Yeah this position of mine
It hasn't changed... seems hours..
But I'm doing just fine..
Though my thoughts are on their 21st round
I think I'm alright...
the view of watching you leave has not changed...

what went wrong?
What went wrong?
just tell me's all i ask...
i feel if i loved you so much
it's a right i have to know...

and i sit for a few moments
of my everyday..
just to think of your smile
and wish you were here today..
though i haven't heard a word nor seen a sight
I pray one day all will be alright again..

what went wrong?
what went wrong?
should i have known it all along..
that the world had turned..
and left me here dying...

i wish it be known i don't need you
i want you, cause you seem to make life right
i want you to know that i did nothing wrong
and i'll stand by that... and i'm still loving you strong
just come back please, oh God, I beg you please
bring her back.. bring her back... bring her back......

i don't need you, but i want you here...
you make me smile from ear to ear
make me feel the way i want to feel
oh where did that go....
oh where did that go....

I want to see you..
I want to hear you..
I want to feel you..
I want you here or me there...
I want you back...
I feel pathetic...
And I have no idea what to do or what happened....
I have too big of a heart to give up...

Don't listen to that chilling voice..
The one who says it's over...
The minute you give in...
Only then is it done...
Keep fighting til' you know with your eyes
There's no more to be done...

I never believed the saying
Nothing is perfect
But for a while I believed I'd found
The dividing factor...
But while it doesn't amount to a waste of time
It ended in painful defeat and confusion...
I'd go back there now if I could..
If anything to try and change what happened.. if I even could...
Who knows if it was inevitable...
Maybe I wasn't ready... maybe YOU weren't..
I'm not angry but saddened that the great time I spent with you
Had to end....

Well Murfreesboro, so long.... for now.....

Henry is a stuffed animal that stands at about 2 1/2 inches and is about 6 inches long.  He is a skunk with a bushy tail, and a nose you would die for.  He stands in a room I've never seen or been in, as protection from a cat who once tried to tear him apart.  I bought this for you the weekend of our first week because I thought you were amazing.. I saw him in the gift shop of the Henry Horton hotel and just had to buy him.  After being chased by an actual skunk while talking to you.. it was the only choice.

For a month and twelve days, you were my rock.  With my life moving so quickly, I knew I could call you for just a moment to relax.  And now you're gone.. I know not entirely what went wrong.  I'm hurt and confused and constantly going back and forth on what i should do next..

You say it's not my fault and that everything was going fine..  You said we'd be together for a while and that you couldn't imagine breaking up with me.. Nor I you..  So now I sit and ask,"What Happened?"

I'm still crazy about you.. and I still hope for the best... But as I sit here at this early morning hour.. I ask myself,"Will I ever get to hold her hand again?"....

I know God will take care of it... But for the time.. it doesn't take the pain away..

Let it all out (get it all out)
Rip it out, remove it
Don't be alarmed when the wound begins to bleed
Cuz we're so scared to find out (what this life's all about)
So scared we're gonna lose it
And knowing all along that's exactly what we need

And today I'll trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
But tomorrow upon hearing what I did,
I'll stare at you in disbelief
Oh inconsistent me! ...crying out for consistency

And You said, "I know that this will hurt,
but if I don't break your heart, things will just get worse.
If the burden seems too much to bear,
remember...
The end will justify the pain it took to get us there."

And I'll let it be known (times I have shown)
Signs of all my weakness
But somewhere in me, there is strength

And You'd promise me, that You believe
In time I will defeat this
'cuz somewhere in me there is strength

And today I'll trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
I'll try my best to just forget that that man isn't me

And You said, "I know that this will hurt,
but if I don't break your heart, things will just get worse.
If the burden seems too much to bear,
remember...
The end will justify the pain it took to get us there."

Reach out to me, make my heart brand new
Every beat will be for You...for You...

And you know, and you know
When You touched my heavy heart, you made it light.

this silence is thunderous
with the roar of a storm
just bursting out my insides..
if nothing's wrong
then tell me why
it had to change.....
tell me that it'll pass
the sea will go to rest
and we can continue
to go on course....

Things could be a lot worse.........

Well  a lot has been going on in Aaron world.  For starters since it's right in front of me... I'm blogging from my fresh new laptop.  I'm enjoying it very much.  Um, I also got a cell phone yesterday.  (796-8082, for those who want it.)  I'm now sitting here contemplating taking of the US government... only because V for Vendetta has inspired me to want to.... not really.  But that was an amazing movie.  But I'm really sitting here with Cameron who's half asleep and listening to Pink Floyd simply reflecting upon the day.

As far as the girlfriend, things are going AMAZING.  I can honestly say I've never been happier in my life.  Sadly, I'm leaving soon for TTU and it'll be hard... what can I say.. I'm a hopeless romantic...

Well until later.... chow!

Hey guys check out the link below.  I made a video and am looking for feedback.  PEace.!

My Video!!!

This is for all those people who have never really seen me play drums.  This includes those who have come over to movie night and seen me mess around.. This is definitely me at the top of my game.. Check it out.

Me Playing Drums Here...

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Whither to waste In the hours it takes To feel sober...
Freedom today Will lead you to say That it's over...
Every day is the same or so we claim Cause of boredom...
So often we speak of changing each week But do so seldom...
In your eyes I can see all that you could be, But you're standing...
Sing the same old song, waiting to be pulled along like a lemming...
I hope one day we find it, just what we're looking for...

Perhaps the thought of losing your mind
Is just one of God's little signs
To warn you of what's to come...
Just building you up for the fading glimpse
Of all the greatest memories on your finger tips
Strengthening you for the end....

No I believe in things called miracles
And to say you're one is not just bold
But for me it holds the truth...
Maybe this heart, is just who I am..
You may not see, or not understand
But who I am, is surely me...

Hey guys,
this is a mini little art project I was inspired to do tonight.  I was fixing to go to bed when I looked up at the ceiling and saw the amazing color spectrum from one of my cds.  And the writing that goes with this just kind of hit me.. Anyway.. I worked hard on this and I really hope you guys enjoy it..

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"The Spectrum"

with every light's beam
a certain surface is revealed
and from its dark recesses
it comes out, unconcealed
baring all grudges, flaws,
and blood covered hands
revealing all dark secrets
concealed by man..



the light shines on us

just hoping we find the way
leading us forward
to the realms of a better day
and yet with path revealed
so many still turn their head
it makes me sick
and sometimes wish I were dead..


if only we'd just see that
glimmer upon His eye
that look of hope that'll
sometimes cause us to cry
maybe then, we'd all live
different, yet Christ-like driven lives
We'd all pray for our flaws just
to help all our fellow guys...

but no we just swallow the darkness
and so often say good night...
so many seem to give in
without a fight...
so many go on living
by ignoring what they know is true..
they're sealing their fate
to a non-desirable doom...

I say to you now friend,
I know it's hard, but don't let go..
sometimes the hardest fights,
show from within, what you didn't know..
I've been here once, I've been here
so many times before...
and because of it, makes me fight for
you, all the more....

oh, I know the dances each have their own
distinct and separate moves..
but if I can learn them all, then
I'm sure that you can too...
I've got your back, dear friend
just follow the path of light..
and I'll help you back on track,
should you lose your sight..

but this isn't just for them,
no, it's for me, as much as you
I wish for you all to join me
and how I hope it's soon...
just take my hand, we'll do it together
and maybe, as one, we'll come to find
That loving Creator, Him, The One
Who healed the sick, and cured the blind....

Hey guys, pretty bored.. pretty bored.  I made a website here for a favorite band of mine.  Feel free to check it out if you have a second, tell me what you think.  Peace out!

My New Website for Angels and Airwaves

If it says it's unavailable just try again later.  I'd really appreciate it.

Hey all... another song.. what can I say.. I must be really really happy!

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I'll let you go
though you know I don't want to
And I guess you'll leave
Even though you don't want to
It's only because
it's that time of night
Where the end must come
Cause we know that it's right
And because your parents
Said so....

I pray this moment never ends...
But when you're gone, I'll just pretend
That it never happened
No I can see you're still here
though It's not quite as perfect
And not nearly as clear
Oh, with time this will pass
And you'll be back in my arms
I just pray that this night
Goes by fast...

Won't you come spend the night
Just wrapped in my arms
And smile at my jokes
And give in to my charms
And tomorrow we'll wake
And together begin
That fresh new journey
To do it all over again

And when you dream...
Can you see me screaming your name
At your window at night
Just trying to get you outside
So I can take you away
To the places we know
The places we go
In our own little world
I'm thankful that God
Made such a beautiful girl

And so I sit here again
Just thinking of you
I look in your eyes
And I see that it's true
That you're heart is racing
Just as much as mine
I love you so much
I'm glad you believe
Cause nothing is better
Than when you're with me

Won't you come spend the night
Just wrapped in my arms
And smile at my jokes
And give in to my charms
And tomorrow we'll wake
And together begin
That fresh new journey
To do it all over again

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these feelings come like swift winds through a canyon
a paper cut to my heart
do i know what causes them, no
do they have an apparent reason, no
but as far as i remember i've felt this way
good one moment, then not the next
paranoid i'm all alone, and then on top of the world...
but atlast i've found someone that cares enough
to pick up the phone, even if it's late at night
and listen to my paranoid self...
God, thank You, she is amazing in every way.

This is a song I wrote for my girlfriend... Though it has no music... It's something I'm sure she'd understand about me.. But hopefully ya'll will like it too.  Have an amazing day.

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Everytime I have to leave you
I hate to feel this way
There's a feeling deep inside
And I guess it's here to stay
It's a hurting little question
I hope I never ask
Just a little sickening thought
That I hope comes to pass

  (Chorus)
What if this were the last talk
Or the last hug, or the last goodbye
The one last kiss without a chance to sigh
Oh, I hate this thought,
Oh, why'd it enter my head?
Goodbye means so long, so
I'll say sweet dreams instead..
(End Chorus)

And everytime we embrace
Another emotion is felt
That wonderful feeling
I'm glad I can't help
Oh your smile is magic
With that look in your eyes
I'll kiss you good night
But no, I won't say goodbye

(Chorus)

And if these thoughts trouble you
Just so you know
There's a reason behind them
that I won't let go
There's a reason I'm here
And a reason you're there
And these thoughts inbetween
They only prove that I care

No, I won't say goodbye
But I will kiss you good night
I like the thought
You're only gone for the night
And I'll see you tomorrow
While our love still goes on
I hope never to think
That you'll ever be gone...

Oh, I hate this thought
Oh, Why'd it enter my head?
Goodbye means so long, so
I'll say sweet dreams instead...

Let it be known,
How I hate goodbyes,
They end the moments
That take so long to find
They bring a close
To the nights of gold
The ones where laughter
Simply never gets old
Yes goodbyes are a killer
I'll tell you this now
But I'll be thinking of you
Even when you're not around

May I force you to smile,
There's no way you're alone
It may be dark outside
And still no sound from the phone

But I've been there before
It was sad, and it hurt..
Made me curl up in fear,
And then tug at my shirt..

Yeah, that silence was thunderous
The cause of my pain
It hit me like fury,
And then drowned me like rain..

It hurt just to sleep,
I swear I don't lie
I want you to feel good
I don't want you to cry..

Like I've said many times
I know just what it's like
I'm here just to give you
An inspiration to fight...

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If you have a few minutes.. Check out the video that picture is from... here.

well things go well, if you're patient enough
easier said than done, just like the rest of the stuff
but i swear it to you, if you try, can be done
just look to the stars, and your dreams can be won

but it's so much harder, than these words make it sound
don't be discouraged if you're thrown to the ground
just get back up, stare this right in the face
if you just give up, that's you're only disgrace

just put forth the effort, your heart, and your love
and God will come down, with strength from above
Sending His armies, with flaming sword in hand,
Sending our foes back to their own hellish land.

photo from oosnake45

Me and the lovely Ms. Carlton..

Let it be known July 4, 2006 at 1:10am, me and Rachel Carlton decided to date. 
I am the happiest person in the world right now... Thank God
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All rise, take your bow and then listen
There's a conflict brewing, the enemy has risen
But if we hold fast hope, and fight with courage
Our God will rise, And our enemies discourage
With a fire behind us, who stands a chance
Steady your shield, and bring your Spirit lance
On to battle we go, with a thunderous march...

Steady pace, but hold the line
Our God will come on His own Good time,
Just hold faith, and do not flinch
For even in death, to His Grace hence...
I will see you, when I get There...

for all who know or who care to listen
take a moment, rejoice, for the life you believe in
no longer a dream, but rather an answered prayer
a now found treasure, you thought was never there
let us shout with triumph, please stand with me
we're here now finally, where we ought to be
no longer on knees, to ask to overcome
the battle is over, and our war is won
yes stand up now, feel it in your heart
no more long nights to tear you apart
for we have conquered one and all
we held our faith, and He answered the call.