Nicole
Relationship Status
In A Relationship
Highschool
Siegel High
Interests
God, School (some what), intelligent conversation, books, music, theatre, shopping, road tripping with my buddies, chocolate, obviously updating my two online journals, dancing, singing, politics, mock trial, riding horses, writing poetry and stories, working on my scrap book, taking random pictures, watching movies, muddin, spendin what little time I'm given with the love of my life, trying to keep my life under control .freefever { This layout is from www.freefever.com/myspace } body, body.bodyContent { background-image:url('http://i140.photobucket.com/albums/r6/cwm1021/layout_bg/16484332_l.jpg'); background-position:Top Left; background-repeat:repeat; background-attachment:scroll; cursor:Default; background-color:white; scrollbar-face-color:FF6666 !important; scrollbar-track-color:FF0000 !important; scrollbar-arrow-color:FFFFFF !important; scrollbar-shadow-color:FFFFFF !important; scrollbar-3dlight-color:FFFFFF !important; scrollbar-darkshadow-color:FFFFFF !important; } table, tr, td {background:transparent; border:0px;} input {background-color:transparent !important;} td, span, div, input, a, table td div div font, body, body.bodyContent div table tbody, body.bodyContent tr td font { color:FFFFFF !important; font-family: "Georgia" !important; } td, span, div, input, table td div div font, body, body.bodyContent div table tbody, body.bodyContent tr td font { color:FFFFFF !important; } body, body.bodyContent, div, p, strong, td, .text, .blacktext10, .blacktext12, a.searchlinkSmall, a.searchlinkSmall:link, a.searchlinkSmall:visited, .btext, .redbtext, .nametext { color:FFFFFF !important; } a { cursor:Default !important; color:FFFFFF !important; } a:hover { cursor:Default ; color:FF9999 !important; } img {border:0px;} body, body.bodyContent, html {visibility:visible !important; display:block !important} div.msmnet{position:absolute;right:5px;top:35px;border:1px solid rgb(128, 128, 128);background:url(http://i140.photobucket.com/albums/r6/cwm1021/msmaster/fade.jpg) repeat-x 0 0 ;padding:0;margin:0;}div.msmnet ul{list-style:none;padding:5px;margin:0;}div.msmnet ul li{padding:2px;}div.msmnet ul li a:link, div.msmnet ul li a:visited{color:rgb(128, 128, 128);font-family:"Trebuchet MS", Arial, sans-serif;font-size:12px;}div.msmnet ul li a:hover, div.msmnet ul li a:active{background-color:rgb(128, 128, 128);color:white;text-decoration:none;font-family:"Trebuchet MS", Arial, sans-serif;font-size:12px;} MySpace LayoutsMySpace LayoutsMySpace CodesMySpace Backgrounds
Favorite Music
Kenny Chesney, Rascal Flatts, Keith Urban, Garth Brooks, Chicago, lots of 80s music, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Billy Joel, Little River Band, the Eagles, Lifehouse, Gavin Degraw, Tim Mcgraw, Rod Stewart, Cyndi Lauper, soundtracks to my favorite movies, The Beatles, Boston, Led Zeppelin, The Beach Boys, Queen, .38 Special, The Allman Brothers Band, Brooks & Dunn, Creedence Clearwater Revival, Electric Light Orchestra, Fleetwood Mac, Foreigner, Jimmy Buffett, Kansas, Stevie Nix, Peter Frampton, The Rolling Stones, Steppenwolf, Steve Miller Band, Three Dog Night, ZZ Top, Don Henley, The Doors, Eric Clapton, Reliant K
Favorite Movies
Tombstone, The Cutting Edge, Real Genius, The Princess Bride, National Treasure, Dragonheart, Dirty Dancing, Roadhouse, James Bond Movies, Pirates of the Carribean, Blues Brothers, Pretty in Pink, Disney Movies, Romancing the Stone, Jewel of the Nile, Merlin, Dragonheart, Next of Kin, Top Gun, Harry Potter, The Replacements, Band of Brothers, Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe, Hook, Patch Adams, Field of Dreams, Lethal Weapon 1-4, The Adventures of Buckaroo Banzai, The Longest Day, Ghostbusters 1 and 2, So I Married an Axe Murderer, Stripes, Back to the Future, School of Rock, Stealth, League of Extraordinary Gentlemen, Young Frankenstien, Men in Black, Men in Black II, El Dorado, Rio Bravo, Rio Lobo, McClintock, Gone with the Wind, The Quiet Man, The Cowboy Way
Favorite Books
Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, The Hobbit, The Simarillion, Inkheart, The Princess Bride, Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Band of Brothers, Eragon, Common Sense, Pride and Prejudice, Arthurian Legend, Xanth novels, Chronicles of Narnia, The Go-Between, Dragonriders of Pern, Green Rider, Sherlock Holmes, Lolita, Manga, Phoenix and Ashes, 1984, Animal Farm, Fahrenheit 451, Little Women, Anne Frank's Diary of a Young Girl, The Picture of Dorian Gray, Frakenstien, To Kill a Mockingbird, Hamlet, Gulliver's Travels, A Goddess is a Girl's Best Friend
It's with a heavy heart...
September 15 2006
that I watch him walk away again.
OK so Kenny showed up yesterday because he's moving to VA and passing through TN on his way through. And I tried to smile and tell him how happy I am to see him, but I know he's leaving in the morning and I won't see him again for a while. It takes all the strength I've got just to keep from crying. I must seem like the biggest wimp in the world but sometimes I have to just get by the best I can, and run to hide before he sees the tears. I love him so much it's not funny, and it's so hard to watch him go. Part of me wants to scream for him to come back, just to stay with me, and part of me, the smart part I guess, knows better. I've learned over the past six months that in order for this to work I'm going to have to be very strong and have a lot of faith.
I was happy to see him, thrilled really, but it didn't show the way I wanted it to. Instead I was sad, and once again thinking too far ahead and not living in the moment, I kept seeing him leaving. I wish I weren't like that, I really do. Because I'm going to miss so much if I don't. And I don't want to miss anything anymore. I want to be able to say that I lived life to the fullest, no matter what that means. I want to enjoy the time I get to spend with him, instead of thinking about what will happen next. I want to be the person that I should be.
Yeah I know, two of "those posts" is a bit much, but I'm just in one of those moods.
OK so Kenny showed up yesterday because he's moving to VA and passing through TN on his way through. And I tried to smile and tell him how happy I am to see him, but I know he's leaving in the morning and I won't see him again for a while. It takes all the strength I've got just to keep from crying. I must seem like the biggest wimp in the world but sometimes I have to just get by the best I can, and run to hide before he sees the tears. I love him so much it's not funny, and it's so hard to watch him go. Part of me wants to scream for him to come back, just to stay with me, and part of me, the smart part I guess, knows better. I've learned over the past six months that in order for this to work I'm going to have to be very strong and have a lot of faith.
I was happy to see him, thrilled really, but it didn't show the way I wanted it to. Instead I was sad, and once again thinking too far ahead and not living in the moment, I kept seeing him leaving. I wish I weren't like that, I really do. Because I'm going to miss so much if I don't. And I don't want to miss anything anymore. I want to be able to say that I lived life to the fullest, no matter what that means. I want to enjoy the time I get to spend with him, instead of thinking about what will happen next. I want to be the person that I should be.
Yeah I know, two of "those posts" is a bit much, but I'm just in one of those moods.
