I'm sad.
He has left me again, and, even though I have this great news and stuff, I'm going to cry. I mean I finally find out the answers and discover that it's all turning out the way I wanted to, but he's in Arizona and I'm in Tennessee. I love him and he's gone again and I don't know when he's going to be coming back. I'll be waiting here for him because he asked and because I love him. Wish me luck, not that I need it because I'm not even remotely attracted to anyone else. It's just going to hurt like hell and the only thing that will keep me going is the fact that I love him and I will see him again.

I'm really and truely happy.
Wow thats the first time I've been able to say that in a long time.You see crazy things have been going on for a while. If you've been reading this blog long enough you'd know that I've been having issues in matters of the heart for quite some time. Well today that changed. This guy who I happened to love moved away at the end of last year and he came back home to visit for a few days. Well he left today to go back and I'm really sad that he's gone but I have some serious hope now. What I thought was going to be a day from hell turned out to be an interesting and excellent day because I found something out.This morning I met him for breakfast at the KUC and I did my best to laugh and not cry. He walked me to class and we kissed and he left. He left a small note in my purse and its changed everything for the better. I'm not going to go into details or anything but let's just say that this guy:  makes me the happiest girl ever. And he's probably going to kill me if he finds out that I've put his picture on my phusebox. But its all good anyway.