I'm not entirely sure how to start this, so I'll just jump right in.

I haven't updated my Xanga in...over three months now, so I guess someone out there needs an update on my life.

So I finished my first year at MTSU, and, since word has probably spread by now, grades were well below expectations. We're talking bad. I'm scraping by (somehow) working a fourty hour week and paying my parents rent, and it's not the best situation in the world. I wish I could (and might have) figure out a solution, but that's only the tip of the iceberg of my life.

I just got back from a week long vacation to New Mexico (not Arizona, Amy Amonett), where we (we being myself, my mother, my aunt, uncle, my uncle's sister and his mother) celebrated my aunt's birthday, Memorial Day, and finally, my 19th birthday, last Thursday. It was a welcome escape from the crushing reality that is my mental state.

If you followed my Xanga (and honestly, who did?), you'd know that I previously had feelings for a certain person, and that I was trying to forget them, because I saw it as a lost cause. Thankfully, I've been able to do that, and move on, just as I thought I had six months before that, and I haven't had my joy crushed yet (then again, there isn't too much joy to be had).

But there's another gaping hole in my stomach (or, also, my heart) that I don't know if I can patch. It's really nothing I care to talk about right now, but I can only hope it will reveal itself in due time...before it's too late.

So yeah, done boring you people, I'll let you go.