hey hey

yeah today was a pretty rocky day for like no reason at all but all in all it was an awesome day.

have any of you guys ever heard of freudian slips? well they are slips of the tongue maybe in a joke or in just talking that reall convey what people think. Sigmand Freud made this discover and i think that it is totally true.like today we were talking about how everyone is getting boyfriends and one of my "friends" said that i was hopeless.basicly saying that i would never have a boyfriend....what is so wrong with that one of my "friends" would think that? i mean i like boys and what not but it always seems just to turn out as best friends and what not. i hate it.maybe im meant to be alone for like ever. i know i know what you guys are going to say leah you will find a guy someday....and you have had boyfriends in the past. but yeah if you think about they all lasted only a couple of weeks. i don't know anymore...maybe i am meant to be alone and just guy friends i don't know.

gosh life is so hard and confusing i hate it.i don't like how i feel right now. i feel so unsecure of myself and that is just not me...i just don't understand.....i don't know who i am anymore....