to the zoo!

i only have 7 days left and im home for the summer...-kels

i just gotta say to all my hommies out there that i miss you all so so much..as soon as i get back lets have a party...alright?

kate me bailey and bianca

so the mall today was fun.. i spent too much money in the usual place and had a blast with  bianca and sasha!


sasha is so awesome..

dresses and new shoes..

katie bug and the kelsinator!

..anyways..today was great, fun times at the mall...chinese food..and a nice concert to top it off in new clothes..:-)

love you-kels
 

we are leaving for opry mills at 10 45.... sooo if you have nothing to do today you should comce visit me!...ill have my phono

1st pic is of sasha me ans kate..the 2nd is a drawing i did in class today ...we only had about 15 minutes..live models are fun stuff..the last one is of ben frederick being a photo nerd..tonight was fun stuff..

im starting to get to know people and we are all getting used to eachother.. i uploaded a ton of pictures ..so check em out!..love you-kels

Wether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it" Isaiah 30:21


..well its been a good day, ive been spending a lot of time painting and thinking...painting and thinking really go hand in hand...you cant really paint without getting lost in some thought about what you are trying to convey or just simply thinking about something that caught your eye..


sooo.... i need some volounteers to become snipers and destroy the construction workers that tend to use loud machinery that in turn tends to wake me up every morning...any  takers?
love you-kels

- sunshine
- charcoal
- pastel
- chalk
- and paint.. :-)

well...day two of the third week is almost over..we are watching a foreign film and then we have a "dance"...should be pretty fun.. im making everyone jealous right now with my moms homemade soup she packed up for me and listening to some ryan adams...
-kels

im sittin here in the library wondering what in the world i have to say that would grab your attension...something that will make you laugh or simply make you think...

i  guess ill start off by saying that i miss all of you so much... God has reeeally been showing me the huge importance of being surrounded by people that know why they are here...know that this life isnt about nothing...that we have a definite purpose. I  am completely surrounded with teenagers that have no idea what they really want...but they are also all very nice people..and i enjoy so much meeting people...its one of my favorite things to do..especially people that are so talented..

ive been so lost in thought today just about the people here that ive met and the people that i will meet throughout my life...and i dont want to sound pessimistic but so many of them seem so very lost...happy but lost...like they are searching and searching for anything to fill them up..also..ive been trapped in thoughts of rain..i know, that sounds kinda lame..maybe..but i love it..i truly do...the other day it poured down big fat drops of water...i watched them fall from the edge of a building until they landed on my face..so very beautiful..it rained only a few minutes ago..everything is cooled off and greener..and dont forget that my hair is soaked..

we had parent day yesterday ...that was so very surreal to me. it went by so fast..we walked through the gallery..i did a painting all for keato-burrito...my mom of course was like aww kelseey!!!...i think they all miss me:-) i was home for a little while too and mom made my favorite homemade soup and i packed up a bunch of it...had it for supper tonight too...anything is better than mcallie..ha. i didi my laundry...and layed on my bed with emily...she left for ecuador this morning and i pretty jealous..she will have been and come back and also be on her way to ireland while im still here at mtsu..how crazy is that?

so...something interesting that happens almost everyday here in the lovely mtsu library is STORY TIME..ha..its halarious ..our latest book was...Do Little Mermaids Wet the Bed?...talk about funny stuff...my friend john reads them to us..all he has to do is open it and ill laugh for 10 minutes straight..i put up a picture of him reading..

all in all governors school is an amazing experience...very mind opening... new fresh outta college teachers that are pretty awesome..new friends..and lots of junk food and dance parties:-)  love-kels

but only for a while...

i uploaded some pictures of my crazy governors school friends...check it out!

i love and miss all of you..-kels

i thought this was so neat...its by andy goldsworthy...he does nature art.

he takes the simplest things and makes them unique

he let the rain fall on him..

fall leaves...

just thought you might be interested in something a little different from your typical art..:-)

write me a letter!!

-kels

hey everybody...

well. here i am in the MTSU library...its so weird being stuck on the campus that ive been on forever..but in a way its nice.. i dont feel like im in college at all..but hey its only day 2..

my schedule is pretty cool....i start my dayt off (usually) with a shower. Then i run off to the mccally (?) lunchroom and eat lots of fruit, because it atleast looks real..

then i go to the todd art bldg for  my painting class..i have my own little studio thing set up..we havent done anything much yet....just set up and played cards ..the art professors havent exactly made it here yet (they lack in organization- we go tour schedules today as opposed to the vocal and music kiddos recieving it the day the arrived..ha)...so we just hang out and talk..yesterday we snuck around the bldg and ravaged through the leftover artwork and explored any open doors..after that i wander around with many new friends...until lunchtime rolls around and off i go back to mccally..

after lunch i have "art appreciation"...thats an adventure...our teacher enjoys being enthusiastic and assigning lots of reading. im actually going to be tested and my grade will determine my college credit....ooo.

afer that we go back to our studios to paint..on mon. and wed. i have painting...on tues. and thurs. i have Advanced Drawing..so today was drawing...it was neat...the teacher was actually there for most of the class and we were given an object to draw every 3 minutes...13 total ..and had to fit it together the best way we could to make a piece of "aesthetically" pleasing art...:-)

after classes...i have suppa and usually lots of free time.. tonight theyre showing a movie..

love you -kels

Kelsey Shearron
Governor's School for the Arts
MTSU P.O. Box 38
Murfreesboro, TN 37132

packages by private shippers like UPS:

Kelsey Shearron
Governor's School for the Arts (SFA 111)
Middle Tennessee State University
1500 Greenland Drive
Murfreesboro, TN 37132


i think mail is much more personal and in my case more appreciated!

i love you and im gunna miss you -kels

long drive home today on 96 was perfect...60mph, sunshine, air, and music..what more could you want out of summer?

....well.

how about 5 weeks of doing what you love everyday?...mmmm hm. life is good.

-kels

so, i was sitting on my bed and it hit me that i needed detergent and hand soap.. .. half way to the store i forgot what i needed and went to hastings instead..ha..once again... procrastination at its very best...

Dear Chicago,
You'll never guess.
You know the girl you said I'd meet someday?
Well, I've got something to confess.
She picked me up on Friday.
Asked me if she reminded me of you.
I just laughed and lit a cigarette,
Said "that's impossible to do."
My life's gotten simple since.
And it fluctuates so much.
Happy and sad and back again.
I'm not crying out to much.
Think about you all the time.
It's strange and hard to deal.
Think about you lying there.
And those blankets lie so still.

The wind's feeling real these days.
Yeah, baby, it hurt's me some.
Never thought I'd feel so blue.
New York City, you're almost gone.
I think that I've fallen out of love,
I think I've fallen out of love . . . with you. -ryan adams...

3 days and ill be gone until july 15th..

i am the epitome of procrastination ...im wasting my time on itunes and phusebox when..

im moving out for over a month... (yea, that hasnt even hit me yet)

and i have to work all day tomorrow... that leaves me with saturday..ha..cest le vie
-love-kels

Took a walk with you
In the shadow of my shoes
Danced around the broken blues
In the dirty summer rain
Moonlight on the cars
Parked in single file at bars
With a thick and rosy smoke
Waving its busted hand

Bringing you down, can't bring you down
Bring you down, can't bring you down
Bring you down, can't hear the sound
Run through the river and into town
Pretty little moon with it's head hung down
Chin up. Cheer up. -ryan a.

--------------everyday has lyrics-------------------

what a looong day. i havent done anything...ive been thinking alot about governors school and i keep finding myself just wanting to go ..get there and be happy..just get away from everything.... all i did today was swing under a tree, listen to music, and paint.. . .summer is alright with me

Nemanjas goodbye party was so fun...especially when everyone was gone and the rest of us layed around on couches and played games...then..brian drove me to my car and we threw cheese at peoples mailboxes..ha.. and you cant forget reading the labels of aquafina bottles seductively..ha..

i think tomorrow morning at 6 a bunch a kiddos are meeting at cracker barrell to say some goodbyes to nemanja and brian...so come ..you might see me there (i dont like mornings)

love -kels

When they call your name
Will you walk right up
With a smile on your face
Or will you cower in fear
In your favorite sweater

With an old love letter
I wish you would

I wish you would
Come pick me up
Take me out
Steal my records

I wish you would

When you're walking downtown
Do you wish I was there
Do you wish it was me
With the windows clear and the mannequins eyes

Do they all look like mine
You know you could
I wish you would
Come pick me up
Take me out
Steal my records
- Ryan Adams

i love summer rain..i was sitting outside tonight and thunder started rolling...

keep on keepin on kids.-kels (heh)

i just want to thank Brian and Nemanja for kidnapping me today..getting me out of cleaning my closet and taking me to Marinas and a movie...:-).. i love you kiddos!


never put your soul
into someone you dont know
because when you turn round you see your frown
yet all the while a smile
you feign

youre drowning in this place
yet its all voluntary
what you thought you once loved
your partridge...your dove
is nothing more than a part time friend
...your blindness must be hereditary

its time for a change so you go all the way
only to find out that youre the stray,
youre lost in this world without a trace
of the light of your love...no sign of her face
her favorite roses...the sunset she'd say

ive been a bit out of place
...imagining things again
comes with the territory i guess...

-----------------------------------------------------

i can see the smile upon your face
all at once falling from its place
your image slowly fades from my mind
a symbol of the love you left behind

you pulled me in but you really through me out
you made me sure while filling me with doubt
youre the only one who gave me a chance
and now you send me home
yeah thats romance

why did you have to let me go
when only yesterday you loved me so
none of this is making any sense
was it ever love or only false pretense

you took my dark and turned it into light
you were the only one who made things right
you became my muse when i needed hope
and now you send me home
yeah what a joke



...a few words i came across...they rang true for me tonight
-kels

not only for his painting style..but ive come to realize that he had the right idea when he cut off his ear...mine are both dying..i have an ear infection..plug your ears with your fingers and youll have a good idea of how well i can hear..

so may 28th came and went much too fast...and im 17 and beginning my time on my actual 18th year..i feel like time is flying by..soon ill be living in a dorm at mtsu for a month..then comes senior year at oakland..

i had a good birthday.

keaton gave me moonstruck and elizabethtown
mom and dad- easel and brushes(which i reeally needed)..and new clothes
emily -sidewalk chalk, playdough, and stickers for my lovely car
grandparents -$
we went to shopryland (as my dad calls it) and then to the spaghetti factory..me and keaton walked around..came home and rachel swift, ron moore, and my grandparents ate lemon cake or chocolate pudding cake..mm. i hope you saw my sunset last night ..it was beautiful.

-kels

-oh and remember to pray for poor emily...shes dying in girls state at mtsu hah.

there have been about a million things running through my head these last few days..so much has happened..only two days of school left and all the graduations coming up..

it hit me tonight how every year i seem to get so close to the seniors and then off they go...im really going to miss this group so much.. tonight at church some of the seniors got up and spoke about their high school years and what they had learned.. brian king spoke about love.. and how thats really what it all boils down to. Theres also a quote that ive come to love in the last few hours that Brian shared with me..

"It is the intensity of love we put in our gestures that make them into something beautiful for God." - Mother Teresa

i just think that that is so true. i believe in great love and that love pouring from every inch of your heart is where you will find peace.. -kels


Let me say it, let me play it,
Let me lay it on you.
Let me know you, let me show you,
Let me grow it on you.
All I have is yours,
All you see is mine
And I'm glad to have you in my arms,
I'd have you any time.

..................................................................

My love she speaks like silence,
Without ideals or violence,
She doesn't have to say she's faithful,
Yet she's true, like ice, like fire.
People carry roses,
Make promises by the hours,
My love she laughs like the flowers,
Valentines can't buy her.

In the dime stores and bus stations,
People talk of situations,
Read books, repeat quotations,
Draw conclusions on the wall.
Some speak of the future,
My love she speaks softly,
She knows there's no success like failure
And that failure's no success at all. -Bob Dylan

jazz fest..
nothings better than jazz in the rain.
nothings better than laying under a tree
nothings better than coffee when youre cold
nothings better than the soft lights on the square
and nothings better than sweet sounds driving home


it was a nice night. came home and me and emily ventured into my old journals from the last couple of years..it was pretty hilarious reading through my old thoughts and just reading what i was going through or prayin about.
..its funny how unexpected things happen and you go back and see how things were before they had happened...

did that make sense?...

anyways ive been obsessed with an artist named madeleine peyroux..so heres some lyrics:

I go out walkin’ after midnight
Out in the moonlight
Just like we used to do
I’m always walkin’ after midnight searchin’ for you

I walk for miles along the highway
Well, that’s just my way
Of sayin’ I love you
I’m always walkin’ after midnight, searchin’ for you

I go out walkin’ after midnight
Out in the moonlight*
Just hopin’ you may be
Somewhere a-walkin’ after midnight, searchin’ for me

packin up the van with blankets and pillows...food and music.

im really excited about tonight...sleepin outside and such..

You got to leave me now, you got to go alone
You got to chase a dream, one that's all your own
Before it slips away
When you're flyin' high, take my heart along
I'll be the harmony to every lonely song
That you learn to play

When you're soarin' through the air
I'll be your solid ground
Take every chance you dare
I'll still be there
When you come back down
When you come back down

I'll keep lookin' up awaitin' your return

My greatest fear will be that you will crash and burn
And I won't feel your fire

I'll be the other hand that always holds the line
Connectin' in between your sweet heart and mine
I'm strung out on that wire

And I'll be on the other end
To hear you when you call
Angel, you were born to fly
And if you get too high
I'll catch you when you fall
I'll catch you when you fall

Your memory's the sunshine every new day brings
I know the sky is calling.
..........................................................................................


well...4th day being sick and i feel so gross. im sick of laying in bed.. BUT..

i have rediscovered that i have the worlds best - best friend forever and ever (BFFAE..ha:-))

Emily Windham brought me lilies today.. i think they make me feel better than the medicine does..

if you didnt hear about it...invisible children was on Oprah today...the three guys that went to Uganda were on the show..it was awesome...if you dont have anything going on this weekend..make sure you go to invisiblechildren.com and get involved in the Global Night Commute in Franklin..we will be meeting at the target in the cool springs area saturday the 29th at 8..

love-kels

i was just thinking
that i have been missing you
for way too long
and theres something inside this weary head
that wants us to love just instead

..i am sinkin, merrily sinkin.

i think about long distance rates
instead of kissing you babe
and if i wait for you longer my affection is stronger
but i was just thinking
merrily thinking



...the grandparents dropped in today.

i love my grandparents so much - they are so happy and so full of life... they've got stories to tell and everything they say is sentimental to me...

my grandpa has been diagnosed with Alzheimers... which makes me so sad..hes acting a little differently already.. keep my grandma in your prayers

-kels

so that last entry was pretty interesting huh?..chemistry class missed me...:-)

let  me paint you a picture of what im doing at "school" right now...the room is dark and the door to outside is wide open with a nice breeze comin in...a movie is playing...im listening to slowdive.. and writing to you.

i guess what im really trying to say is that school is a complete waste of time and i really would love love love to be done...yesterday i spent the whole day walking around mtsu...it was pretty nice. the art building was really fun, but (im sure ive said this a thousand times) i just feel  so at home there because i truly know what it is that i want to do ...i want to be a silly girl in college covered in paint ..doing something that i truly love..

ah. i guess itll come sooner than i think..but for now..ill sit in a spanish class, listen to music and daydream about where my life might go..

-kels

un jour la défectuosité connaissent votre puits de visage ainsi que ma brosse n'aura pas besoin de mes yeux

hey, i like pocketwatches and dinosaurs! I am too good to go to school today, instead i went on a field trip. I am cooler then everyone else in the world..

my name is kelsey

and i love shebelseys

my dog is hoot

and it looks like a boot

this is my rhyme

and now im outa time