"Inspiration to the Souls Found Lost"

April 07 2006
When all is over and all is won
I'll look back to see your face
And say I remember when all was lost
When we both sat in that horrid place
To say life just sucks
Lets just run away
Lets escape it all
and then there we'll stay
But no we fought on through the epic war
And made it through, and we're there no more
So lift with me this toast to life
And live with me, let's say we'll try

No, I can dream
If you can dream
And I can say
What you can say
And I can feel
What you can feel
But only life can prove
That love is real

It seems today is just day one
And I can see your smiling face
And still I remember when all was lost
But we left that horrid place
Where dreams are lost
And hope is gone
Where all is said
And then never done
But we opened up our eyes to finally see
There's someone there to go through with me
Someone there who's not afraid to fight
Someone to hold you close all through the night

No, I can dream
If you can dream
And I can say
What you can say
And I can feel
What you can feel
But only life can prove
That love is real

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April 06 2006

And while you're gone I'll sit and wait
And worry all the time
Though you may not be mine
I care for your soul
My friend, my love
My breath, my life
Just know that I care about you

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April 03 2006
There's too many words to say
That you've heard many times before
I feel it, and I fear it's drawing near
The day you shall be near me no more.
I just pray before then you realize my thoughts
You truly understand what goes through my mind
And how I think of you all the time,
With a love that's of the most special kind
A kind you might never be able to find again.....
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Well I must have passed this spot
A thousand times
The carpet stares, grown thin
I guess when someone's in love
They can make a profession
Out of thinking about that special someone.

I can't help but feel you'll never understand
I can't help but think I'll be like this forever
Not to say my heart be wasted
But not ever able to love someone else

Only God knows what you mean to me....

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March 31 2006
One more sip from a cauldron
One last taste of what life brings
I'm so sick of always feeling like this
I'm breaking off from all my chains
I can't stand this silence ringing
I can't wait for it all to leave
I'm just contemplating what to do
You don't understand all that you mean

I'm thinking up all excuses
While covering all my bruises
I'm trying to see you here with me
Though I feel all I have is me
And I guess I'll make the most of it
Yeah I guess I'll make the most of it
Now...

The Mission

March 29 2006
Well it was
Cool and moist on a Tuesday night....

It was One in the morning
When suddenly, I had the urge felt to go...
I found myself standing beneath
Your window....
Standing with pebble in hand
Ready with the next one to throw...

Though found you were not coming
The thrill wasn't over
But away to home I had flown....
But not before, left evidence
A note beneath the angel block
Left of the door,
It'll be known......

I love you...

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March 27 2006
No one sees me cry,
In the corner,
You don't see me cry
Before I sleep....
No one sees me grab the floor,
Crying in agony
Before I weep...
Oh these tears fall all the time
And you don't know...
You can hear it in my voice,
I'm prepared to go...
Upon that hill, I swear I'll finally see
That all the peace was in the valley
While I sat alone, amongst the shadows
Of the forest..

Untitled

March 25 2006
And I...
I see your face when I'm pained
I see your smile when I'm weak
I pray that you're right here with me
When it comes time to wake
So life will be dreams once again

"The Thing's You Know, But I never get to say"

March 23 2006



There's the strangest feeling, it grew up from the ground
It grew to my heart, and from there spread all around
And now I feel that I'm panting, and I'm wanting to say
These words from my heart, if I can just find a way

To fight it off... This deep feeling of doubt
And start it off... Even if I have to shout..
Just as long as you know it, this feeling I have
I'm wanting to share it, and give you your half

Of my heart.... Of my soul
You can always hold it
Yes, you can always know...
Just hold tight.... don't let go....
I'll love you forever,
Yes, It's the one thing I know...

Untitled

March 20 2006


photo from oosnake45
Take the time to examine yourself...
look in your own eyes...
Are you dead, or grown up?..
Are you truth or all lies?..
Do you live what you say?..
Do you give or you take?..
Do you hide away in darkness...
Or do you stand up for the days?..
Do you cry yourself to sleep?..
Or laugh away your sorrows?..
Do your wounds hide deep?...
Or lie in sight to be seen?..

We should live what we say,
We should shout and proclaim,
What we all know is right..
Though none feel the same...
We should share all our worth..
We should share all our souls...
We should hide behind nothing...
And fill our hearts' holes...

Take time to examine,
what you think is the truth...
Cause we all confuse judgment,
while young and in youth...But it won't be an excuse for
Our lives when we stand....
In front of our Savior,
When we lie in his hand...
He'll guide us through darkness,
If we give him our faith...
But until that time he watches...
Just lying in wait...

We should live what we say,
We should shout and proclaim,
What we all know is right..
Though none feel the same...
We should share all our worth..
We should share all our souls...
We should hide behind nothing...
And fill our hearts' holes...

You're my Fortune

March 14 2006
I'm stuck in a place
Where my thoughts are all I've got
These feelings in my heart
Lead me back and forth, and not
This situation doesn't change
With every pace I take
It's something I can't let go
And something I can't make
Dear friend I hope you know
That I don't pretend
These feelings I have are real
And don't plan to end
You're like a fortune from a cookie
I just decided to keep
Something I hold dear because
You mean something deep
To my heart...

All I Have

March 10 2006


photo from oosnake45

Swinging from these rooftops,
There's but one thought on my mind,
I swear that I could never find
The courage deep inside
No, all my web is spitting dry
And my tears are fallin' out
There's but one hope that I have, but
Even it's been filled with doubt

No, maybe you're not the girl next door
But you're the one that's in my heart
Yes you - You are, My one dream girl
You're the reason I fall apart

Swinging from these rooftops
You're all I seem to know
Another desperate situation
Where I refuse to just let go,
Now my head is spinning round,
Though I never seem to lose my faith,
And with heart that sits as full as mine,
I'd say this love of mine is fate


No, maybe you're not the girl next door
But you're the one that's in my heart
Yes you - You are, My one dream girl
You're the reason I fall apart


I'd spin a web for you, my friend
Just to catch you
When you're down....
You always set my spirits free
Even when I
Wear a frown....
You always seem to make me better
though at night, I sit and cry.....
You always seem to get the best of me
But I don't wanna say goodbye...


No I don't want to say goodbye..
(You're all I have inside)
No I don't want to say goodbye..
(You're all I have inside)

No, maybe you're not the girl next door
But you're the one that's in my heart
Yes you - you are, My one dream girl
You're the reason I fall apart

free write!

March 08 2006

i watched you venture
the pass looked so tempting
standing tall, above waters
standing still, and there glistening
but little did i know
you'd reach the middle then jump
i stood and watched helpless
and my throat grew a lump
i wish God gave me wings
to catch you....

words from a broken boy

March 05 2006

I'm just a boy,
that's used as a toy
as something you beat up
something you chew up, spit out
and then forget all about
when you decide to grow up....
it's screwed up
i hate it
how i never seem
to get inside of a dream
i always tend to wake up
just when life gets good

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March 03 2006

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The Mask

March 02 2006

Your attitude reaks of an unshown problem,
One minute you're smiling, the next
"Leave me alone"
All I wanted to say was
"I noticed was you watching your shadow"

You laugh with the others but talk softly with me,
You once smiled when I rolled over to say hi,
Now I'm left with a sigh, a face that says
I'm ignoring you, friend
Go away..

I once recorded something
You were going to miss
You drove over and picked it up
I once could call you and talk about anything
Now I'm left with a dial tone


Dear friend
What hides behind that face of yours?
I swear I mean no harm
I wouldn't have run over in a spidey costume
For just anyone


I would not have burnt a cd
Of Jap-Pop videos for a monkey
Or for myself, but I did for you
You, who once laughed along with me
My friend

30 secs of rap

February 23 2006

this is just another day


you'll want to live to die


cuz you can't get rid of


all that lies in your mind


you wanna be free


but we're holdin' you down


you're eatin' your dreams


holdin' your head to the ground


keep eating and consuming


all that the world holds out


the hand that feeds


is really feeding your doubt


believe in your mind


and think for yourself


and don't worry about


the world you've been dealt

I had a dream last night (A Break from the Norm)

February 19 2006
Last night, I had a dream about a certain girl I know....  She was dancing on top of an ocean of calm water, beneath the stars and a low crescent moon.  Then I saw me, and I just seemed to be standing infront of the whole scene, watching her.  I heard her giggling as she danced, and she looked happy.  But still there I stood.  I watched her for hours, it seemed.  And then the scene faded away, and I was standing infront of an auditorium of people, with a spotlight on me.  And for some reason, I just started singing.  I don't even remember what song it was....  And after the song was over... I woke up..

The Book of Life

February 15 2006

What place is this?
Swear I've seen it before
Somewhere inbetween
Life and death

The bright light
I swear, consumes me
Just like I had never
Been at fault


If this is peace
What is Heaven?
I never wanna
Go back home
Keep me here
For now and ever
Never send me back
To that hell

What life is this now
The life I lead
I swear what is
This book of Life?

I claim, my life
Will never be the same
Nothing close to
What I was before

If this is peace
What is Heaven?
I never wanna
Go back home
Keep me here
For now and ever
Never send me back
To that hell

I've been here before
Somewhere between life and death
And this time
I'd love to stay

The First Step

February 08 2006

i could never imagine life spent sane
nor could i hope for a life of love
i can only walk in place
following all in front
could i please find peace?


in a world that doesn't care about the
Lives of anyone but themselves
I can only stare at space
Is there Someone higher,
Who will send us peace?


Come on, Come on
Everyone join up
We're taking steps towards
A Life, held up
We're making way
To a life worth living
Free from suffering,
And one that will
Never end...


I never thought I'd find me here
driven by hope for something
is it really there,
true, and does exist?
can my wrongs be erased?


i had this dream where I finally smiled
all was gone, but only for a while..
but even so, can i dream again?
won't you come,
please hold my hand?


Come on, Come on
Everyone join up
We're taking steps towards
A Life, held up
We're making way
To a life worth living
Free from suffering,
And one that will
Never end...


With You, (With You)
And only you,
I will never end, (never end)
Though I'll never really
Understand
You're were for me always....

A Day in the Life

February 05 2006
(instrumental)
I lay here, and wonder
Why even get up?
All my life's dreams are gone
Goodbye..
Another step should be
My very end
I hope you'll save me from
The pain of life...
I wanna know
Where will this go
This day
In a life like mine?
I just wanna see, my face again
And feel I haven't
Waste-ed
All my time........

(chorus)
Another day..
A-gain...
I need you now,
I need a friend....
Another day.. here
A-gain...
I need you now,
I need a friend....

(instrumental)
If I were To die
Here today,
I couldn't go to hell!?
No chance! No way!
I've always been the
Nicest guy I know,
I hold doors and say "Friend..
Don't Let Go.."
I'm so scared,
This life I hate,
I'm lost and I feel
So alone....
I just want to hold time
In my hand
Hold it close
And not let go...

(chorus)
Another day..
A-gain...
I need you now,
I need a friend
Another day..here
A-gain...
I need you now,
I need a friend....

(bridge)
Hold me close (another day..)
Hold me near (a-gain...)
I'm so alone (i need you now,)
This life, I fear (i need a friend)
Hold me close (another day..)
Hold me near (a-gain...)
I'm so alone (i need you now,)
This life, I fear (i need a friend)
(all echoish)

(instrumental fade)
Hold me close
Hold me near
I'm so alone
This life I fear
Another day,
In this life again...
I need someone,
I need a friend...

Untitled

February 02 2006

I stared out, upon a dark sunset
The light I saw, but with deep regret
As I watched it fade away
And with the disappearance
Left my smile for the day
And so I turned and slumped off
What happiness is there with no light in the world?
When all you had is stripped in the dark?
I swear it, you'd once felt something
Even if so slight.......
And I prayed and I focused
We smiled and we laughed
Perhaps it was my fault
And we weren't built to last....
but all I ever said was I love you

The Buttonbaums

February 01 2006

it's a damned of a lie,
and a dull one at that,
to say that Misses Buttonbaum
Died because of her cat...




why it's plain to see,
Just who caused such a horror,
Twas' her husband, Sidmund,
Who made the decision to floor her..




For you could see him,
Strolling the garden he helped to grow,
but long now he's trotted, and
He's traveled so slow




Only a fool could ignore,
The aura of his eyes glow,
And act like the "trouble"
Was nothing possible to know...




I say it again,
I've seen it coming,
At pace of a marching boy
Who's stands in front drumming




Slowly, slowyly
I watched it approach
Did I say anything,
No no, not this lonesome roach




For I never seek interest
I stay locked inside my room
But I laugh at the thought
of someone's own gruesome doom




Like a school boy for a girl
I idolized the Buttonbaum event
Watching daily for even the slightest
Of the Mister's attempt to "vent"




Nawing at my mind
Like a cat for a yarn ball
I could not help but let myself
Scratch the happenings in my wall




Though now I can not satisfy
the inkling of an itch
I feel that no nails
is but a price, or a stitch




it will not keep me
from seeing this show
no no no, this is an event
perhaps that only I will know!




Oh here it came,
The fist with the knife
Mr. Buttonbaum swang
And then murdered his wife!




The blood rain like
God's forty day flood
Then grew hard, to chips
of solid, crimson mud




Oh and then came his,
He took his own time,
Minute by minute,
He let the rope climb




Oh and his was much worse
Just like his wife
For he hung himself high,
There ends his life




Hanging from a fan
Above the remains
Of where our story
Started out sane




But little did you know
Just what would unfold
Amongst the lines
Of this story I've told




I sincerely hope
You have a great, fine day
Please don't become
another story for me to say...




Or maybe you should....

Girl on the Bridge

January 31 2006

Nameless girl,
Lit up on a bridge, Lost her mind,
and then fell off,
If only an answer
had sooner been found, perhaps then
She would've walked

But instead her doom was sealed
On the day that she was born
Where the idea to ignore her came to rest,
An ideal now long since worn...

If only someone had cared enough
Just to ask, "What's wrong?"
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Another day in my world
The darkness is thickening
All of these headstones
Seem to be creeping in on me
Let me know that all
Is not real
Let me know that all
Is okay
This is my place
This is my home
And yet I wish that I'd been found
Somewhere else
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Buhahahaha

January 24 2006

Pizza pie and chili burger
Chicken sandwich with a booger
I could love you but I love butter
I love it all, can I have another?????????????????

What the heck am I on?

i just post poetry : )

January 22 2006

I saw a canvas
it was left blank for so long
it became art, itself
Perhaps the image was me.
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I sing a song that knows no tune
Or popular artist
Or that will gain me fortune
But I sing it
With every chance I get
Because it makes you smile.
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