so umm is it really sad to be completely jealous of the girls who made a sorority? and did i even want to be in it to begin with? or just wanted to belong??

man i hate feeling so defeated for no reason.

my throat is still killing me, but i'm in happy spirits, singing all by myself and doing dirty dancing when we're supposed to be at "stand by".

i better get on that "memorizing music" thing. :/

yeah ok pretty generic titling right? ok yeah, so this week, 9-9. not excited but hopefully it'll be ok. we got 12 sets done on Friday, discovered that my pitch on piccolo is horrendous, and got even madder at this guy. in fact i was smiting him, and he didn't even know it. :evil grin:

Brett, about yesterday you're safe from me, i'm just worried about Michael, and i'll have to talk to him about that one. :(

i've been having this REALLY weird dreams, and i have no clue where they're coming from.

ok so this is just a pointless entry but i'm basically saying that i won't be back around to the internet until at least friday night.

i think i need a complete makeover. something clothes, new makeup, or even shoes won't fix. i've said this once before, but i didn't really change. i'm scared of what my "friends" say about me, but even more scared of the stuff i say about them, without really meaning it, just so i have something to talk about. i'm sick of treating boys the way i do. i know i do it, yet i keep doing it, with every single one.

maybe i shouldn't ever get married because all i'd do is cause the guy pain.

blah on dreary days...

sorry such a sad post, if you want a happier one visit my xanga . the music makes me happy...

it's official. my neighbors have THE cutest dogs...ever. like it was all i could do to not steal them. they are SOO precious.


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Lyla



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Lulu
hmm so today is the last day i can really work on my school work and what am i doing? yeah you guessed right, surfing it up.

mental note: put sunscreen on your legs!!!

so i'm playing the pic now... or at least i hope i get to. i'm ok at it, i guess, i'm sure there's someone out there better suited for it than me.

first day of precamp was yesterday. i liked seeing everyone, but i can tell this is going to get old, fast. i'm sad to say, i'm actually looking forward to doing drill. plus tonight's sectionals and we all know how that goes with two old people who play clarinet and sax more than flute. fun times up ahead i tell ya...

anyways everyone else have an awesome rest of the last week of freedom!!

hmm so my day so far, got up, ate some cocoa krispies (mmm), got in the shower, listened to music, reorganized my cds, and read a little bit of Silas Marner.

went to subway, got the usual, and listened to Oaklands band's section leaders discuss what they need to change this year and how the new freshmen are too stuck up blah blah blah. i'm just glad i didn't have a siegel shirt on...

i'm really looking forward to band season to start up, but then i'm not because i like summer and the fact that you don't have to do anything. but then i guess as soon as school starts the faster my birthday and Disneyland are going to get here.

anywho, what is everyone's favorite soundtrack?

yay for DCI tonight!!

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ok yeah i'm random.

went to see War of the Worlds with Michael today. it was good, i just wish i could've gone to starbucks :(

i'm resorting to sparknotes for summer reading, because it's the work of the devil.

does anybody know the literary devices used in Ethan Frome??

today was the first band practice thing. music is awesome and i can't wait to start doing drill and stuff. i was really glad to see everyone again, its amazing how much guys grow in 2 months :)



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i finished the painting today, this is the finished product :)


ooo and pretty sure our band trip this year is Hawaii!! :)

painting. mmmm yes painting. fun stuff

sitting at home, with nothing to do, but be on the computer. yes i know i should finish my math or finish Silas Marner, but nothing's giving me that extra push in the right direction.

i have an urge to watch Pirates now so does anyone want to join me for a saturday night viewing??

ooo new pic of my Phantom shirt!! ---->

band camp is looming ahead of me, semi excited semi not.

the theme and stuff sounds cool, but difficult. boo

haha and i haven't practiced, or gotten in shape like Rhody said. i'm gonna kick myself for not doing like he asked...

hmm so not many remarks.

playing paper soccer with my dad + listening to phantom of the opera= good day :)

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KITTY!!!



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everyone at Emily's party



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Emily's homemade cookie cake



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Carrie, Luca, and Chelsey



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Emily's finally 15!!



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me and Erica



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the birthday girl watching Swimfan.

haha Emily's party was amazing. swimming in the rain and "singing" along to Camp. i ate SO much there. i don't think i'm going to be eating for a while :P

so i FINALLY finished Harry Potter at 3am Tuesday morning. i didn't cry, possibly because i read ahead and knew who was going to die. i was giddy with excitement about who hooked up. *sigh* they made a cute couple i think :)

am i a horrible person? all of the sudden i'm feeling like i'm this totally selfish dare i say witchy person that's not me and i hate it, but for some reason i can't control it. i don't think i'm doing anything wrong and then people bring what i do to my attention and i feel like the most downright horrible person ever.

i've been treating some certain people like dirt and they don't deserve it. so from now on i'm going to make a more conscious effort to be a better person.

i love all of you and i hope you know it :)

well, Charlie on Imax was better than i could ever hope it'd be. now i can't wait to see Harry Potter on it. mmm Daniel Radcliffe 100 ft. high? *goes to daydream sequence*

umm yeah so...

read 4 chapters in harry potter. i'm finding it more difficult to get through than i expected. i did a bunch of my algebra 2 work and started on my summer reading essay things. i'm proud that i actually sat down and DID that junk.

so i'm officially unsure of what i want to do with my life. part of me really does want to be a writer but i think having to do it every single day would be annoying. i'm thinking that i want to be a photographer but i don't think i take good pictures. now she on the other hand is AMAZING.

what could i do that involves my love of pictures, collaging, and color?

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yay for driving. even though i don't watch as carefully as i should. :/




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me and emily at Lauren's party last night



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yay for wet Lauren and her pretty flowers :D



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me and Ashley



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me and DANNNAAAA!!!



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Dana getting thrown into the pool by Brian and Cameron



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my newly created closet door collage



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my awesome electric geetar!



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heehee my Charlie and the Chocolate Factory poster. newly acquired today i might add ;)

yay for awesome friday nights with certain awesome people ;)

yay for Charlie and the Chocolate Factory on Imax tonight with my Dana

yay for things finally happening in Harry Potter.

ooo i made it to chapter 17. only 13 chapters to goooo!!!

Harry is good so far. crazy though, its not as dark as early as i expected it to be.

Charlie was so good. i'm trying to talk to parents into going to see it on Imax tomorrow night. hopefully it'll be even more splendiforous.

"I like grapes"

"You smell like nuts." "You smell like old people and soap. I like it."

"Everything in this room is eatable, i'm even eatable. but that my children is called cannabalism and in fact is frowned upon in many societies." :P

good ole' johnny depp. so humorous. i DO love him now more than ever though. :)

woot. tonight's the night.

it'll be madly crazy, but totally fun and i can't wait. turns out more people are coming than i expected, more the merrier i suppose!!

so if you would want to meet up at 6:45 at the little theater to see Charlie swing on by!!

i can't wait for 12:01 tomorrow morning!!!

oh check my xanga for cute Charlie pics :D



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i need a hug reallll bad right now....

why does a Target trip have to make you so dang depressed?

ok so finalized itinerary for anyone going to Charlie with me tomorrow night.

we're gonna meet at either Logan's or Chili's at 6ish and then go over to the little theater to go see the movie. if you don't want to go to get harry potter then have a ride to pick you up after the movie. we'll either hang out around the Boro or at my house or something afterwards until 10ish or something and then head over to Hasting's for the release party.

hope that's ok with everyone, i don't think many people are coming anyways, but yeah...