man...Nathan, i barely even know you, and you leaving has depressed the crap out of me. which is weird, since i don't get depressed by much. maybe i'm having sympathy sadness for other people...or maybe i've gone crazy (which is a very good possibility). oh well. i miss oakland, which i never thought i'd say. i miss my posse. finished Ethan Frome, which was probably the saddest book ever. Next on the list...Fahrenheit 451. and later, Silas Marner. oh joy. but at least i have Big Stuf to look forward to. i've been really sad lately. i think i may need to fix some things in my life. i don't know what's got me down. i think Nathan's departure has triggered something in me. for one thing, i want to live in New York and have a career there w/ NHNY (not to follow Nathan, i just love NY). also though, i just feel like everyone's leaving without me. oh well. i guess my life and surroundings are not as stable as they used to be. Or maybe i'm just noticing them. Maybe they've never been stable, but i was to content to notice. anyhow, i think i'm going to bed. nite.