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Can't Sleep

May 28 2007

I can't sleep right now if my life depended on it. I know I should try to go to sleep because I have to get up extra early tomorrow because we are leaving at like 5:45 for Kentucky Kingdom. (Yay!) I just have so much on my mind lately. School might as well be over. I don't want it to. I've loved this year. I've met so many new friends and made other friendships stronger. And no matter what anybody says I think I've become a little more outgoing now that I look back on this year. Some of the things I've did this year, I never would have done before this year. I think it's partly because this year I've made all the right friends, who I'm pretty sure like me for who I am finally. It feels like it's been so long since I have had really good friends. Friday at lunch we were talking about the end of the year and stuff. We were saying we don't want to leave middle school behind. I think it's because when I left elementary school my "friends" left me, and I'm so scared it'll happen again when I go to high school. I know it probally won't, but I just never know. I don't know what I would do if it happend again. I don't know if I could handle it. I guess the other end of not wanting to leave middle school is because I'm afraid I'll leave my friends next year. I don't want that to happen either. I just wish I could stay in eighth grade forever. (Or just stay with the people from eigth grade.) I'm going to try to make the best of tomorrow because I don't know if I'll be friends with those people come fall. In only four more years and I'll be headed off to college. I still feel like a little kid in elementary school. Things are ending way too fast, I don't know what to do. I want to stay friends with everybody after high school, but I know most of my friends now will find better stuff and leave me here in Dickson to rot by myself. I'm crying so hard now, I can barely see the screen. ;) I just don't deal well with change. I just want to kick myself in the butt because I've let so many great oppurtunities fade away in my life. I'm tired of just sitting there, being a home-body. I want to do more things with my friends, but nobody ever invites me to do things, and I don't have anything exciting to invite anybody to. If anybody else feels the same way I do, let me know so I know I'm not some crazy who doesn't know what she's talking about. Well I guess I should try going to bed now, or I'll be a walking zombie tomorrow. ;)

♥ eyes...♥

September 28 2007
marlow is so hot