I have a great dislike for my life right now.  By right now I'm not sure if I mean this moment or this month, but whatever I mean, I don't like it.  I'm just filled to the brim with what seems to be nothing but bitterness and irritation.  I feel like a generally less-than-adequate person.  More accurately, I've been less than myself.   I only feel less than adequate.

I know why I feel that way.  I just don't know why I do the things that make me feel that way.

The internet isn't exactly where I'd want to get into it, so I'll just quit while I'm ahead.

News from the Land that is Oak-y:
After school today, in the business hall.  White kid and black kid were from some reason not having a civilized conversation.  White kid called black kid the n-word.  Black kid pushed white kid to the ground.  Kicked white kid in the face.  White kid couldn't get back up, just laid on the ground shaking.  While I was driving my friend Stephanie home, we saw an ambulance racing past us in the Oakland direction.

Know what sucks?  How this is going to go down with the other kids at school.  I already saw some of it today.

White kids are going to be mad because a black kid hurt a white kid.

Black kids are going to be mad because a white kid called a black kid the n-word.

The real problem is that one of our students is boorish enough to use a racial slur against another student.  And that that other student is violent enough to respond by giving someone possible head trauma.

The problem isn't white kids, and it's not black kids.  It's just kids.  I hope people will see that some day.