ok so prepare for randomness... Life is pretty good... I like my job, like where I'm headed, like my coursework, ... God is incredible and I am really working on just letting Him be enough in my life... have you ever been trying to convince yourself of somthing so much that you tell someone else it and they agree and then you realize that even though that's what you want to feel/think/believe, deep down you don't feel that even though you should... yea but even if feelings don't line up, God knows the desires of our heart, and He knows what is best, and that we are trying, so I am going to stick to that and simply pray that God will help me line up all of the shoulds with the actuals... He is awesome and more than enough... and for Him my beign perfect isn't enough, but being imperfect is...