at least she can't control what i write on my phusebox. so. thursday night was opening night, and OMGOSH it was great! i wanna be an actress for the rest of my life. woot! all my friends showed up last night! and certain stalker showed up with Jared...as always. w/e. nayways, it was so wonderful. both shows have gone off w/o a hitch so far. 2 more left! so ya'll come see it, tomorrow @ 2:00 or Monday @ 7:00...so. big story of yesterday. we all get to write our own resumes for the play's program. so men Joey have this inside joke about a kid in out classes named Rob. rob kinda has a nasal voice. so Joey would always say "HI MY NAME IS RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAB!...it's funnier if you can hear it. so in our resumes, i wrote "All Cari has to say about this play is RAAAB!" and Joey wrote, "Cari, this one's for you...RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAB!"...so guess who shows up on openign night...Rob. so, even though he thought it was pretty dang funny, Mrs. Petrone said that it hurt his feelings, so yesterday during 5th and 6th period, she made us take a sharpie and mark it out in all the progreams. w/e. but it was worth it. nayways, after opening night, we all went to Steak n Shake , and pretty sure Neil showed up with his boyfriend. ha. so all in all, it has been pretty great so far. much love---Cari

This entire week has felt like a test drive with my new work schedule starting up.  I've been studying a whole lot for History, but I halfway feel like I'm not retaining as much as I'm reading. I also need to be looking over Electronic Media-- Prof. Heinrich said the tests wouldn't be too in depth, so I'm hoping he'll stick to that. I never knew how overwhelming studying could be.

I hate feeling like I'm stuck in the middle.

My skin is pathetic. I've basically forgotten what it's like not to have red irritation somewhere on my body. Ugh. Bring on the tanning bed. ((fyi-- my dermatologist even said the fake bake helped my skin, so don't give me any poop about it)).

Praise Jesus.

guys and girls, my life is starting to crumble here. so many things that should have gone right turned on me. still got some hope for things, but others i'll soon give up. finally got the damn car home. in case u haven't heard, the other day, the car wouldn't start, so i had to leave it in school. towed it home w/ the pathfinder, which was pretty fun, gotta admit. forrest, SHUT UP! lol. and elizabeth, WHAT DO U WANT? guys, let me give u a little advice, don't give a v-day card to someone u like. that, in my opinion, is the lamest gift u could give. all it is is someone else's words with ur signature at the bottom. completly thoughtless. i mean, it's like, "hey, this looks like something i would say, i'll just put my name here, aaand, done."

i just had to say that in case any of u think about a card.

--B B B Benny and the Jets

Online dating/hookup services work...  I've accually started talking to someone I want to meet.  lol Yeah I'm a loser...

Well The Winterjam Concert was amazing!!! And at the afterparty we got to hang out with Toby Mac for a little bit , but yeh his wife was having her baby, so he had to leave, I think its cool haha. And  there were 3 other bands at the afterparty ( Candlefuse, Fighting For Instinct, and Family Force 5) , they were all  awesome !!! But at Winterjam more people performed than I thought were going to . Ok so here are all the bands : TOBY MAC , Hawk Nelson, Newsboys, Newsong, Krystal Meyers, Zoegirl....all of them were awesome , but of coarse my favorite was Toby. I wish there were more concerts like that in the year, they are so much fun!!! I admire christian artists sooo much because they have the courage to go out in the world and to sing for him ! I myself are looking into the christian artist thing , it would be awesome:)

God has a purpose and plan  for all of us .... we should all try to live it to the fullest  , and be  followers of Christ, because without him we wouldnt be happy , satisfied, whole, complete, living, exc....goes on and on and on and on.........

"What would people do if they knew that im a Jesus Freak ? "

So yeah, so much for all of that snow we were going to get. I"m so disappointed. I was all geared up for a huge snow and we dont get anything. It didn't start until about midnight and by the time I woke up in the morning it was all gone. I hope some miracle happens that gets us out of school on monday. Isn't that wishful thinking.

Valentine's day is coming up. I wrote an entry a last year on xanga about hw much I loved valentines day no matter if I was single or was with someone. Well....screw that. It sucks. And there's way too many happy couples out there. It makes me sad. Yeah, i like someone. But...well nothing's going to happen...at all. So...I'm just gonna be a pussy and not say anything and be pissed off and annoying about the whole situation. I think I'm just going to give up on anything happening. Because just thinking about the person makes me sad.

On the other hand. This six weeks is almost over and that means that theres only two more six weeks until the end of junior year. And those two six weeks will fly by.

So yeah, I'm gonna leave espresso joes right now and head over to calypso cafe...mmm

I'm scared.

Poetry is fear,

Following this trail of tears,

Grace is another man's

I can all but cover my ears,

They are like a flock of geese,

One is hurt and the other guides him to peace,

I've been broken for a while,

But does this evil choose to release?

All I can be is glad,

that she found someone who's not at all bad,

Just wanted her to smile,

And for good times to be had.

S.W., I need you now,

Let me enter the dance and bow,

I CAN be happy,

....I just don't know how...."

I seem to be getting a bit side tracked from school already! Instead of studying or writing my essays I have been going out and staying out until early morning. I have had a lot of fun thats for sure, but I feel badly for not getting my school work completed first. Oh well, I guess I will do all of my work tonight or after morning service tomarrow.

I met this guy the other night when I went out with a friend. I didn't know how old he was until we had talked pretty much all night. He didn't know how old I was either and when he found out he was kinda shocked (we wont go into why). Turns out he is 34. That doesn't bother me much. He is a pretty cool guy. We were going to hang out after I took my friend back home but the place we wanted to go checks for IDs and I had left mine at home so we couldn't go.  He has a myspace so we exchanged screen names and I got his #. We have talked at messaged each other quite a lot already and we just met Wed. I ended up hanging out with him and a couple of his friends last night until pretty late. He actaully got me to play pool! I never play because I figured I would suck... but I'm not too bad. We won every game but the last one I think. So that was pretty cool.            Hee Hee! He just called and wants to know if I want to go out with him again tonight. I told him that if I get most of my home work finished before tonight I will go. Lookie there! I am already trying to put school above fun! Yay for me.

Well if I am going to get my stuff done I guess I should go.

~Carpe Diem~

Or who I'm really not. I've turned into the one thing I promised myself I would never be. I'm letting something pass me by and I can already see myself not even trying to reach out, hop on board, and enjoy the ride no matter where it takes me. For the first time in 21 years, I'm not taking the chance to live.....

something is seriously wrong with me

Yeah so me, daniel, and my dad built this beast today.  We named him "Gigantor"  he's about 7 1/2 ft.

Yea this is when you tell her that you love her but you don't...Yea she is beautiful...but she doesn't mean a thing to me

      Our deepest fear is that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, "Who am i to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?"  Actually, who are you not to be?  YOur playing small doesn't serve the world.  There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people wont feel insecure around you.  We are born to manifest the glory within us... And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.  As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. 

Today i have realized jsut what exactly is going on in this house i call home.  Is there such a thing as too much love. ? Too much to where discipline and respect are thrown to the dogs and feelings of guilt replace them.  Is it love that makes  my parents not even try anymore?.  Or are they jsut so tired of it?.  So tired of what they have let carry on in this house for so long that they dont even want to deal with it??.  Is it better to let it continue than to put all energy into trying to start over and fix it. ?  Surely it is. Maybe i dont have the drive to help.  If it was to happen im sure i could find it in my self some where though.

I spent last night in a hotel room on Old Fort Parkway.  I spent the night watching movies and writing.  I am finally writing seriously again.  I have a purple notebook that I am filling up.  I'm desensitized at the moment.  I have shut off my emotional center.  It a required task at the moment.  I watched Donnie Darko last night and was inspired to write for a few hours.  I hate when I get like that, a feeling where I have to write my thoughts down or I'll explode.  It's not a pleasant feeling.  I might end up going to the mall later but I don't know.  There is nothing ever there to interest me.  I might just peruse at Hastings looking for something to keep my interest for a few hours.  I want love dammit.  I want the kind of love that suffuses all of your cells and makes you feel so freaking good.  I want to be in awe of the feelings I hold for the other person.  I want to be inspired to write and draw things that would never have come otherwise.  I want an otherwordly warmth to comfort me and guide me when I'm with this person.  I want to feel as though angels are breathing upon me when I look at her.  I want to feel my heart explode again and again when I hear her name.  Is it possible for that sort of love to exist in this day and age?  If so is it conceivable for me to stumble into it?  Should I hold out hope?  I will, until proof slaps me down into the depths of despair.

1 week till military ball!!!

presenting the girls of the BCM

out to celebrate Singles Awareness Day at DQ!

this time we were smart and brought our own spoons!
the little plastic ones don't work too well

our tongues were green but you can't really tell...

julie, jenna marie, lindsey, and kimberleia

Amber, Lauren,  and Carrie

Me and Jessica

the cake was awsome, but not as awesome as my girls!!!

cause they are WAY more fun then boys!

...in a few hours, we will be leaving for our last road trip. We're going to Mt. Airy, North Carolina. If anyone sees this in the next hour or two, and you want to lend us your digital video camera (i promise we'll take care of it) that would be amazing. Thanks!

call John Cade - 615-477-7255

Today is saturday! This morning I went to meredith's house to see her dress for dbs formal and then I went to pick out a tux! I chose a 2 button tux with an orange vest and orange striped tie and it is P-I-M-P! I can't wait. So yeah i'm about to go over to abi's house for rachel nadeau's baby shower! And tonight is the valentines banquet at church and i'm gonna be a table server. Hopefully I won't catch any tables on fire this year!! lol. Anyway, have a great weekend!

Walkin' by the Spirit,
                          Garrett

Life = ok i guess

Guys = new one

Friends = can't live w/out

Family = to interested in my life

Bowling = idk y i do it bc everyone there thinks i'm a Johnny obsessed freak and fyi i'm NOT

I just wanted to say thank you to all the people who left me a birthday message! It really meant a lot. I guess turning 20 aint so bad afterall..... Have a great day!

well im not really sure what to write on this thing

so how about this...ITS STURDAY! and....IM FRIGGIN HAPPY:)

thankies

<3

so pretty much xanga and myspace are more fun!!! i never get comments on here!!! so yeah go 2 my myspace or xanga!!! <3

So yeah it's still snowing.............how completely amazing is that? especially for these completely retarded tennessee winters................

***hold on***

man it stopped.......................well yea

didn't really expect for it to last forever

we're having school on monday.........theres no way this is going to last throught tomorrow...

i think i'm about ready to leave myspace...

it's cause a lot of comotion, and i have no reason for that.

and it never works anyway. most any time i try to log in, ither login is disabled, or they're doing maintainence, or there's some kind of error.

it's not worth it.

so it's xanga and phusebox for me.

Who's ready for Fine Arts rehearsals to start?

I'm directing the choir.  That should be interesting.  I've led ensembles for a few years but never the whole choir.  We'll see...

Hey everyone- two posts in the matter of 24 hours! IT"S A MIRACLE!! Well i just got off the phone from chris and WE ARE HAVING THE VALENTINES BANQUET!!!! so if you are signed up to help be there at the time you were told to be there!!

My girlfriend told me she loved me last night, and I couldn't respond. I know I don't love her. I know I will probably never love her, and from the beginning I know she's not the girl I want to be with. Don't get me wrong, she's one of my best friends, and she's smart, gorgeous, funny...But I just don't love her. I feel like I'm not being fair to her. I mean, I really like her, but I don't feel it's fair to her to date her if my intentions aren't to love her. I need a solution...

EDIT:

I lost my 1st boxing match today. I had two back to back. In my 1st match, I got a kncokout in the 11th round. Then, 30 mins. later, I have to get back into a ring. Needless to say I was exhausted, but I kept with him all 15 rounds. Then I lost by 3 points. I was a little more than pissed, but it's cool. Still not bad for a guy with broken ribs. Now my record is 12 wins - 1 loss by 4 knockouts.

So much going on... I hate not leaving remarks for y'all but I am still reading (or at least scanning) your entries.

Three tests next week. One I expect to be 100 questions. Another one will consist of some questions and then an in-depth essay that accounts for 50% of the test grade. Good thing I can write. Now I just need to know more history to write about.

Valentine's banquet tonight- and I'm so glad Warren pretty much took over for me. He is an excellent director and I am just a stressed out college student.

Prayer for tests and the play are appreciated.

You should be proud, Nathan...

Amy Bonin typed her name into Google yesterday, and one of my Phusebox entries was the third search result! Crazy...

wow it's snowing pretty good lol for murfreesboro... lol me love snow....

well went to the mall last night here wat happen

mall and hang out
 got to see the whole group...yep the whole group
jon, kace,donald, tony,elizibeth,kaylah,lo,ley, audrey, and joey
saw one of my old friends, and austin
and met ben
tried on dress
had a cookie and soda
got a new wallet
got yelled at for seating on the floor(wtf?)
went in to some stores and shit soo yeah
and got yelled at in hot topic for taking pictures
and oh yeah saw leelon(sp?)
me and kaylah have an agreement.....

yep thats what happen nothing new

well i am out sooooooo later

                 president

Yes my friends, it is snowing still at 7:30 in the morning when i'm going to go work out, I get to babysit today so hopefully we can go play in the snow!!!

So, after much poking and prodding, I have finally joined the world of Phusebox. It will probably consume the majority of my life from here on out..*thanks to the one who convinced me to finally do this*...

IT'S SNOWING, IN MURFREESBORO. MIRACLES DO HAPPEN. :)  THIS IS SOO FREAKIN' AWESOME!!!!!!!  THE SNOW DANCE WORKED. now lets go inside and stop dancing. hopefully it will stick and stay all weekend.

I used to think that I had some inclination as to what I was going to do with my life, but now, now that I actually have to start moving down that path I can't seem to settle on something.  We're not here for very long, and I don't want to do something that I hate doing and be miserable for most of my life, but I also don't want to float around jumping from one thing to the other.  I wish my name was John.  If you'll look through out time, its always the Johns that seem to catch the breaks, make the deals, and have it figured out.

"...let the Bible Belt come and save my soul.  Hold onto sixteen as long as you can, changes come around real soon to make us women and men..."

i think i'll do my kids a favor and move to the plateau!

F.Y.I. the saturday ACT is CANCELED!

Do you ever feel some days that the world just loses its luster?  We struggle each day to get through this life, and it never seems to go anywhere.  You know what I think?  I think I'm ready to go home.  I don't mean Milton Tenessee, I don't mean my family, I don't mean my friends, I mean Home.  This world was so beautiful today, the snow was the more picturesque here than I had ever seen.  I was in love with life, and I was in love with this world.  Then, in one quick slap in the face, the world was real to me again.  It was not a place of happiness or love, instead it was the place of Christ's rejection, and Satan's acceptance.  We live in Satan's domain, whether we like to think about it or not.  Pray for the kingdom to come, pray for me, but most of all pray for the thing that I learned of earlier.  You don't need to know what it is, just pray.  There can never be enough prayer, and when we do it we are no longer in this earth, but in Christ's hands.  Please, above all, pray.  Let Christ fill you, and bring it to the world around you.  Heaven knows the world needs it!

Love In Christ,
Zach

P.S.  I didn't mean that I didn't want to come back home to all of you, I just meant that to go Home would be so much greater, and to see all of you there will be amazing.  I hope you are all coming with me.  This world may not seem to contain Him, but He is here, and He is yours as well as mine.  Please, let yourself be borne home by Him in the end!

NOW ITS SNOWING!!! Wow I haven't seen this much since my freshman year lol...

---

First Entry! How is everyone?

Musical tonight...I think it went well :)

Snow tomorrow...Beautiful :)

No Act tomorrow...More time to study :)

When the day drags like the seconds are hours and the hours are days. When you seem to be waiting for something to happen because that is all you have left to do. It is easy to become weary but the sun always shines after the storm or even just those depressing cloudy days. Thoughts cloud my mind of never ending possibilities. Sleep doesn't come easy but I have grown quite fond of these insomniac nights sitting alone pondering the universe. Joy is watching the sunrise knowing your ok with the world after battling all night.

Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect, it means you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

goodnight <3

I retract everything I just said.  Sorry.  I'm glad to know they still love me!!!

just be real with people.  if ur not, ur living a lie. 

We lost, Siegel lost, either way we're still playing Leabanon, and we beat them at
homecoming, so we'll see how it goes...scores at the end of each
quarter...
1st:
BHS:17
CHS:17
2nd:
BHS:32
CHS:32
3rd:
BHS:44
CHS:44
4th:
BHS:51
CHS:58
You live you learn, i just thought it was funny how we were tied literally the entire game

I want enough snow to make another one of these

so... what do you do when you find out that your first love.... the only guy you have ever been IN love with is married... yah i sed married... and has a baby on the way... am i supposed to be upset... am i a bad person for crying?... i was upset... he didnt even tell me his dad did... just a casual call to make sure hes alive and all this news at once about killed me... i mean i know i've moved on but deep in my heart i still love him and always will.... hmmmm its just so funny how we are all growing up so fast and every thing is changing... ppl who u thought would be together forever are breaking up and ppl who hated each other are fallin in love.... the world is funny and NOONE has yet figured out its secrets... what does God have in store for you!?!   who knows.... could u imagin marring the person who u hate the most... or could u see yourself dating someone of the same sex... ppl change opinions change everything changes.... lets just say that what happened w/ drew and sabrina... and now the phone call to jonathan has been a HUGE reality slap in the face.... and every one needs to WAKE THE HECKUP and realize that every thing isnt going to "be like it used to" and to Jon im sorry for not wanting u to change who u were i should have excepted that u were getting older and changing... maybe i just dont want to change... i want to be the little innocent 16 year old who can act immature and have fun all the time.... well its time for me to realize.... that i cant... im almost 17 and i graduate next year... maybe i should grow up a little ...... HAHAHAHA YAH RIGHT i'll be immature till im 18 (but of course i'll except change) screw the rest of u cuz if u dont like it u can suck my ..............

~tRISH

So my day definitely just got a whole lot worse.  I found out one of my friends doesn't consider me as good of a friend as I thought.  That hurt a lot.  I mean...it just hurt.  I'm trying really hard not to cry even though I really want to.  I mean this person meant a lot to me and I thought they felt the same way but I guess they don't and that is just one of those things that can just wound you.  I don't know.  I just thought I would share.

Twenty-four year old Philip was found dead in the bedroom of his trailer home, with burnt remains of a Lava Lamp strewn over his kitchen. Puzzled investigators eventually pieced together a likely scenario for Philip's last moments.

Lava lamps are a mesmerizing distraction. Philip couldn't wait to fire up his new Lava Lamp. He plugged it in and waited for the pretty globs to begin their surreal dance. But after several frustrating minutes, nothing happened. Then a bright idea hit him: "Why not accelerate this painfully slow process?" He took the lamp to the kitchen, placed it on the stove, and turned up the heat.

In short order, the wax melted and began its sinuous dance. But the liquid was designed to be warmed by a 40-watt bulb. It was over-heated. Entranced by the display, Philip forgot that "heat expands". Whereas there was no room for expansion in the glass bottle, the Lava Lamp resorted to a violent explosion to relieve the pressure.*

One thick shard of glass blew straight through Philips's chest and into his heart. Philip stumbled into his bedroom, perhaps uttering "Aeternum vale!" (latin: farewell forever) as he collapsed and died.

Police found no evidence of alcohol or drug use, so it is safely presumed that Philip was in full possession of his senses when he went out with a bang.

* Why the instructions warn NEVER to place the lamp directly on a heat source, such as a stove.

hey you guys! thanks so much for all the comments! sorry i havent updated in a while!

well lets see...

lots has happened! i just really feel like here lately God has been just pushing me to become closer to him more in my everyday walk. God has done so much for me and yet i show him to no one. i need to change that pronto! well im excited because i can already feel the diffrence he has made in my life and i am LOVING it! i am  s  l  o  w  l  y  learning more about paitence! i so dont like the word wait! i have learned that the hardest thing for me to do is wait but i need to just realize that God has a plan for eveyones life and we should stop trying to do everything ourselves and put more things in Gods hands. God is just so amazing the way he works.

Jeramiah 29:11-12  " For i know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and i will listen. "

Good evening all,

I just got back from playing at a D-NOW in Chipley, Fl. Lol. All of 20 minutes away. Anyway, I was kind of worried because I was just asked yesterday or the day before if I would sit in and play electric with them. I said, "Sure." But I was not confident at all. However, It did go well. It was quite free and we played some slower worship stuff; therefore, I was able to play some feeling music (my take on some blues-y stuff). Well, at least John knows what i'm talking about right? Anyway, I have to go watch a movie and then get some rest. Rehearsal for Sunday is at 10AM. Fun Fun.

Night,

Clint

Well... Where is it? I haven't seen a flake yet...

I'm so bored. I found out that I have no life after I quit my job. I pace back and forth cause I don't know what to do with myself, there are no sauces to be filled, no meat to prep, or veggies to cut. For those of you who don't know I used to work at Subway. I have college auditions next Saturday!!! I'm to nervous! I've been practising like crazy today but I stopped cause I don't want to strain my voice. I love to sing. Well, this is a random litle bunch of stuff I'm typing. I get to sleep in tomorrow, yeah!  And then study theory with Jackie, my best bud! And now I'm gonna stop cause I doubt anyone is gonna read this anyway.

i'm in love with life.
i'm addicted to jesus.
and snow is a good thing!



=]

yay! well we have a winterguard competition this weekend and i am excited about that! but i have like 3 projects due this week so i am stressed about that. but over all my week has been amazing! i hope all is well for all of yall

Hello Loves....

                       Ohkayy....so how has everyone been?Good I hope...this phusebox thing is really comin around..I get like 1 comment a day now...WOW thats amazing...but my goal in life is to get 15 comments ((I know that isnt that many but since I get hardley none that would be a huge step!))Lol...anyways,nothing special in life lately...which is totally normal!But I still am getting very depressed lately...Valentines day is in what..ummm...4 DAYS...gah I am screwed..I have no one to spend Valentines with ((sigh))...why is it that I get so hung up on someone...that I know I cant have...and right before Valentines Day...Ughh for once I would like to be happy on Valentines Day...maybe some magic will happen before then...who knows!Haha well I am asking every Phusebox member to leave me a comment...I can just see it now...I will not get 1 comment!J/p..I Luv Everyone...God..and Not Valentines Day!((Oh Yeh Do ya like my new profile pic? Tell me what ya think))

                                          <3 Ash

I WAS WRONG...IT'S SNOWING...AND I'M TAKING MORE PICTURES.

SUUUUUUCK IT. lol.

ayeluhvyoo!

LOVE/ Britt

Okay fellas (you know who you are), One Weekend is approaching and some of us have a title to keep. 

See you in a couple of weeks,

817

Okay fellas (you know who you are), One Weekend is approaching and some of us have a title to keep. 

See you in a couple of weeks,

817

It snowed today...alot!  It was awesome!

There are pictures!!!

eliz

Valentines day sucks... Im always alone on valentines and seeing others guys with their girls reminds me of jendee and it just gets me really depressed.  I've never been in a relationship on valentines day, the closest I got was 8th grade when she broke up with me on valentines, after taking the candy I got her.  So valentines is pretty meaningless to me other than its depressing...

Well 3 for the Son has been over and now we are getting ready for One Weekend 2006 Events!! You should have got info on that in the mail if you haven't got that you can pick it up in the youth area on sunday or wednesday! The deadline for signups is February 15th. On February 22nd BJ Hunt and Friends are putting on a worship concert for a cd in the AO Space @ 6:30 come on out and support these guys!! Hope everyone is having a great week and we look foward to seeing everyone on Sunday!! God Bless!

i'm glad itz Friday... i had so many plans for today but i think they've all fallen thru (mostly b/c of my laziness >.<) but o well, i gotta work tonite and tomorrow nite and Sunday is my lil sister's B-day party! Sweet Sixteen! ^^ tee hee! so excited!

"There is no answer
No matter where you search for it
But you will never have
This moment again in your life
If you have decided to live in your way
Accept the answer
Different from your ideal"
-Ayu (Startin')

Ayu's new song/music video ^^

I close my eyes
To see you again
My hand in yours
A spanning smile
Precious times
Your lingering kiss
The way I floated
One fatal wind
Could blow me away
Difficultly leaving
Going home without you
A long night of dreams
I close my eyes
Remembering

yeah yeah I can't write, you dont have to tell me.
You and me.

woo hoo!! yay for snow!! =]

I haven't posted in a few days

life is decent

I'm still home

still unemployed

going to WDW Friday

have an interview w/them on saturday

and I need my girls. I wish I could be with them on v-day

let it snow let it snow let it snow.. =)

If you want to be a coconut,
you might as well hear it!
You can't be a fruit of the Spirit.

so anyone know a shane or lucas..pretty hott, one of them kinda asianish?perhaps? heh because me and kris were eating chinese and they walked in the restaraunt and we totally got there numbers

hah ..i know im excited..

well well nothing new is going on, i suppose..except my granny was randomly at my house when i came home, and shes rambling to me about how she just left pa at home and he doesnt know where she is...or something like that, and now i have to sit here and listen to old western tv shows in the backround while listening to her eat a hamburger without any teeth in..anyone want to switch places with me right now?

Leaving tonight for my audition tomorrow.  Wish me luck and hope I get a good music scholarship.  I'm totally ready and very excited.  College plans are slowly falling into place and that makes me very happy!  I just have to remember a few things for the interview after the audition.  Pray I don't get stuck in Chattanooga if it snows really bad.  I also have freshman orientation on April 21.  April is already looking busy too.  These next few months are gonna fly by!  Hope I can survive!  Talk to you guys later.  I'll be back late tomorrow night.  Much love to all.

well going to the mall

                 meg

---

Dear EF Friends -

After a great 2 1/2 years of making music together, the members of this band, Echosflow, have decided to move on to new things in our lives. After countless hours spent in studios, rehearsing, and touring all over the country, we feel that it is time to establish new goals and committments in our personal lives and to pursue new avenues in our musical endeavors. We feel hesitant to call this a break up -in fact, it is far from it. We recognize this change as a growth - none of us would be the person or musician we are without having been dedicated to this for so long, and we know that our time and experience with this band will be of great use as we move on to other things.

There are numerous people to thank, so many that it would be impossible to list all of them here. Of course, without God, none of this would have been possible. He continuously opened doors for opportunities to reach people, and though He has lead us to close this door, we trust that He will open doors in each of our personal lives and future music endeavors as well. We definately cannot leave out our families, who have each graciously given their prayers, time, and financial support to make this ministry possible. We also appreciate all of the fans who have encouraged us and supported us over the past few years. You guys have been amazing.

We will be playing a farewell show in Murfreesboro, TN. Here are the details:

FEBRUARY 23RD, 2006
ECHOSFLOW FAREWELL SHOW
with FINDING STEVE CUNNINGHAM AND TOWNSEND
Bonhoeffer's - 1403 Greenland Dr. above Textbook Brokers
7:30 PM
FREE

To keep up with the latest, please visit our MySpace page.

Again, thank you all so much. We can't explain how much your support has meant to us over the years. You guys rock!


-Echosflow
Wes, Brad, Luke, John and John

So I guess I'm gonna give this Phusebox thing a try. I just wanted a place to write online where i can talk about stuff like Jesus, what he's doing in my life, music, pop culture or whatever. People don't really seem to respond to stuff like that too well on places like Myspace but oh well.

Its snowing here in Memphis right now and its so pretty. Its actually sticking to the ground maybe I'll get to make a snowman sometime.

I hit a skunk with my car Wednesday.  It stinks now.

Glad it's the weekend, even though I'll probably spend the whole thing in a doc's office or working.  :-P

Anyhoo.  that's me in a nutshell.

Thank God it's Friday!!! Happy Birthday to the one and only Kaitlin Gay! The second coolest red head ever!

I am so completely exhausted... I really hate being sick.....

So apparently its supposed to snow? I sure hope so...and I hope I am well enough to play in it....

amor!

cz

Valentine's Day Is Right Around The Corner And I Hope I Can Make My Ex-Girlfriend Quentika My Valentine... I Still Love Her So Much... I Never Felt So In Love With Any Girl As Much As I Have With Her... We've Shared So Many Times Together... Cried Together, Had Some Many Good Days Together... I Still Remember Everything We've Ever Did Together... Our First Kiss, Our First Date, Etc... I'ma Get Her Someting Nice If She Love Me Like I Love Her Again... I Really Miss Her And I Know She Misses Me... I Feel So Much Better Knowing That She Came Back Around Because At First She Wouldn't Talk To Me Because After She Broke Up With Me She Got Another Boyfriend... But That Is In The Past, This Is Now And I Really Love Her...

~Love By Keyshia Cole~

Well I have off tonight and plan to use it to my advantage.  I hope it goes alright.  I don't really feel any different now that I'm 18.  I just feel a sense of responsibility and maturity being pressed upon me.  I intend to fulfill that.  I'm tired of being considered a jerk and an asshole.  I may not pull it off completely but at least be able to improve myself a little.  I hope.

Yesterday I Had A Wonderful Moment... I Saw My Ex-Girlfriend Again... She Was Looking So Beautiful, And I Couldn't Take My Eyes Off Of Her... She Kissed Me For The First Time Since We've Been Broke Up Since 9th Grade... I Forgot How Her Kisses Felt And I Experienced It Again Last Night And It Was A Good Feeling... I Still Love Her And I Know She Still Loves Me... I'm Gonna See If I Can Take Her To The Prom...  Well I Gotta Go... See Ya PB!!!

Today Is My Cousin Xavier's Birthday!!! Big Shout Out To Him For Doing It Big And Making It This Far...

Ask me when the last time I slept was.

WEDNESDAY NIGHT, BIZ-NACKLES!!

As a result, I am:
-- A danger to society when merging onto the freeway (yes, I drove 80 mph in this condition.  Be afraid.)
-- Running into door frames on the wall side.
-- Strangely subject to symptoms similar to crack.
-- Walking in front of oncoming vehicles without really realising it.
-- Speaking better in French than in English.
-- Strangely cognisant through all this.

As for the speaking in French better than English.... I talked to a real live Frenchman today!  In French!  (As opposed to a real dead Frenchman, but you catch my drift.)  M. Truax's friend Richard (who is a dead ringer for Louis XIV) called from Besancon!  We carried on a very nice conversation.  At first I was afraid to accept the phone because I read and write French so much better than my poor speaking skills, which isn't saying much (long story short, M. Truax cornered me by the door.  "I'LL RUN OUT, I WILL!")  I mean, it would kind of be like the Philosophy major having Socrates suddenly walk up and start philosophising.  But he was very nice, and pulled a dirty little trick known as "enchante."  I don't care if he resembles a despotic king from 325 years ago (I mean really, the likeness is amazing -- you should see it) and has metal (as in music) hair.  No matter who says it, if they're French it is the equivalent of.... Well, it has no equivalent.  But yes, that single word.... Holy crap.  I'm marrying a Frenchman.  I may feel hopelessly inadequate when it comes to conversation, but I'm marrying a Frenchman.

man...i cant believe it...i got out of school Wed...then i got my pd licenses,2nd time is da charm, or whateva they say..then i saw underworld 2..it was much better than the 1st...but i'll renew this every like 2 or 3 days..specially scince im usuin the school comp. since my internet is down....well holla leav somethin funny or stupid...p3a$3

It looks like you guys spend TONS of time on these things.  Where do you find the time?  I spend most of my time rushing from one thing to the next!  My life is pandemonium! 
I guess I do have "down time" most evenings but by then I'm more brain dead then usual!  It makes me tired thinking about it.  I'm going to go take a nap.

Awesome 18 much better than Sour 17!!!

Happy Birthday To ME!!!

i feel like breaking someone's leg.

play tomorrow night.

pray, lol.

RYAN IS CHRIS H. DICK SUCKING BITCH ASS HOE

Everybody who messaged me can kiss my black butt

HE LOVES ME AND EVERYBODY KNOW THAT EVEN HIS NEW GIRLFRIEND AND I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WITH PORCHEA YOU BITCH ASS HOE

I was wondering...I had a bowl of Froot Loops for breakfast this morning, and the question came to mind 'do the different colors have different tastes?' so I tried one color, and then another color, but they tasted the same...what about to ya'll? do they taste the same?


So in English, we're reading the 'finest example of the English morality play' (The Summoning of Everyman.)  we only just started reading it 2 days ago, and there's this part (lines 22-62) that I think are really cool. I don't know what it is about them, but, I don't know, I thought they were really cool, so I'm going to post them. It's all God speaking...it may be a little difficult to read, simply beause it's like, Old English and stuff, but really, it's worth it (or I think it is at least). So now, you'll have two things to comment about, my Froot Loops, and this part of the play..ok, here it is:

I perceive, here in my majesty,

How that all creatures be to me unkind,

Living without dread in worldly prosperity.

Of ghostly[1] sight
the people be so blind,

Drowned in sin, they know my not for their God.

In worldly riches is all their mind,

They fear not my rightwiseness, the sharp rod;

My love that I showed when I died

They forget clean, and shedding of my blood red;

I hanged between two, it cannot be denied;

To get them life I suffered to be dead;

I healed their feet, with thorns hurt was my head.

I could do no more than I did, truly;

And now I see the people do clean forsake me.

They use the seven deadly sins damnable,

As pride, covetise[2],
wrath, and lechery

Now in the world be made commendable;

And thus they leave of angels the heavenly company.

Every man liveth so after his own pleasure,

And yet of their life they be nothing sure.

I see the more that I them forbear

The worse they be from year to year;

All that liveth appaireth[3]
fast.

Therefore I will, in all the haste,

Have a reckoning of every man’s person;

For, and I leave the people thus alonein their life and
wicked tempests,

Veryily they will become much worse than beasts;

For now one would be envy another up eat;

Charity they all do clean forget.

I hoped well that every man

In my glory should make his mansin,

And thereto I had them all elect[4],

But now I see, like traitors deject[5],

They thank me not for pleasure that I do them meant,

Nor yet for their being that I them have lent.

I proffered the people great multitude of mercy,

And few there be that asketh it heartily.

They be so cumbered with worldly riches,

That needs on them I must do justice,

On every man living without fear.

---

[1] Spiritual

[2] covetousness

[3] becomes
worse

[4] numbered
among thee redeemed

[5] abject

 

CULINARYCHEF101 BOYFRIEND IS IN LOVE WITH HER BEST FRIEND.

hat way i say p uay veryone eay I m aay aving hay I ood gay ay day. And if you can not read pig latin you are GAY lol lol lol

yay! itz Friday! ^^ thank God! ^^
Ayu's new music video is out today. the song is called Startin'. i've seen a preview but i am SO watchin the whole thing when i get home... whenever i go home today... cuz i have alot do today...
i gotta go to the mall and get some of Elissa's Birthday present and i gotta go to Kyle's so i can borrow a clarinet. (yes, i'm finally taking it up again! ^^) and i work tonite so i gotta pack and i need to figure out my crazy schedule for this next week >.<

lyrics from Ayu's new song:
"There is no answer
No matter where you search for it
But you will never have
This moment again in your life
If you have decided to live in your way
Accept the answer
Different from your ideal"
-Ayu (Startin')

This is going to be a really bad day.  At least the school day will be.

  I am soo tired.  i worked seven hours last night for my mom.  Open Bar wedding...  We dont hate Gail anymore, we found that out.  yeah.. she is a huge bitch, but she has to be.  And we're in no position to put judgement on someone just because they're a bitch...   ;)

not only am i tired, but i have 5 front back worksheets due  in Chem next period... Fuck i wish i was driven.  Wish that i cared...

So Bekah leaves on Monday... at like 4 am.  I am going to miss her terribley ...  My best friend leaving me for 5 months.  again ill be the only sane one living at the Luhrs House.  talking to my mom about things she shouldn't have to hear. just becuase bekah isn't there to take it instead.

The saddest songs are the happiest

the hardest truths are the easiest

put us bothf to the test

and tell me if you still need me

and i will swallow these words and see if i can still believe

The biggest lies are the little ones

when the look in your eyes is the distant one

angel or demon? you know that they can share the same bed

i've lain awake so long i've got them both inside my  head

This is what ill remember most about dying

for many moments life goes slipping through my hands

in vain

you were 80% angel 10% demon the rest is hard to explain

This American Dream maybe poisonous,

violence is contagious

crowded or empty. i walk these city streets alone

who ever brought me here is gonna have to take me home

This is what ill remember most about dying

I'M FEELING REALLY REALLY HAPPY 2DAY, I HOPE EVERYBODY HAVE A GREAT DAY.

LOVE, PEACE, AND A BOTTLE OF HAIR GREASE

I LOVE MYSELF BUT THE QUESTION IS DO YOU LOVE YOURSELF ??????????? 

i absolutely LOVE my job. to most people i'm a paper pusher with a boring 9-5 job that any one would kill themselves over... but i love it. It suits me, which is weird since any one who knows me knows that i probably should hate working a 9-5 corporate job. but for some reason... i love it. i like the security of it, i like the organization of it, i like the benefits of it... i like everything about it... well almost everything. this is where most of you will check out b/c i will start kind of talking about the mortgage business (which is fine with me b/c this is more of a vent for myself anyway) I just don't understand... i've stepped up, worked my arse off, made this company millions of dollars, and while i get the recognition and respect from the people of which it REALLY matters, i don't get the respect of my peers. I had a realization day after working a HARD 12 hour work day that every single person in my department, with the exception of my friend Alyshia and my boss Michele, absoluetely hate me. Call it anger, call it resentment, call it jealousy, call it what you will but they all hate me. And i can't figure it out. they think (because i'm friends with Michele, my boss) that it is smooth sailing for me. Well... they're fudging idiots! I get here before them in the morning and i leave after them at night. I watch the sun rise and set at work... and i NEVER complain about it. i mean do they think i sit back here and pick my ass all day? The only reason i have time to even get on here and write is b/c today is the "calm before the storm". I don't know, i guess what i am saying is i love my job and my dedication and love for it make me a better employee than most (and NO, i am not tooting my own horn). And all of the things that i do here, and working the twelve hour days are not for the recognition or bragging rights, it's because i have a genuine concern for this companys success... i guess it would just be nice for one of my peers ONE time to say "thanks Melissa, you did a good job"..

but i won't hold my breath.

So last Saturday night, I stayed up all night. It's not usually a big deal, but this time was different. I went to church Sunday morning, went to lunch with Amy and Jennifer, then went home and took a nice 4.5 hour nap. That night, I wasn't able to go to sleep so I ended up falling asleep at about 7:00am.
That's the way this whole week has been! Go to sleep sometime between 7:00am-10:00am, then wake up between 1:00pm-2:00pm to go to work or whatever. I've seen several sunrises this week so I thought I'd finally document it:

Isn't it, "red sky in morning, sailor's warning"?


I love contrails. The morning and evening sun light them up like they are on fire.


Me at sunrise. I'll probably go to bed soon for a few hours. Today is laundry day!

I feel like typing. I don't know why but sometime's I get in these moods where I just wanna type until I run out of things to type about.

I honestly don't think anyone has any idea about how excited I am and how much of an honor it is to get to be one of the hosts on Hot Topix. This is the beginning of my dream. I keep thinking if I'll ever make it and I tell myself that it's just a dream and it will never happen because I'm not good enough to ever be on Sportscenter. Lyndi tells me I am. She knows I can be great. I thought that until I was sitting in front of that camera with people calling into the show. Then I realized I could do it. It's what I was meant to do. I may not be the most lively, the funniest, or even the best at doing that but I love what I do.

I miss high school. I DON'T miss all the drama and stupid things that kids worry and fight over. What I miss about high school is how it was an easier time and it just felt good being at home all the time and just having fun with little responsibility. Now...

Well, college is the threshold of the real world. I have so much responsibility now and it's kind of hard knowing that there's no more family vacations and no more sitting around just doing nothing. There's always something that needs to get done and while I love this lifestyle sometimes I wish that I was a senior again.

On to something extremely important right now: basketball. #11 in the AP poll. #14 in the ESPN/USA Today poll. 17-3 overall, 8-1 in the SEC. Won at then #5 Texas and at home against then undefeated and #2 Florida. Beat Kentucky AT Rupp Arena. I'm just sayin that it's been an awesome year. You know what we were predicted at? 14-17 overall, 7-9 in the SEC. We came into this season ranked 85th in the country. We're now ranked 11th out of 365. 20,000 people come to watch every home game. The students love the team. Bruce Pearl is unimaginable. The man can flat out coach. He knows how to work a crowd. He could care less what the alumni think and the most important opinions are that of the biggest fans: the students.

I've had the opportunity to meet him, shake his hand 3 or 4 times, and listen to him talk about what he wanted to accomplish and what he has accomplished. In 13 years he has never had a losing record. We close out our home schedule with Kentucky. I couldn't see a more fitting team to play in the last game in Knoxville this year.

Just for perspective, us beating Kentucky was like Oakland beating Siegel. Yeah, it's THAT important.

I went to the first game of the season. I told Bruce Pearl we would cheer for him and the team win or lose. He feeds off of us. We feed off of him. The players are more respected on campus than the football players. This is the team we've been dying to have play here. They're undersized than almost everyone they play. They're less talented than the higher ranked teams. They play with grit, love for the game, and heart. That's why we're 17-3. We support them in anything.

Don't think I'm just on because we're winning. We could be 3-17 right now and I would STILL go to the games and cheer until I made a parent leave with their child. I have a passion for sports. I have a passion for my team no matter what school it is. I've been out of middle school for 5 years now but when I hear something good about Central it makes me happy. I keep up with Blackman and how they're doing in all their sports and pull for them whenever they play. I've not been a die-hard Tennessee fan for long andyou can even call me stupid or whatever you can think of. I love this place, I love this town, and I love this team. I cheered for our crappy football team even though they lost to Vandy. I cheered until I couldn't breathe..literally. I had to stop, grab my sides, and take a minute to regain oxygen.

There's nothing like beating an undefeated team at home and rushing the court. There's nothing like being part of a riot after coming back from 21-0 at halftime of a football game. You just can't beat the feeling when something like that happens. Ask anyone at Oakland and Siegel when they play in basketball. Ask whoever will beat Riverdale in football. Ask me when Tennessee is playing any sport.

I guess why I'm so excited is because of my senior year in high school. Me and Jason went to every single basketball game. The season was coming to a close and we ended up only winning 6 games. At one game we were literally the only two fans there. We out-yelled the other kids by a longshot. The team told us how much they appreciated it. The cheerleaders had someone to actually yell to. I wanted so bad to have more people there to enjoy the game like I did. I had to go 3 hours and another time zone to find it but I found it nonetheless.

Good ol' Rocky Top..

Here we go again.

cantrell.out

And so my world stops . . .

Got a trim

Made it into a new team playin online video games

Got two hours late to school!

Good week

Saturday is my sisters Birthday!

I'm ramblin

- Jacob

February 10, 2005
...surprise!!!


mmm, cake!

all of my wonderful friends..
look how much we've changed!

hopefully this year will be just as good!
i cant wait to wake up in the morning-
haha .. love yall!

°°°°°°°°°°°°°°
edit:
today was a great day
//i woke up to my mom and sister singing me happy birthday
//i went to school and people made me pictures and posters saying
"happy birthday"
//i came home to some wonderful presents sitting on the table!
//then some FABULOUS friends and i went out to a movie
((derrek, ami, ben, olivia, alex, christian, mere and garrett))
//afterwards, meredith, christian, ami, and me went to starbucks
**there i enjoyed my favorite--a mocah frapuccino!

even though my mom and sister weren't home, it was a wonderful day! we are celebrating on sunday when they get home...
 i definately can not complain--
i love all of yall. thanks for making my 15th birthday great!!!

I've decided to leave phusebox.

Un jour, je conquerai mon décembre. C'est comment je sens maintenant. Il passera.

yeah.. things that have been goin on lately..

• got my nose pierced


• military ball is tomorrow nite!


• super humongus crush


• myspace is a total killer


• Vday is coming up.. <3


• & i honestly dont kno what else..

yeah & i didnt get a single comment last entry

probably wont this entry either..

so this is gonna be my last post

but you can still find me on myspace and xanga.

<3

hey hey

omg i got my PROM dress today. it's really really pretty. it's this aqua blue turquiose color it's soooo pretty. strappless and it's ever has beads on it. it's awesome. im excited to wear it. we found the dress at the first place we went today it's sooo awesome.ahhhh!

well today was awesome.school was a waste of time cuz we didn't do a dang thing but hey that is okay i guess. talk to you guys later.

love you all!

Leah