i am so poor that i feel that i should be walking around digging through dumpsters for a scrap of anything... i have even gone through everylast penny of my savings.

and that $500 i got for graduation for half of a laptop i was going to buy... uh yeah that disappeared way long ago.. say around graduation.. and no it wasn't spent on a new laptop...

and now.. since my mom lost my job i agreed to try to pay rent by paying one of the smaller house payment things and its it $200 which is extremely good and i didn't have a problem with paying that.. but now i do. since i am poor.... i just spent this paycheck on part of my credit card bill that i want to pay off... cause i don't think its really worth it... cause really its just fucking me over... but its nice to have...

oh and tonight i dropped this metal pan, most likely the size and weight of a goddamn sink!! and yes it is swollen and starting to bruise...

to top it off... i lost insurance, also because my mother was fired... i am unable to go to the doctor... because i can't afford to!!!

now people... i think some should agree i should be digging through trash...

oh... i don't have gas... or gas money...

isn't that wonderful...

there... enjoy