grrrrr that s makes me mad. muahahaha well at least i had me to do my homework! yay"

                                           -amber

way to go amber. that makes absolutely no sense. that is v. funny. i had to copy it before u fixed it.

it was snowing lol yay ok ok its 10 and im slow but at  least i updated! 2 hours grrrrr that  makes me mad. muahahaha well at least i had time to do my homework! yay

01. Sleep with or without clothes on? on...duh
02. Prefer black or blue pens? blue
03. Dress up on Halloween? no
04. Like to travel? of course
05. Like someone? definately
06. Do they know? oh yeah
07. Who sleeps with you every night? no one
08. Think you're attractive? some what
09. Want to get married? heck yeah!
10. To? Johnny
11. Are you a good student? Not really
12. Are you currently happy? extremely
13. Have you ever cheated on someone? never had anyone to cheat on...
14. Birthplace? Nashville, TN
15. Christmas or Halloween? definately christmas
16. Colored or black-and-white photos? colored
17. Do long distance relationships work? possibly
18. Do you believe in astrology? not really
19. Do you believe in love at first sight? nope
20. Favorite CD? idk
21. Do you consider yourself the life of the party? heck no
22. Do you drink? nope
23. Do you make fun of people? only just messin w/my friends

24. Do you think dreams eventually come true? some of them
25. Favorite fictional character? idk
26. Go to the movies or rent? movies, definately
27. Have you ever moved in your entire life? yeah, once
28.Have you ever stolen anything? nope
29. How's the weather right now? cold
30. Hug or kiss? hugs
31. Last person you talked to on the phone? my nanny
32. Last person who told you they love you? uhh...becca

33. Loud or Soft Music? in between
34. McDonalds or Burger King? DEFINATELY mcdonalds
35. Night or day? night
36. Number of Pillows? 2
37. Piano or guitar? guitar
38. Future job? idk how to spell it lol
39. Current job? fixing to work @ the bowling alley
40. Current love? johnny
41. Current longing? feeling loved
42. Current disappointment? i'm pretty happy right now
43. Current annoyance? my brother
44. Last thing you ate? breakfast bites
45. Last thing you bought? sprite
46. Most recent thing you are looking forward to? my b-day
47. What are you wearing right now? jeans, t-shirt, socks, shoes, and a hoodie
48. Plans for this weekend? go bowling duh
49. What did you do today? nothin yet
50. Pick a song lyric: "Like we never loved at all"

hey well were 2 hrs late this mornin. LOL!!! I wish we were out all day but then again i don't bc i wouldn't getta see johnny and i would just die if that were to happen. LOL!!! Well ummm yup this is really neato. Well i guess i'll ttyl

MORE NEW PIX!!

:)

Well, more like Carla Price pressure. So, here I am. I guess I'll eventually phase out the xanga. I'm banned from Facebook due to the fact that I can't even remember my Shorter email address, much less how to check it if I did. And back to the Carla Price pressure, she said this was pretty cool, and I do know Nathan Moore, so I think my presence is a bit warranted, if not completely.

Do you know what's worse than breaking up with someone? Not doing it soon enough and then finally breaking up with them. That's worse. Because now you've drawn it out. (Isn't there some country song on the radio right now, first line, "You draw it out like a highway"?) Now there's unravelling and disentangling to do. And cold turkey sucks. (The Lennon version rocks though.)

Oh my gosh!  Is this turning into one of those horribly pathetic blogs where everyone reads and says, "Poor girl, why is she sharing this crap? It's so cliche. So, you broke up with your boyfriend, big deal. It was almost a month ago. Sure, it was 9 months of your life. Big deal. Grow up.Get over it."

Okay, I will. I'm over it. I'm over it. I am so over it. See?

to: "him"


He isn't my boyfriend -- but i love
his hugs, his smile, his advice,
his love, his kindness and the
times we laugh together. i guess
i fell in love with our friendship..

to "her":


when youre sad

i`ll help you plot revenge

on the asshole who upset you.

when you trip

i`ll laugh and ask "walk much?"

&& when youre confused

i`ll use little words

to explain it to your dumbass...

cause i know youd do the same for me

to Dave:

i guess sometimes i feel a little jealous  
inside imagining someone could please
you more than me. i guess its my     *
insecurity acting up a little bit becuse i
know im not the most beautiful, or the`
most fun or even the most p e r f e c t`
person u*ll ever meet. But i do know  `
 that no matter how hard and long you'
  search - you will never find anyone-`
 who   l o v E s   you   &   c  a r  e s  *'`
 about   you __ the way i do   x3    *`

to the rest of you:


live for the moment
laugh often.
be immature,
do anything && everything
even if it`s something you`ll regret in the morning.
sleep late
wake early.
be stupid
&& you can laugh about it
with your friends.
because friends are what matter the most.
&& when you have friends,
you have everything.

~tRISH

 So ummm...Perfect Circle...acoustic style...makes me happy.

This entry will not be about yum yums.

In fact...it is hardly about anything

Peace Off.

Hey guys I uploaded some pretty picks for you guys so you need to check em out! Here's one of them!

Hey!! no school today!!  I am so excited about being out of school because I kinda forgot to do my homework!!  I got my hair highlighted yesterday, and I got 3 inches cut off.  It's really really blonde!! 

Introduce yourself in one bold, honest paragraph.
I'm Laura Nicole Roehrich and if you are reading this, I apologize. I'm seriously crazy, way over worked, and sometimes overly emotional. I'm a hopeless romantic, a classic southerner, and a theatre geek. I'm an avid mock trial nerd and a pre-law major, heck yeah... I'm going to be a District Attorney, if all goes as planned.I'm an actress, a writer, and I try to be wonder woman a lot. I take life head on, but I avoid things that could get me hurt. I'm a bit of a chicken but I'm working on it. I love my family, my friends, a guy who's name I'll not mention, and my horses.

Tell me what people think about you.
Well, I'm a little too emotional sometimes and I over think stuff. IMost say I'm a nice girl though my attitude is sometimes not very nice.

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
I've gotten a little cynical about love and life, so I guess I would change that and have more faith.

Have you ever felt at home with someone?
I feel at home with my family, my friends, my mock trial teammates, and my horses ((Random, yes I know))

Describe your appearance.
Around 5'7'', short blondish, reddish, brown hair, hazel eyes, Built pretty slightly heavy, round face.

Biggest revelation to date?
That I can trust myself not to get hurt

Biggest issue weighing you down?
My  crazy life. 

Theme song?
Live life like you're dyin'-Tim McGraw

Give me some final parting advice.
Live life to the fullest, don't regret things, and keep the faith.

two hours late is better than nothing so i'm okay with that.

I'll take two hours late

2 hour delay.....

now school could be out i would be very happy person

and and it would make my day better so yeah

but i am still happy for the twohour delay^^

So this was a sad night for me, come on a journey with me so that I can share with you what happened

So I was making my why into the kitchen when it all started.

It was about 10pm and since my mom is pretty much the most freaken coolest mom EVER, she had sent me some snakes(aka snacks) this week. (This made me very happy since we can't really afford snakes(aka snacks) down here, I love my mama.) So knowing that I have snakes(snacks) just waiting on me I headed for our (mine and jeffs) own pantry.  

And yes that said Missionaries Pantry (that's what they call us) its kinda funny!

Anyways, I opened up the "MISSIONARIES PANTRY" looking for…….MY "Chips Ahoy" Chewy cookies. You know the best kind of cookie ever, b/c there all chewy and soft :), yeah those…..and found

THEY WERE GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was terrible, I was so confused.

And that's when it hit me…..they were really gone.  

But thenI remembered that tonight was youth group night. and jeff and I just so happen to live in the church.( so the youth room is about 3 steps from our room and the kitchen. The youth also always eats after they are done with church for the night…) So I new if I probably looked around I would find some evidence……. and then a brake through….

But it was to late

So who did this? Why was this done? These are question that must be and will be answered soon. more to come in the next few days, But for now it is a sad night for Hodg-E

We were having supper with some friends the other night and I happen to make a comment that stuck with me. I said "I'm gonna go sit infront of the ocean and talk to God for a while"

I sat on the bench below.

My question is now this... HOW can someone sit infront of the ocean and not talk to God?

He told this wave below where it had to stop. This wave is big and powerful, trust me, I was under it. But my God, who dwells in me, who intentionally tortured his son on MY behalf... looked at it and said "This far you may come, and no farther" [reference: Job 38]

Holy Holy Holy

Lord, God Almighty

All thy works

Shall claim thy name

In earth and sky and sea

You have no right to say - "O Lord, I am so exhausted." He saved and sanctified you in order to exhaust you. Be exhausted for God, but remember that your supply comes from Him.

Then those who sing as well as those who play the flutes shall say, "All my springs of joy are in you." --Psalm 87:7

in dealing with my mawmaw's cancer its been an issue from within... not an issue to ask "Why?" to God or abandon my trust in my Savior.... the issue has been what is it that the Lord has instore despite this trial in my life... How will God get the glory and honor and praises in this hard situation as my MawMaw is dying due to Stage 4 Melanoma???
I came to MTSU with not much...just knowing God was beautiful, and He has a good plan in my life and that He desires an abandoned worshipper...grasping that was hard until numerous of questions that had no answers...then, I realized the intensity of my MawMaw's situation...sitting back and realizing the magnitude of such a disastrous attack on our family. My MawMaw is a monument in the Dunahoo side of the family...she is cornerstone of the family because she has fought for justice and what is right and best for the family... i have a love for her that i cant express...the sight of seeing a petite, fragile woman who cries everytime she see's you is a humbling sight...but within her is a bold statement of what is right and a near perfect example of thankfulness and servants heart...
must i go further???
to see her falling from my life, in pain with cancer that has consumed her body and spreading rapidly now to the point of being in her brain makes me want to see her just once more to say "i love you"

this blog is everywhere i know but today at AO i heard the speaker say a beautiful thing...
"would if God purposely builds walls in your life and doesn't always open doors?" ... "would if God would rather see you fail than succeed?" .... these question seem dark to many, but i saw it as God revealing to me in saying "ITS OK, John" ... just keep pushing forward for me and find a love in me that not many do... broaden your faith in me through pushing forward despite the issues that i have placed around you because "I" ::God:: will not tempt you beyond what you can bare...

He delights in an abandoned worshipper...and thats what i desire to become

not me

the appeal didnt go so well... and can you say nerve wrecking...

Addie Baker... for real... i was havin like the worst day EVER monday... and u for real did cheer me up like crazy... shoo you know u be gangstaa nizow... haha... i love you kid... ur amazing

Michal Mullane told me tonight that i made really long posts so she never read them... hmm?... but if i made short posts then you would never know what i actually thought or how i fealy (not that some of you random people would care)

ok let me just say this...

i dont care whos reading this... whether it be my best friends or my worst enemies...

when your able to stand up from an altar crying like crazy and not care who sees you cuz you know those tears are for god... thats an amazing feeling... and Amanda Ayers... sorry for givin you such a hard time earlier... u really are a great friend... same with you Paul... thanks guys... and thanks to everyone whos been prayin for me... it may be paying off now but dont stop yet cuz i know ill still be tested... u guys are amazing...

so my first day at Daniel Mckee is friday... and for the last time... im NOT a bad kid... i got sent there for the lamest reason ever!!! just read my post 3 posts ago...

Lauren... do you have any idea how much you mean to me? i love you so much... Valentines?

Jessica Ryanne Hunter... OMG!!! could i ask for a better best friend... u are my life (yeh i totally stole that from you)... did you know that our FIRST inside joke was "cricket cricket... wind blow wind blow... FROG!!!" and from that day on... weve been inseperable... for real... were so gettin married... haha... i love you more than ANYTHING!!!

ok... i think thats all... *thinks*... ok if i missed anything... sorry... but i gotta go...

is this post to long for ya Michal?

so when every kid (or almost every) when they turn 18 the first impulse is to rebel and go against what their parents like or do like. i.e. tattoos, peircings... cigarettes... and i guess some people porn.

and hey! i want a tatoo or two and i want to get my tongue peirced but i think if i want that i have to find a place to live.. :( yeah my mom called me a whore for wanting one and a whore if you have one, etc. and said i wouldn't be living under her roof with one. so... tat will have to wait a while... (:

so here are some tattoo choices and there will probably more to come until i decide. :D

so i super-duper really like this one. took ideas and made it my own. i like it alot. it would be placed on my right shoulder blade. so yes it would be shown in any dress that shows back. but i like it and thats where i want it. nobody steal please. :D

another one i might consider is this one :)

yep. i changed the tail on this one. i thought it was nice though. (: i like it. :P

well those are my two choices so far. as to the DEFINITE tattoos that i am positively getting. i may have to wait a while until i get my car fixed which will take a couple hundred i don't have to spend on a tatoo :D so

im gonna go soak and lick my wounds (feelings) in the shower... :

Today is a good day...Why?  You ask?  Well, first it is Jonathan's birthday and without today I wuld not have my funny Jonathan.  He is a great brother!  Second, I went to Sams to get his biurthday cake and got my very own Sams card.  Now, I know this is not that exciting to most of you, but I am pumped :)  Third, U2 won a Grammy for album of the year, among many others.  I love How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb and love that I got to see them in concert twice this year.  They not only make good music, but Bono fights poverty in Africa which is something I am very passionate about.  So, even though it has been rainy outside and I have somehow managed to get sick, the good outweighs the bad.  I hope you have all had good days as well!

well... Ice kinda... The roads are wet and its supposed to get really cold tonight.  But our road checker dude is a fag and either wont close schools until 6:00 in the morning or wont close them at all...  The road outside my house has been covered in snow and ice before and we still had school, it was so bad the bus driver didn't want to go down my street so I had to catch the bus at the corner...  Better not be like that tommorrow I want to stay home...

Hello, Hello

This will be a short post because it has been a very blah past couple of days. Everything has been fun and life has been productive as it pertains to my moving closer the the B.A. lol. In fact, the only thing that has really been out of the ordinary is my quiet time. I've developed this hunger for God over the last month or so. Maybe it's just me being more serious about my faith, or maybe it's that I've figured out that I only mess things up when I try to do it within myself. Either way, I'm now in a season of my life that I enjoy and hunger for God's Word, and ironically enough the Old Testament (I used to not be able to read more than a chapter in the OT). Lamentations and then Ezekiel. Anyway, Jade is on the phone now so I guess I'll quit writing.

Night, Clint

Introduce yourself in one bold, honest paragraph.
Greetings, my name is Clint Halford, and you have stumbled upon this either because you know me, or you're a stalker. I'm a Florida native that moved to Tennessee for a grand total of four years and three weeks, before being forced back to the Sunshine State due to powers beyond my control. I work for a local phone company (though preferably not much longer after my trip to Chicago), and go to Gulf Coast Community College, which if you've ever been to Panama City/Panama City Beach, you've probably seen. I'm a smartass who gladly uses sarcasm as much as I need to.


Tell me what people think about you.

I'm normally told I'm a nice, funny guy. Yeah.


If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

I just want to be where I want, doing what I want, and to be happy...that's more than one thing. Crap.


Have you ever felt at home with someone?

Mainly...family. Very few others have that effect on me, though.


Describe your appearance.

6'0", 200+ lbs., all of my extra weight on my torso. Black hair, usually messy, and, as I've been told, "beautiful" blue eyes. I don't trust them...they're after my eyes, I can't have that.


Biggest revelation to date?

True love exists, but I doubt I've found it. Knowing me, that's pretty big stuff.


Biggest issue weighing you down?
Outside of the whole "friends 500 miles away" thing? I've got a speech and a feature story due in the next few weeks that I've barely started on. Yeah.


Theme song?

"Only in Dreams" - Weezer OR:
"Yesterday" - The Beatles OR:
"One of a Kind" - Breaking Point


Give me some final parting advice.
Who are you asking me this? Honestly, don't listen to disembodied voices, unless it's God. Otherwise you might find yourself talking to...well, yourself, and that makes you crazy.

Introduce yourself in one bold, honest paragraph.

I'm Erica Ezell and I'm 18 years old. I'm a freshmen at MTSU majoring in Elementary Education....?.....I love to dance!! I've done ballet, tap, jazz, hip-hop....I love to act!! I was in Pride in middle school and Theater all in highschool. I go to Calvary Baptist Church!! And boy do I love Jesus!! I work at Carmike Cinemas in town....find me and I'll let you in free!!

Tell me what people think about you.

Many people say I'm really funny, a great listener, caring....Some say I'm kinda boring? because I don't go out and do drugs and drink? My bad....I didn't know that stuff was considered "cool"....Some people say I should be on SNL!! I would love that!!   

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
I let people walk all over me...When I should speak up about God I don't....I get angry easily towards my family...sometimes they deserve it but sometimes they don't...

Have you ever felt at home with someone?
My  best friend Rhanda! Honestly...she is the only one I can really depend on...I can tell her anything and I know she wouldn't tell...

Describe your appearance.

5'5'', shoulder length hair, dark brown with two chunky blonde streaks,blue eyes, average....

Biggest revelation to date?
That God is always there for me!! So many times I've pushed Him away thinking I could go without Him in this World....but I go crazy without Him!! His beauty will never fade in my eyes!! I've felt Him near and I just can't explain the feeling....it was AMAZING...Give total control...

Biggest issue weighing you down?
Not giving God more of my time! I'm sorry...

Theme song?

"Goodbye My Lover" James Blunt

Give me some final parting advice.
Listen to your elders!! They know what they are talking about!! And to all of you Freshmen!!! Do really good in school because your freshmen year is your most important one!! Thats where your GPA starts and if you screw up its hard to fix it!! Study hard!!Don't get stuck at MTSU!!

So sometimes...God just speaks to me. Tonight was one of those nights. God told me to do some things that were completely random at first...and I had no idea what I was doing. Then I began to see the bigger picture. Its so awesome how God will just lead you from one small thing at a time, and then suddenly you just get it. He wants you to spend time with him. He wants you to talk to him continually. So dial God's number...and never hang up. Ask yourself this question. Do I talk to God constantly? Do I eat, sleep, and breath prayer? I do. And I don't say that to brag, not to boast. But I am constantly in prayer with my God, my creator, my maker, my father. And guess what? He loves talking to me. I speak to him my mind and heart, and speaks right back. Quick story for you.

So I was worshipping tonight at diversion...but I knew that things were not right between me and God. Some conflicts had been going on prior to my being there at church, and I knew I wasn't prayed up. God just told me, suddenly, in the middle of worship, to just leave and step outside. He said "Garrett...I want to show you something." So I was like..."ok God, but I have no clue what i'm doing." But I obeyed, and left the room. Then I was pretty much clueless, looking around, not really knowing what I was looking for or where I was going. But I headed down the stairs and then proceded down the hallway. Then I stopped, and looked out the double glass doors to my left. I opened the door and stepped outside. I looked into the night and saw one of God's most beautiful creations...snow. It was pouring down. So I dialed God's number and we began to talk. It's amazing how God can use nature to remind you of things. As the snow poured down onto the black mulch I was standing on, I thought to myself. "What a great representation of God's grace." We ourselves, are black, like the dirty, filthy mulch. But the pure white snow covers over the mulch, and makes it pure and white. Then I realized why God had brought me outside. Because right then and there, I made peace with God. Something I didn't have when I walked into diversion. It's amazing how God's grace lavishes us to such an extent, that we are made pure again, despite our filthiness (sp). Then me and God had a really, really good conversation. Anyway, Just thought I would share my God speaking experience with you all. I thought it was really cool.

Introduce yourself in one bold, honest paragraph:
My name is Chris Davis, a name that's entirely too used, to say the least.  I'm 20 years old, and am in my second year of college.  My major?  Hell if I know at this point.  My goal in life?  See my previous answer.  My pant size is 34x32.  My t-shirt size is a large.  I'm 5'9.5" in height and currently weigh about 190 pounds (mmm, thickness!).  My shoe size is 11.  My GPA's about 3.27, I think.  I play video games, especially enjoying Dance Dance Revolution and World of Warcraft, not to mention the "old school" stuff.  I constantly deal with the internal issue of finding my place in life and do what I can to help others that come to me.  I'm probably by all means one that should be diagnosed with clinical depression, but I always do what I can to keep it from showing, since I've been told that depression "spreads" much more easily than happiness, and, speaking from personal experience, I don't want anyone to suffer alongside me.

Tell me what people think about you.
What do they think of me?  What am I, a mind reader?!  Golly...  If I were a mind reader, I probably would have a much more interesting life, to say the least! 

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
My lack of initiative.

Have you ever felt at home with someone?
Yes.  Marissa.  99.9999% chance of being married.  Need I say more?

Describe your appearance.
...Hey, I already this this, except say that my hair's brown and my eyes can change from blue to gray to even slightly green.  So, nyah.

Biggest revelation to date?
Two of them.  One, a recently-acquired one, is that basically, white middle class people seek to rule the world, very generally speaking; this has been based off everything presented to me in my US History class thus far.  Two, industrialism is very much a double-edged sword, for while it may bring economic power, it also brings with it a sense of hopelessness and boredom with life, not to mention that, at least in the US, it's a large factor in fueling racism.

Biggest issue weighing you down?
A lot of things, but mainly purpose.

Theme song?
...There are entirely too many pieces of music that I could all equally consider to be my theme song.  But, overall, I'd probably haveta say the piece called "You're Not Alone" from Final Fantasy 9; on the soundtrack, it's on the 4th disc, track 9, and in the game, it plays when Zidane goes crazy in Pandemonium.  This piece has really touched me, oddly enough; at times, it brings my depression to the surface, and others, it brings out the determination deeply hidden within.

Give me some final parting advice.
I may not know the answers to the universe, or how to live the kind of life that gets you into heaven, and I consider myself far from being wise, but I have a deep feeling that having love in your life is vital to having a good and enjoyable life and that a little love can go a long way.

snowww!
how excited am i!?
this is just what i prayed for.
it's beautiful.

amazing.

and of course i took pictures...

thank you
thank you
thank you
Lord.

abbydeelovessnow

evil scheme #1 ... locked and loaded....
time of execution... lunch tomorrow
agent Gibert Grape and agent Tatty Twatcicle
Mwahahaha brace your selves....
this message will self destruct in
5.....4....3...2..1.....
BOOM!!

"Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented."
--Elie Wiesel
       --Noble Peace Prize acceptnace speech, December 10th, 1986

i don't know why, but i really liked that quote when i read it. it makes a lot of sense.

i cant believe its REALLY snowing in KNOXVILLE!! =) the WEEK BEFORE valentines day!! that makes me so HAPPY!!! but if we dont get outa school tomorrow... that will just be a BUMMER!! like seriously!! lol.. wow im SO happy tonight!! =D snow makes EVERYTHING better!!

it's snowing!!!!!!!!!!!!  i hope that it sticks so that we can get out of school tommorow.

                                   lylas

basically.
life is amazing
fin.

apparently it actually does snow in tha Murf. that's super fly. i took pictures of course. because i'm a crazy little cracker. love you guys.

LOVE/ Britt

edit//
i will cease to exist as the Britt you know. maybe the Brittany is coming back. that good, nice, happy little girl that many people knew. Brittany's kinda dead. but maybe she'll pull a Jesus act and come back to life. no one knows. but you're still not allowed to call me Brittany. you should hear the story of what happened to the last girl who called me Brittany.

Superfly Productions and A.C. Entertainment are proud to announce the initial lineup for the 2006 Bonnaroo Music & Arts Festival. The fifth annual three-day camping and music festival will be held on June 16-18, 2006, on the same 700-acre farm in Manchester, Tennessee, 60 miles south of Nashville. A list of confirmed acts follows, with more to be announced in the weeks ahead to round out the festival's 80-plus acts.

Radiohead

Tom Petty & the Heartbreakers

Phil Lesh & Friends

Beck

Elvis Costello & the Imposters

Bonnie Raitt

Death Cab for Cutie

moe.

Bright Eyes

The Neville Brothers

Bela Fleck & the Flecktones

Buddy Guy

Damian "Jr Gong" Marley

Ben Folds

Robert Randolph & the Family Band

Dr. John

Matisyahu

G. Love & Special Sauce

My Morning Jacket

Ricky Skaggs & Kentucky Thunder

Steel Pulse

Mike Gordon and Ramble Dove

Cat Power

Medeski Martin & Wood

Nickel Creek

Gomez

Atmosphere

Steve Earle

Blues Traveler

Amadou & Mariam

Stephen Malkmus & the Jicks

The Dresden Dolls

Son Volt

Clap Your Hands Say Yeah

Jerry Douglas

Soulive

Rusted Root

Devendra Banhart Band

Donavon Frankenreiter

Mike Doughty

Sasha

Grace Potter & the Nocturnals

The Magic Numbers

Bill Frisell

Seu Jorge

Bettye LaVette

Dungen

Shooter Jennings

Rebirth Brass Band

Robinella

Andrew Bird

Steel Train

Jackie Greene

Devotchka

The Wood Brothers

dios (malos)

Toubab Krewe

The Motet

Marah

I-Nine

Balkan Beat Box

The Cat Empire

Tickets for the 2006 Bonnaroo Music & Arts Festival will go on sale Saturday, February 11, at 10:00 AM Eastern Time through Bonnaroo.com . For more information, go to Bonnaroo.com .

                  Who's In?

    So tonight I can't wait to clean my room, do my laundry, wash some dishes, take a buble bath, sing, talk to God, and maybe work out! Can I do it all tonight? I am going to try! I joined a gym this week and I was supposed to go tonight to meet with a personal trainer, but I didn't feel like going. So I am going to get started on the laundry! Why is it that when I have a free night I feel like I need to jam as much as possible into it so the ngiht dosen't even really feel relaxing.
Ok so here I go I think Ihave like a ton of laundry to do!

It always seems odd to me that so many girls in America have problems with self-confidence, and especially with their looks. I just can’t see how girls go to such extremes to change themselves such as starving themselves, plastic surgery and tanning booths. God made you, and why would want to mess with someone who made the world, obviously, he thinks you are perfect. You could take this to an extreme, and never wash or brush your hair. You must also remember that your body is a temple, and you must maintain it.  The second reason, I can’t believe girls go to such extremes, is that I have never thought that I was ugly. Every once in a while I get a angry with how my hair is etc..but it is usually over with in five seconds. I also know I am not gorgeous or very pretty. I think of myself as different looking, and I pretty much like the way I am. It is hard to see why girls go to such extremes, and I only hope this epidemic stops.

So I got this callendar, see...  And its got the beach on it, yeah?
And I really wanna go there.  I mean the waters so clear and blue...
And the sand and palm trees.  Ahh...  Makes me wish I had a cubicle just so I could stick it up in there and stair at it for a few hours.
Not really...  I really hate those Nasonex comercials with that shitily CGd bee.
Whew, terrible.
Star Wars Ep.3 was really good.
I wanna explore a cave.

So I played bass for like a week about 2 years ago.  I dont like to talk about it.  It would always stare at me as I slept...  Thinking of ways to get its thick strings around my neck.  Or maybe even hiding behind a door and making me walk into it and decapatating me.

Mmm, Im glad I live in the Boro.
Ride long mighty Epoch!

fire rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Introduce yourself in one bold, honest paragraph.

I'm Anna Miller, and I'm nineteen years old. I'm a Christian, but I often struggle, especially in reading His word on a constant basis. I love my family and cannot imagine marrying a guy who didn't love his either. I'm probably going to double major in Spanish and Electronic Media Production because I have a passion for both. Although I'm thin, I'm very much capable of eating a LOT. I do my best to tell my honest opinion when asked about something, even if I know the other person won't like what I have to say.

Tell me what people think about you.

I'm not sure. . . I guess a lot of people think I'm a good listener, seeing as though they come to me with their problems.   

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

I've taken somewhat of a cynical approach to some things, and I'd like that to change.

Have you ever felt at home with someone?

I feel at home with many people, especially my family ((parents, aunts, uncles, cousins, siblings)), friends, some former teachers, and people I randomly meet.

Describe your appearance.

5'7''ish, long honey colored hair, blue eyes, thin, big head. . . yeah, lol

Biggest revelation to date?

so basically the biggest revelation i've ever had? God is real. He is there, and He wants you more than you can fathom.

and all guys are capable of being vulnerable.

Biggest issue weighing you down?

School.

Theme song?

Watch Me Shine- JoAnne Pacitti OR Constellations by Jack Johnson

Give me some final parting advice.

do as you're told

i gave you my heart and my world,
you gave nothing back to me in return
i just thought it mean something
but it always ends the same way
as i would predicted
i gave you my life, my hope, and my happiness
still you didnt give anything back to me
i cried for you
i died for you
i live for you
i hope for you
i was there for you
and you still treated me like i was insane
i wanted you to know how i felt for you 
and how much i loved you
instead of give you rose or two
i am give you what i truly think
so have a fucking god damn bad valentines day

Hey Guys!!  What's goin on? nothin much here!!  i have to wear a heart moniter today!!! ugggggggggggggggg!!  Had a game last night, it was so much fun!!  So yeah anyway I am soooooooooooo bored!! Just won another razor phone.  Yall have a great night!!

lovealways

So my family left to have our 19-year-old cat put down.  :-(  She's like my Mom's first child, really.  Mom had her before I was even thought of.  (Of course, now Dad's making all sorts of insinuations that I could be next and to watch my back.  *Rolls eyes*)  Life is going to be hairy during her grief.  I really feel no remorse that she's gone.  Not just because she was aloof and hissed at the more affectionate cats, but because she lead a good long life, and it's about time she had some peace and quiet and tuna in a crystal dish.

If I can only survive through the weekend, that would be grand.  Not really the best choice of words, given the events in the above paragraph.

.........................

"I'd rather be a could-be if I cannot be an are; because a could-be is a maybe who is reaching for a star. I'd rather be a has-been than a might-have-been, by far; for a might have-been has never been, but a has was once an are."
-- Milton Berle

Introduce yourself in one bold, honest paragraph.
My name is Kelly Sullivan.  I am eighteen and revel in that fact until things get scary enough that I wish I could still scream, "MINOR!"  I am unofficially diagnosed as obsessive-compulsive in regards to hair -- mine and everyone else's.  I present various facades, all of which are true.  It's difficult to explain.  The person I am with you is genuine, but some parts might be conveniently left out because I know they're inappropriate for the location, the company, the occasion, or make you uncomfortable. 

Tell me what people think about you.
Well you would really have to ask them.  I'd be surprised if I were ever a topic of conversation, to tell the truth.

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
Hahaha.  As if I'd display my insecurities to the world.  I could cop out and say, "I'd be a better person in general," but... I think I would rather be more appreciative of life.  Because if you're more appreciative, that impacts all your actions and thoughts, and by default makes you.... A better person!  Voila!

Have you ever felt at home with someone?
Yes.  My best friend.  Vodka ice cubes!

Describe your appearance.
5' 7" when I stand up really straight... In the morning.  (Ouch.)  I'm trying to grow out my (brown) hair, so it's pretty much always in a ponytail, or else looks really flat and nasty in the way only grown-out layers can.  Blue eyes.  Pasty skin.  That's me.  Invariably found in jeans and flats with a multicoloured sequin-accented scarf.

Biggest revelation to date?
Do what you love, even if it isn't particularly lucrative.  If not, you'll waste years of your life feeling less than satisfied, and always wondering what would have happened if you had followed your dreams.  Besides, when you have a mid-life crisis you'll wind up trying it, anyway, so you might as well cut to the chase.

Biggest issue weighing you down?
This god-awful paper in Mrs. Wolff's class.  Half the six-weeks grade in those pages, people.  Oh, and that minor college detail.

Theme song?
The Imperial March, duh.  But seriously.... That, and Tchaikovsky's entire ballet, "The Sleeping Beauty."  Heck yes.

Give me some final parting advice.
I'd say that can be found under "biggest revelation to date."

Why did I worry? Why will I worry again? God just keeps placing everything at the perfect place and the perfect time. He knows me better than I do. He has control over the universe. When will I finally learn to completely and totally trust Him no matter what?

I had a cancelled class today and yesterday. That's pretty awesome.

So Im sitting around the house yesterday and my neighbor calls and tells me to meet her outside. So i go out and she gives me this dessert she made for us and also hands me money for taking care of her house again while she was gone to germany. I got back in and saw she handed me $40.

 Since the bank was closed, i went ahead and put it up. As I opened my dresser i saw a few dollars laying there. Looked through it and noticed i had $120 i never knew i had.. Sweet!! Thats goin' in the bank definetly.

Anyways I'm still lookin around for the Nissan Titan my parents are going to let me buy after school is over this year. So finding that money makes me happy and helps just a little. And goin to do more work for my cousin tomorrow.. he paid me $40 last time for just barely putting in 3 hours of just moving stuff. That and I got my call today about more paper work on the Nissan job this summer.. $12 an hour with 40 hours a week...man thats going to be awesome!!

Anyways Im going to go check up on the Air Force scholarship stuff now.

See ya!

this is my sexy flirt buddy i told yall about

yes this is johnny and i love him.

so i told my dad about us.

and he handled it really well.

... i still think i'd make a cute skater boy.

Look at my fantastic prom dress!

Sorry it's side ways.

Hey guys what's up? Well ummm i just got this lil thingy and i like it alot better than xanga. So yup i have an ok life. I love to bowl. I have some amazing friends. I like this guy that goes to my school and is on the bowling team w/me. Well ummt hat's all i can think of for now.

"God must be Disappointed in us"

i am so disappointed in people...and i know that if i get this disappointed in people i barely know then, I AM is broken-hearted (figuratively speaking) by their actions, because He loves us with all of his heart and He never wants us to encounter sin.


We are all made in HIs image and when we sin we are breaking away from God's perfect image that he has created for us!!! wow! he loves us! he created us just like him!!!

Like many people who went to BigSTUF.... i am reading God's blogs
by lanny donoho...its like God's way of being technological and
writting on a cool little blog (much like this one here). i love it,
it's a great book that is easy to read and lanny makes some great
points!


"prone to wander, Lord to feel it. prone to leave the God i love"


(i my God's blogs, everytime god refers to himself he says I AM, cause that's his name. he's not really anything specific, he just is...kinda a big concept huh?)

so today i was sent to the guidance office because someone told my 1st period teacher that i was cutting myself. hmm...don't think so. but apparently they called all of my teachers because every single one of them asked if i was okay, how i was eating, if i was sleeping well, if my home life was okay. yeah, pretty sure that was stupid.

but on the upside =] i laughed A LOT today, met a new friend, and i'm finally giving up on that stupid boy. hehe.

life's still good.
mucho love!!
[becca]


oh look!! it's my best friend!! (haha...stole this from meag!! =])

2005 record
90-72, National League East champs

Projected batting order
1. 2B Marcus Giles:
  .291 BA, 15 HR, 63 RBIs in 2005
2. SS Edgar Renteria:
  .276 BA, 8 HR, 70 RBIs in 2005
3. 3B Chipper Jones:
  .296 BA, 21 HR, 72 RBIs in 2005
4. CF Andruw Jones:
  .263 BA, 51 HR, 128 RBIs in 2005
5. 1B Adam LaRoche:
  .259 BA, 20 HR, 78 RBIs in 2005
6. RF Jeff Francoeur:
  .300 BA, 14 HR, 45 RBIs in 2005
7. C Brian McCann:
  .278 BA, 5 HR, 23 RBIs in 2005
8. LF Ryan Langerhans:
  .267 BA, 8 HR, 42 RBIs in 2005

Projected rotation
1. John Smoltz, 14-7, 3.06 ERA in 2005
2. Tim Hudson, 14-9, 3.52 ERA in 2005
3. John Thomson, 4-6, 4.47 ERA in 2005
4. Horacio Ramirez, 11-9, 4.63 ERA in 2005
5. Jorge Sosa, 13-3, 2.55 ERA in 2005
or
Kyle Davies, 7-6, 4.93 ERA in 2005

Projected bullpen
Closer: Chris Reitsma, 15 saves, 3.93 ERA in 2005
RH setup man: Blaine Boyer, 3.11 ERA in 2005
LH setup man: Macay McBride, 5.79 ERA in 2005

The new guys
Renteria: Acquired in a December trade with the Red Sox, the veteran shortstop should be a suitable replacement for Rafael Furcal. He struggled last year in Boston, but he's a legitimate All-Star who can provide spark at the top of the lineup.

Oscar Villarreal, RHP: Acquired in a December trade with the Diamondbacks, the 24-year-old right-hander has a chance to be a valuable reliever. He's got a live arm that, because of injury, has been limited to 28 games the past two years. He's impressed in the Mexican Winter League.

Lance Cormier, RHP: Also acquired from the Diamondbacks in the December deal for Johnny Estrada, Cormier was solid at the beginning of last year. His second-half struggles create doubt in regard to his ability to be a reliever on Atlanta's Opening Day roster.

Todd Pratt, C: Signed as a free agent, Pratt brings a wealth of experience. He's spent 13 seasons as a backup catcher in the big leagues, and he should be able to help in the development of starting catcher Brian McCann.

Brad Baker, RHP: Signed as a Minor League free agent, Baker has an outstanding changeup that could earn him a spot in the Atlanta bullpen. Braves management has compared him to Greg McMichael.

Prospects to watch
Chuck James, LHP: The talented 22-year-old left-hander dominated three different levels in the Minors last year. He's a rising star who should be in Atlanta's rotation by the start of the 2007 season. Manager Bobby Cox loves his aggressive approach against hitters.

Jarrod Saltalamacchia, C: There might not be a better prospect in all of baseball. The strong 20-year-old catcher has a tremendous arm and a powerful bat. At his current pace, he'll force the Braves to find a spot for him in Atlanta by the start of the 2007 season.

Returning from injury
Boyer: Inflammation around his rotator cuff marred Boyer's September and prevented him from completing a successful rookie season. He appears to be in good health and looks ready to be one of the club's top setup men.

On the rebound
Chipper Jones: When healthy last year, Jones was his usual productive force. This year, he must avoid the injury bug that has severely hindered his production the past two years.

Mike Remlinger, LHP: Signed to a Minor League contract, Remlinger must prove that his shoulder still has something left. He struggled during the second half last year and was released by the Red Sox at the end of August.

Long gone
Furcal: After living up to his enormous potential during the second half of last year, Furcal packed his bags and chased a highly lucrative contract in Los Angeles. His speed, strong arm and range will be hard to replace.

Julio Franco, 1B: Given a two-year deal by the Mets, Franco ended a five-year relationship with the Braves and is now a division rival. Even before the 47-year-old wonder injured his elbow in August, some Braves coaches thought his skills were diminishing.

Estrada: A severe back injury suffered in a June collision prevented Estrada from regaining the All-Star form he showed in 2004. There are some who wonder if he'll be able to regain his full range of motion.

Kyle Farnsworth, RHP: After joining the Braves in late July, Farnsworth continued the success he'd had in Detroit. Before squandering a five-run eighth-inning lead against the Astros in Game 4 of the National League Division Series, he was as dependable as any closer in the game.

Jim Brower, RHP: Late-season struggles caused the Braves to part ways with Brower, whom they picked up in June to provide some stability to their bullpen.

2005 hitting leaders (min. 200 at-bats)
Avg.: Wilson Betemit, .305
OBP: C. Jones, .412
SLG: A. Jones, .575
Runs: Giles, 104
RBIs: A. Jones, 128
Hits: Furcal, 175
2B: Giles, 45
3B: Furcal, 11
HR: A. Jones, 51
SB: Furcal, 46


2005 pitching leaders (min. 30 IP)
IP: Smoltz, 229 2/3
W: Smoltz, Hudson, 14
L: Hudson, Ramirez, 9
Win %: Sosa, 13-3, .813
S: Reitsma, 15
ERA: Sosa, 2.55
K: Smoltz, 169
K/9: John Foster, 8.31
WHIP: Smoltz, 1.15

Triple play: Three questions that need answers

1. Who will begin the season as the Braves' closer?
Reitsma appears to be the early favorite. But during camp, the Braves will take a look at Villarreal and Sosa, who could be valuable in this role or back in the starting rotation. Sosa was impressive while working as a reliever in the Dominican Winter League.

2. What will the Braves do about their logjam in left field?
Cox will take a good look at Matt Diaz before deciding whether to keep him to platoon with Langerhans in left field. For Kelly Johnson to keep his spot in the Majors, he must regain the plate discipline that earned him a call to the show. It would be a surprise if the Braves kept both Langerhans and Johnson, who are both left-handed.

3. Who will be part of the starting rotation on Opening Day?
The Braves will go to camp with six legitimate candidates. Smoltz, Hudson and Ramirez are pretty much assured spots in the rotation to begin the year. There's a slight chance that Thomson could be traded. That would open a spot to allow Sosa and Davies to both be part of the rotation. But Thomson has plenty of value, and the club may choose to move Sosa to the bullpen.

The bottom line
There is a lot of talent on this club, which will be attempting to capture its 15th consecutive division title. To realize this goal, they'll need a dependable closer. But there's reason to believe that even if Reitsma were to falter, the Braves already have enough candidates capable of filling the role. As for the loss of Furcal, it won't be a significant one if Renteria simply proves that last year was a fluke.

i want to write something...............
but i keep distracting myself. correcting myself.
have you ever watched the line on the screen eat each letter of each word of each sentence of each thought as you press the backspace button? it's almost more beautiful than a poem. a painless destruction.

destruction is creation.
(remember that?
we know this better than most.)

(i owe you a thanks, dear...without you, my destruction would be nothing more than that - destruction.)


-L.

hello!!!

well d-now was amazing!!! my life is once again boring, but ya know i guess that's life sometimes lol . ok well leave me some comments! k

<3 always

lindsey

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAITLIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one of the best friends a girl could ever ask for....amazing!
"I always thank my God as I remember you in my prayers, because I hear about your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all the saints. I pray that you may be active in sharing your faith, so that you will have a full understanding of every good thing we have in Christ. Your love has given me great joy and encouragement, because you, brother, have refreshed the hearts of the saints."    --Philemon 1:4-7

....so i had an AMAZING weekend with a group of amazing girls who are so fun and are so strong in their faith. They really encouraged me.

bethany!!--the most amazing leader EVER!!

kelsey

mrs. swanson

erica

aarrooo! lol--b.hobs

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b.hobs leading a session

lindsey

me and erica with her super tan face! lol

our whole house in our camo

me and kathlyn

me, lindsey, and b.hobs

so...this weekend, our theme verse was 1 Timothy 4:12-"Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith, and in purity." It was talking about how to be a tupos(which is the greek word for example) for everyone in everything we do. But the one thing that bethany(our leader) really stressed was how we live to glorify God. She kept saying that over and over and it didn't really hit home with me until the last night. I realized that i wasn't doing that! Every single thing that i do down to the smallest things were being looked at by everyone around me. It really occured to be that I needed to be a greater example for God and His love. Worship was amazing! I absolutey knew God was talking to me. I could just feel Him right there with me. To wrap everything up in one word...undescribable.

be blessed,  kate

you can't always see the light at the end of the tunnel because sometimes it isn't there.

it's inside you.

..........i'm typing this whole thing with my eyes closed.............yippy for mwah!......stupid............and they're still cloesed so hi ya!!!.....wel,, they aren't really closed buy my head is turned away from the puter .......and i'm not backspacing any of this.............so..........school is ok.......schience is stipid ............and sarah oooo has just informed me that my spelling is completely wrong..........i would be a realy bad bling person..........chinese food rocks....taht's what i'm looking at on sarahs puter right now while i'm typing this...........it's to keep me occupied.....oi guess.........and yes my head is still turned......red....red...red.............bored bored bored.....so i wrotea note...and insode it held an arm....a real live human arm....... that was about the sixe of my pinky............delilah is my hero..........i've listened to her since i wasw  i little little ki.................i love you....................now to primetime

i've given up on love..and love's given up on me

OH YEA!! I'M HAVEING SOME REAL CRAVINGS FOR SOME REMARKS..........SO TAKE IT AWAY FRIEND!

Boredom is a sin...

And being lonely on v-day is funny...

so right now i am gonna laugh at myself...

 ha

ha

ha

I'm done.  I'm through with worrying.  I am going to take Christina's advice and just forget about it.  I will have fun by myself.  If that's what it takes.  She doesn't want to talk to me, fine.  I'm ok with it.  She can do what she wishes.  I just wish I hadn't given my heart so freely.

Though I have been called both a "fool" and "weak" for believing in love and its power I'll take both those names for I know what it is to LIVE, LOVE and FEEL.

"Standing Outside The Fire"

We call them cool
Those hearts that have no scars to show
The ones that never do let go
And risk the tables being turned

We call them fools
Who have to dance within the flame
Who chance the sorrow and the shame
That always comes with getting burned

But you've got to be tough when consumed by desire
'Cause it's not enough just to stand outside the fire

We call them strong
Those who can face this world alone
Who seem to get by on their own
Those who will never take the fall

We call them weak
Who are unable to resist
The slightest chance love might exist
And for that forsake it all

They're so hell-bent on giving ,walking a wire
Convinced it's not living if you stand outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

There's this love that is burning
Deep in my soul
Constantly yearning to get out of control
Wanting to fly higher and higher
I can't abide
Standing outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

isn't it weird how that one part of your brain can hold so much of its capacity but then that one thing that you knew so soon ago you forget all of a sudden?... leave remarks.

So how about this week has been horrible.........I had to find 15 sources for a research paper and write a paragraph on each one telling what it was, what it was about, and how it would help my paper........so yea I got 5.........well I would have had more but I had saved my internet sources to my computer and would you believe what happened Monday night just before I started finishing my work.....my computer crashed........lost everything even the pics I had taken.....I am really ticked now.......I got my comp to start working again but I still lost everything........I was soooooooo angry..........but yea yesterday was alright.......I actually got up and went to my history class and made it to all of my classes for the first time in 2 weeks........took a test in Psy. and failed it I am positive........but yea that has been my week......pretty bad don't you think?

Today is my brother's birthday... Make sure that you go to his PhuseBox page and wish him a happy birthday... even if you do not know him!

Happy Brithday, bro!



thumbs up for the birthday boy!

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I think it is interesting that some decisions in life we make without realizing how important they are.  But then there are the decisions that we make that require true awareness and consideration.  Sometimes I feel like most of my decisions are made without much thought at all.  What does that say about me?  I am feeling very confused about quitting my job.  I am very aware how much this particular choice will affect our family dynamic.  There are so many things that will be different.  I am worrying that Adam will resent me staying home and not making any money.  I am thinking about how our marraige seemed to become amazingly better right after I got a job.  Was it because it took some pressure off of Adam?  What kind of pressure is he really under by taking care of us?  I wonder what it must feel like for him to have people be so dependent on him.  In reality I am not bringing very much extra to our actual income, but it is money that we wouldn't have otherwise. I want to be at home and pregnant more than anything.  But I am not pregnant yet and I am so confused.  Anyway to be continued...I have to work

This week so far has been okay except for the brief moments that it completely sucked, but I think it is getting better or at least I am going to make it better. It was my dad's birthday yesterday, but we went out to eat on Sunday at The Daily Buffet, which was twice for me in three days. This weekend is going to be crazy, well, at least the beginning of it it will be. I still have two art things that I have to do! AHH!! Well, I better do something productive....

97 days.