so yeh... hows about last night was effing amazing
ok... so i talked my mom into lettin me go to the game... aka... i asked...and she said yeh.. remember... im supposed to be grounded
well yeh... i got the the game.... Nicole was gonna drive me home... and like... i talk to a few people... and walk up to this girl karla... one of zachs friends... a girl iv talked to like once... and was like... i effin love you karla... and yeh... me and her started talkin... and then this girl lilly started talkin... and yeh... iv only seen lilly around school... shes cute... lol...
well yeh... i found out that they were gonna leave at 7 30.... kinda lame since the game started at 7 00.... well yeh... i thought it was lame until i found out where they were goin... the effin rosevelts concert ... so yeh... basically i told Nicole that i didnt need a ride cuz i was so goin to that concert so i left with karla and lilly... and we went to the place where the concert was... and like... no one was there... so i think we got there to late... to early... or not the right day/place... so we left... we went by my bros house... then to mtsu... then to starbucks... then to the park... then walmart... then mtsu campus... we found dewey... hehe... its a cat... umm then to walmart again to get lillys phone... THAT SHE LEFT IN THE BATHROOM so yeh.. we got that... then we drove... god only knows where... no parties goin on at Greek Row... what. a. hoe. then we started to go to lillys house... but we changed our mind... so like... at 12 30ish karla dropped me off at my house... and yeh... thats all... i called nicole :-) the end

so... for a night of screaming "i love you" at everyone and recording posters of lost cats it was by far... the... best... night... ever...

i got my new celular device... call me... five.five.six.dash.five.six.four.two.556-5642

Help Dewey Find A Home

my life is gibberish
everything is so confusing...
school is getting unbearable
friends are... strange sometimes
my girlfriend acted more like we were a couple when we werent goin out

i dont know...

its been really stressful for me lately....

i went to young life monday... it was... interesting... i met a lot of new, cool people... shultzie drove me home... hes really cool... and um yeh... that about all...

my mom got her new job... im gettin my new phone... stephens gotten like 98465786398456 new things... yeh... i think im spoiled.... but its cool....

corn maze this saturday... off of 96... a lot of people are goin... call me for details... call me at my house now... but ill have my new cell in a few days most likely... 9049502....

hasta luego

this just in
Me and Elaine are only friends now... but shes still here... so im happy

if u cant tell by now... im freakin bored... but ill let u in on a few things...

1: if u didnt see the edit in my last post... me and elaine are official....

2: also in the edit... im a big brother... my step mom had a baby boy... Samuel David Slate.... lame name....

3: i broke my phone forever and a day ago... so in a few weeks ill have a new one... ill give u all the new number when i get it... im gettin cingular

4: IM EFFIN BORED


5: my fall break has been amazing... though im kinda excited to go back to school

6: i cant think of anything... so yeh... heres number 6...


ok so nothing much goin on... im really bored now... i just found out what phone im gettin... and other than that... im sittin at home doin nothin... someone call me... pretty bad when your own girlfriend wont call you.... :( ... im hurt.... lol... but yeh... someone call me... 9049502...

and they lived happily ever after ...The End...

_______EDIT.......... EDIT__________
wow... i just went out to eat with my mom and step dad... it really made me realize how much i miss my "family".... me, my mom, my dad, micheal, and stephen.... just around a table... happy... perfect little life... to bad that was all a dream... My dad is married to a snob now... my mom is married to a mexican that argues 24/7 micheal is married at only 19... stephen works non stop so we rarely see him... iv been to my dads house 1 time since february... he only lives 30 minutes away... my friends seem to be the only thing i have left...

yeh so as i told u in my last post... me and paul were goin to Lee University... it was effing amazing... i never thought i would be impatient to go to college but i want to go NOW.... a few highlights of the trip... some u wont understand cuz i sont want to explain them...

-me, paul, randy, russell, and adam all got stuck in an elevator... and thats like a really big fear of mine...

-Dance Dance Revolution... me, pike (paul), russ, adam, and randy... in adams dorm.... in our boxers... hehe... yeh... what it was hot in there?!?

-Mustang on the way home... teehee...

-we saw a forest fire... like yeh... it was intense

-stoplight by taco bell.... omg i dont want to explain... just wow...

-micheal uses a spoon.... thats all ill say... haha

ok yeh that trip was freakin AMAZING... except for that i left at 5 in the morning... i got like 30 minutes of sleep

but yeh... friday i called elaine to see if she wanted to hang out... so we decide were gonna get a group to go to the corn maze... sounds dumb but it was actually really cool... so we called a bunch of people... and like yeh,... we got a small group... me, elaine, kayla, stuart, and paul... it was awesome... after the maze thing (which we didnt actually do... we just walked around and acted stupid)... we all went to my house to pick up pauls car and then to elaines house to watch a movie... ok... so we got there at like 10... somehow the movie didnt start till 12 or something... but who cares... lol... elaine... i love ur dad... never talked to ur mom.. and am scared of ur dog... but i want ur cat... hehe... its so fat... rascal fats... haha...

yeh... my break has been like... pretty freakin sweet... elaine... me and u... hang out soon... like.... this saturday...
The End

~~edit~~

an update on things.... im a big brother as of 5:23 october 7th....

and

me and elaine are an item...

ok so yeh... basically iv been hittin a lot of glitches on phusebox lately... i click like any link and it says something like "Warning my_fetch_row_sql is not valid"... but yeh... phusebox is still better than xanga... congrats to nathan...

ok the whores part in the title had nothing to do with the post... ill admit...

hmm i went to a drive in theatre last night with paul, kate, hooper, and the jensen group... it was muy bueno... drive in movies are like the coolest thing ever... 6 bucks for 2 movies... and we had pauls car on one side hoopers on the other and the jensen mobile in the middle behind us and me, kate, marybeth, and zay sat in the middle on the ground and we like had suround sound.. amazing... if anyone wants to go to the drive in tell me... im tryin to get a big group to go before the end of fall break... its in cannon county... far ways away... but trust me... its worth it...

random... i wrote a song... i had it in my notebook.. and someone stole my notebook... so i dont have my song... i dont remember most of it...

laurens strange

im kinda bored

and yeh...

hmm cool news:... 3 days and me paul and randy are off to Cleveland Tennessee... yep... were gonna run to Lee University... so just think... Chris Slate, Paul Morgan, and Randy Rodden in a car for like 2 and a half hours together... wow... am i gonna have some stories when i get back... i cant wait... pauls dad just has to say yeh we can go... but im not to worried about his answer...

umm

i tried screaming some more today... i killed my throat... but hey... thats what screamo music is for... i think it sounded pretty good...

but yeh

the end

ok so yeh... today is the 29th... the 15th will be the 30th day of me being grounded... meaning it hasnt even been 15 days and it feels like a lifetime... i miss my life
well actually...
i still do a lot... went to eat with friends 2 days after i was grounded... went to the football game... went and hung out with liz and randy... umm yeh.... a lot of stuff... but im still apperantly "grounded"... sara gets ungrounded the 15th of October... so she only got 30 days... thats what i HAD too... but then i got an additional 30 days for punching a hole in my wall.... the hole isnt even that big *cough*
but yeh... i still have a life... i can talk on the phone.... most of the time... watch tv... listen to music... i still have my guitars... all of them... the only thing i havent been able to do is get on the coputer... oh wait... im on it... so i guess i can still do everything... hmm... well ill update u on my life... well... what uv missed...

me and sara broke up... i found out she was still doin drugs... a major NO in my books... drugs are for hoes and hoes arent for me... (shut up paul... i know what ur thinkin) but yeh... me and her are OVER... ill give the female update at the end of my life update...

my 2nd period teacher refused to give me .01 points on my final grade and he gave some other guy 25 extra points on his final average to so called "keep his reputation" so hes a hoe... i dont like that teacher.... hes the one u always read about me fighting with...

oakland has introduced me to some of the coolest people in the world... kayla, kelsey s.,kelsey j, lauren, but most of all... i definately think the one i would have to give the Oakland Favorite Award too... is Katie Kimbell... shes cool... a friend of pauls... i used to think she was a snob... but im glad i got to know her... but yeh....

variety show went over awesome... i was impressed

sara is mad at me now... who knows why... but i really dont care... i have 2 years left at oakland and im not gonna waste them on petty stupid drama.... and she definately has pettystupiddrama-itis... so yeh...

and im goin to the oakland lavergne game tomorrow night... so go with me...

ok thats all that i can think of now....

the female update:

well sara is out... lauren likes me... and yeh... i kinda like her... but idk... theres things about her... but shes an amazing person... but idk... ill give that time... i was told that a girl named ellain liked me... i didnt believe it and then ellain told me for herself 2 days ago... but one problem with that... shes talkin to another guy... and from what iv heard hes gonna ask her out like any day now... theres one girl... (shell remain nameless) shes been on my mind a lot... i could definately see myself with her... but the problem... shes a senior... shes 17... and shes kinda semi-taken by someone... so that sucks... so yeh... right now im single... and i love it... power to the single guys... lol... but yeh... thats all

im gonna go back to my total antigrounded life... farewell...

so yeh...im grounded for 60 days
basically...
i snuck out...
practically stole a car...
now im screwed....
i was caught like crazy...
so yeh...im updating now at school
during the variety show...
and im up next....so gotta go

Me and sara are officially together
yeh... im happy
we hung out today... it was fun...
hmm... anyone wanna hang out tomorrow... ill be bored... call me 9049502

ok... a few things
1: some people make mistakes ... actually... ALL people do
we cant hold people accountable for what they did when weve dont so much worse...
yeh iv done bad... really bad... iv changed.... but i still cant hold people responsible when they go get high or something... iv been in that boat... so i cant call them stupid and tell them i hate them and what not... but i can tell you this... from experience... i know it seems fun for the moment... i know it hurts the day after... i know that u dont want to do it again... but u still do... and i know that life is a million times better when ur not involved with those things... turn your head upward... look to god... he will make your lives better... and drugs and drinking is NOT better...

2: friends fall away... me and jessica... were still the best of friends in the whole wide world... i would die for her i would hope she would do the same... shes awesome... im soooo effin glad shes my friend... shes been like a sister to me since we met... a lot of things i have or havent done have been considered with her in mind... not my mom... not my dad... not my girlfriend... her... jessica ryanne hunter... but the thing is... i had other friends... not as good of friends... but other ones... we would hang out all the time.. some of the funnest time in my life were with them... and something would happen... we would stop talkin on the phone... we would stop hangin out on fridays... then on saturdays... then stop all together.... then we barely talked... before u know it... u have trouble remembering there last name... yeh... iv had frinds like that.... alot of them... and i look back at them now... and theyre all dealing with what i was talking about in the first part... and they would have gotten me involved... theres a reason we make and lose friends... we make friends to be an example to them or for them to be one to us... its our choice which one we choose... i chose to be an exaample... i didnt smoke... didnt drink... nothing... i was a positive example to the best of my ability... and i challenge you all to be a positive one too...

3: god is an awesome god... he changes the worst of muck to the richest of gold... the poor to the rich.. the homeless to the housed... the followers to the leaders... and trust me... im a walking, talking, breathing ,living testimony... yeh... u read the first part... iv been in those shoes... iv been where you all have been... trust... iv gone through just about everything u can in a lifetime... drug addiction, gangs, depression, suicide attempts, a lot of stuff... and u know what i did... i decided not to live the life that made me sad... mad... depressed... just so lost and confused... i gave it all away... i gave it all to god... and my life has been awesome ever since...
another thing with him is that he blesses the ones who bless him... hes given friends of mine money (more than 2000 dollars at one time) to get cars... to get gas... to get food... to get anything they wantes... simply because they gave him what they could... and he blessed them... its amazing how that works... u give ur life to him... he makes all warm and bubbly inside... hehe... well yeh... gods amazing... leave ur life to him... ull be so much happier...

4: life will be hard... no matter what you do... who you live with... what you have... anything... ur life will be hard at times... ur not gonna be able to live a life that only involves smiles and laughter... we will all go through our storms... we will all have our fights to fight and our wars to win.. life wont be perfect no matter what... and one thing that people need when they go through those times are friends... 2 of my friends right now are goin through a hard time... ashley... zach... im here... just call... anytime... same with anyone else... just call... even if i dont know u... i love to talk to people... just call... 9049502...

thats all that i really have to say... i hope that this will help someone... because even the words out of my mouth helped me...

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
- Matthew 6:34

^^if only you knew how much that verse has helped me lately^^

I got another confession to make... Im your fool...


my life gets better
the days get brighter
the sun shines a little more throught the clouds
the rain dies
the fog fades
broken hears are mended
broken dreams are soon fulfilled
lives restored
remade
reborn
.... and i can live
once more
and for some reason....
the next storm does it all again
the waves are much more than a hurrican
katrina? hah!
these storms make Katrina look like a mist
the tsunami was a drop in the flood of sorrow im faced with
"and what starts such a storm?" you may ask...
one thing
a small thing
yet a large thing
an inevitable thing...
a confusing thing
a thing of many pieces
but a thing to make you complete
love
L. O. V. E.
its only that...
one word...
causing the worst of nightmares
and the best of dreams...
just one word
one feeling
one life
one LOVE


Is someone gettin the best, the best, the best of you?

brief observation...
there are WAY to many kelseys
and chris'
so i leave u with this
if we killed all the kelseys and chris'...
there would be no world

keep me alive

sometimes my life sucks
right now
its ok...
i had the best day in the world yesterday with jessica hunter, jessica gaines, and kylie walker... heck.. even got a private dance from kylie and jess g... lol... (you woulda had to been there)

i just started oakland this year... im a junior...
people there are so.... interesting
i love it

iv kept it really really quiet (like 3 people know) but i had to have blood tests done becasue according to the doctor and my mom (who used to be a doctor for 7 years) say that i may have epilepsy... not good

amanda... she stresses me out... shes like "i want to talk to you"... "no we cant walk and talk"... and then... "hey paul" or "hey adam" or "hey chris morgan" "walk with me... i need to talk to you"
she never involves me with what shes doing
whats going on
anything
she dramatizes things... and yes.. it gets her attention...
she doesnt realize it... and few people do... but she treated me like any other person
not like her boyfriend
and as u all know... we broke up

lindsay... dont even get me started... she tells me she still loves me... that she thinks we were meant to be together... that she wants us to be together forever... but blows me off and stands me up for Evan Milby.... whatever... she can live her life... with out me

sara romans... this is one cool chick.. she seems to cheer me up... a lot... even when shes not around... she makes me happy and yeh... well shes just cool

friends.... some of them seem like there stabbing me in the back
like they have been lying to me ever since we met
complete hyprocrites... liars... arrogant stuck up pricks who think they know it all...
some have been my life... jessica g jessica h and kylie w... i love you people... u rock

ok so im looked down on... a lot... im pushed away... a lot... im shot down... a lot... abandoned... ignored... mistaken... misunderstood... broken... and yet... u people all see me as "Chris the arrogant know it all"
do me a favor... one of these
either A: give me one example of when iv been arrogant (there has rarely ever been a time i dont think of other peoples wants and needs before my own)
or B: shut up... get out of my life... and leave me alone (iv got enough goin on... i dont need you)

sometimes i want to run away... i greatly considered it a few weeks ago... i literally packed a suitcase... hid it in my closet and was planning to leave that night... but i was on the phone with the girl that had my heart in her hands and i forgot all about my plan...
i just want to be free... no parents telling me im wrong.. that im useless... no people stabbing me in the back... no relationships that end in heart break... i want to be happy... and right now... im not that happy...

take me away from here... please... move me thousands of miles away... move me to the moon... i want to be gone... away from anyone and everyone... for a long long long time

i was at sports com... we were playin volleyball... and i picked up some sand... a little fell through my finger... i began to pass it... right hand... then left... the sand got smaller and smaller and smaller... until i had just grains left.... thats my life... i seem to be passed back and forth... like an old antique ragdoll... like yesterdays news... like just anyother old useless piece of crap... never even so much as hearing the words "i love you"... and it be true... so from all the hands iv been at the mercy of... im now left to mear grains... little pieces of my soul.. my body being tired... bruised... bloody... broken... my heart being devoured at your will... my mind, my emotions, my everything... fading away before my eyes... and i cant do anything about it...

maybe im just a lonely emo kid wanting more love and attention... i dont even know myself anymore... maybe im just making stuff up... who knows... honestly... who cares... i could probably post on here that i love cheese and u people would feel the same way... its like i mean nothing to you people... and u know it... i was starting to write a song... it was just a song.. now its becoming the story of my life


Dreams end, souls fade
Hopes die and hearts break...
And your to blame for everything... thats happening
So here we are again
Same old argument...
And i am wondering
If things... will ever change

Cuz i want... you to know.... who I am...
Cuz all that I have is in your hands...
IM AT THE MERCY OF YOUR STRENGTH

I am yours, here i am...
Im waiting... waiting
Each and every time i stand...
You push me in the dirt...
Only to extend ur open hand...
You help me up and blind my eyes
Foolish me
I fell... for you...
Again...


thats the first verse... prechorus... and chorus... and its said enough... thats exactly how i feel..
the first 2 lines.. thats me... my dreams have ended
my my soul is fading... my hopes have died... and my heart... its been broken one to many times

I only wish those 3 words were true

yeh... so im hangin out with jessica right now
im basically fet up with lindsay...
she walks all over me to much
im not gonna deal with her anymore
she can live her life
ill live mine
without eachother
i think it will greatly lower my stress level
but yeh

anywhoo

u like the background... font color... and font type
yeh
u want it dont u
well no
u cant have it
hehe
(paul.. ur an HTML master... hehe)
yeh
paul stayed at my house...
we stayed up til 3
we WERE gonna get up at 10...
but noooooooo
my mom wanted me to help move her new living room set.... so i had to get up at 7
ugh ...
well yeh
we got done
at 11 somethin jess picked up
im at her house now
shes one cool chick
:)
so yeh
thats all... ill talk more later... tonight
yeh

(p.s. the pic on my background... its my kitty midnight as a kitten... yeh it rocks my socks off... and my pants)

yeh not much happened today
one thing ill talk about
women are confusing...
never trust someone if they say they love you
then say they miss you
then say they want to see you
then say they cant
just to have a date with another guy
and never believe any of that from the girl u
would die for
u would cry for
u would miss when u blinked
or hold tight when u meet
or kiss in the rain
or the one that tells u all the time that she wants to be with u forever
forever
always
until our death may we part
the one u think about every day
the one u miss...
even while writing in a pathetic online journal about a squirell named joe
the one
the only one
the unique one
the amazing one
the perfect one
the astounding one
no one else... but her...
i miss her

heck yeh im still freakin happy
yeh my life rocks
the end
its just amazing
envy me
and ash...
ur forgiven for last night
u had a head ache...
i had a tummy urge for icecream
but ill let it slide

scareface... and alphie
soon to be my favorite movies ever
i know it
it depends on WHO I WATCH THEM WITH *cough cough*

yeh...
not quite the best of days today...
for one..
i didnt do my 1st period homework
my 2nd period teacher... i snapped at him like crazy... i wont be surprised if i get suspended
he tried to say that we should just go to new orleans and kill all the survivers and turn the entier city to an open field instead of rebuilding it and helping the familes... then he showed his ignorant side and was like "the only reason gas prices are so high is because of Bush.." but he didnt seem to have a response when i reminded him that Bush just signed a bill to lower prices and i showed him a website proving it...
so yeh
i dont like him... hes atheist to top it of... so yeh
3rd this girl wouldnt shut up...
4th... sara wasnt there.... poo stains
5th... that class was cool
6th... got a butt load of work...
my mom was an hour late to pick me up
i dont know if saras gonna go tonight since she wasnt at school... so yeh...
stressful day
to top it all off...
the storm... i hate it...
no rain... only wind
the wind
i hate it
it knocked a board over
falling on my little black kitten...cannon
stephen found it under the flowers when he got home from work
it wasnt walking at all...
it was laying in the rain...
barely moving...
we took it to the vet
it went into serious shock once we got there
the vet said he didnt know if it would make it through the night
to find out this morning
it didnt
my cat died
poor thing...
we burried it this after noon

i miss it....

yeh...
so im startin a phusebox now
Ashley...
how did u talk me into it..
well i like it..
comment on my pix...
and everyone get me like 985392873645 friends...
so yeh
c ya
~Chris