k.so.
boy and i aren't gonna work.
at least not right now.
so. i'm single. staying that way.

i'm not here to be around.
and be that girl that you forget about.
cause all i want is just to be a song.
that you can feel longer than just right now.
so come on baby let me be the girl.
that you can count on to rock your world.

then you'll see that you and me belong.♥♥

yeah.
i just overhauled my closet and dresser.
and took out all my old old clothes.

it made me sad.
because i found things that i had worn.
when i went out with certain boys.
yeah. i know. i'm stupid.

but. anyways.

i'm done now.



she's cold and she's cruel.
but she knows what she's doin.<33

ah. so. new boy.
amazing beyond reason.
<3.
yeah. it's good.

v for vendetta=favorite movie ever.
it was amazing.
k.so. the blowing up and whatever was cool.
but. what the movie was saying was the point.

"there is no such thing as coincidence,
just the illusion of coincidence."

"this is the most important moment in
your life. commit to it."

just a few quotes from the movie.




[moments define love].
ahhh. i love being 16. at times.
things seem so trivial.
yet they are so very simple.
i think we tend to make our lives
more complicated than necessary.


oh. of course we do.
but it makes it fun right?

yessir.

today started out horrible. but progressively got better.
i love all my friends. i swear. they put up with my worst moods.
and make me smile.

i'm a sweet talker. i'm a pipe layer.
imma sweat you out your weave.
i'm a back breaker.
i'm a gentleman, i'm a mac playa.
i'm a dime piece layer, smooth operator.<3

hha. that song. ohh gosh.
[mm. boy still makes me smile.]
i know i know.
so anyways.
i ran today and it hurt so bad but it let out a lot of my stress.
so instead of being a butthead to everyone. i just ran.
it felt hella good.

k. so.
i'm donee.

<333

so here starts a brand new year.
one that does not involve justin.
whatsoever.
.<3

so. i've started running again.
and i feel so much better because of it.
it's a serious stress reliever.

<33

meet josh. [please excuse the look on my face. i was being dumb]

this is the boy.
yeah. :-).
he makes me happy.

thought i'd post a picture.
just because. i can.
that's right.

k.so.
i'm not single anymore.

3-16-06.
<3

just for the record. the weather today.
is slightly sarcastic  with a good chance of.
a. indifference or
b. disinterest.
in what the critics say.[panic!atthedisco]

tonight should prove to be interesting.
boys trust shall be tested. as well as some peoples
maturity level. and my own judgement.
oh. the traumatic deals of highschool.
i can't wait until it's all over.
this needs to be settled.
although i can't lie, i'm slightly terrified of the outcome.
only slightly.

<3

smile for me daddy.
[whatcha lookin at?]
i wanna see ya grill
[you wanna see my wha?]
yeah. ya grill, yeah yeah, ya grill.

ohgees.haha.♥♥

i don't want to be just the girl you love to kiss. 
i don't want to be just the girl you run back to.
& i don't want you to fall back on me.
 i want to be your one and only...
your first choice... & the girl you're scared to leave.

so. i'm exhausted.
and thrilled that i only have two days of school
left in this week.
friday=dying my hair.
that makes me happy.
saturday is going to be a good day.
as well as sunday most likely.
i honestly can't wait till this weekend.
i'm really excited. pathetic, i know.
i think when he gets back.
i'm gonna ask him to help me burn some pictures.
some old letters.
some memories that i need to get rid of.
because it hurts to much to have them so close.
and i need to leave them behind.
i think that's what i'll do.
we'll have a fire and we'll watch my past burn.
and create new memories.
that sounds like a plan.<3

she diagnoses herself with indecency and anxiety
at least it's an excuse for her clothes being to tight
and the way she feels alone in a room full of people that she hates.
maybe someday she'll wipe off all the heavy make-up.
let someone in and see her hideous tears.
as they stain her pillow at night
while every morning the shower rinses them away.

ohmanohmanohman.
new hair?
for sure.
put a new pic on my profile so you guys
can see it.
i<3it.



lovve.

i close my eyes.
and for once.
i feel like i am happy.
<3