They see the scars upon her arm but never wonder why the pain she feels is so unreal sometime she just wants to die, to take the pain and throw it away for a moment of happiness. to never have to wonder why it had to be like this? to wake up in the morning not wondering why she can't die, to be able to walk through the day and from god she would not have to hide. to take the moments she almost had and make them real again. to take the weakness inside her and be strong again to finally sleep good at night instead of crying alone, wondering why the god above wouldn't just leave her alone. she tried to ask him for his help but he was never there it was like he turned his back like he never knew she was there. so then she took the god she loved and threw it all away for a life thats not worth living but it makes it seem ok.