so really i know that my last few entries have been kind of depressing, and i apologize for that. but i've been sad lately. i miss my mama. i don't know why i always miss her in september, cause it makes no sense, but i do. and whenever i get really sad like this it seems like everything else i've been holding in needs to come out to. but i can't ever find anyone to talk to that isn't busy when i need to talk. so oh well. i continue to fill the bottle that holds all of my emotions, though i have a feeling it might burst open soon. but i'm sorry i've been so sad. i just don't like when i miss my mama. please be there for me...i hate to hang out alone during sad peroids.

on a happier note, this weather is awesome, and it makes me smile. :o) i love fall weather, the smells of fall are very nostalgic for me.

on an ECSTATIC note, God is AMAZING. my car insurance isn't going to be so bad because God answers my prayers. and i love Him for showing up when there was nothing else to do.

have a great day all :o)

-a muttled mess of emotions