Honestly?

December 02 2006
I am contemplating whether to write just another blog entry or to bare out my soul to you tonight.

I guess I'll shoot for a happy medium.

I've noticed lately how we never want to tell people how we're really doing. How many days does this happen to you?
Friend: Hey! How are you?
You: I'm good! How about you?
Friend: I'm doing well! Well, I'll see you later!
You: See ya!
You think for a moment as you walk away, and then realize... "Who am I kidding? I'm not ok."

But really, how else are we supposed to approach these greetings in passing? I mean, honestly, what would you do if you walked by someone at school or church or work and, when you asked how they were doing, they turn said, "Pretty lousy"? We're not very honest with our feelings.

I don't think we're neccessarily supposed to share everything on our hearts and minds though. But we should at least not be afraid of what people would think if they knew we weren't really feeling all that ok. It's not like everyone else hasn't been not ok from time to time. We all have our low moments. But it seems to me that we all put on this front that we have it all together... that we're not just ok but that life is great and wonderful.

Anyhow, I say all that to tell you that my life is not all happy and rosey right now, but it's also not so horrible either. On Wednesday night I encountered God in a way that was long overdue and it was healing. I have a lot going on at school now which is never fun, but I'm trusting God to get me through it all. Last night I had these great plans that didn't go exactly as well as I hoped, but there was no real great loss in the scheme of things. As it has been for the past few years lately, I'm learning a lot these days.

Anyhow, in other news, I went and saw an opthomologist about my eye. He asked me questions and looked at from various angles but to no avail, he sees no problem. So, I guess that's good news, but I would still like to have the secret formula to make my slightly swollen eyelid go away. Whatever. I'm wearing contacts again and that makes me happy.

Nathan Moore

December 02 2006
amy, I have also considered the bland, programmed responses that we riffle off just to not burst the social harmony bubble... hey. how are you doing? I'm great. and you? just fine. I think it is just society's to convince itself that it is alright... and any deviation from that schedule and it would prove to be very dramatic...

Patrick

December 03 2006
The UT newspaper is awesome!

Patrick

December 03 2006
i think it's one of those things where you hate to tell other people your problems

Nathan Moore

December 03 2006
to answer your question, i do not really have an opinion... both are about the same, just a different laser format... many times, my choice will be determined by the dvd burner... my powerbook only does dvd-r. anyways, i wouldn't put too much thought into it... hope that helps!

Patrick

December 03 2006
haha. i guess i didnt write it well. i was saying that the editorial staff has a great sense of humor. though i do not think they choose some of thier stories well. like how they did a full page article on the ultimate frisbee team? i mean, what in the world. out of all the teams, they chose ultimate frisbee. it's not even an olympic sport. haha. but i think they have some good opinions about things. at least i tend to agree with them. and they tactfully critisize the university when need be. so they are using the paper to it's full extent at times. to let people know whats up

the brian king kenobi

December 03 2006
well, amy powers, if we're being completely honest, life sucks right now.

Patrick

December 03 2006
they probably do. people on the rowing team are on the paper staff, but apparently are un-able to do a story. we've been told that if you ask them to do a story for you they charge you a bunch of money. kinda wrong if you ask me. but hey, rowing is the oldest/longest lasting inter-collegiate sport. pretty cool fact