so really life is interesting. at least my life is. i find myself not really knowing whether to live my life in fear or excitement about what might happen next. i was driving to kimberly and olivia's apartment tonight, and i was in a GREAT mood, and i was thinking about how things are really good right now, which honestly scares me to death. i'm scared that something not so good is going to happen now, just cause everything is good right now and i'm settled and even kinda happy. (well, except for that car insurance problem haha). but last night i was excited about what might happen next, because truly something good always comes from the tragedy that strikes in my life. i mean when my mom died the blessing was being able to help ashli through it two months later when her mom was killed. and when i was kicked out of my home, i'm so happy i was now because if i didn't live on campus i wouldn't have been able to make all my awesome friends. and if the wreck wouldn't have happened, i wouldn't have come back to God. so all tragedy happens for good reasons, and blessings always result. so i shouldn't live in fear of what could happen next, just rather anticipation knowing that whatever may come about, God will take care of it and bless it. wow, you never know that you can solve your own problems until you talk them out, even if it is to your keyboard. so no fear, just perseverance. and the excitement is totally cool, nothing wrong with genuine excitement. ahhh i love fall... it's so...thought provoking and it just makes me excited and giddy. but then again, that's a thought for another day, i have to be at work in five hours haha. have a GLORIOUS friday anyone who endured this entry. God bless you for even reading it! anyways, press on...

-seasonably excited