shoot me..i'm in hellistry

November 14 2005

hey hey...im at school...bored to death by mrs. daniels in chemistry...why school?..im mean seriously...why am i here?.


anyone know  what a alpha particle is...me either....


-kels

...just thinkin..

November 09 2005

well look at this..two seconds to write!


soo monday i had a kelsey day or as my algebra teacher put it..a mental health day..i made spaghetti watched a movie and sat around in a hammock..it was lovely..


the fall retreat was pretty fun..i hung out with sarah, brian, brittany, and nemanja  most of the time...we had fun.. i love going there to new frotiers because its so pretty, and at night you can see ablout a bazillion more stars than you can at my house..what did you think of the t-shirts?..ha.



Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine -Aqualung


Hey Kid... Your time has come to change
Though I need you more than I've needed anyone in any way tonight
Hey Kid... I know it won't be long
The Captain's calling...come to see you back where we belong

Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this...

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me

Hey Kid...Do wishes count at all
Can you give me a sign...give me anything I won't tell a soul you told
Hey Kid...Will you hold me when I sleep
Will you find me when the tide decides that I got to leave

Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this...

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in your eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me

Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says there's somewhere better than this my love

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me

Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in your eyes
I can't say what I might believe
But if God made you... he's in love with me... - Firve for Fighting
(thats for you lauren..:-))


life  is good..ill write more when i can..-kels

Untitled

October 29 2005
will someone please contact my life as soon as possible and remind it that its too crazy?

its friday night

October 28 2005

im going to Lauren Nicdao's!!..woop itll be fun times ten.


i hope everyone has a good weekend..


everything, everything you mean everything... you mean everything to me.



fun joke- what do you call a cow with no legs?


-ground beef! ahahha


(dooey)


love-kels

fall!..come back!

October 24 2005
josh-I have a joke..
kels-do tell
its 5:23 and me and josh are bored and sick of homework:
josh-its lame
kels-keep going
josh-why do seeagulls fly over the sea?
kels-uhm, im thinkin real hard..well i just dont know..why!? why josh ? why!
josh-haha
josh-because if they flew over the bay they would be bagels!
ahahaha!

i liked it...i bet you do too.

i had a really INTERESTING weekend:
friday i went to see elizabeth town with josh - so good..
went to expresso joes..very good
went to the square.. ..
encountered crazy cults

sat- read history
hit joes again
went to laverne to watch noah and some kidos play hockey with emily- freezed my socks off ..

went to moes, tortilla soup..and predators won..7-0!

sun- dbs heart walk stuff...graysons funeral..very sad, pray for the gilleys please.
more history..

SO, yes, id like to know where fall went...-love kels

whatta day.

October 19 2005

Well hello again..today was, eh, okay..school is crazy hard, and im feeling a little overwhelmed. But you must know that im okay, because God is i control and ive got a great best friend(emily joy)and an awesome family..


have you ever had one of your close friends completely turn on you and stop talking to you?...or just be extremely rude..well thats happened to me..and i feel so sad..i dont know what ive done or didnt do..so yes..its disappointing..i dont like it when people dont like me b/c of what i believe..which im quessing is the case here.


Tonight is "Bad Fad" night at church..ha...you should see me..ill post pictures...but anyway ive got on  one heck of a crazy outfit!...high socks, scrunchies..the whole sha-bang..:-)


okay so..lyrics and im out..


dance with me, dance with me ..id love to feel you in my arms again


today was going to be the day they were going to throw it back to you, and by now you must realize what it is that you got to do..i dont believe that anybody feels the way i do about you now. all the roads we have to walk are winding, and all the lights that lead the way are blinding...and there are many things that id like to say to you but i dont know how...maybe your gonna be the one that saves me..after all your my wonderwall..(thats for you Lala)-Oasis


are you in or are you out.. leave your things behind cause its all going on without you ...excuse me but youre too busy writing your tragedy ...so let go.. let go.. jump in.. what are you waiting for.. theres beauty in the breakdown. -Frou Frou


LOVE- kels


something inside the cards.. i know is right..

October 12 2005
it was an okay day. life is good.

didnt do much except school..the psat was pretty hard..i thought..

well kids..ive got about two tons of homework so ..bye bye-kels

something..

September 25 2005


is so different...for some reason i feel like a new me..

i think it has a lot to do with God teaching me so much lately... annnd. . . .

something is in the air..know what it is?...its fall...

the most beautiful time of the year..and im so excited about it this time...something about clear skies and wind makes me so happy. Have you ever just wanted to stay outside all day and breathe in the air?...gosh i do...i want to quit school and draw and paint everyday..

today seemed so long!...i went to church and then to Dbs then to the drakes house and then home to finish history and chemistry and then back to church for Ron Moore.. and then home and then back to church because my mom left my dad..haha.waay too much.

Kingdom Come:
one.. two.
steal my heart, and hold my tongue
i feel my time, my time has come
let me in, unlock the door
i never felt this way before

and the wheels just keep on turning
the drummer begins to drum
i don't know which way i'm going
i don't know which way i've come.

hold my head, inside your hands
i need someone who understands
i need someone, someone who hears
for you i've waited all these years

for you i'd wait, til kingdom come
until my day, my day is done
and say you'll come, and set me free
just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me.

in your tears, and in your blood
in your fire, and in your flood
i hear you laugh, i heard you sing
i wouldn't change a single thing

and the wheels just keep on turning
the drummers begin to drum
i don't know which way I'm going
i dont know what i'll become

for you'd i'd wait, til kingdom come
until my days, my days are done
say you'll come, and set me free
just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me.

love kels

hey stranger.

September 21 2005
well id like to tell you about this girl i know that has no life anymore. all she does is homework and i would tell you more about her but youd get so bored..


so school pictures today.... she said something really dumb like "say chesse honey pie" and i laughed and realized shed taken it...oh dear..

the JOY of the Lord is your Strength. -Neh 8:10

love you-kels

coldplay..rilo kiley?

September 19 2005
was sooo fun..there were so many cool kidos there...im dead tired tho..traffic=bad gas=bad..ttyl-kels

woah,

September 08 2005
'A GIRL SHOULD HIDE HER HEART IN THE HEART OF GOD SO THAT A BOY MUST GO THERE TO FIND IT.'

*falls to the floor in amazement* -kels

(stole this from lauren the cool kid nicdao)

music.

September 05 2005
i just want to take like 2 minutes to say that i loooove music. i absolutely loove love love it. did yah know that?

i went to the Jars of Clay concert last night and it freakin rocked..they played some old skool stuff that i hadnt heard since like 5th grade...

OH and guess what?...im going to the Coldplay concert on the 18!..grass seats baby...and anyway heres some random lyrics..
...........................................................................................
There is no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
And no song that I could sing, but I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia tone loving

Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Why are we here and where do we go
And how come it's so hard -Jack Johnson

Come out upon my seas, curse missed opportunities, am I a part of the cure, or am I part of the disease -Coldplay

all i need is your love to come and fill this heart of mine my heart is a desert that has gone dry.. -Shawn M

Let's go and see the stars
The milky way or even Mars
Where it could just be ours -Lenny Kravitz

All i can say is that my life is pretty plain, i like watching the puddles gather rain - Blind Melon

its as simple as something that nobody knows..i remember when you and me ..oh we used to be.. just good friends.. - Jack J

Something inside the cards
I know is right
Don't want to live
Somebody elses life
This is what I want to be
And this is what I give to you
Because I get it free
She smiles while I do my tie -RHCP

ill sing it one last time for you, then we really have to go..you've been the only thing thats right in a lifetime. and i barely look at you but every single time i do i know well make it anywhere..-snow patrol

in a haze a stormy haze, ill be round ill be lovin you always..always..here i am and ill take my time , here i am and ill wait in line. -Coldplay

-kels


new year/new lilfe.. ..life?..what life?

September 03 2005
well im trying to emphasize the point that i have no life now that school has started!...im pretty much a living breathing study-o-holic...all i do is read history and do papers..but i suppose thats why junior year is supposed to be so hard, and maybe.. im a exaggerating, but still it is so different...

i went to Ems house and watched Sahara last night.. it was so so good. Matthew McConaughey is BEAutiful.. i also ran into to rachel myers at target...i like target. i got a skin for my ipod..and an icee..what more could i want?...heh...well i love you guys..

ps. keep in your prayers - Luke from paint the town he lives in Biloxi and i havent heard from him...hopefully he wasnt caught in the hurricane.
love-kels

duracel man

August 23 2005


photo from sarah

the joy of the lord is your strength. -neh 8:10

August 22 2005
that has been so true for me these past couple days..

God has really shown up in my life and has seemed to be in everything from a friends words to the sunset.

i dont want to whine, but my Junior year thus far is incredibly packed with responsibility, and tooons of homework..so if you think about me ..pray!

i think this year is going to be really good but its going to be hard!

i love all of you so much and im praying for you!
-kels

water leaks, relatives, and a tea party.

August 14 2005
so i come home yesterday from work at about 6 30 and im DEAD tired...id been workin since 8 am...so anyways..i come and hit my bed and in about .56899 of a sec my mom bursts in telling me that my grandparents are coming and that i have to help her clean the house..

so i clean till about 9 ish then i ate some leftover stuff and just as i was about to fall into that wonderful magical glorious bed thing.... my dad calls me outside to help with a water leak under the house....

so for the next 4.5 hours i sit in a light drizzle in the darkness on the side of the road with a crow bar waiting for my dads signal to turn the water off or on...

it was quite funny.


then after all that trauma i got up and went to the DBS mother daughter tea, it was interesting, my favorite part was the chocolate covered strawberries.

lol...

so school tomorrow..i really hope theyve got my schedule fixed..

love YOU.

eeeer.

August 11 2005
crazy crazy crazy school. (READ THIS)


well.

hmm......i have 2 chemistry classes and no english (is something/someone trying to tell me i have chemistry issues?)

ive got a bunch of awesome classes..the only one im reeal worried about it Spanish with the hebdon from L. ha

so new exchange student named- niutgkjshgkjfgdaskj...lol....hes really cool.


so Shawn McDonald is amazing...get his live in seattle cd NOW.

would you open up my eyes so that i can see?
would you open up my ears so that i can hear?
would you open up my mind so i can know?
would you open up my heart so i can love you more?
I wanna serve you my God, I wanna give you all of me

........................................................................................

you are so beyond me
and i fall down in reverence and in fear
im asking you lord to please draw near

All i need is your love to fill this heart of mine..my heart is a desert that has gone dry and i need your love to carry me high.

well here i go again.

August 10 2005
school tomorrow...eek

Rush was fun....i didnt get to be there for Cari which sucked..but i got Emmy...it was halarious..she was so asleep.

i didnt get home till 7 or 8- cant really remember..it was crazy awful to get up at 3 in the afternoon and have to drive to Nashville. I went with my friend David and his girlfriend..fuuun..anyways we went because me and David did a bunch of murals for the Country Music hall of fame...it was cool.. ..

All i Need is You Lord

so, yes, love you.



Painted The Town.

August 03 2005
oooh man. where do i even begin?...the Ny trip was so incredible.
God really challenged all of us to be "fluid" (taking on whatever happens knowing that Gods in control)..i learned so much about having a vision and going after it like a rhino(heh)..
i also got so close to everyone in the group..esp my asian lover and sweet rachel bonin.. so anyway i think ill just leave you with the funny memories..


1.hearing the words, "no air conditioning"
2.taking an ice cold shower and wishing id never have to get out.

3.watching cock roaches crawl around in the bathroom.
4.running through the sprinklers with Lauren

4 1/2. Uh, Kelsey dont touch the railing..you know homeless people pee on that" - Jason Thacker..hah

5.being so hot, and sweating from every pore ..woo!
6.Lauren getting stuck in the subway doors..and screaming..haha(STAND CLEAR OF THE CLOSING DOORS)

7.Me and Jonathan taking pictures with Duracel Man! (as he wrapped his leg around me..ha)
8. Getting completely lost in the broncs around midnight and not getting home till about 2ish

8 1/2. Crazy mexican couple going at it on the subway

9. Moving from the worst dorms in the world to the best...and thinking the toilet wouldn't flush at first...
**10. (just so you know this one wins #1 memory)
uhh..kelsey, ive got this doritos bag..thank goodness

LAUREN! gosh wheres the freakin DORITOS BAG?!?!?!

11.being drawn by some chinese people with jonathan..and seeing myself portrayed strangely(ha)
12. seeing joellen tharp in starbucks in Times Square..so random.



13.lookin snazzie with the ipod
14.falling asleep on jason and lauren in the subway

15.painting a broncs highschool bathroom...nastiness ...but then it turned out good and i painted flowers on the doors..
16.Listening to Shawn McDonald!

17. moving our luggage 8 times in one trip.
18.Italian ice stands

**19. riding around in a shopping cart in the Wal-Mart parking lot with ice-cream on my face.
20. joining the mafia and getting my first scar...the bloody eye of course...which became the joke of the week also.

21.the hair dryer
22.prank calling people all night and on the way home..being Mari Sanchez baby!

23. meeting soo many new people..from churches all over and people that live in NY.
24. hanging with the paint the town band, the destinations team, and the NHNY people in a meeting (stanley is officially the coolest).. i got to go to because i was asked to paint some canvases on the stage!

25.meeting charlie hall and worshipping in the Brooklyn Tabernacle
26. always knowing where to find my tough belle aire kidos- in the only air conditioned room haha

26 1/2. going down to L floor.

27.throwin down some sweet beats in the "prayer room"
28.seeing God MOVE!..and use every single person there to his glory:-)

sorry thats a lot but its worth it..love you -kels


New York...here i come.

July 22 2005
well guys ...im so excited God has just been blowing me away! Hes been teaching me sooo much about Faith and simply Believing him, and his great word!

have you ever heard the story of Uzzah??

Uzzah lost his life because he "reached out and took hold of the ark of God" (2 Sam. 6:6). He placed his hands on it with the best of intentions- to steady it as the oxen stumbled - but he had overstepped his bounds by touching the Lords work, and because of that he lost his life...

sounds harsh huh?..thats what i thought too,
but this story shows that - Living a life of Faith often requires us to leave things alone and let God work

if we have completely entrusted something to God, we must keep our hands off of it. And unlike us, he will work in the perfect moment.

"It is such a comfort to drop the entanglementsand perplexities of life into God's hands and leave them there." - Streams in the Desert

so yea that story is awesome..and it taught me alot!...so im going to NY on Sunday for paint the town....ill be painting schools in the Broncs and thats alll i know so far..ha...
love-kels

thunderstorms and dinner with dad.

July 15 2005
well i had a great day yesterday...my car is outta the shop and hopefully all ready to go...i babysat this girl yesterday and made 50 bucks!..then i got to go to another art class in franklin and modeled for them to paint($45)..then me and my dad went out to eat and just talked about all kinds of stuff...i love him so much..i think maybe, just maybe..my dad is better than yours..hah...

then all night i could hear the thunder outside...thats got to be one of the greatest things ever, just the sound of a storm..my dog doesnt feel the same way tho, she slept under my bed all night..heh


i think im going to the Y today with Emily.and then my mom and sis will be home sometime tonight..so anyway have a great day!
-kels

currently.

July 10 2005
Currently Watching: some fox family movie my sister left on..heh
Currently playing(Music): Miles Davis
Currently Washing Hair with:
Aussie..something?
Currently Hoping: That itll cool down while i go mow in a minute
Currently Working at: The Southgate Studious..(modeling for art classes)
Currently Dating: Single
Currently Hating:uhh...brokeness?

i havent been up to much lately..just been hanging out with em...weve begun to workout...heh...and im sore but yah know..

so anyway i hope that you have a wonderful blessed day!
-kels

Lena, Mississippi

July 06 2005
what a fuun 4th...i went with Emily W to Lena, MS where the whole town is related to her..which was extra cool...they have 125 total people there...they also have a Post Office, a tiny old bank, a library thats only open on Saturday mornings, and a small church...it was adorable..sweet little old homes and sweet country people!..heh...anyways the 4th of july is a huge deal there in Lena and almost 10,000 people showed up to see the huge firework show, i was impressed!...anyways..it was so fun..i hope yours was too!

remember that although there arent anymore fireworks in the sky theres always stars..:-)


oooohh man i forgot to tell you. Blagh, my car broke down on me..i know, how sad, but we think itll be okay ..it wont go into gears like reverse and park which isnt too good...pray for my baby!

mmmkay thats all folks.

just a little bit of something.

June 25 2005
"I should have liked to see the songs come true...But there, my friends, songs like trees bear fruit only in their own time and in their own way: and sometimes they are withered untimely." -J.R.R. Tolkien, The Two Towers



anyway..im off...i hope everyones having a great night:-)

much love in Him.
kels