Hmm so hows about this weekend is gonna be the best one ever... and thursday was pretty amazing as well

so thursday i went to a concert at Bonhoeffers with karla and like EVERYONE was there... and let me just say... A Plea For Purging is probably the best screamo band iv seen in a long long time

Friday (today) i went to school... went to oakland... and met up with this girl iv just recently met... let me say... Linz Hackney is probably one of the coolest people iv met... Dont get the straws at starbucks... thats how they make their money HAHA

Guess what... me and erica are gonna finally hang out tomorrow night... were gonna go see Date Movie ===

so... me and lauren are through for good...

of course i find out the day before valentines

what timing :'(

my life it is a circus,

with roller coaster rides,

the people they will play me,

but fail to win the prize,

you can try my memories,

there like my own magician,

they like to play tricks on me,

to see if i remember...

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happy news...

im spoiled i know... but look at my new baby

not me

the appeal didnt go so well... and can you say nerve wrecking...

Addie Baker... for real... i was havin like the worst day EVER monday... and u for real did cheer me up like crazy... shoo you know u be gangstaa nizow... haha... i love you kid... ur amazing

Michal Mullane told me tonight that i made really long posts so she never read them... hmm?... but if i made short posts then you would never know what i actually thought or how i fealy (not that some of you random people would care)

ok let me just say this...

i dont care whos reading this... whether it be my best friends or my worst enemies...

when your able to stand up from an altar crying like crazy and not care who sees you cuz you know those tears are for god... thats an amazing feeling... and Amanda Ayers... sorry for givin you such a hard time earlier... u really are a great friend... same with you Paul... thanks guys... and thanks to everyone whos been prayin for me... it may be paying off now but dont stop yet cuz i know ill still be tested... u guys are amazing...

so my first day at Daniel Mckee is friday... and for the last time... im NOT a bad kid... i got sent there for the lamest reason ever!!! just read my post 3 posts ago...

Lauren... do you have any idea how much you mean to me? i love you so much... Valentines?

Jessica Ryanne Hunter... OMG!!! could i ask for a better best friend... u are my life (yeh i totally stole that from you)... did you know that our FIRST inside joke was "cricket cricket... wind blow wind blow... FROG!!!" and from that day on... weve been inseperable... for real... were so gettin married... haha... i love you more than ANYTHING!!!

ok... i think thats all... *thinks*... ok if i missed anything... sorry... but i gotta go...

is this post to long for ya Michal?

ok.. so my appeal case for Daniel Mckee is this wednesday... so pray like crazy and keep your fingers crossed...

you wanna know the main reason why i dont wanna go to daniel mckee?... well as i said in my last post... Stuart said he was gonna ask lauren out... and lauren may tell me that shell say no... but i know that if she doesnt see me everyday at school then shell start talkin to him more then shell go out with him when he asks her... and that scares me...

she asked me a very very serious question on the phone... only 2 people know about it... addie and jessica... and that question has a lot to do with our future together... and after she asked me that she posted on her xanga that we were through... that hurts me... bad

my best friend put a pic of us on her xanga then a quote about how she was close to letting go... that really makes me feel good to know that the 2 people i love the most both want to let me go...

i dont know what to do anymore... life is only getting worse... but i know it will get better

me and lindsay went out for a long time and this is how i fealt when she broke up with me... and now im over than and i barely even think of her at all... and i know that if me and lauren truly are "through" then ill get to the point where i barely ever think of her... but i dont want to get to that point...

i miss how life was 3 weeks ago... that was perfect

I miss those days

so... she likes stuart... i wish she would of told me sooner... and hows about EVERYONE and there mom knew... but no one wanted to tell me... what friends

i got sent to daniel mckee... no im not joking... so yeh... im a junior but im in sophomore english right?... well the writing prompt was yesterday and mr tomlinson said i needed to go... so i went and asked the lady if i should take it and she told me to hold on and she would check... well she never came back... meaning i didnt have a prompt paper or a topic to write on.. so i was written up for skipping!!!... and i got sent to daniel mckee... it was nice to know u oakland friends... ill see u next year...

stuart said he was gonna ask her out... i want to be happy for her... i really really do... but im selfish... i want her... i want to be her boyfriend... i was the be the one she calls at 3 in the morning cuz she cant sleep... i want to be the prince in her bed time stories that she used to tell me... i miss her... i really really do...

this week has been the worst week ever... i went to church wanting to get right with god but thoughts of my day and lauren shot through my head and killed my spiritual focus... i know i need to get right with god... iv REALLY thrown my life away the past 4 months... and i need to change NOW... but i cant do it alone... please pray for me

lauren and i broke up...

she broke up with me...

were still friends... BEST friends according to her

...i just hope i made her half as happy as she made me... she really was the best

ok so basically... life has still been amazing... but kinda wierd... yet amusing

1st off.... (im not a bad kid... BUT...)

so me and a friend skipped 3rd period the other day cuz we wanted McDonalds and last time i checked... Oakland doesnt have mcdonalds... so yeh... long story short... we got caught... (o yeh... we also forged a note from a teacher) well i took the blame for the note just to get kurt out of a bit of trouble... and yeh... it almost got me sent to Daniel McKee (i think thats what its called)... i had to like BEG ms yeager not to send me... so i got 2 days of oss and if i get in trouble for ANYTHING for the rest of the semester then i go straight to alternative school no questions asked... so let me tell you about how im gonna be the best student ever... cuz alternative school is NOT the place for people like me...

2nd on the list...

so friday i hung out with Kurt , Cheyanne, Marquees, Quin, and some asian dude named johnny... well yeh... i went to the game after that and long story short... lauren got upset with me... and had all the right to be... (no i didnt do anything like cheat on her or anything)... but yeh... so this guy was there named Jasper... he likes her... and she kinda blew me off and was with him the whole night... but yeh... she was mad at me so i kinda understand... well yeh... a bunch of people go to la siesta after the game and apperantly jasper kissed lauren... lauren said she didnt kiss him back that she didnt expect it... so yeh... lauren tells me about it saturday night... (im just glad she told me and i didnt have to find out from someone else)... well i wasnt mad at her... but yeh... if i see jasper any time soon then ill probably kick his ass... and lauren doesnt want me to... but what should i do... just say "ok yeh... u can kiss MY GIRLFRIEND!!!"... NO!!!... im gonna be mad at the guy... so yeh... what do you guys think i should do?

3rd part of the post...

i really like phusebox... i know iv said that a million times but iv never said why... this site is an east place to get everything off my chest thats so much as slightly bothering me... as well as pick up on the daily gossip... lol... i know that i can write whatever i want and very few people are gonna be like... "ugh i cant believe you"... some pseudo jews excluded from that... (no thats not a joke)... i know that i can talk about how lauren gets on my nerves sometimes... and how gaines starts a lot of drama... and how jessica is the best thing ever put into my life... but at the same time... i know this is a place for solid confessions... when i started to do things i didnt used to... i posted on here... cuz i knew that it would get it off my chest that someone may not know and think im hiding it from them... when i do things i know i shouldnt have... i post them here... because i think talking about things is the best way to settle things... when im down about anything... i post about it... and my friends cheer me up in words they may be afraid to say in person... and those words really mean a lot guys... they really do... i know that i can put up embarrassing pictures... heck everone does... i can do WHATEVER i want... and not be judged by anyone but jews... (no im not a nazi... im reffering to someone...)

so guys... all of you... i really want to thank you... even though this may just be a long list of words... its worth it... its good to talk about it...

if ANYONE needs to talk about somethin... even if i dont know you... honestly... im here for ya... 3.9.7.-.6.7.7.7. later guys and gals

so i made a really long post about how OAKLAND OWNED SIEGEL!!!... and it had some about me and jessica hangin out... but i clicked the "publish entry" button and my internet clicked out... so it erased the whole thing... but yeh...

ill keep it shorter... cuz everyone and there mom has talked about siegel being dominated...

i hung out with jessica saturday... it was much needed "jess~n~chris" time... shes like... for real the best thing in my life... EVER!!!... look at her... shes like... the best best friend ever...

now theres a best friend i would give my life for... and trust my life with... shes the best...

sunday night... i emailed jessica gaines tellin her exactly what she needed to hear... shes concieted... she only thinks of herself... she treats jessica hunter (my best friend) like shit... and she needs to get over herself... and oddly enough... she got mad about it... haha... well seriously... me and her are close... but she doesnt need to treat my best friend like shit... but yeh... anywhoo...

im gonna go... so just think of your favorite song (prefferably from a guy) and this is me singin it to you...

ok new game... the 75th comment gets my guitar... well... one of them

phusebox is back... my life is now complete...

like seriously... ask jessica... i checked back to phusebox EVERY 3 SECONDS... my daily schedule was

wake up... check phusebox... check email... check phusebox... check email... check phusebox... check lame xanga... check phusebox... hit refresh button for 20 minutes... go to the bathroom... check phusebox... and so on and so on...

like not even joking... i tried to make a post on myspace while it was down... but it was just wierd... actually... my post i made was about how phusebox was better... and then i left Tom (myspace owner) a nasty comment about how Nathan was cooler...

so phusebox definately owns me... not "owes" me... it OWNS me... like for real... i love you my dear phusebox...

life is still perfect... as could be expected...

merry late christmas guys.... happy early new years... im hangin with either jessica or elaine tomorrow night... itll be cool.... but til then...

im out...

i always make long posts... so ill make this one shorter...

i totally think my life makes yours look like... umm... bad... so yeh... envy me while you can

Last tuesday i didnt go to school... i didnt feel like it... so i played sick... i meant... *cough* i didnt feel to good but i really wanted to go to school... *cough*

friday... jessica gaines was gonna come over... but she couldnt... so oh well...

Saturday... jessica hunter (only the coolest kid youll ever meet) came over and yeh... shes just the shiz... so yeh... that was an amazing 12 noon to 8 at night... then at 10 i went to jessica gaines' house at about 10.30... she was havin a little get together... ill leave out all the juice but ill just say... Gaines attacked me and i dont remember anything else... so yeh... its cool... (oh yeh... i get my hair cut... see...

Before:   

after:

sunday... i dont know... what happened?... ill think about it and get back to ya.... OH YEH!!! my nephew was born... see...

 

isnt he so deformed lookin... i meant... one sexy stud... haha... hes a kool baby... if i may say so myself... to bad i was in the hospital with my bro and sister in law for like 89752930847534 hours... but it was worth it... whos an uncle?... i am... i am... and he better be one hott kid... lol...

i didnt go to school monday... i was "tired"... so my mommy said i could stay home...

tuesday... i got to school... and in 2nd period i was called to mrs yeagers office... she tried to feed me a load of crap so i fought back... long story short... im updating from home at 12.51... so yeh... i got sent home a tid bit early...

so much for not making a long post... its cool though...

MERRY CHRISTMAS IN 12 DAYS

click me to waste time

So basically my weekend was the best...

Friday was my party

and it was... how do you say... interesting...

ok heres the whole story... kinda...

andrew came over early... the keg got here at 7.20... the people at 7.30

the cops at 8.45

yeh... the cops... the party was busted up... and oh so early... it was kinda amusing... one person opens the door and goes... "huh... cops" oh so calm... then the next person... kinda questioning was like... "cops...?" ... and then about 7 or 8 people around them started yelling "COPS!!!" so everyone took off out my back dootr over to mikeys... cuz he lives close and that was the house we all planned to go to if the cops showed... which they did... so we all scattered... and apperantly word about a party gettin busted gets around faster then your mom... and thats fast...

but the party was amazing for the hour it got to last... one person got arrested cuz they were smart enough to run out the front door and get into their car... after they had been drinking... what idiots...

Accoustic Christmas Saturday

I didnt even know i was going until Cora couldnt go and told me... and i bought her tickets for 50 dollars each... but trust me... it was worth it...

i took jessica hunter...

i hadnt seen her in forever...

it was good to catch up...

While we were in line (this is where the title came from) Intern Adam from 107.5 The River was walkin by and i was like... "hey man... im diggin those pants" and he came over and started talkin to me... and i got a random idea and was like... "hey... we should trade pants for the night... " and we started talkin about it and he was like "yeh we should just do it on stage in front of everyone"... so when the concert started... for one... Natasha Bedingfield got snowed in in Saracuse... so she wasnt there... but its cool... we all know the lyrics to her songs... "i love you i love you i love you i love you..." but Howie Day was awesome... he was pickin on this 10 year old and wrote her a verse in the song Collide... and thats mine and jessicas song... it was hilarious... but anyways... after him... switchfoot was gonna come out... and they took forever and a day so intern adam came out to stall... and it got kinda quiet and i yelled "i love your pants!!!" and me and jess were in like the very very front... and he looked at me and goes... "you... get up here" so i got on stage and he was like "this kid was outside and tells me he likes me pants... and then had the GENIUS idea that we should trade for the night... i mean... were the same size... but i dont know about u but iv only got on boxers under here so i dont wanna take my pants off... but hes got pajamas under his... so what do ya think... should we trade pants?"... and everyone started yellin and stuff and we were seriously about to trade pants when the lead singer of Switchfoot comes out and taps me on my back and was like... "hey were ready to go... u wanna introduce us?" and yeh... i got to... it was so freakin cool... it was like the highlight of my month... it was so worth the 100 dollars... so yeh...

life is simply amazing  

hey children... im babysitting my sleeping neighbor right now...

 i went to jareds house thursday night... basically we stayed up and watched the funniest and cheesiest horror movie ever... The Jackhammer Massacre... dun dun dun dun... haha... it was cool....

friday... now that night is the highlight of my week... i got home from jareds at like 12.30 and i was supposed to go to hang out with lauren but nooooo... her dads to anal... so whatever... me and my mom and stephen went to opry mills... 2 things iv learned from that trip... my mom cant drive... and stephen will say or do or wear anything to fit in to the crowd around him... my bro was talkin about how girls look at me alot and he said it was because of what i was wearing... (American eagle Polo, AE pants, AE undershirt, Abercrombie undershirt, AE track jacket, Birckenstocks, Trucker hat) so he asked me to take him to american eagle and help him pick out some stuff... haha... hes never in his life worn what people would call "prep cloths" and he spent 150 dollars in a matter of minutes on a track jacket and a button up shirt and a pair of bijorndals... and we left at like 5 or 6... then we went home and elaine and elicia came over and me stephen and elaine and elicia all went to Stones River Mall... and stephen started talkin about how much he loves american eagle and blah blah blah... wow... can u say poser... but yeh... he was totally hittin on elicia... not cool... brothers arent allowed to hit on friends... well yeh... anyways... we went home at like 10.15 and at 11.30 micheal came and picked me and stephen up and we went bowling from midnight to 3.30 in the morning... i did really good... lol... then i got home at like 5 in the morning... and i texted and called a bunch of people... haha... im so cruel....

Today... i texted elicia when i woke up at like 10 or 11... to see what they were up to and elicia informs me that they were comin over in 30 minutes... haha... its cool though... my mom loves them... so i had to get a fast shower.... but when they got there... of all things they could do... they help my mom set up a christmas tree cuz me and stephen are to lazy... lol... i got a bunch of pictures today... but i dont have the cord to put them on the computer from my phone... lol... that stinks... but yeh... they left at like 4 or somethin and then my mom left at 6 and now im babysittin.... fun stuff.... me, elaine, and elicia are supposed to hang out after they get back from the mall with their families... so yeh... c ya...

life is way to perfect.... 

i went to the movies with only the coolest people ever tuesday night.... philip, molly (i think thats her name... idk some random siegel chick)... CHRISTI, and LL COOL J (LJ/THE BEST G.F EVER)

let me just say... Walk The Line is a looooonnnng movie... but a good one... its the one about johnny cash... i highly approve... u should all go see it... hehe... but like it started at 7.05 and we were there til 9.30 and it still wasnt over... so we just kinda walked out... haha... oh well... but yeh... i hadnt had sleep in 40 hours when i went to the theatre.. how i stayed up the whole time i dont know... but i did...

wednesday... boogaboogabooyah... highlight of my week... Ellain Duzor and Elicia (whatever) are some of the coolest people ull ever find... garaunteed... ok so the laydown... (ill leave a few names out cuz they might get into trouble if i say there name...)but yeh.... ellain came and picked me up at like 4 or 5 or somethin like that...and we went to the mall... so we were doin like nohtin there then we went into american eagle cuz i needed to get a good track jacket and yeh... i ended up spendin 180 dollars... and most of it on ellain and elicia... so what the crap... but i called someone to see if they wanted to hang out with us and they were wasted like crap... but him kyle and someone else that ill remain nameless came and met us...and the one guy was tellin us how he threw up on his new pants... and he was wasted so he told us like 894237509328745 times... haha... then we went to mcdonalds and i bought him food and then we were gonna follow him to a party so we were followin him or whatever and we found out they were just drivin around and when we found that out we decided we were gonna go get elicia again (ryan click picked her up at the mall) so we went to get her and we called the guy so he could get kyle to meet us so we could follow him but noo... he got all buttholish and wouldnt answer his phone... so i called from ellains phone and he answered and hung up... what a freakin hoe... so basically.. he was wasted and he ditched us.. whatever... we had more fun without him... me ellain and elicia went to the grind and met up with my oldest brother and he gave me somethin and then we were gonna go to Tiget Hill but ellain didnt wanna drive that far so we went to walmart... and i spent another 60 freakin dollars on ellain and elicia... but its cool cuz i love them... but yeh out of my entire medical settlment check (that i got cashed last saturday) i have 2 dollars left... thats a lot of money to spend in 4 days... like holy crap... but yeh...

today was really good... i had a headache this morning... but had a dang good lunch... and tonight im goin over to jareds house... actually hes on his way... so i should go...

you people are all so amazing... including Sarah Gearhart (random Phusebox friend)  

party at my house december 2nd... theres gonna be tons of people... call me if you wanna go... seriously i dont even care if iknow u... jsut call ill give u times and directions... 3.9.7.6.7.7.7

ok so basically... heres the rundown of whats gone on since i last updated...

1: had ISS for 3 days... 2 for bein late for the 12th time to 3rd and one for callin coach schmeltzer (my 3rd period teacher) "dude" not even in a disrespectful way... my exact words were "dude i got 2 days ISS for bein late to your class"... but yeh...

2: i was gonna go to the movies friday... but i didnt... i seriously dont remember what i did... but i know i did something.... ugh...

3: Addie Bakers b-day party... amusing... thats enough said... haha... i got a book about smurfs for being the one who knew the least about addie... (long story... idont wanna type it all)... but the party was awesome...

4: i over slept sunday... so i didnt go to church... poop

5: got to school monday and found out that because i was late friday to first period that i either got 3 days of ISS or 1 day of OSS... and look at the time stamp... its only 220... that means im at home... yeh... i have freakin OSS... thats so freakin lame....

6: i might/ want to go to the movies tonight with lauren, christi, and philip... but i havent talked to any of them (but philip) about it since Addies party... so idk... but i dont wanna sit at home tonight.... so im goin somewhere like it or not... i dont care who with... lol

7: i got my medical settlement check (for my wreck) in saturday... and cashed it... iv already seemed to blow over 250 though... omfreakingsh.... i burn holes in my pockets...

but anyways... more recent "whatevers"... this break... i have no idea what im doing... i might go to my uncles in arkansas (yeehaw... *puke*).... my grandmother is coming in sunday.... idk what shes gonna do... so this is a little adventure in the making..

whatever...

c ya

weekend= uh-mazin... yeh... just astounding...

friday... went to my dads... that was rather boring...

saturday... got a message from my ex of like 98437529083745 years and she wanted to know if i wanted to go see a movie with her and amber... and yeh i wanted to cuz like... shes lindsay... and i havent seen her in forever... so i went... and we were gonna see Saw2 but like it said it was sold out right as we got to the front of the line... but we went and saw the funniest movie iv seen in a long time... everyone go see it... zathara... yeh thats right... freakin movie of amazingness... it was freakin hilarious... then me, lindsay freakin duncan, amber arnold, ambers mom/boyfriend/boyfriends sister all went to Chilis afterwards.... so thats freakin cool... then i went home... hehe

sizzunday...went and played bass first service at church... then went to get coffee... then i called Elaine and she met me and the zachmeister and we hung out for like 15 minutes... then i went to church... sunday school... then bass 2nd service... so yeh... sunday night i wanted to have some people up... i had a definate of 45 people that were gonna come over... but lauren wasnt gonna be able to come... but u know me... being the good (official boyfriend) i am... i cancelled my party to go see her.... then i found out that i wasnt gonna be able to make it... but i didnt wanna call everyone again to tell them to come over still... so i just called elaine...and she came over for a few hours... so thats cool

today...i went to school... 1st was boring... Mr T wouldnt let me make announcements yet again... oh well... 2nd period... i got my phone taken up.... again... brand new phone too... just got it friday... ugh... well the freakin teacher didnt take it to the front office like he should so when my mom came to pick me up after auditions for the musical... and she wasnt able to get the  phone when she came and picked me up... so that sucked.... so im goin a couple of days without a cell phone... and that bites.... had auditions for the musical today... i went with drew, sam, and lakeisha... it was cool... but i screwed up the song i had to sing and i thought i was too dramatic for the cold reading... thats y i like monolouges better... but if i make the play then i wont quit choir... but i really really want to... i make take it next year... who knows... but yeh...

tonight... YoungLife...its gonna be the shizz... its at the bowling alley... i like bowling... tehe... lol... but yeh... ill update maybe when i get home... u guys all rock... even you Lizbit... <--random phusebox friend name>

i should probable stop making long posts... you people never read them

my life lately has been... whats the word... estatic ... yeh thats it... lets see... i got into a wreck... but it god rid of the car we didnt want... i go through wierd times with girls and now im about to go out with the girl of my freaking dreams... My grades start to slip but suddenly all of my teachers want to give me extra credit... my old springy bed was killin me... i couldnt sleep... i would wake up in pain... yeh... i come home sunday and my mom had surprised me with a bed 3 times the size and by far the most comfortable bed ever... me and my brother are becoming really good friends... wierd cuz we used to like... totally despise eachother... i start running low on money and my mom tells me today that because of mine and my brothers injuries in the wreck were getting a $1000 check by the end of the week... ok... i just wanna put these in a list

1: The ugly car is gone and were getting a cool one

2: Lauren Johnson is absolutely everything iv been looking for

3: Me and my bro will have $1000 dollars in a few days

4: my mom informed me 2 days ago that she got me 2 new cell phones... one of them being the one i have ALWAYS wanted

5: my grades are getting better by the second

6: my friends are simply amazing

7: I proved paul wrong... hehe...but im totally happy for him

8: (of all things) i was looking for a certain type of mirror to put in my room... found them for 1500 dollars and the day after... the place i was working was gonna throw a set of mirrors IDENTICAL to the 1500 dollar ones away and they gave them to me

9: iv completely redone my room and now it looks sheerly amazing

10: My mom is by far my bestest friend in the whole world... and that makes me happy to say that

11: my dad is being less of a jerk

12: my sister-in-laws baby is due in less than a month... Kevin Scott Slate

13: A really cool person (storey freakin akers) got moved back into my 6th person... shes awesome

14: i was offered a job... but i wanna keep it on the DL until i know if im gonna take it... but trust me... its one of those jobs that a lot of people would envy

15: Me and Karla (the girl in the picture 2 posts ago) hung out sunday... and yeh... shes the epitomy of amazing

16: after the band im in gets going... iv already got us 2 labels... we just have to go record

ok so if you cant tell... nothing seems to be able to bring me down lately... the wreck even made me laugh... no matter what anyone seems to say to me lately i just dont care... today some guy was cussin me out and crap and i seriously didnt care... All the people i once thought was mad at me... ALL came up and talked to me in the halls today... my teachers (espicially my 1st period) all seem to be taking more of a role then just the person that gets paid to talk... they all seem to be role models... and by far... i think one guy that has really helped me thtough this year is the main guy i bash all the time... and i plan to thank him for bein there, tomorrow.... and that is Mr Tomlinson... hes actually a great guy... just he can be a jerk at times... but a few things hes done lately has made me gain a LOT of respect for him...

one thing i cant get over.... in that wreck... i was thinkin about it... we were goin about 60... and where we hit was right on my side... i know that it is insane that i only got a minor bit of whiplash that lasted for 3 days... 2 great people were killed in a car wreck 5-25-05... Hope Brownlowe and Lori Golliher... and i know that they had their hand on me and my brother in that wreck... Hopey and lubby... thank you... i miss you guys... *RIP Hope and Lori*... i could have been the next to go VERY easily... and you can be too... i know u probably here this a million times but take this from someone who could have easily been looking death in the face... You only live once... live it to the fullest... ur not promised tomorrow... and the only thing that can promise you happiness is God... He can help you with absolutely anything... and he garauntees you eternal happiness after death... The one promise that someone literally died for... he died for me... he died for you... and he did it all so willingly... trust him... the world truly is in his hands... God Bless

You guys have no idea how much you mean to me... even the people i randomly message on Phusebox... you guys are all amazing... without you i wouldnt be here... i would have died years ago... thank you... all of you...

if you cant tell from the title... i was in a wreck... yeh... my bro was drivin... we were headin to church... a guy in a red truck (Chris Goins... senior at Oakland) was turning left on Greenland... turned a little late though... and we couldnt stop... i remember i was lookin down... and i look up and see nothing but red... yeh so i got out of the car and at first i was mad... but then it hit me... "wait... we wanted to get rid of that car anyways..." so yeh... me and stephen were laughin and jokin around... then chris morgan came and he was gonna take me to church... u know... since the car was gone... but yeh... so i ended up havin to wait for like and hour and a half just to tell the cop my name b-day and middle initial... what the crap... well while we were still outside i wasnt hurt at all... i fealt like any other day... so i went to church and after sittin through the half of service i didnt miss... i got really really tense... and sore... o god so sore... well ms jeanna took me home and as we got there stephen and my mom were on there way to the emergency room and were like "hey are u hurt at all cuz my wrist is killin me were gonna go to the hospital".. so i told my mom about my neck and she  told me i should go too... come to find out i have whiplash... bad... that night i couldnt hardly sleep cuz i was in so much freakin pain... i left school early thursday and i didnt go to school friday... but today... i feel 100% fine... kinda wierd... i go from horrible pain... to absolutely fine... but yeh... im not complainin... haha... ok but i am kinda ticked.... i was makin some advertisements for phusebox... and i spent like 5 hours workin to play with some stuff and make it look good... and i finally finish and im so happy... i go to upload them... and it didnt upload... so that kinda ticks me off.... but ill tell u what they were... one was a hot air balloon... it was cool... one was a billboard that said "War on Iraq is NOT the answer... PhuseboxBETA... now theres an answer" and then one was a cut out of a arbys cup that i turned sideways and put to a mountain background... i put a cape on it and it was "Captain Phusebox" it was the funniest ad iv ever seen... thats for sure... but yeh... i couldng get them to upload... and that still ticks me off... i emailed them to Beck and he told me to try the copy he sent me and that still didnt work... i have no idea why it wouldnt work... i did the exact same thing with those as i did with my profile picture... i took the original... and i colored it... what the crap... oh well... im still workin on it...  but yeh... i dont really know what to say anymore... this has probably been the most boring post ever made... and i probably sound like a nerdy freshman... haha... oh well... whatever... im out

of all the things goin on now... all my stress... all my work... everything... all i can seem to think about is the friend i feel as though im losing...

Karla Lozano... I love you

ok... so i was gettin ready to go to laurens and suddenly my doorbell rings... i open the door cautiously... to see a 3 foot batman... (the movies so make him look bigger) well he suddenly lets out a sound of retched horror... "Trick Or Treat!!!" said the world known hero... i was scared... i mean... this is Batman... the one who can sooo friggin own you... and he offered me a treat... or a trick... well obviously i did what any smart man would do... i kicked him in the shins and shut the door just joking... but i did offer him a piece of candy to save my mortal flesh... shortly behing him was a shady character... he told Batman to hurry up... he said... "its cold out here"... the Hero looked back... and said "hold on" and all off a sudden... the beast was unleashed... the unknown man grabbed the kid and devoured his face... actually... he looked at Batman and said "Shut the f*** up"... i was in shock... i just knew that in any second Batman would so whoop that hoes butt... so i shut the door and played a happy song on my guitar  little do i know what happened to the mysterious figure... or Batman... but i do know... that today... will forever live in infamy... Today was the day... That Batman met "STFU"

ok so that was lame... but ill update later... im off to laurens... then probably a party afterwards at Greek Row... im out...

i think its time to celebrate

CONGRATULATIONS NATHAN!!!!! i wish you both the best...

so if you havent heard by now... the best website designer alive is now... the best website designer fiance' alive...

congratulations... but i wanna be invited to the wedding... lol jk...

well yeh... anywhoo...

it seems my life has been so utterly confusing lately...

i like her... but i like her*... but she** means a lot to me... i want to ask her out... she** wants me to ask her** out... but im fallin for her* again... if you cant tell... the stars make a difference... means a different girl... means a different face... a different personality... but the same crush...

A toast to Nathan... the one who can make up his mind!!! i truly do wish u the best...

dont get mad if i never breathe again... my smile is officially faded and slash or confused...

call me out... call me the emo prep poser wanna-be...

umm ok??? am i supposed to care what you think... pardon me while i ignore you... your wasting your breath... go away...

theres a bridge... jump...dear god please!!!...

ur breathing is retched... cease to live you whore....

i cant wait til halloween... im gonna be tinkerbell... and Liz Joines is gonna be Peter Pan... any takers for Hook or RUFIOOOOOO!!!!!???...

Lauren... you keep me laughing/breathing/living/here at all... thank you...

Elaine... you keep me confused... wheres that bridge again?...

Jessica... look... ur name is in your favorite color... best friends are best freinds... thats all i need to say... i love you more than life itself... really i do...

Sara... you keep my hopes high...

Kayla... well ur kayla... never change... ever...

Liz... you have to be the coolest person i have EVER met... our talks... just amazing... our jokes... just astounding... us... just wierd... lol... i love you dearly...

Karla... we basically just met... im glad we did though... ur one cool chick...

paul... ur not supposed to sing or speed... but yeh... ur paul so thats not gonna happen... haha... what a mustang... lol...

BrittyPoo... can i ask for more of a slut... i meant... a friend... hehe... ur cool...

Storey... im so glad i dont hate you anymore... lol... though the 1st period "Storey Akers is a B****" convos a surely missed... lol... jk... i love you boo...

GOD... we've lost touch... help me...

to all my friends i have sadly left out... thank you for keeping my heart beating... I love you all so much...

Cheers to you my loves

I love my life... everthing about it... its just amazing im gettin yet another new phone by the end of the week... Cingular sucks... so im gettin T-mobile... dont know the number... obviously... but ill keep you updated.. i have ISS tomorrow and thursday... o well went off on El Senior Tomlinson today... fun times... fun times... my friends are estatic i like a girl she likes me and yes... i am going to ask her out... soon so yeh... i think im gonna go live my life... i love it... so dearly... envy me....

wow... if the title doesnt say enough... ok so basically... this is my weeks layoutso far... monday was basic school... nothin big... i was supposed to hang out with Nicole after school but that didnt go thru cuz she was sick... tuesday was lame... one club meeting in the morning... an announcement...school.... detention... home... the end... wednesday was cool... school... random cool things goin on there... hung out with Karla after school... we went to Jasons Deli with her parents... and OMG... her parents are the epitomy of cool... haha thursday/today was same ole same ole... it was school... made an announcement... then classes... and jensi and i were gonna hang out but she wasnt freakin at school.... what a hoe... lol... i was supposed to have detention... but ms yeager wasnt there so i didnt go and im gonna tell her that i couldnt go today and yeh... ill get it rescheduled... and hows about like EVERYONE had detention today so i kinda wish i woulda gone... ok tomorrow... friday... its gonna be freakin cool... One Club in the morning... then basic "whatever" announcement... then classes... then im skippin 6th and gonna go home with Liz and shes drivin me to STEPHEN FREAKIN TURNERS PARTAY... i cant wait... techno is the shiz.. dancing is the shiz... parties are the shiz... therefor... techno dance parties WILL BE THE SHIZ... and yeh... it think thats all... i will most definately update about the partay... The Endcall me sometime.. 556-5642five.five.six.dash.five.six.four.two.... i cant wait... techno is the shiz.. dancing is the shiz... parties are the shiz... therefor... techno dance parties WILL BE THE SHIZ... and yeh... it think thats all... i will most definately update about the partay... The Endcall me sometime.. 556-5642five.five.six.dash.five.six.four.two.

that chick is sooo my new best friend... Haha... ^dont we look sexy^ ok just to let u all know... aaron massey makes the coolest music videos EVER... he made one to a Taking Back Sunday song... "This Picture Is Proof" it looks professional... i love it... go to his site... its amazing... well anywhoo... random info.. i almost lost my NEW PHONE at school like 2 days after i got it... luckily katie kimbell found it and gave it to me.... but unfortunately all the way from the start of first lunch to the end of 5th period it was connected to the internet... so i have to go get more minutes added to my account today... me and elaine got into... not neccecarily a fight... but an argument... but now were all good... this morning we apologized... and yeh... were cool now.... Sara Effin Romans is startin to become cool again... she wrote me a note today... i wont type the whole thing but it basically said that she wanted to start going to church and she wanted to know if she could go to mine with me... that makes my job like 98475283645 times easier... and paul told me that felicia (her cousin) was tellin him a while ago about how when we started to go out she stopped drinking and smoking and anything bad... for me... but when we broke up she started doin it again... and now shes stopped... hopefully for good.... why paul didnt bother to tell me earlier... i have no freakin clue... im not even gonna lie... that makes me mad that he didnt tell me sooner... instead he led me on to believe she was a drunk, pothead, slut.... so umm ok... but who cares... shes not now... so im not that mad about it... i havent so much as seen Nicole Briard (sp?)since friday night.... but since then iv met Karla Lasagna... i meant... Lozano... haha... and she is muy muy el coolio.. lol... iv been able to suck up to like all of my teachers lately and now i can do like whatever i want... for example... in my 3rd... this girl ashley needed to go to the library... the teacher wouldnt let her... i needed to get somethin out of my locker... i went up... i asked... she started laughin and was like "i told you amillion times not to forget ur book.... go ahead" then ashley was like... how come he can go and not me... and i go "ill watch her... u can let her go..." and the teacher said "ok ashley... u can go"..... so yeh... theres one example... i love it... my grades are good... i cam miss like all the assignments and still end up with a 99 average... hehe... im just that good... im having a few... mixed thoughts... about my church... i was keeping it on the down low... only a few people knew... but now i guess i can tell... im greatly considering leaving family worship center... the people there... as well as the youth pastor... are all getting to be to much to handle... ill most likely go to another church like FWC or somethin... but right now... im not sure if im gonna leave FWC... one thing can stop me... and ill find out if thatll happen tomorrow at church... my life seems to be like...whats the word... really friggin sweet.... look at my post 2 posts ago.... yeh... reffer to that... i live a laguna beach life... minus the drama... and ever since i left LaVergne High School and moved to Oakland... the dramas been gone... thank god... and yeh... consider this post a goodbye to all of the people in lavergne... "good bye... i never want to talk to you people again.... oakland people are better..." and at that note... i think ill say goodbye to all of you... have a nice day... i know i have... :-D .... c ya The End... so i have to go get more minutes added to my account today... me and elaine got into... not neccecarily a fight... but an argument... but now were all good... this morning we apologized... and yeh... were cool now.... Sara Effin Romans is startin to become cool again... she wrote me a note today... i wont type the whole thing but it basically said that she wanted to start going to church and she wanted to know if she could go to mine with me... that makes my job like 98475283645 times easier... and paul told me that felicia (her cousin) was tellin him a while ago about how when we started to go out she stopped drinking and smoking and anything bad... for me... but when we broke up she started doin it again... and now shes stopped... hopefully for good.... why paul didnt bother to tell me earlier... i have no freakin clue... im not even gonna lie... that makes me mad that he didnt tell me sooner... instead he led me on to believe she was a drunk, pothead, slut.... so umm ok... but who cares... shes not now... so im not that mad about it... i havent so much as seen Nicole Briard (sp?)since friday night.... but since then iv met Karla Lasagna... i meant... Lozano... haha... and she is muy muy el coolio.. lol... iv been able to suck up to like all of my teachers lately and now i can do like whatever i want... for example... in my 3rd... this girl ashley needed to go to the library... the teacher wouldnt let her... i needed to get somethin out of my locker... i went up... i asked... she started laughin and was like "i told you amillion times not to forget ur book.... go ahead" then ashley was like... how come he can go and not me... and i go "ill watch her... u can let her go..." and the teacher said "ok ashley... u can go"..... so yeh... theres one example... i love it... my grades are good... i cam miss like all the assignments and still end up with a 99 average... hehe... im just that good... im having a few... mixed thoughts... about my church... i was keeping it on the down low... only a few people knew... but now i guess i can tell... im greatly considering leaving family worship center... the people there... as well as the youth pastor... are all getting to be to much to handle... ill most likely go to another church like FWC or somethin... but right now... im not sure if im gonna leave FWC... one thing can stop me... and ill find out if thatll happen tomorrow at church... my life seems to be like...whats the word... really friggin sweet.... look at my post 2 posts ago.... yeh... reffer to that... i live a laguna beach life... minus the drama... and ever since i left LaVergne High School and moved to Oakland... the dramas been gone... thank god... and yeh... consider this post a goodbye to all of the people in lavergne... "good bye... i never want to talk to you people again.... oakland people are better..." and at that note... i think ill say goodbye to all of you... have a nice day... i know i have... :-D .... c ya The End... so i have to go get more minutes added to my account today... me and elaine got into... not neccecarily a fight... but an argument... but now were all good... this morning we apologized... and yeh... were cool now.... Sara Effin Romans is startin to become cool again... she wrote me a note today... i wont type the whole thing but it basically said that she wanted to start going to church and she wanted to know if she could go to mine with me... that makes my job like 98475283645 times easier... and paul told me that felicia (her cousin) was tellin him a while ago about how when we started to go out she stopped drinking and smoking and anything bad... for me... but when we broke up she started doin it again... and now shes stopped... hopefully for good.... why paul didnt bother to tell me earlier... i have no freakin clue... im not even gonna lie... that makes me mad that he didnt tell me sooner... instead he led me on to believe she was a drunk, pothead, slut.... so umm ok... but who cares... shes not now... so im not that mad about it... i havent so much as seen Nicole Briard (sp?)since friday night.... but since then iv met Karla Lasagna... i meant... Lozano... haha... and she is muy muy el coolio.. lol... iv been able to suck up to like all of my teachers lately and now i can do like whatever i want... for example... in my 3rd... this girl ashley needed to go to the library... the teacher wouldnt let her... i needed to get somethin out of my locker... i went up... i asked... she started laughin and was like "i told you amillion times not to forget ur book.... go ahead" then ashley was like... how come he can go and not me... and i go "ill watch her... u can let her go..." and the teacher said "ok ashley... u can go"..... so yeh... theres one example... i love it... my grades are good... i cam miss like all the assignments and still end up with a 99 average... hehe... im just that good... im having a few... mixed thoughts... about my church... i was keeping it on the down low... only a few people knew... but now i guess i can tell... im greatly considering leaving family worship center... the people there... as well as the youth pastor... are all getting to be to much to handle... ill most likely go to another church like FWC or somethin... but right now... im not sure if im gonna leave FWC... one thing can stop me... and ill find out if thatll happen tomorrow at church... my life seems to be like...whats the word... really friggin sweet.... look at my post 2 posts ago.... yeh... reffer to that... i live a laguna beach life... minus the drama... and ever since i left LaVergne High School and moved to Oakland... the dramas been gone... thank god... and yeh... consider this post a goodbye to all of the people in lavergne... "good bye... i never want to talk to you people again.... oakland people are better..." and at that note... i think ill say goodbye to all of you... have a nice day... i know i have... :-D .... c ya The End... so i have to go get more minutes added to my account today... me and elaine got into... not neccecarily a fight... but an argument... but now were all good... this morning we apologized... and yeh... were cool now.... Sara Effin Romans is startin to become cool again... she wrote me a note today... i wont type the whole thing but it basically said that she wanted to start going to church and she wanted to know if she could go to mine with me... that makes my job like 98475283645 times easier... and paul told me that felicia (her cousin) was tellin him a while ago about how when we started to go out she stopped drinking and smoking and anything bad... for me... but when we broke up she started doin it again... and now shes stopped... hopefully for good.... why paul didnt bother to tell me earlier... i have no freakin clue... im not even gonna lie... that makes me mad that he didnt tell me sooner... instead he led me on to believe she was a drunk, pothead, slut.... so umm ok... but who cares... shes not now... so im not that mad about it... i havent so much as seen Nicole Briard (sp?)since friday night.... but since then iv met Karla Lasagna... i meant... Lozano... haha... and she is muy muy el coolio.. lol... iv been able to suck up to like all of my teachers lately and now i can do like whatever i want... for example... in my 3rd... this girl ashley needed to go to the library... the teacher wouldnt let her... i needed to get somethin out of my locker... i went up... i asked... she started laughin and was like "i told you amillion times not to forget ur book.... go ahead" then ashley was like... how come he can go and not me... and i go "ill watch her... u can let her go..." and the teacher said "ok ashley... u can go"..... so yeh... theres one example... i love it... my grades are good... i cam miss like all the assignments and still end up with a 99 average... hehe... im just that good... im having a few... mixed thoughts... about my church... i was keeping it on the down low... only a few people knew... but now i guess i can tell... im greatly considering leaving family worship center... the people there... as well as the youth pastor... are all getting to be to much to handle... ill most likely go to another church like FWC or somethin... but right now... im not sure if im gonna leave FWC... one thing can stop me... and ill find out if thatll happen tomorrow at church... my life seems to be like...whats the word... really friggin sweet.... look at my post 2 posts ago.... yeh... reffer to that... i live a laguna beach life... minus the drama... and ever since i left LaVergne High School and moved to Oakland... the dramas been gone... thank god... and yeh... consider this post a goodbye to all of the people in lavergne... "good bye... i never want to talk to you people again.... oakland people are better..." and at that note... i think ill say goodbye to all of you... have a nice day... i know i have... :-D .... c ya The End

photo from another_lostsongmeet the chick iv spent all my time with

ok... so iv come to a conclusion:

i live a total laguna beach life

 seriously... think about it... im out like all the time... never get in earlier than midnight... my parents spoil the crap out of me... i dont have a curfew... well i do.... my mom always tells me to be in before the sun comes up... iv beeninvited to like 8728634208576 parties... but iv only gone to 3 i think...maybe 4... yeh... i mean.... despite the rich parents... ginormous house... and picture perfect city.... i live a laguna beach life....

ok... now that thats outta the way

last night at about 6 30 paul picked me up... we met up at oaklands annex parking lot... so most of the people got there... then me and paul had to go pick up karla... so at like 7 30 me,paul,katie kimbell, karla lazano, jeremy zajas, matt ?, matts friend, elizabutt, kate hooper, kelsey stroop, mike sandman, kelseys little sister, sarah walls, randy rodden, liz joines, and maybe some more people... all went to the corn maze... and we were GONNA go to a movie afterwards... but a lot of people didnt want to... so me, karla, randy, and liz all went to the movies and everyone else went to DQ... but i think me, liz, randy, and karla had the most fun... we saw elizabethtown.... i was to tired to pay attention... so dont ask me if it was a good movie cuz i dont know... idk... maybe ill go tomorrow... but yeh...

call me for plans...

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I love my life... what. a. hoe.