=( could things get better please? =(

February 06 2006

ok.. so my appeal case for Daniel Mckee is this wednesday... so pray like crazy and keep your fingers crossed...



you wanna know the main reason why i dont wanna go to daniel mckee?... well as i said in my last post... Stuart said he was gonna ask lauren out... and lauren may tell me that shell say no... but i know that if she doesnt see me everyday at school then shell start talkin to him more then shell go out with him when he asks her... and that scares me...



she asked me a very very serious question on the phone... only 2 people know about it... addie and jessica... and that question has a lot to do with our future together... and after she asked me that she posted on her xanga that we were through... that hurts me... bad



my best friend put a pic of us on her xanga then a quote about how she was close to letting go... that really makes me feel good to know that the 2 people i love the most both want to let me go...



i dont know what to do anymore... life is only getting worse... but i know it will get better



me and lindsay went out for a long time and this is how i fealt when she broke up with me... and now im over than and i barely even think of her at all... and i know that if me and lauren truly are "through" then ill get to the point where i barely ever think of her... but i dont want to get to that point...



i miss how life was 3 weeks ago... that was perfect

adam rodrigues

February 06 2006
three weeks ago was perfect. or is it that the filter's being removed?

Lauren Johnson

February 06 2006
he asked. last night. i said no. what i asked still stands i was just in the someone give me a gun and alot of pills mood..... when i did my xanga we arent through i dont know what we are all i know is that i screw up more than the average person and that i love you.

kayla hale

February 06 2006
well 1st period quiter...i mean different with out ya

♥Ash*Bo♥

February 06 2006
Whats up?Nmh...just thought that I would come and say hi so...HI!Lol...well I wish I could say so much more but I dont have anything to talk about..um...&& I hope you dont have to leave Oakland && I hope you feel better!<3 Ashleigh*

Jessica Hunter

February 06 2006
chris ... im pray for you every chance i get ... i hope everything works out with u && lauren .. as much as u kno i dont want to say that ... I DO ! i want u to be happy && i kno with Lauren u will <33

justin daniels

February 06 2006
good luck man!

Teresa Smith

February 06 2006
Hmmm. Break ups are very very hard. I don't know u or Lauren so I can't exactly give you good advice...sry. But just trust in Jesus. I know I put all my problems in His hadns and let my problems be his... I felt so much better and a weight was really lifted from ym shoulders. I'll pray for ya. =) <3

Betsy Mcmahan

February 06 2006
i hope everything works out.

Teresa Smith

February 06 2006
wow..small world. =) Losing a friend is hard... Like I said it seems like part of your life is gone... But no problem about the remarks. I really hope things start lookin' up for you.

link06

February 07 2006
Right now, don't worry about having a girlfriend or not. God should be number one in your life, NOTHING ELSE.....If you keep thinking about all the times you have messed up or about all of the things you wished you would have done something a little different, you are just gonna keep going nowhere that much faster. Listen to what I am saying, because I know from experience. It took 5 months for me to get back up to where I was with Christ, all because I decided to put other things before God. From what I hear, she still love you....so don't worry about it, put EVERYTHING in God's hands, including this; and God will take care of you and provide for you. Just remember that all of your friends pray for you everyday.....Let God handle your court case too, and if you do that, He WILL bless you for it.....

Significance

February 07 2006
you forget i know don't you?

Becca Hicks

February 07 2006
okay, chris... you know i'm here. you have my number. i've been through a lot, you know that as well. i'm ALWAYS here, because i know what it's like to feel as if no one really cares...well, if they don't, I DO..and don't forget that. i know how it feels. i've been to the bottom and back more times than i want to count. i'm better now. you know that, i know that. and i'm always here. i still love you, and i never plan on "letting you go"...even though we're not as close as we used to be, (i wish we were) i'll always continue to be here for ya. i love you so much man, don't EVER hesitate to call me. i'm always here, and will ALWAYS answer your call. [your beccabeccaboo]

Chelsey Montgomery

February 08 2006
i know the serious question too. lol <br>gahh i hope stuff is better for you. <br>if you need someone to talk to, im here. <br>good luck today in court. &hearts;

Addie

February 08 2006
hey hun.. it makes me sad that you are so sad... but i like your attitude abotu it you are right things will get better! and ill be happy when the do but for now you just gotta grin and bear it.. i never really got that but it seemed appropriate! lol im always here.. just liek everyother person who commented this post lol! L.0.L

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