I just felt like writing.. This isn't really about anyone.. Just something that came to mind.  Hope you enjoy.
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OH!
I wanna say what I stand for..
I stand for the brightest looks
On the darkest days
Where you can't seem to breathe
But then air burst from your veins
OH!
I wanna stand for that
perfect smile that you make
When you look in my eyes
That makes me stand there in awe
And lift you up towards the skies....

Oh.. I.............
Could stand for all that you're worth....
Oh.. I............
Could make it worth your while
Just to put up with me
Cause I'm crazy for you

many know why... but i have been so excited here lately.. but anyway..i just thought i'd share how happy i've been recently... but to those who don't know the tale... i appologize... I don't live and tell..... mmmm...
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i can feel the growing chill
of the morning air blowing
through your hair
and catch the scent of
that suave shampoo
that i once gave to you...
oh if only you knew...
oh if only you knew...

if only you could see
what i believe
what you do to me...
If you could see this smile...
This smile that's in private..
That to darkness I reveal...

perhaps one day..
you'll see it all.

for the sake of all who will listen
let me give you a message
let me tell you what you've been missing
with a single breath I've felt the lightest
All my hopes and dreams
Have grown to be finish
For that everything I wanted
Has been given in an instant
And I feel my haunted
Dreams have passed
For I've drawn you close
And I hope we last
Yes, you bring a smile through all the tears
You've helped me to conquer
All of my fears
You've set me on fire, for once in a while
And you've really helped me through
In your own special style
And I Just can't seem to wait
Long enough...

I wanna crawl into a hole
With just myself and all my pain
With the blackness in my recess
Hopefully I'll go insane
Or have an excuse for why I get so sad
With no apparent cause
I'm sick of all the tears I cry
I hate to say I'm lost
Because for so long I feel just fine
But then the gloom, it comes in waves
Spreading through my heart and mind
Like shrapnel from grenades...
God sometimes I just wanna quit.

Oh with the love and the tears
Comes the pain and the hurt
That natural feeling that's
Nothing but work
Oh you think you've got it
Held in your grasp
For one second it's gone
And then comes a gasp
You're hurt and you're hung
Just gasping for air
You want them to know
That you still really care
But it's not really over, was just a moment that passed
Cherish each one, my friend, it could be your last

For you don't ever know
When it could be the end
She could say that "We're over"
And then never be one again
I'm just trying to help
You must understand
I've been there before
And it hurt though I'm man
I've tried and I've tried
to get over it, I can't
She's an angel at heart,
And I wounded the wing
But I won the girl back, A second chance!
And now sing!

i said it once before
and i still believe it...
that You're all i need
I swear i mean it...

Please... Look at me...
Let me see
Your eyes,
They shine
In the moonlight...

I need You now
I can not bare it...
I want You to know
I dreamt out all of it...

Please... See me through...
I need You
Your life,
It holds
Me still in love

Perhaps this is what I've dreamt for
Perhaps this is what I want...
Maybe You like it too
Me standing here
Reaching for You

hold me close I've
fallen amongst the stars...
I saw Your face
And it felt way too far...

Please... Look at me...
Let me be
All that
You'll need
In this moment...

true love isn't where
I'd always thought to find it...
it's deep inside me
and i'll never be above it...

Please... keep me close...
Do not fade
Your heart
It beats
With music...

Perhaps this is what I've dreamt for
PErhaps this is what I want...
Maybe You like it too
Me standing here
Reaching for You...

I think I'll find a day
Where all will then come true
Where slowly I can drown
Alone, but far from lifeless

with the sound of your voice
washing away all my sorrows
there's nothing to say but
will you be there tomorrow

can i look forward to the light
of the next coming day
for i'd love to see you again
for then all is okay

i'll say goodnight to you now
but count the seconds til' morn
for with you in the day, for
what else is there to look forward

with every seconds wait...
i say that your worth it
but with every moments pass
i feel every little bit
of the wait i've taken on...

i love you so much,
yet all the signs point to no...
why am i so stubborn
this i don't even know...
it's my gift and my curse...
to feel this way.

you know what it's like
to stand still for so long
to push against force
but you're only so strong..
when you look at the girl
with strength in your heart
but you're stuck here
just taking the hurt
for there's nothing you can do
though you think that you can
you go on with the pain
just to prove you're a man

i wanna say all those words once again
just can't tell you enough
i wanna prove all i say
just to see you lit up
and in the heat of your smile
take your breath away
and remember this moment
for the rest of my days..

Today the old life ends.. and the new one begins........

NOT!

Happy Graduation to all of my classmates.  And all of the class '06, from any school.  We earned it... now lets PARTY!!!!!

with a few words and a smile
my whole mood has been changed
like the world's become mine
and my first moves have been made
i'll sleep well tonite
with your face in my mind
with a smile, i'll wave
at all i've just left behind
believe that i'll wait here
believe me, i'll call...
cause you're just what i've wanted
here all along...

and now...
i'll sit and i'll wait....
it won't be too long..
i know that you're worth it
so my heart will stand strong...

I've walked through the darkness once,
If not a thousand times..
And everytime I've felt so alone
But tonight there's something different.
I feel it in my bones,
a rushing sensation,
Like i've beaten the world,
at it's own sick game.
And it's at times like this
I can't help but sink to my knees
Lift my arms, and I pray
The others feel this with me..

day after the day,
i pretend that all is okay
but i can sense it,
in the back of my head
something's broken away...

and night after night
i let it go on, like it's right
but i'm condescending,
by pretending i'm not me
with all of my might......

won't you come and see me
just stay behind the line
protect yourself and your friends
because the knives
they have sharp ends

and if it's too much for you
just go and run away
you didn't have to come
so you know you
don't have to stay

where did all the smiles go
they must have gone while i wasn't looking
i swear one day we're something
but my mind was left there cooking up
some lie for me

now i'm lost and i'm broken
and no sleep reeks from my eyes
and all the blue's been taken
from my once so pretty skies

don't you see that i need you
i need you
i need you
i need you.....

I can see the shore off in the distance
A vast blue ocean still lies to cross
But I can make it, I can feel it
I have a feeling all's not lost

I can see the sunset in my heart
An end to the bad, with a fresh new start
I can feel the passion growing inside
This feeling I thought I'd never find (and)

I'm on my knees, please hear my cry
I'm here and waiting for all you invite
Whether a brand new morning sun,
Or a starry sky on a moonlit night (it)

Means so much to hear you care,
The clear blue sky proved you're there,
Just don't let me feel it ever again
That you may have left me, deep within....

"Tell you of a girl that I saw, I froze in the moment and she changed it all..."
- Yellowcard, "How I Go"








Prom was amazing. Jaleah looked so beautiful. I can not even describe.... Well, first our group went to Opry Mills where we ate at TGI Fridays. That was amazing. While we were there we did not neglect to ride the merry-go-round in the food court. it was quite entertaining. then prom was awesome. danced with jaleah for about three hours straight. hm... then we came back to my house and the group played Dance Dance Revolution til' time to go to After Prom. That was okay, it got old really quick though. Then me and Jaleah just kind of hung out til' five in the morning. Hm... that's it.
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all it worked out
a great night on the town
all the friends they were laughing
not one wore a frown
and then as one
we all danced the night away
we stayed up til' day break
then most slept the next day
and all i can say
to the end of the night
it ended so sudden
and it just didn't seem right
the night was so great
i hate that it had to end
and to think i didn't get to kiss
the greatest date God could've sent....

i can't be as cool as you
i stay between the lines
the world could take a step towards the worst
and i'd still be standing here
though many follow blindly
i chose to stand and see
and how much i wish
you weren't one of the masses
and i wish you'd stand here with me
but i guess i'm not that cool

How far away one can seem,
When sitting under shoulder,
though you smile when you look at me,
in your eyes are all the tales,
and in your hugs, i feel,
the limpness of your arms....

what happened to all those days?
where we went through, as one,
with our caring friendship...
i do so miss it so
I'm left here to sit here with you,
wondering where you've gone....

what i've said, it only scratched the surface
what i've done, i've done it with a purpose
though the meanings never clear
and the hurt is always here
i swear i meant all good things
and i hope you never will forget

it seems once again, i lay here bleeding
it seems there's no thought behind my thinking
i feel i'm never gonna change
i feel so lost and feel so strange
seems the world has just broke me in
to hold me out and then drop me

though the fire burns inside of me
that flame feels it could die
and if all my hope, should be blown out
well i guess i'll say good-bye..
well i guess i'll say good-bye..

i'll sing a song for you,
if you just sit and wait
let my emotions come and ring me out
just come and set me straight
i swear i mean every word i say
just give me a second
to make all of this sound okay

you know i love it when you stand
and look me in the eye
just to let me tell you that i love you
i love it when you dance and laugh
just to leave me here
standing in awe of you're beauty

please don't let me down from this...

oh my dear friend
what the hell have you done
you've opened yourself up
for the knife and the gun
you're asking for it
all the pain you don't want
i pray and i pray
all of this you'll give up
so you can smile for years
when all this is gone
and i pray and i wish
that you had never begun
to see it all as is
trying all that you see
i fear all my prayers
went wasted from me
and i can't help but feel
really scared to death
i pray that you listen
and i'm not wasting my breath

Hey guys wrote a new song for you.  Hope you enjoy!  Peace.
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"The War Is Over"
(verse 1)
so here they came - the sighs of relief
all is over - all that's left is peace
and there we stood - standing so proud
the cheers came - screaming oh so loud
it's been so long, i'm so glad that it's done
our battle's fought and the war is won
and everything's as good as it should
i'd have made it sooner if only i could
and

(chorus)
i love to shout it out
at the top of my lungs
the war is over
and life has just begun
here we stand ready
for the rest of our lives
and all looks well
across those clear blue skies
i can't help but think
that this is really the end
that the page has turned
a new chapter's began..
we're standing at ready
for the rest of our lives
as hurt is draining
from our tear wrought eyes...

(verse 2)
and there we sat - looking back at ourselves
at all the hurt - upon all of the shelves
as if every photo's - another anthem to all
that war is bad - that it's all man's fault
and it's all so plain to see
that it doesn't - solve - anything
i'm glad for the moment - it's gone and done
i just think i'd feel better - if it'd never begun
and

(chorus)

Cripple me stupid
May I think for myself no more
May you guide me through firey rings
And through my battles with horrid fiends
Please bless my abilities to strike back
And strike with a force that's mighty...

that's it, bring in the bricks
stack them up nice and high
stack them to block them all off
and so I can't even see sky
may i sit in my dark recess
may i sit here in peace
may i sit here til' doomsday
or until i'm deceased

just take it all away
all the pain that you've caused
may you fill all your emptiness
with meds and dry gauze
just leave me alone
leave me as myself, here in one
just leave me be, my friend
what you've left has been done....

Some may think that the worst feeling you can have
Is feeling all alone....
But yet again, would it not be worse
If someone had put you there.....