Jonathan Wood
Relationship Status
In A Relationship
Highschool
Central Baptist School
Interests
Brittany, music, theology, philosophy
Favorite Music
I will listen to anything and everything but most rap
Favorite Movies
The Godfather Trilogy, Mission: Impossible, Unbreakable, A Beautiful Mind, The Departed
Favorite Books
Heart of Darkness, the Bible
Other Websites
http://clean.i8.com
Huh...
July 10 2006
You know, this is sad, but it really just hit me that I just finished my first year of college.
*pause*
I really don't know what to say. I mean, one year ago today, I thought that I knew what was going on, that I would be able to take what came my way and resist whatever temptations I was faced with. I thought that, surely, I would be the kid that would always stand for what was right. I would be the one kid who stayed with his high school sweetheart all throughout college. I would defy all odds and graduate as a Straight Edge (i.e. no drinking, no smoking, no sex). I figured that I would have a few friends (all of whom would be conservative Christians like me), and we would all change the world for Christ - converting the Buddhists and Muslims, showing the Gays the errors of their way, etc.
*pause*
My fall semester, I tried to fulfill all of that and ended up falling into the web of a half-psychotic professor for a few months. I ended the semester with a failing GPA, putting me in danger of losing all of my scholarships.
My spring semester, I decided to learn to work and have fun. I made many friends outside of the conservative Christian category (a few homosexuals, a Buddhist, and a whole lot of liberals) and within it...okay, so not too many within that realm, but whatever. I learned to genuinely accept people who believe differently than I do (I don't always show it, but that's mostly for my own enjoyment). I have smoked, I have drunk, and I have had sex. I basically became the antithesis of what I had originally set out to be.
*pause*
My point with all of this? I've learned that I can not plan who I will be. I can not meet every expectation I have for myself. On the off-chance that I had secluded myself, I would have been miserable. I never would have met Josh, Liz, Daniel, James, Wesley, or any of 50 or 60 others that I have come to love in the past 6 months. I would never have had to really look my fears in the face and not back down. I would never have made an impact on anyone as I have been able to do. In short - I would not have been who I am today happy to be if I had become who I had thought I wanted to be. For the first time ever, I can fully and honestly say and believe that I am happy to be me.
*pause*
I really don't know what to say. I mean, one year ago today, I thought that I knew what was going on, that I would be able to take what came my way and resist whatever temptations I was faced with. I thought that, surely, I would be the kid that would always stand for what was right. I would be the one kid who stayed with his high school sweetheart all throughout college. I would defy all odds and graduate as a Straight Edge (i.e. no drinking, no smoking, no sex). I figured that I would have a few friends (all of whom would be conservative Christians like me), and we would all change the world for Christ - converting the Buddhists and Muslims, showing the Gays the errors of their way, etc.
*pause*
My fall semester, I tried to fulfill all of that and ended up falling into the web of a half-psychotic professor for a few months. I ended the semester with a failing GPA, putting me in danger of losing all of my scholarships.
My spring semester, I decided to learn to work and have fun. I made many friends outside of the conservative Christian category (a few homosexuals, a Buddhist, and a whole lot of liberals) and within it...okay, so not too many within that realm, but whatever. I learned to genuinely accept people who believe differently than I do (I don't always show it, but that's mostly for my own enjoyment). I have smoked, I have drunk, and I have had sex. I basically became the antithesis of what I had originally set out to be.
*pause*
My point with all of this? I've learned that I can not plan who I will be. I can not meet every expectation I have for myself. On the off-chance that I had secluded myself, I would have been miserable. I never would have met Josh, Liz, Daniel, James, Wesley, or any of 50 or 60 others that I have come to love in the past 6 months. I would never have had to really look my fears in the face and not back down. I would never have made an impact on anyone as I have been able to do. In short - I would not have been who I am today happy to be if I had become who I had thought I wanted to be. For the first time ever, I can fully and honestly say and believe that I am happy to be me.
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