Hey everyone!! So school has had its up and downs...Up: Not seeing alot of my high school people, having huge breaks between my classes, getting involved in christian ministries...Quest and AO...Down: Not knowing anyone, not talking alot anymore, I have become moreshy than usual, having a feeling of aloness, haven't made any friends in any of my classes and its like the 3rd week of school...Since school has started I have changed so much...I use to be so outgoing now I am mute...People might think I'm acting snobby but I'm not...I just don't have anything to say...I've lost anything and everything to talk about...I've become boring...which I've always wished would never happen to me...My worst fears have happened...sigh...Peace Love....oh yeah a little bit of Happiness

Aww had a GREAT night!! Enough said!!

I REALLY NEED TO MOVE OUT NOW!!!! GAH I HATE MY LIFE!!!

I hate being nice...I gave my heart out to him and it just seems like he didn't care...it hurts...I had strong feelings for you and all you did was walk all over me...when you were down and did some pretty screwed up things I was there to try pick you up...I wanted to see you happy...I wanted to see you get better but you ended up getting worse and worse...you say you want to change but you constantly do the same things over and over and over again...when will you learn...when will I learn...


*sigh*

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I WANT TO MOVE OUT NOW!!

Hey hey hey!! I just got back from Destin which was oodles of fun!! Fighting as usual. I went to Destin for my cousin's wedding. It was my first ever wedding!! It was soooo sweet!! I want to get married on a beach!! I've been reading people's entries and its just weird how we all relate in some way. I haven't really met someone that was having the same problems I was. I feel like I can't trust people because I always get hurt. Maybe its the constant fighting in my house that has made me the way I am. Now I am quiet and have nothing to say. I use to be so outgoing and fun and wouldn't stop talking....Where did that girl go? I miss her!! I miss the loving and carefree girl!! Now I'm so self conscience about EVERYTHING!! I'm scared of getting hurt...I'm scared to get in relationships so I push guys away...If your smart keep trying!! I just don't want to be hurt...maybe you can change my fears...

Well I'm not hating MTSU as much anymore....I'm getting use to it...For the past couple days I have acted like a complete idiot!! LONG STORY!! Typical Freshmen I guess...The weather needs to get better!! My favorite class is University 1010...I know its a crap class but I love Mrs. Avent and the people in there. Oh I tested out of some of my remedial classes!! Now I have REAL classes!! Sweet!! Um nothing has been happening lately...My life is this: School, Work, Dance, Church, Dance, more work, and Church...nothing else. My life is so boring...maybe someone can change that?

Energetic Erica
*From University 1010*

I've never felt so unwelcomed...school starts tomorrow...JOY...

I need to find a roomate!! NOW! I don't think I can handle it anymore!!

THANK YOU JESUS!! I AM BACK!! So I'm nice and tan...well except for my retarded face...it makes my cry...well not alot has happened...I mostly work alot...basically because no one loves me...Just joking!! I know you guys love me!! Part of me is excited about school but I'm nervous!! Peace and Love

Hey everyone!! Hope everyone is having an awesome week!! In a couple hours I'm leaving for Jackle Island(sp?)!! I can't wait!! I finally get to relax for a week!! No worries....sigh....See everyone in a week!! Leave tons of comments!!...please!!

This Summer has been very interesting...its been filled with work, boredom, pain, tears, many inside jokes, concerts, seeing drunk hookers walk around Nashville...yeah that was interesting...boys boys and lots of hot boys...THANKYOU GOD for hot boys!! Gah you got to love them!! Mmmm...oh sorry...yesterday I went with my youth group to Six Flags...and boy oh boy was that fun!! I FINALLY got over my fear of rollercoasters!! I loved it so much!! I went on Batman 3 times in a row, Mine Binder 2 times in a row, Ninja!!, Great American Scream Machine(ewww), some rocket thing...3 times in a row...I thought I was going to throwup on the girl in front of me!! How fun!! I think I did others but I can't remember which ones...I soooooo wanted to do Superman but the wait was like 2 hours long....riight...I also wanted to do The Scorcher...but I ran out of time...DANG IT!! Peace

Wow today was very crazy!! Today I had to wake up early for VBS...oh boy was that fun!! I was like a cheerleader and I had to pump up the kids and do the dances. Omg I got like attacked by kids...it was fun!! Then I had to go straight to work and yeah I am sooooooooo tired...and I have to do it again...everyday till Friday...Hurry up Friday!!

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I had to change sn because I had kida a stalker so my new sn is:

AzulEyes5
...oh and I LOATHE popups!!

I cut my hair....I don't know if I like it...

So I have been working like crazy this week...and it sucks!! I wish I could have a relaxing summer...um doesn't look like thats going to happen for awhile!! Is it just me or when you go on a break from school you can't function? Like you can't spell to save your life? Like this summer I have had to ask my mom for like the easiest words EVER!! I feel so retarded during the summer...my brain is just turned off...I question everything I spell now...w/e!! Well I just found out my dance teacher will be touring with The Backstreet Boys!! Well thats exciting but just a sucky group to dance to!! Make us proud Jordan!! More work this week and ALL next week I'm helping with VBS which should be fun...then leave right for work!! So yeahhhh hope everyone is having an awesome summer!! Stay safe and make good decisions!!

Man this week has been sooooooo BUSY!! I had to work alot this week...thats always fun...well and now I am in this interpetive dance for church....yeah we are performing it on Sunday and we have only had two practices....hmmm...well hope everyone is having a great summer!! Stay safe!!

The world today is upside down because there is so very little love in the home, and in family life. We have no time for each other. Everybody is in such a terrible rush, and so anxious…and in the home begins the disruption of the peace of the world.


-Mother Teresa

Well Customs is over!! THANKYOU JESUS!! Well I got my schedule and I think I am going to add yoga or dance of some sort...hmm decisions...well I got my I.D. and it came out pretty...definitely better than my license and that is fo sho!! Well I am excited about starting school and we had this student involvement thing where you got to meet different church activities and I can't wait!! I met some guys from Alpha Omega and they were really nice!! I'm trying to find a new youth group because...soon I won't have one...Oh and please pray for me to get these scholarships because it would help my family alot because now there is two kids in college and right now money is becoming tight...so yeah please keep us in your prayers...I hope we get them because it would calm my parents out...my mom is going CRAZY!! Oh and if anyone is looking for a roomate I am always here!!

Oh this has been the longest day of my life!! Well I spent all day at MTSU for Customs and what I am taking I feel so stupid!! STUPID A.C.T.!! I am a horrible test taker and I have to take 3 developmental classes and I am taking university 1010 so yeah....and I will be working and probably helping around with church....so yeah oh and my little tour guide person couldn't even spell Guatemala!!...and she is a Senior...majoring in Education....hmmm well thats all that happened today....Oh there are some freaking HOTT guys at MTSU....Maybe I'll like it after all...oh and I saw Renfroe...man I miss that girl!!

THANKYOU GOD FOR SUMMER!! So yeah I really haven't been able to esperience it alot because of work but its been very entertaining!! BRAINS UNLIMITED!! Haha sorry inside joke....yup so I saw High Tension the other day...it was very interesting...One of the better "scary" movie I guess....Oh and like two weeks ago I was in Illinois for a church trip...which was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!! Oh and I found my soul mate...is name is Eric and he is from December Radio...he is so freaking hott!! DANG!! I am so ready for the beach!! Only a couple more weeks!! THANKYOU JESUS!! Oh and I think I'm going to the Green Day concert or the Weezer concert...I can't wait!! Well tomorrow and Wednesday I have customs which is going to suck so can't wait for that!! I really wish I could have a dorm or an apartment...I think I will go crazy in this wacked up place!!

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I really really REALLY LOATHE Customs now!! Grrrrr!!

Ummm yeah I just clicked on a link and here I am....yeah interesting...Um well I can't type alot because I have to get ready for my dance recital!! FUN FUN...riight...well see ya later