So a lot of times you can mess up and beat yourself up for it for so long that you don't get yourself out. I've noticed with vices that sometimes we feel like we have to fix them or fix ourselves first and then we can come to God. But you can't say well I have to have this thing that I did gone for x-amount of time before I can say I'm through with it or before we can say that we are right with God. I hate sin that is in my life. But I refuse to let it hold me down this time. It's over, it's done, by the grace of God. I am going to put my eyes on Him and His work instead of my problems. I drove home today and it was such a beautful day. I sang praises to Him all the way. Yea there's stuf that's going on, and I am in no way saying I'm perfect. But He has in a way shown me the extent of what is in my life, and He has set me free. It's almost tangible this feeling that I'm free. God is so great!