Five GOLDEN Rings

Christmas is almost here! super excited. and today was soooooooo much fun. i helped gift wrap at the mall. and then i got some coffee with alistair and we walked at the green way and went to lifeway and found awesome cds. haha fun day. and tomorrow is gonna be even funner. time with bronwyn and elizabeth and Predators game.

tell me what you think

im open to suggestions. ( :

i take a break
step back from life
wonder if i accomplished anything
i look inside myself
try to read whats on my heart
the doors are closed
ill check my head
my head doesnt tell me what i need to know


its not done yet. i got a little stuck, but there we go.

im exhausted

bellringing for salvation army at sam's was today

1-4

now im gonna take a nap.

it was fun though. ( :

after the second one my brain was pretty much non existant. id say oatmeal.

the first one was physics: 40 multiple choice. of course you still have to know how to do the problems....i just started taking numbers and dividing or multiplying til i got an answer choice.

and second was english.oooooooooooh man this one almost killed me. 10 identifications, 10 vocab words(you had to give the definition), and 2 essays.

and this weekend i have to finish my senior research essay and chaucer essay as well as study for pre cal and spanish III, what fun

plus bell ringing for salvation army which will hopefully be fun. at least it wont be freezing.

i was gonna do some corrections on my big english essay tonite. but i just didnt feel like it. at least i looked over it right?

its due on friday. ill do it tomorrow night. its not much...

id say half an hour

plus at least an hour for studying for midterms. haha.

ive gotta stop this procrastination thing.

maybe i should actually update on this thing.

i donno if anyone actually still reads it, but oh well.

hmm so right now im listenin to thousand foot krutch. yay

i want time to speed up. the only problem with that is that means midterms gets here faster, but that also means break gets here faster.

1st day of midterms is this friday.

physics and AP english. my brain is gonna be mush. prolly by the end of physics...

sat-bell ringing at sam's for salvation army. im gonna freeeeeze

mon- pre cal and spanish III

tues- economics and art IV

and then....BREAK

wed-helpin with wrapping at the mall.

thurs- hangin out with bronywon and elizabeth AND THEN goin to a preds game. haha im excited.

and that concludes my pointless entry

thank you and good night

stuff is pretty crazy right now

i got accepted into mississippi state university

and....i got a scholarship from there. yay!

so thats exciting.

and then theres senior year which is like a roller coaster.

craaazy. haha

I had lost faith in you

And I could see that you were losing it too

I tried to hold on

But you just kept getting farther away

 

I saw you today

And that faith was renewed

I was able to stop the feud

Inside myself

 

I see that I still have you

And I know that youll be there for me

Even when it seems ive lost you

Youll come back.

You know that Im here for you

I will do all I can to make things better

How bout I write you another letter?

Theres one for every day of the week

And this is what it says

 

I need you today

I missed you today

Don’t stray too far

And come back to me

so tonite was the soccer banquet.
i realized i didnt want to leave these people
but i also know that i need to get away from tennessee out into the world
i need to experience things.
i cant stay sheltered my whole life.
i need to move away from my parents
away from the rest of my family
away from my normality
into somthing new
unknown.
we'll see what the future brings.
now im  going to sleep. haha
night.

Hope you all have a wonderful monday and week!

ABSOLUTLY AMAZING

so....
after church (prolly bout 7:30 or so)
me+Andrew+Elizabeth
went to GO USA and...
PLAYED PUTT PUTT
(we wernt all that great at it sooo we kinda cheated)
yeah. even mr.putt putt master who cant even keep the ball in the course. (he hit a tree, poor tree)

After Putt-Putt
We went to the mall and it was closing
so we went to Out Daily Bread and i got an irish cream frap.
that got me incredibly hyper
so then we walked around the mall
and ended up at American Eagle.
So elizabeth and i sat on a bench quoting Foster's
as andrew was in american eagle.
Around 9:05 we left the mall
by this time im incredibly hyper
and we go to...
WALMART
where we walk around and goof off.
yup fun stuff right there.
So then about 9:45 we decide to go to hastings
so we drive over there
and here...
i crashed.
almost fell asleep in the instruments section.
haha
we stayed at Hastings til it closed at 11.
and then elizabeth and i dropped andrew off at his house and went back to my house where elizabeth got her car and left.
and that my friends, is my amazing night.

TONS OF FUN!

first...

teresa and celia and i went to chickfila and jess was working so i got to see him. ( :

then we went to the football game

and walked around and danced crazy

and took fun pictures.

yep fun.

most of the people are from tennessee- it just makes it better

you can send messages without stupid gliches

you can have as many pictures as you want

you can make awesome groups

you can have as many blogs as you want

so really phusebox is better.

if you could have music and background phusebox would be perfect.

myspace is stupid.

the end.

p.s. feel free to leave another reason OR defend myspace.

have fun. ( :

I can’t describe this feeling

My heart jumps into my throat with every thought of you

Every time I’m around you, I have butterflies fluttering in my stomach

I lose my thoughts, I can not think.

With every glance at you my cheeks turn pink

I stare into your eyes

And try to find some truth

To this question which I ask myself

In your eyes I see the truth

In your eyes I feel calmed

And I don’t know what to do

Cuz I think I love you

But in the end it will never work

In the end its all for naught

In the end

I see myself fall farther in your eyes

And I cant describe this feeling

Theres nothing else to say

trail blaze tomorrow that means i get out early. ( :

and then homecoming is next week

lookin forward to that

so dressing up EVERY DAY. cept for maybe the 80's day. but i already have the poodle skirt out for monday. haha

yeah i know what youre thinking...im a dork.

i agree.

half days rock!....nuf said.

warm coffee- nothing happens to me. i think the warmth in the coffee counteracts the caffine thing...

cold coffee (frappaccino)-  BE AFRAID, BE VERY VERY AFRAID. haha my hand is shaking while typing.  heeheehee

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!! HYPERNESS ROCKS.

stupid homework!

Blackman lost against riverdale 41-7 or somthing like that.  but at least our freshmen killed riverdale last night 41-0. ( :

and have i mentioned how happy i am that its a 3 day weekend?

ok so school has been crazy busy.  lots of work outside of school. plus theres soccer. soccer practice monday through friday unless theres a game that day. and then saturday soccer with some other friends. so i have soccer practice tomorrow night cuz we have a game on monday. so im practicing on a sunday. well anyway thats an update. not a very good one, but its better than nothing.

k so i wrote this a couple days ago. ive been writing a lot recently....anyway, check it out.

no one can see these tears ive shed

in this secret life ive lead

so ill hide behind smiles once again

and pretend like it never began

ill keep my emotions locked in a box

in my heart that should never be ungaurded

because if its ungaurded then i can feel pain

and so i will hide behind these smiles

and hope that tomorrow brings a real smile to my face

until then, sleep tight

and hope that you might

be able to laugh once again.

what is there to say about school?  went today. got my schedule. have to get my schedule changed since i have 2 arts and no physics.  the teachers seem pretty cool. i have no great dislike for any of them. and actually think ill enjoy a lot of my classes.

i dont have to baby sit today. so thats a good sign. unfortunatly i have nothing to do since the people i was plannin on doin somthing with either couldnt or canceled on me.  so right now im just sittin here. maybe ill go to target or somewhere just outta the house. i donno.

soccer practice today at 4.  not sure if im lookin forward to it today or not. we did suicides yesterday. which actually i dont mind much.

remarks please?

edit: ok so i just got a call from the air force tryin to recruit people and i must say im actually considering it.  i mean you dont have to go across seas right? there are things to do in the united states right? and they pay for all of college which would be a big help.  and i could work in architecture. i just dont know. its a possibility....anyone know anything about the air force that could help me? 

remarks still wanted.

how can you hurt someone so much without meaning to and then not even know what you did?

how is it that you can make me cry?

y should all this pain be here?

i hate this.

why do you make promises you cant keep?

why do you make promises you wont keep?

why does it still seem i cant get you out of my head?

why is it possible that i love you?

why?

edit: on another note, im pretty sure that im going to go insane.  we're gettin a new roof that people are putting on right now and the hammering is driving me insane.  theres no peace. and right when its quiet and you think you get peace, it starts again. 

k, so i posted this on my myspace and liked it so i decided to put it on phusebox. I worked really hard on this even if it doesnt look like it.  feedback is appreciated:

Im on the outside of my mind

Trying to see into the inside through a frosted window

I look for a door but theres not one in sight

Through the window I see movement

Is this me?  I take one more look

 

There are all these emotions flying around

And I cant seem to stop them

I try to get rid of them

But they just come back in the end

 

Im on the outside of my heart

Trying to see through all of the shields

That ive put up

I try to follow my heart but I cant hear what its saying

In the end

 

Im trying to find myself

But I cant seem to find myself

Through all these layers

Which are real?

 

But ill find myself eventually

Oh ill find myself eventually

Cuz ive got you.

i had a dentist appointment

went to the mall to try on some jeans so we could quickly purchase them tax free weekend.

got happiness in a cup (irish cream frap.)

and came home

needless to say....my ankle is killin me.