ok.. so my appeal case for Daniel Mckee is this wednesday... so pray like crazy and keep your fingers crossed...

you wanna know the main reason why i dont wanna go to daniel mckee?... well as i said in my last post... Stuart said he was gonna ask lauren out... and lauren may tell me that shell say no... but i know that if she doesnt see me everyday at school then shell start talkin to him more then shell go out with him when he asks her... and that scares me...

she asked me a very very serious question on the phone... only 2 people know about it... addie and jessica... and that question has a lot to do with our future together... and after she asked me that she posted on her xanga that we were through... that hurts me... bad

my best friend put a pic of us on her xanga then a quote about how she was close to letting go... that really makes me feel good to know that the 2 people i love the most both want to let me go...

i dont know what to do anymore... life is only getting worse... but i know it will get better

me and lindsay went out for a long time and this is how i fealt when she broke up with me... and now im over than and i barely even think of her at all... and i know that if me and lauren truly are "through" then ill get to the point where i barely ever think of her... but i dont want to get to that point...

i miss how life was 3 weeks ago... that was perfect

so much to do and so little time. and even though i'm the one that put it off, i'm still going to complain about it. and i'll probably stay up late tonight like usual, but thats how it goes. it'll be fun.

today is britney, kyles, grahms, and katies birthday. thanks to facebook i can now keep up with all of that stuff. pretty cool. happy birthday guys and girls.

it was so hot in math. no matter how cold it is outside, or how how it is, it will always be burning up in aires. i should of just sat there naked. maybe the teacher would of given me an A just so that i would put my clothes back on. i nodded off a few dozen times. i have a ton of online math homework to do in there. i dont know if i like all this online stuff. but i'll be ok i guess.

i better get started reading before i fall asleep again.

piece

has become nothing more than the desperate attempt to find a hope in the hopeless...

I hate being here.  I can't stop thinking about it over and over.  I am thinking about canceling my plans for my birthday.  It really has no meaning to me now.  I thought things were different.  But oh well.  That's life and it sucks most of the time.

wutz^.... just got site.. but not liken' it much...it's a bit wierd..but i'll keep this 1...but be on probable only school hrs....but i'll be on my xangas out of school...but leave some comments...and this purty much be the only time i'll write this much.....  xanga site--http://www.tampa_n_siegel@xanga.com

This tuesday is Encounter at 7:07pm just would like to invite all college age to come check it out! 

Well life is good, w/ the exception of the Seahawks losing... Saturday I worked out at the Y, that was fun.
Then went to go find a black shirt for color guard pics, then went to the pics, and yall let me tell you...it was FREEZING!!!
We sat on this stone wall for our group picture and all the stone did was absorb all the heat in my but and make the bottom half of the body go to sleep.
Then we had to take year pictures and individual pictures.
Then we went and got some home mexican food, that was yummy!!! Then I babysat, then went home.
Then yesturday I didn't go to church b/c I was sick, and still kinda am, I went shopping w/ my mom, then went to the super bowl party w/ my church...
Well I hope yall had a great weekend

Megan

Just four more days and I will be legal...

Yes, that's right February 10th, 2006 marks 18 years of existence for Betsy Jo....

Exciting isn't it...

ok so its monday again!!! but i really need some sleep so anyways went to a lock in friday night it was awesome. can't wait till next time, then worked till 10 saturday and church on sunday so my weekend was awesome!!!!!

Well, Saturday I've labeled as a "good day". I feel very good when I am productive, which is probably why yesterday sucked; I was completely lazy and mildly depressed. This Saturday I have my interview for Governor's School, so PRAY FOR ME!!! Next Saturday is Oakland's Military Ball which will be fun. I have to get a haircut sometime this week before Thurday.... Well, I guess that is about it! Talk to Everyone Later!!

so, my family has almost used 3,000 N&W minutes. . .I'll put it over the top tonight. . .and by the end of the week, I'll have prolly used 3,000. . .hehehe. glad their unlimited!!


photo from lauraebeth

Yesterday was awesome! ^^ i went to church, then La Siesta, and home and i napped and then went to Elissa's which was awesome!

Quotes of the day (yesterday):
"I was just threatened by a topless boy." -Chase, Zoey 101
"They throw rice and chicken at his head." -Elissa's Spanish worksheet

i'll post pictures later ^^

"Even if the mistakes are repeated again
Everything, included your heart, is devoured completely
Snuggled up to the outstretched arms
The pale eyes closed"
-Gackt (Dispar)

I met someone last night. I think some things might start making more sense. God is so great!

Happy Birthday to Me! :)

I'll be home in 19 days!!! lol!! Can't wait to see ya'll and tell ya'll all about Thailand!! Love ya'll!!!

So today... (the 5th since it is passed midnight) is my 18th birthday and Superbowl Sunday! I had some good fun. Sam threw me a party and spent alot of money on food for me. It was a really party. About 10 people were there and two gave me cards with money (thanks meggie and b reb :D) and Sam's mom and her boyfriend got me a card. It was really sweet and I really appreciated it..

ive been really upset for the last couple of days and today was just what i needed to be with friends and have a day of relaxtion. ive had a lot of stress and i just need a break. my car has been messing up and my best friend probably wont ever talk to me again and i don't have a phone so that if my car stalls on me i cant get in touch with anyone easily without walking miles... ): and im just scared and worried.. that and my mom cant get me a birthday gift or wont...

but i hope that everything will work out for me. on tuesday, i'm going to set up my own banking account and get what i want without the signature of my mom! :) I filed my income tax return papers etc.. and so in about 4 weeks i will get a nice check in the mail and i'll be able to get my phone if i can. :)

i'm really in love with sam. he is so great to me and he cares for me so much. i know people might think it is too soon for two people to just love each other so much but we have such a connection. i eventually want to move out and if i did and if we are still together which im sure we will, i would like to share one with him. it would be easier for our relationship and we would be able to see each other more. (: i would like that. i love him bunches and we've been together a long time. *** 9 mnths on the 18th!! ***

anyways.. im super tired and im gonna hit the hay sack. sleep tight and dont let the bed bugs bite. :D

So today i threw my first party!! Its was expensive as hell though lol. It was a Super Bowl/Brigette's B-Day party!! I spent $75 on food!! But every penny was worth it to see my babygirl so happy. I invited alot from friends from work and we played Spades, Dominoes, and Speed. It was fun. I got her some good but i cant tell y'all cuz she'll read this and i hope she will like it.

We also finally made a group outta good friends. We are da Sparrows. The four original members(OMs) are Raw Krack(me), Hollywood(James), B Reb AKA Rebel(Ben), and Big Rock(Rocky) and the First Lady of the Sparrows is B AKA Boogie(Brigette). It's not a gang or anything just a group of close friends. We came up with some ill handshakes too. It came together so nice and it gonna be real cool. Well im out kuz im tired lol.

Holla Back ~1~

    I found this article on the history channel website.  I thought it might be appropriate for this time of year.  One thing I have discovered about Valentine's Day is that you should always remember your First True Love, our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ who demonstrated the greatest act of love the world has ever known.


“The History of Valentine's Day"
"Every February, across the country, candy, flowers, and gifts are exchanged between loved ones, all in the name of St. Valentine. But who is this mysterious saint and why do we celebrate this holiday? The history of Valentine's Day -- and its patron saint -- is shrouded in mystery. But we do know that February has long been a month of romance. St. Valentine's Day, as we know it today, contains vestiges of both Christian and ancient Roman tradition. So, who was Saint Valentine and how did he become associated with this ancient rite? Today, the Catholic Church recognizes at least three different saints named Valentine or Valentinus, all of whom were martyred.

One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men -- his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death.

Other stories suggest that Valentine may have been killed for attempting to help Christians escape harsh Roman prisons where they were often beaten and tortured.    
       
    According to one legend, Valentine actually sent the first 'valentine' greeting himself. While in prison, it is believed that Valentine fell in love with a young girl -- who may have been his jailor's daughter -- who visited him during his confinement. Before his death, it is alleged that he wrote her a letter, which he signed 'From your Valentine,' an expression that is still in use today. Although the truth behind the Valentine legends is murky, the stories certainly emphasize his appeal as a sympathetic, heroic, and, most importantly, romantic figure. It's no surprise that by the Middle Ages, Valentine was one of the most popular saints in England and France.”

-From the historychannel.com
http://www.historychannel.com/exhibits/valentine/?page=history

I was going through some old stuff in my closet tonight after everyone left the Super Bowl Party and I found my Travel Log from the road trip of 2004. I was just scanning through and I found this:

July 6, 2004 - Sitting 7,200 ft. off the Valley Floor; Yosemite National Park, Ca.

Alive. This is what this trip has meant to me in one word. I'm free from the trials of Mableton and on my way to the Pacific in less than 2 days. And I feel like I've only taken a step away.

For the first time in my life I'm doing what I want to do and everyday seems like its the first one I've ever seen. I never want to let the world control me, only the Lord and only my heart. The beauty and the vastness of this place makes me see the artist in our creator and even more makes me see the insignificance of myself.  I love my life, I absolutely love it....

After reading that I started to wonder what happen to that boy that was standing on the edge of freedom just a mere year and half ago? I started leading with my head instead of my heart and its ended me jobless, carless, road tripless, and unpassionate.

I have let myself down in so many ways lately. I've become the biggest jerk I know and have done some of the most inconsiderate things I could ever imagine to a friend. And for the first time that I can remember, I have no idea who I am and where I am going. I thought the days of "self defining" were over for me, but at times when I lay here alone in bed; I feel like I never had a clue. I want so badly to return to that boy that was sitting there with a smile on his face and no where to go but to take another step away from home and everything familiar....

--Sings-- Happy Birthday to me...

Seeing how it's 12:13 am here, it's officially my birthday.

As of 9:38 tonight I'll be 19 but what's the fun of having a birthday if the whole day isn't about you turning whatever age you are?

What do I get to do on my birthday? I have a psychology test first thing in the morning. Oh so much fun right there. On top of that, I have to work at TVC tomorrow night and seeing as how I've been extra sick this weekend, my first night on TV will have to wait for another week or two which kind of upsets me but there's nothing I can do about it.

I came home this past weekend to spend my "birthday" with my family and with Lyndi. I asked for just one thing and I got exactly what I asked for...

Anchorman on DVD! Ha..Thank you so much Lyndi! I love you!

Mom and Dad gave me money to put down for a deposit on an apartment in May and Brett gave me Wedding Crashers on DVD.

Saturday I went to eat at Toot's with the family and hung out with them watching the UT vs Ole Miss basketball game.

Saturday night I went over to Lyndi's and we ate pizza and watched Wedding Crashers and I just stayed over there for a while until she got tired and wanted to go to bed. Saturday, while not my real birthday, was awesome and close enough to having a real birthday. It was great.

Sunday morning I woke up to being sick, which sucked, but my mom fixed me chicken and creamed potatoes so I was feeling better in a matter of minutes. That is, until I couldn't eat anymore.

Ate some cake and ice cream, went and told Thumper bye, and made my way back up here.

So as for what I'm doing on my actual birthday? After my classes end at 1:10, I'm going to come back here, nap for a while, go somewhere to eat alone for my birthday dinner, go to work at TVC, then treat myself to ice cream or some more food. It's not the ideal birthday but under what I have to work with, it's what I want to do. Outback sounds good...do they take Bonus Bucks? :-)

I'm tired, sick, and have to study. Happy Birthday to me and to Graham Wells. I haven't seen you in a while man but how could I forget my birthday brother?

Enjoy #13 Tennessee at Kentucky Tuesday night on ESPN.

I co-hosted Hot Topix tonight on LIVE TV. It was awesome. If you go to UT it's on Channels 12 and 62 at 8:00 Monday nights. Watch it, call in, and enjoy. We talk about whatever we want, make fun of whoever we want, and just..well..yeah..it's a random show.

VICTORY IS MINE!!

cantrell.out

so...dress shopping? not so fun.goodness... i finally got a dress after going to three stores and the funny thing is that i didn't want to go to banquet anyways but my lovely friends have given me no choice.ok..i have to admit that i love the dress! it's extremely poofy! (hee hee hee)so...this might actually be fun..now i'm just hoping that maybe i'll have a date. (ha ha,that's funny. it'd be nice but i'll be fine without a date).

well my friends..i am off to bed. buenas noches.

"Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I would have had to missed the dance"

-Garth Brooks

    So yeah, I tried to watch the superbowl today.  Seems me knowing absolutely nothing about football made me loose interest rather quickly.
But hey whateva.
Lets see...  Last night was alright.  Got together with "da crew."
So thats about that.
Oh, and NewRev got a new addition to the fam.
Victory at Last
And I redid a lot of the site.  Were getting PHP access soon, so all the "workin" pages will be done soon.

Whee, Im done.
And Iv recently had a sick obsession with 311.
Shhh, dont tell anyone.

What's Up Kids?
Hey I like girls, preferably named Kelsey Stroop! Fo Sheezy! We is goin out now in case someone on the face of the earth hasn't heard about it yet! Peace Out my peeps!

well, everything is about the same.  and i guess its time to give up.  well, not really give up, but let go.  or something like that.  it kinda sucks, when u try to make a point, and no one really wants to hear it.  but o well, atleast u had the courage to make that point.  i guess u can only do so much.  but there is always a time when u do so much that there is nothing left.  so i guess some people have to find out things the hard way.  and that really stinks.  everyone looks out for their friends right?  well yea,  there is even a time for ur friends to find out the hard way.  it kinda stinks because its like u are sitting back watching a movie.  ur watching it, but u cant do anything about it.  u cant change the outcome of the movie.  but o well, some movies do end in a great twist.  so that could happen.  but throughout this whole thing, my one TRUE friend has stayed by my side.  he will never leave me.  and i can always talk to him.  he always wants to talk to us too, but we sometimes choose not to listen.  but i dont know why we wouldnt choose to listen the man who has created everything.  thats where we are wrong.  but even when we are wrong.  our TRUE friend stays by our side.  but sometimes it is us leaving him.  so i have come to the realization that God is God.  its not just a name,  its who he is.  and yea, we have best friends, but they are BEST friends.  not the TRUE friend.  God u are amazing.  THANK YOU, for challenging me.  even though we fail, u still love us.  how? 

So I guess I should elaborate on this whole wreak thing. I am perfectly fine, my car has a crack in the hood and m,y fron bumper has a scratch and my left light pops out a little but other than that thats all the damage. Probably about 400$ or more damage which sucks! I was driving behind a GMC truck and just didnt stop in time and with my car being so light it didnt catch traction and I slammed into him. He was really nice and no damage what so ever to his truck, it was a beast! haha! But my poor baby is a little busted up! Well thats all must go type a paper!

photo from schneebly

Wow what the hell...  All these stupid calls are gonna make the Seahawks lose...  Im upset at these horrible calls.  Holding when the dude barely touches him, offensive pass interference that shouldn't have been called... WTF

hehe...aren't i loverly?

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boys are stupid. the end.
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[becca]

Okay everybody I made a phuse box and let me just say it is pretty awesome...

Melody Ann<3

(instrumental)
I lay here, and wonder
Why even get up?
All my life's dreams are gone
Goodbye..
Another step should be
My very end
I hope you'll save me from
The pain of life...
I wanna know
Where will this go
This day
In a life like mine?
I just wanna see, my face again
And feel I haven't
Waste-ed
All my time........

(chorus)
Another day..
A-gain...
I need you now,
I need a friend....
Another day.. here
A-gain...
I need you now,
I need a friend....

(instrumental)
If I were To die
Here today,
I couldn't go to hell!?
No chance! No way!
I've always been the
Nicest guy I know,
I hold doors and say "Friend..
Don't Let Go.."
I'm so scared,
This life I hate,
I'm lost and I feel
So alone....
I just want to hold time
In my hand
Hold it close
And not let go...

(chorus)
Another day..
A-gain...
I need you now,
I need a friend
Another day..here
A-gain...
I need you now,
I need a friend....

(bridge)
Hold me close (another day..)
Hold me near (a-gain...)
I'm so alone (i need you now,)
This life, I fear (i need a friend)
Hold me close (another day..)
Hold me near (a-gain...)
I'm so alone (i need you now,)
This life, I fear (i need a friend)
(all echoish)

(instrumental fade)
Hold me close
Hold me near
I'm so alone
This life I fear
Another day,
In this life again...
I need someone,
I need a friend...

So yeah daniel broke up wit me......

so its superbowl sunday and me and a couple friends are at laceys house watching the game and of course ordering pizza.which pizza do you ask? well the one with jessica simpson on the commercial called cheezy bites, of course.
so as the delivery man pulls up, everyone runs to their places.
he rings the doorbell, lacey opens it and screams THE BITES ARE HERE! then all the sudden courtney screams from the second story WHAT?! THE BITES ARE HERE! erin drives by screaming out the window THE BITES ARE HERE! as chelsey chases the car screaming THE BITES ARE HERE! i come running around the corner screaming THE BITES ARE HERE! and then again in his face, then i run into the house. all this while kelley runs back and forth across the catwalk, running into the doors screaming I LIKE CHICKEN...okay just kidding, screaming THE BITES ARE HERE. and for the final touch brittany falls down the stairs while letting out a big THE BITES ARE HERE. kayla grabs the pizza and lacey throws him money in a plastic bag, and scream KEEP THE CHANGE. and slams the door.
the end.

ok so yesterday Aaron Called and I did not find out that he called until this afternoon when my sister came in and told me. She came in and said oh yeah by the way Aaron called and I forgot to tell you I was pissed.Today I got home from church and I called him and his brother answered and said that he was asleep then I had to go to work at 4:30 but they let me go because the business was slow so I got home I caled Germani and then I did three way with him and I called Aaron but not one person answered the phone so I am in a ok mood right now plus SOMEONE told me that I need to communicate with him more but I can not because I am not a very talkative person so I need to work on that so I am mad right now but I need to get off the computer because germani want to talk to me so I will talk to you all later BYE

so is anyone going to actually WATCH the game or r u just gonna watch for the comercials?

got to see travvy thursday, friday, and yesterday. yesterday we went on a date (the first one we've had in awhile. we've seen each other..but havent had a whole lot of "alone time" lately.) so he came up yesterday around 11:30 and we went to the state park and had a picnic and walked around the lake and talked about a lot of things. it was a lot of fun. than church and went to eat and saw a movie at nate's house. too mch fun. i miss him today

pray for Justin...

<3

The Subject line is the day that two of my friends were killed in a car accident along with their best friend Kimmy. Not a day goes by that they aren't missed. Brittany and Bionca Toombs were two of the most amazing girls that I have ever come in contact with. Their smiles could brighten up a room and it was rare to see them w/out a baby or little kid in their arms.

Their love for their friends, family, and for Jesus shone through them like a bright light.

*Brittany is my shining star and Bionca my glowing moon.*

Today is February 5, 2006. It's been 3 whole years since their death. To some this might seem a long time, but to me it seems like yesterday.

Memories flood through my mind and I see their faces flash into view. I grew up with these two girls and their little brother Randy who I am still friends with to this day. Their family has become like my family and I love them dearly. Although they are not physically here they are here with us in our hearts today--especially in those who were close to them. I won't admit that it's not hard but I know that they are up in Heaven with Jesus. I know one day, one day soon, we'll be reunited once again.

Brittany was 14 when she died and Bionca had just turned 16. It seems like only yesterday we were planning VBS and laughing till we were crying over a nice big cheesy pepperoni pizza.

It's things like there which will stay with me--forever.

R.I.P. Brittany - 7/11/88 - 2/5/03

R.I.P. Bionca - 1/24/87 - 2/5/03

"Forever In Our Hearts---Until We Meet Again"

This one is for you two:

Trading In My Sorrows:

I'm trading my sorrow
I'm trading my shame

I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord

I'm trading my sickness
I'm trading my pain
I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord

Chorus:

And we say yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord

Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord

Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Amen

I'm pressed but not crushed persecuted not abandoned

Struck down but not destroyed

I'm blessed beyond the curse for his promise will endure

And his joy's gonna be my strength

Though the sorrow may last for the night
His joy comes with the morning

I love you two so very much.

~~Teresa~~

     

so pretty sure this weekend was amazinggg! my friends are wonderful.. and funny! but God spoke so clearly and helped me see again that He is all i never need to lean on because He is the only one who will never break my heart or disappoint me. the speaker at the student life conference talked about how we must always step up and do something and never expect anyone else to first.and the worship was so incredible.. God just spoke through the whole weekend. well... hope everyone has a delightful weekend and have fun watching the superbowl! go steelers.. =) 

i LOVE stupid people.... they crack me up... like the ones who dont know what "love" is and u know they dont considering the amount of times they've "fell in love" .... i mean if every relationship u get in you "fall in love" and then the relationship goes to crap  then ummmmm FREEKIN HELLO!!!!! shouldnt that tell you something... wow... this is why i told dave that i love him ALOT ... but i dont know if im in love w/ him... ive only been IN love once i mean truly in love... b/c when i look back on that relationship EVERY thing was perfect and we didnt break up b/c we didnt love each other any more it was b/c we were forced to be apart... i hope that dave doesnt dissapoint me i hope hes stays like this forever...and i hope i dont dissapoint him... i think i like the fact that he'll be away from me the first couple of months of our relationship... it will give us a chance just to get to know each other w/ out physical things getting in the way... oh well... so far hes perfect ... i couldnt ask for more... he ALWAYS tells me how much he misses me and how much he loves me and hes sending me money to help me out... like i sed PERFECT... and hes sexy!!! i love my davey!!!   well im out i guess!!! happy superbowl!
~tRISH 



G() STEELERS!!!!!!

Yesterday was the Military Ball, and I really had fun - probably the most fun I've had at any kind of dance (except maybe the model un dance where Jimmy and I brought potted meat) and I'm glad I went.

Today's the Superbowl.  I'm cheering for the Packers, as usual.  Brother: "Do you even know who's playing?"  Moi: "The Steelers...and....a bird team?"

It's all so interesting.  I'm really an idiot.  But an idealistic one.  I guess it's an okay situation to be in.

I am really upset with myself.  I feel like I'm becoming too clingy.  I feel as though I'm smothering Jen and we're not even dating.  It has to stop.  I am going to stop.  No matter what.  I don't want to freak her out and ruin any chance I might have with her.  Though I don't know how much of a chance that might be.

Everything just got messed up at Krystal with Lee quitting.  He was the 3rd shift manager.  And now all the other managers have to compensate for his departure.  I am going to see if I can get a promotion out of all this confusion.  Maybe.... 

I'm really sorry for the things I've done to everyone.  I can't help but be reminded of it constantly when I'm alone.  I'm sorry, Jen.  I really want you to like me and I'm fucking it all up.  I will fix it.

P.S.  I really like this song.  It comes on the radio at work alot.

"Geek In The Pink" - Jason Mraz

[Record scratching sounds]
[Rapper] Yo, brother A to Z
[Mraz] Yo, whassup B?
[Rapper] Yo, what time is it?
[Mraz] Haha it's laundry day

Well, let the geek in the pink take a stab at it
If you like the way I'm thinkin' baby wink at it
I may be skinny at times but I'm fat fulla rhymes
Pass me the mic and I'm a grab at it
Well, isn't it delicious, crazy way that I'm kissin'
'Cause baby listen to this, don't wanna miss it while it's hittin'
Sometimes you gotta fit in to get in
But don't ever quit cause soon I'm gonna let you in but see

I don't care what she might think about me
You can vibe without me if you want
I could be the one to take her home
Baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be a let down
But sugar don't forget what you already know
I could be the one to turn you out
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge me by the color, confuse it for another
You might regret what you let slip away

Like the geek in the pink
Like the geek in the pink, pink, pink
The geek in the pink, yeah

Well this relationship fodder don't mean to bother nobody
But Cupid's automatic musta fired multiple shots at her
Because she fall in love too often that's what the matter
At least I talk about it keep a pattern of flattery and
She was starin' through the doorframe
Eyeing me down like already a bad boyfriend
Well she can get her toys outta the drawer then
Cause I ain't comin' home I don't need that attention, see

I don't care what she might think about me
You'll get by without me if she wants
I could be the one to take her home
Baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be the let down
But sugar don't forget what you already know
I could be the one to turn you out
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
You might regret what you let slip away

Hey baby look at me go
From zero to hero
You better take it from a geek like me
I can save you from unoriginal dum-dums
Who wouldn't care if you com...plete him or not

So what I've got a short attention span
A coke in my hand
Because I'd rather have the afternoon, relax and understand
My hip hop and flip-flops it don't stop with the light rock
A shot to mock you kinda puts me in the tight spot
The hype is nothing more than hoo-ha so I'm
Developing a language and I'm callin' it my own
So take a peek into the speaker and you'll see what I mean
That on the other side the grass is greener

I don't care what she might think about me
You'll get by without me if you want
I could be the one to take you/her home
Baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be the let down
But sugar don't forget what you already know
I could be the one to turn you out/on
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
You might regret what you let slip away

Like the geek in the pink
Well, I'm the geek in the pink, yo pink pink
Geek is the color for fall, I'm the geek in the pink yeah
So I'm the geek yo, in the pink yo.
Hahah, y'all geek is the new color for fall
I'm the geek in the pink

I attend an incredible church. I love it...btw that was not meant in a boastful way. However, our church is in Dothan, Al (about 20 minutes from my school) and it is one of a kind in the city. Wiregrass Church is a Partnership Church of NorthPoint Community Church in Alpheretta, Ga. (NorthPoint is the church affiliated with such things as 722, KidStuf, Big Stuf Camps, Passion, etc.) So at Wiregrass we do things alot like NPCC...(not everthing though cause it is a different culture than North Atlanta). We have a full band on Sunday mornings in the auditorium and for our student ministry (NEXUS) which I have the privilage of leading in worship. It's a blast to serve my creator in a church that is trying to reach people I have a passion for.

  Anyway, the toughest part of going to Wiregrass is the teaching. We do everthing live except the teaching, and it is done through 2 huge screens and a DVD. Wierd huh? Well that's not the tough part (I would venture to say that everyone who has come to our church as a skeptic that is in our target people range have no problem with the lack of live preaching...we're just so media driven). The tough part of being an attender of Wiregrass Church is the messages. Andy Stanley may very well be the clearest communicator of God's word that I've ever heard. And if you have a clear communicator you have no problem at all knowing what God says from the scripture. So....what's the tough part? Conviction. Crazy Conviction.

I say all of that to give background of my church life. Today was an experiance. We are going through a series called "Take it to the LIMIT". We are learning to live with Margin in our lives rather than exhausting our abilities which in turn leads to regret and sin. (The later being what culture drives us too). Today was about Moral Margin. And the bottom line is this If we intend to abstain from sex the we need to listen to God and set our limits so far away from sex that if we do ever cross our limit line then there is no big consequence. I say all of this to say: We need to allow God to invade us and to tell us where His limits are for our lives in every area expecially Sexuality. I have made my own mistakes and I know if I would have taken Margin seriously I would not have the regret that I have. God is teaching me moment by moment to live at the limits he gives rather than the limits Culture brings us to.

so, i just got back from disciple now for Northside Bapt. yea! AMAZING!! so i went with hobson, but i knew a lot of people there! it was so much fun! our house had some crrrrrraaaaaaazy people! anywho...

the highlights...
played chinese firedrill like 8 times on the way to NSB! was very fun! got lots of laughs!

sliding down the stairs in sleeping bags! pretty cool, as well! kinda sore, but laughing that hard takes the pain away! yea wore harrison's karate masky thing! pretty cool!

putting pics up later!

"Worry is the indication that we think God cannot look after us."
-Oswald Chambers

"Love is a force more formidable than any other. it is not invisible-it cannot be seen or measured, yet it is powerful enough to transform you in a moment."
-Barbara de Angelis

Ah Super Bowl morning, there's nothing like waking up to see the little footballs underneath your super tree, faithfully placed there by John Madden in his bright yellow suit after he partook of the Coke and chicken wings that you left out for him.

I haven't taken very many pictures since I started college. What's the world coming to? I feel so sad because I don't have enough pictures! Agh! I need to start carrying my camera around everywhere like I used to. Too bad my purse is small...

Deep question of the day: If humans were ever cloned, would they have souls?

Ok so finally I ended up getting this thing.

Anyways. I just got back from Chicago last night. It was fun and all. Got to play about a 35 person game of Ultimate Frisbee. That was awesome! Northern people know how to have a school too. They had 4 different gyms.. and 27 inch tv's like every 15 feet down the halls and were all on different regular tv channels. and the thing that amazed us all was they had a glass enclosed Fitness room with everything you could thing of, plus it was all so new, not a single thing wasn't electronic. I mean this room was literally about 5 times the size of something MTSU would have. It was amazing. OH AND IT SNOWED!! haha We looked like idiots playing in it compared to the people who lived there and didn't care.

Oh well. im going to go get ready to go run around. let me know if anyone wants to go hang out anytime!

Jesus is a pretty cool dude.

God works in alot of ways

Through relationships with your friends, family

and yes, even your girlfriend.

Hopefully

God will nurture me

to become a better person in the near future.

Sometimes it seems you can't win for losing. Sometimes life just isn't fair it seems. You are honest, tell the truth, be vulnerable with someone and bam, its thrown back in your face. Ouch.

Hello Loves..

                     Ohkayy...so how has everyone been?Fantabulous I hope**...lol!anyways today was aolt of fun..I guess.I slept in until like 2 or 3...then I got ready for competition..then went to competition...then competed!We got first place...'cause no one was in our division..But we would have beat them of there was anyone!!Lol**!Tomorrow will be boring...I have to go to some baby shower...Ughh!Today was also a sad day because last year today was when me and my ex-b/f of 2 years ((on && off))broke-up...break-ups suck MAJOR...&& the only thing I could think of all day was  ** He was holding my whole heart in his hands.........and didnt even care when he broke it**.........I Heart You          <3 Ashleigh

oh how i love my friends. like no...i think you don't understand...they're the best. i want to keep them forever.

my friends could beat up your friends.

i'm having an amazing weekend...until tomorrow when i will be sorely dissapointed because Kyle will be proven right. too bad. my poor Bengals...they could have been in the super bowl. stupid Palmer. gahlee.

maybe i should be one of the "Ben-Gals"...their cheerleaders. their colors are the same as Blackman's. it's a sign.

okay bye.

LOVE/ Britt

Tonight I saw my kindergarten boyfriend Prince perform at the dress rehearsel of SNL!  It was so awesome!  Steve Martin was the host and there was a special appearance from Alec Baldwin and Jimmy Fallon!  We sat out for 13 hours Friday night and had the best time.  The weather was perfect and couldn't have been better. 

Cool thing about it was the friends we made.  Yes they are all theater majors, and they kept us entertained with their dance routines and Twister challenges and their drama!!! 

I love New York city and I am so blessed to be a part of what God is doing here.  Words can't describe how I feel about what God is doing in my life right now.

My God, How Great Thou Art...

Whats wrong with me??? I want someone to please answer that for me!!! 

Why is it that I'm never good enough for anyone??? Why is it that another girl is always better??? I dont understand!!!

I wanna be the one girl ... juz for once ... to get the guy she wants ...

But getting the guy I want isnt even the case ... its the fact that NOBODY wants me ... I mean I dont even have to turn anybody down cuz nobody's even trying!!!

YELLOWCARD LYRICS

"Cigarette"

Watching the days burning out like a cigarette, just a few drags to go
You built me up and you broke me down somehow
Everything just seemed so clear to me, nothing left to know
I'll love you right and I'll love you pure, right now

How can you say, that it's too late
To save us now

And I would wait for you (oh), if you would wait for me (yeah)
And I will wait for you (oh), if you will wait for me (yeah)

Intoxicated the edge is serrated, so easily torn from the core
I blushed the first time, but you blushed the last time my eyes in your mind
Regenerated these feelings of hatred, I long for your love evermore
You built me up and you broke me down this time

And I would wait for you (oh), if you would wait for me (yeah)
And I will wait for you (oh), if you will wait for me (yeah)

How can you say, that it's too late
To save us now

How can you say

Watching the days burning out like a cigarette, just a few drags to go
You built me up and you broke me down somehow
Everything just seemed so clear to me, nothing left to know
I'll love you right and I'll love you pure, right now

How can you say, that it's too late
To save us now

And I would wait for you (oh), if you would wait for me (yeah)
And I will wait for you (oh), if you will wait for me (yeah)

Intoxicated the edge is serrated, so easily torn from the core
I blushed the first time, but you blushed the last time my eyes in your mind
Regenerated these feelings of hatred, I long for your love evermore
You built me up and you broke me down this time

And I would wait for you (oh), if you would wait for me (yeah)
And I will wait for you (oh), if you will wait for me (yeah)

How can you say, that it's too late
To save us now

How can you say

Ok ... onto a different note ... SUPERBOWL is tomorrow!!!
Who does everyone want to win???

Whoop go Steelers!!!

Well thats about it for now ... maybe I'll write more later!!!

    When I first got my Apple computer, I thought OS X 10.3 was simply amazing after using Windows my entire life.  Now, I'm using OS X 10.4 and I'm completely blown away.  I love Dashboard!  There's infinate possibilities in such a simple concept as widgets.  I was playing really old games on Dashboard like Frogger and Minesweeper (I still need to download pong and asteroids), and you can look stuff up on Biblegateway.com using a widget.  There's also widgets that show your system status, buddy list, the weather, etc.  I could go on for a very long time.  It's simply amazing.  Another program, Spotlight is pretty cool too.  I've been using it a lot.  It's kind of a search thing that only takes a few seconds to find anything on your hard drive, and it's conveniently located on the taskbar.  To summarize, Mac OS X 10.4 is the same to Windows XP as XP is to Windows 95. 

This is going to be interesting!  I can just picture it now.  Little girls everywhere.  Children of all ages being pulled and carried in all directions by parents hurrying to get their tickets or trying to find their seats.  Kids with runny noses and Dora t-shirts on.  Bouncing around to the tune of D-Dora-D-D Dora.  Hundreds of children who were waaaaayyyyy too excited to take a nap.  Oh yes, it will be fun for all, but I will probably leave there with a headache and a tired child too excited to go to bed.  Despite the fact that the crowd will be maddening and I surely will have to threaten to go right back down to the car, I am going to have a perfectly wonderful day on a Pirate Adventure with Addie Mack! 

here are some results  from some random quizzes that i took:

Personality Profile

• Easygoing


• Peacemaker


• Even-tempered


• Steady


• Likable


• Generous

TAURUS FEMALE

You are a complex lady. You are ruled by the planet Venus that makes you knowledgeable instinctively in the art of seduction. You love beautiful objects and adornments and will welcome any quality gifts that your lover buys for you. You always know exactly what you want and you will become quite stubborn if you don't get it. As long as your man stays on your good side and treats you with tender loving care you will be affectionate and willing to give him whatever he wants. You are eager to learn about life and the man that can teach you the ins and outs will win your heart. You look for a lover who is sincere, appreciative and knowledgeable about getting the best quality for the best price. If your chosen partner lives up to your standards you will be a loyal, loving and excellent bed mate.

So the otherday I was walking from my "Christian Marriage" class to Smith Dorm and I was thinking, "Man, I need a place to just totally unleash all of the frustration I have built up inside of me after this class!" I mean it's stupid really. I get so angry when I hear a couple of certain professor's here and when I deal with all kinds of friend issues. I decided I need a blog somewhere. John had this linked to his facebook so I thought, "God answered" LOL. So here I am...I just wanted to say hello to all the people who might take a minute to read this....which while I think about it now will probably be a number I could count on one hand. But that doesn't matter...It's good to start off with a good little blog so....here it is....many to come...stay tuned

I miss old cartoons.  Whatever happened to good quality cartoons?  Is Family Guy the best they can come up with nowadays?  Where are the Saturday morning cartoons we all grew up with and loved?  I'm talking about cartoons like Jetsons, Flintstones, Looney Toons, Animaniacs, Transformers, Popeye, Inspector Gadget, and Scooby Doo.  This (Saturday) morning I was looking for some cartoons and the cartoons I found were all anime.  What happened to American cartoons?  What are TV networks thinking?  Do they really think kids like this stuff?  Think about it, all the cartoons I mentioned above were enjoyed by several generations of children, and even many adults as well.  Modern children's programming is lucky if it lasts two seasons.  One day I hope to own many DVDs with old, good cartoons on them so that my children can enjoy them.

wow! so friday night and saturday i got to go to longhollow baptist church and went to student life and i got to spend some awesome worship time with God! It was amazing! God taught me that i think oh there will be someone else to reach out to a person but i need to step out of my shell of friends and reach out to the lonely, hurting people! so yea erwin was amazing! andcharlie hall. wow what a man of God! we did some really cool new stuff and some really good God centered stuff! Oh by the way i think i have came to the conclusion bj hunt knows everyone in the christian music industry! I got to hang out with charlie for like 2-3 minutes with bj and alex it was really cool! Charlie is such a God-centered type of guy! no wonder God shines through him when leading worship. so as i leave you here are some lyrics from the weekend!


Bring your kingdom, Joy and freedom Light to all the World
Rain down heaven's power and presence Life to all the World
- Running with Your Heart C. Hall

Christ be the center of our lives
Be the place we fix our eyes
Be the center of our Lives
- Center C. Hall

Later- hambone

So i am so greatful for my friends. I think ill just put that out there. My friends are nothign les then amazing.This semester at school has been different from what i am used to. I was used to knowing everyone and everyone knwoing me. So comging to MTSU was a different world!I was blessed with the gift of being lonley. Most would ask why do you say that is a gift? I know it was a gift only have gone though it. I can say that i know myself and my relationship with God has only grown with this experence. Yet, now in my second semester have been blessed with many friends.  I could not have asked for anything more. I love you all dearly!!!

who would have ever imagined that two pieces of wood, nailed together, would have held the most perfect, blameless, most amazing person to ever live? it completely blows my mind to think that someone could love me so much that they would give their life in order to save me from spending eternity in hell. i take for granted what Jesus did for me, sometimes i rationalize it to the point to where i deserve it, and then i stop, think about it, and im blown away (again)-i DONT deserve it. i am human, i have sinned like crazy, i dont honor my mom and dad like i should, i gossip, and so much more. but even though i am so unworthy, God sent his only son to save me from it. i can not fathom his love for me. its incredible, so when i do realize how im rationalizing the situation, i smile. then, i thank Jesus for everything that he's given me, and how he has blessed me. how awesome?

Philippians 2:5-11
"Your attitude should be the same that Christ Jesus had. Though he was God, he did not demand and cling to his right as God. He made himself nothing; he took the humble position of a slave and appeared in human form. And in human form he obediently humbled himself even further by dying a criminal's death on a cross. Because of this, God raised him up to the heights of heaven and gave him a name that is above every other name, so that at the name of Jesus every knee will bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue will confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to glory of God the Father."

Today was a very productive day. I got up, did my daily hygen routine, ate breakfast, cleaned the kitchen, swept and washed the kitchen floor, finished scetching my painting, painted the best picture I have ever created, ate dinner, cleaned the kitchen again, put the finishing touches on my painting, watched Walking Tall with my parents, cleaned my room, vacuumed my room, took a shower, checked my email, and now I am writing an entry on what I did today. LoL Wow, that is a lot of things and I LOVE my painting! I am proud of it. I am hoping my sister will take a picture of in so I can put it up here. Well, talk to everyone later. Hope everyone had a good and productive day. LoL

so..i have a sprained ankle...with a slight fracture

ok, why would i be the one to get hurt at Warrior Hysteria?!?..me..the only one to like ever get hurt!..

ahh anyways..

The Juniors beat the Seniors in the pep-rally today..and if you go to Riverdale, you know that is a very big thing, because the Seniors always win the last pep-rally of the year....but NOT THIS YEAR!  '07 Baby!

you say, it's because of my age girl, but age ain't nothin' but a number<3

Here lie the puddles of my tribulations....

went to see Kohr last night after work... and his mom doesn't know. hahahaha. and i spent most of today with him.

last night was rough. we had a talk... but i don't need to share it. it's worked out. it was just tough.

i think we just need eachother near. all the time. and we can't have it. so it sucks.

buuuuttt..... anyway. we saw When A Stranger Calls with Ashley. it was so scary! (the movie, not Ash) hahaha. but i liked it.

and i was e.x.h.a.u.s.t.e.d. all day. but it was still fun.

yup. love.

some new pictures..

well, this weekend has been terrible so far.  but its all good, because its only saturday.  so maybe it will get better.  well there were some parts of the weekend that were just great.  like the student life conference.  now that was amazing.  and then there were other things that happened on friday and a little on saturday,  that were just pretty.... uhh unique.  have u ever been in such a situation, that u get sick over it.  yea, well i beleive that has happened to me.  i think ive just gotten so down and kinda out there that ive just come to a spot of crap.   if that made since.  i have never dealt with anything like this.  so im not sure what i should do.  it seems like im trying to do the best for people, and then i get the blame for some stuff.  it just feels like im being rushed into an answer, that im not sure what to say.  people always say look on the brightside,  well... i dont really have a brightside in this crap right now.  it kinda stinks.  i have to choose a decision, and whatever i choose, someone(prob me)  will get hurt by it.  and then everyone else will be so happy, because people can finally get what they want.  i guess thats cool.  if my friends are happy, and im going through crap, then i guess thats fine with me.  it just really sucks right now.  and there is nothing i can do to make this better without getting hurt.  i hate these kind of situations.  and this is the first time ive ever had to deal with this.  so now what?  i guess i shall please others.  everyone would love that. 

Student Life was so much fun! It was at long hollow baptist in Nashville and it was soooo tight. Charlie Hall lead worship and the lighting effects and the stage was just amazing. The speaker, Irwin Mckmantis, was really good also. Here are a few pics from the trip.


j-mo, alex, ami, and oliv in the auditorium before worship


me, ami, and oliv


a really good picture of oliv and ami


This was the stage of long hollow baptist where student life was at.


me and oliv


This was this crazy kid who was running around the auditorium in slow-motion. It was hilarious!


Some cool kids after lunch


me and ami


Charlie Hall leading worship


and again...


and again


ami and oliv after we ate at applebees


Me and Charlie Hall! His gotee is like a foot and a half long! I wanted to cut it off and sell it on ebay! lol


And last but not least I hope ami driver doesn't kill me for this because she didn't know I took this picture because she was obviously asleep! Lol that is the funniest thing ever!!! Ami is the greatest!

Well that's all but as you can tell it was a really great weekend!!!!!!
~Garrett

Alright. I'm staying at Taevan's for the time being. To make a long story short, I thought I was getting laid off ((long, complicated story-- don't ask why)), but I'm not. It's funny how often I get asked the same questions over there when I'm ringing customers up. The most popular are:

"Is your name really Bob?" ((yes))

"Are y'all [the crew] related?" ((no, that's why we get along so well-- my manager told someone that, lol))

"What made you decide you wanted to get into this business?" ((i needed a job))

"Is he [referring to Taevan's baby's picture beside the computer] your baby?" ((oh, no!))

I got a B on a Psychology test and a Theatre Appreciation quiz. Not bad grades, but they need to be A's.  I started laying out my schedule for the next two semesters, and I'm thinking about taking Writing For Electronic Media next semester. We'll see. There's a book I'm re-reading right now, and I'm thinking about making it into a script.

There's something else, I'm sure. Oh well. I need to bathe, eat, and study.

Yay! The audition went really well. Dan Phillips (horn teacher) seemed pleased. I'm happy with it. So I started out the day listen to Dan warm up in his room while looking through the quintet music. They are playing some film music with clips up on a screen, it should be really cool. I got to listen to the quintet rehearse for a little while. They were playing West Side Story when I went up for my piano placement test. I random got into class piano 2 even though I told her I didn't remember anything, lol. I passed the theory test and got into advanced theory 1, woot woot. Then I did the audition. Afterward I went back to the hotel room from which we went to the bookstore to buy a UM tee-shirt.

We left Memphis from where I went to meet Abby in Jackson at the Olive Garden. We had lots of food, and a slice of cake.

yum...

After that we went to look for me some clothes, Abby thinks I have an odd sort of style because I kept looking at shirts/sweaters with funny patterns. Lol. We also went to Kohl's and goofed off. Here is Abby's explanation, she does it well:

"Full and ready to go, we drove over to Old Navy because Kyle needed to get a black sweater. No success, but we did manage to get some funny looks while taking stupid pictures with hats on. We continued our pursuit for a black sweater at Kohl's. You know, if they have something nifty on a mannequin, the clothes on the mannequin should be nearby. They weren't, so we migrated to the clearance section. We managed to find something among things that were on the clearance rack for a reason. Kyle noticed that the racks were labeled by size, and blurted out, "Look! Two small racks!!!" while a couple women walked by. ahahahahaha.

We made our way back to bedding and found fun pillows. He took a retarded picture of me with a pillow of bunnies in the carrotmobile. Then we found the pez-shaped pillows. PEZ!!!!  and a strange-looking elephant. and one that looked like a bottlecaps wrapper. Then we went to kitchenware (why, I don't know) and browsed around. Somewhere in all this we wound up in the boxer section. The whole time we were at the restaurant we kept trying to get him to smile with his teeth showing....... I finally did, when we were wandering aimlessly and he saw this metallic pink boxers that were reminiscent of princess glitter. They were highly amusing. Not that pink metallic boxers captured forever in a photo are embarrassing or anything..........mwahahaha. Hey, if me and the carrotmobile pillow got immortalized, so were Kyle and the pink boxers."

Pictures:

 

Abby and her car, lol.

Me and funny pillows, hehe.

The end!!!

Boooooooooooooooored.

Methinks I'm gonna call some friends.  Got some money from my Dadoo, so I feel like going out and spending it irresponsibly.

Wonder who's not busy?

Valentines Day is coming up! I don't have a valentine but it's all good. I still LOVE Valentines Day!!!! Me and my friends at school alwalys exchange little Valentines Day gifts and stuff. It's pretty cool and exciting. I always feel so LOVED!  

today i just hung out... drove over to kogers got my haircut.... looks sooo much better

wtch movies

sat arounf talk to friends

dont like my best friends boyfriend

yeah well today was kinda boring

but ok 

it's you I like like
not the things you wear
not the way you do your hair
but it's you I like

the way you are right now
the way down deep inside you
not the things that hide you
not your toys;
they're just beside you

but it's you I like
every part of you
your skin, your eyes, your feelings
whether old or new

I hope that you'll remember
even when you're feeling blue
that it's you I like
it's you, yourself, it's you
it's you I like.

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Ok, please oh please oh please don't tell me there are people in the world today that really do think like this.  This is abosolutly insane.  This website was number 12 out of 501 stupidest websites on the internet.