Phusebox

Motive

November 14 2005

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Well I know when people see entries this long they freak out and tell themselves "yeah right I wouldn't read that if I had all the time in the world." But this is what's been on my mind and i'd like to share it with you, if the 2 people that read this actually care.
    As I sat in bible study with the guys tonight, I began to reflect on the week. I thought about a typical day in the life of Garrett Daniel Haynes, and what that's like. Then I thought about how dry i've been lately. Dry in school, dry in a few of my relationships, but most importantly, dry in the relationship the matters the most. My relationship with my Savior. Then I got to thinking....how is it that I got like this? How are christians that are so hydrated get so dry in the mouth? Then a word popped into my head. Motives. What are motives? For me, a motive is what makes me tick. I evolve myself around it. It keeps me going, fighting the good fight of faith, and gives me something to look forward to. Motive is the extra step that helps to push me over the line.
    I then realized that it wasn't that my motives were wrong, it's that I had no motives at all. Thanks to awesome spriritual leadership by those whos eyes have been cleared by God the father, Clint was able to help me see that God was actually testing me. He seems to be saying "what will you do, when there seems to be nothing but your salvation to keep you going." Let me ask you this question.

What will you do when you're in the trenches, when it all seems so hopeless....and there is nothing within the sight of a thousand miles to bring you hope? Will you keep fighting, or will you give in to the battle that seems so hopeless. Whether you would admit it or not, its a battle that we often do not want to fight. As a good friend of mine said...it is very, very difficult to fight a battle that we do not want care about and do not want to win. If we are apathetic (meaning that we just don't care), then we have already been defeated.

Well that's what God's been laying on my heart. I wish you all a wonderful rest of the week. God bless.

In Christ,
       Garrett

eddie sally

November 14 2005

awesome. simply awesome. lately i have been in the trenches but i have been fighting. i think you just summarized what i have been going through. it was good seeing you guys this weekend. take care of the girls. peace.

Elizabeth

November 14 2005

nicely said ... amd i know that exact feeling .. that dry feeling.. bc after a mission trip or a retreat.. you are FULLY hydrated my youth pastor says we are on top of a mtn.. .. but eventually you have to come down... i dont know if you got that ... loll... or if i said that wrong. .. haha.. but inknow what you mean and i think it is extremly good that you have realized it and now you can fix it the best you can ... god had some amzing things ahead of you and everyone else..sometimes we are so busy and we forget to listen.. - liZ

Sarah

November 14 2005

yeh that was an awesome entry ,and I definately have been "dry" with God, and I know exactly how you feel. Thats awesome that you realized that you need to have more of God in your life :) Good Luck <3 always Sarah

Jonathan Moore

November 15 2005

I read it and my throat is hurting so im gonna go to bed but I liked it and i would write more but I need rest haha. I liked it a lot. In Him, Jonathan

<3isforlala

November 15 2005

did you and ben talk to alex about starting up a band? that would be amazing..you could call it "more than birds".....or....something....

John

November 15 2005

Garrett Haynes this is so true and your right we need to stay in the trenches even when it seems hopeless dude have a great night 2 Timothy 1-7 for God did not give us a spirit of timidity but a spirit of power, love and self control... thats such a verse lol I think thats right lol