Hey hey hey!! I just got back from Destin which was oodles of fun!! Fighting as usual. I went to Destin for my cousin's wedding. It was my first ever wedding!! It was soooo sweet!! I want to get married on a beach!! I've been reading people's entries and its just weird how we all relate in some way. I haven't really met someone that was having the same problems I was. I feel like I can't trust people because I always get hurt. Maybe its the constant fighting in my house that has made me the way I am. Now I am quiet and have nothing to say. I use to be so outgoing and fun and wouldn't stop talking....Where did that girl go? I miss her!! I miss the loving and carefree girl!! Now I'm so self conscience about EVERYTHING!! I'm scared of getting hurt...I'm scared to get in relationships so I push guys away...If your smart keep trying!! I just don't want to be hurt...maybe you can change my fears...