so, i am back from vacation and i uncovered very little reflective thought while i was there...but...

on the plane ride home, i sat in the window seat...and i looked down at the tampa bay - and the surrounding areas between tampa and nashville - and i saw the little boats and the little streets and houses with their pools and yards and their cars and i was in awe.

there is a world we know nothing of...we live here or you live there and you have your life and i have mine. and there is very little chance that our paths will ever cross...

but anyway, back to what i was saying...in those houses, are families...people living lives just like you and i. and they are struggling or they are happy...but i think there are more sad people than people who are truly happy (but thats just what i think)

so, this is what i think and maybe i'm way off...or maybe im just ignorant...but i'm sure there are people out there with bigger problems than ours. but being in a plane, thousands and thousands of miles above sea level made me stop and think about how small i am...and how truly insignificant eveything will be when i'm old and gray.

i dont want to be old. i want to stay young.

_rebekah

so, i love my little web of friends. . .they make me laugh

here's the thing, regardless of what people say, it always gets back to me through one of 3 people. . .and there are 2 specific ones (we call them the apex)

it just amazes me how your friends will gossip. . .i truly believe that there arent many people you can trust. . .nor do i think many are people are on my side. . .but, who's taking sides right?

. . .bekah

so, tonight i went and bought the davinci code...see, i dont feel like i can learn about a book until i've read it...and i dont understand what all the hoopla is about...so, i have decided to read it...even though i've wanted to read it for a year or so. but tonight, i actually went to buy it and im really freaking excited!!!!

then i'm going to read WICKED cause i freaking love some of the songs from it (check out my myspace!!!) and im excited about that too (i would have bought it tonight but my account runneth dry)

have a good one! i'm in a really good mood so you should be too!!!

_rebekah

so, i'm a graduate....thats weird.

this summer has started out pretty much amazing!!! there has always been something to do or people to see...i love all of my friends who have been there through it all and i'm really sad that this is the last 3 months before we go off into our future...but at te same time, i feel in my bones that we will stay in touch.

on another note, my NEW LAPTOP traveled from suzhou china to shanghai then to anchorage alaska; indianapolis, indiana; nashville, tn and today, onto my front porch with the fedex guy incesantly ringing the doorbell while i was asleep!!! as i was laying in bed i heard something in my head say, "a real person is at the door" so i dragged myself out of bed to see the fedex truck, so, needless to say, i was excited. yay for MACS!!!! but i dont know how to transfer my music from my iPod, so if anyone could help me that would be perfect!!!


SENIOR VOICE RECITAL TONIGHT 7:00 AT BELLE AIRE BAPTIST CHURCH....

so my mother made me get up at 7:40 on my first day of summer [!!!] ... to take my brother to school!!!

did you see Grey's Anatomy!!!  OH MY GOSH!!!!  if you didnt, you should just kill yourself now, cause you missed out!! 

disclaimer: dont really kill yourself, its just an expression...

i fear i'm going to end up a homewrecker in this situation...but at the same time, i dont want to wait around (nor do i want to be a homewrecker [well, maybe i sort of do] )...so, i think i will move on...maybe.  or i will claim celibacy, i think that is the best idea i have had all year!!!!

there are moments when you realize that someone, somewhere has captured a night of your life in a song.  and then, you dont feel so alone anymore, because you know for sure that other people go through the same things that you do, and that is a very conforting feeling...

so, you should go listen to "how to save a life" by the fray...but i will leave you with a snippit...ok a little more...but still!!!



Step one you say we need to talk

He walks you say sit down it's just a talk

He smiles politely back at you

You stare politely right on through

Some sort of window to your right

As he goes left and you stay right

Between the lines of fear and blame

And you begin to wonder why you came


Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life


Let him know that you know best

Cause after all you do know best

Try to slip past his defense

Without granting innocence

Lay down a list of what is wrong

The things you've told him all along

And pray to God he hears you


Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

so, happy easter to you all!!!

we went to church and had the typical easter lunch...that was pretty cool...

john came for lunch cause he didnt go home (cause he's a bad son)...so my mom invited him over

and we had an easter egg hunt (the pictures) and our easter eggs were full of money...which was smart cause my mom spent much less money on cash than she would have on candy and baskets and so on and so forth...so yeah, that was my easter, it was cool i guess...except that i felt like i had two brothers picking on me instead of one...

yay for trees and flowers and ten dollar haircuts
yay for friends who drive you crazy and the ones who make you laugh
yay for new shoes and prom dresses
yay for text messaging and scientific calculators and ceiling fans
yay for sound machines and the real spring rain
yay for black because its cool enough to be alone
yay for digital cameras and emo kids
yay for cell phone and handwritten letters and your favorite teacher named stella
yay for new notebooks and princess stickers
yay for old bibles full of notes from when you were ten
yay for books and hugs and socks and hot chocolate
yay for being happy and not emo and not wanting to kill yourself.

_the end...so, i posted it because elizabeth thought it was funny...basically i sat in bed one night while text messaging/talking on the phone w/ a friend and this is the random stuff that came out onto paper.  some of the things stemmed from our conversation and some of the things are just me being weird/random...hope you laugh, or cry, or i hope you think im a complete idiot, because after typing this, even i dont think im completely sane.

MY SARAH MOORE IS COMING HOME TODAY!!!! and im SUPER DUPER EXCITED!!!!  granted, i have to work tonight and i dont get to see her until tomorrow....but she and brian left me the most HILARIOUS message last night that made me very happy!!!!!!

 

it was very very early in the morning...and i decided to take a picture of myself!!!     

the view from our hotel room, yeah, that was a winner!!

a view from central park, i think...

CHICAGO is probably the worst Broadway show ever...

me and my mom at Rockefeller Center!!!!

_ill put up more pictures later...like, actual pictures of me and friends!!!  lol 

LOVE YOU AND HAVE A GREAT DAY!

---------------DECEMBER---------------

This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible...
better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic.
Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient
and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with.
Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet
complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and
soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating,
tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny
and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone
always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to
make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of
person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music.
pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows
emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.

i have thin mints in the freezer....

yay for Siegel Basketball!!!

sorry, oakland, it really was an exciting season....

today, i fell asleep in class for the first time ever!!!  yeah, i mean, we had free time, and i didnt miss much...but still!  lol

this weekend was pretty much amazing....i can't say everything that i want to right now because i wouldnt reiterate everything that i want to, so, maybe tonight ill write it down and ill post it later....

if i had a million dollars, i'd buy your love

 on another note,  i was looking up the origin of my name today and it means captivating or bound...two very different meanings...

i shall preface this with...sorry elizabeth...(there are a few pictures)

today, i am going to a singles only party at my friend genna's house...and i was asked to bring a finger food...and i couldnt think of a good finger food, so, i went to Kroger and came out with this....


pillsbury's "ultimate dessert kit"


so i wisked the bundle of chocolate goodness together 75 times!!!


then, me and tyler licked the bowl (raw eggs dont really matter)


and this is what came out of the oven...kinda like those cooking shows where they put it in and 30 seconds later...it comes out!!!!

so, this was my domestic act of the day...tomorrow, ill wash clothes!!!

_rebekah

mtsu just keeps coming up...and everything is falling in quite nicely...this is not what i planned for my life....but then again, im sure god has a different plan

so, i was painting my nails in fourth period (yes very "clueless" of me, but i was bored) and i dripped red nail polish on my jeans...

how do you get nail polish out of jeans?

_rebekah