Kirsten Bowles
Relationship Status
In A Relationship
Highschool
Riverdale High School
Interests
Myspace, Facebook, Xanga, Phusebox, Ratemybody, Facethejury, Hotornot, Swim, Shop, Sk8ting, Ice Sk8ting, Travel, Going out to eat, Scrapbooking, Sing, Dance, Culture, Write poetry, Write letters, Write song lyrics, Write love stories, Playing The Sims, Playing The Sim's 2, Playing World Of War Craft, Playing Singles, Playing Plaboy The Mansion, The park, The lake, Go muddin, Go to concerts, Go to haunted houses, Go to sleep overs, Have sleep overs, Collecting gel and milky pens, Collecting stationery, Collecting stickers, Go to water parks, Go to church, Listen to music, Taking pictures, Movies, Watch tv, Talking on the phone, Ride motorcycles, Ride my bike, Go on Cruises, Night clubs, Partying, Drinking, etc.
Favorite Movies
The Notebook, A Walk To Remember, Save The Last Dance, Step Up, Take The Lead, Scarface, The Godfather, Rocky, Coyote Ugly, Light It Up, Rent, Grease, Showgirls, Dirty Dancing, Crossroads, Jerry Maguire, Undiscovered, West Side Story, Child's Play, A Nightmare On Elm Street, Halloween, etc.
Favorite Books
The Bible, The Wedding By Nicholas Sparks
*WELL I KINDA MET THIS AMAZING PERSON THAT HAS JUST REALLY UPLIFTED ME IN MY FAITH IN THY LORD*
October 03 2005
Well I started talking to this guy Scott I randomly found on Facebook last week on Wednesday for the 1st time.We have been talking on the phone and online everyday since than.I mean were just really clicking and having this connection like we have known eachother forever.He just always seems to amaze me not just in personality wise and how sweet he is but how he's got such strong faith in the Lord loving him so much and showing it.I just never really noticed how there are a few people that really show that they love the lord so much and there not fake about it.I dont like it when people say one thing and do another.He always seems to worship for the lord cause thats how he feels and not cause others are doing it.He just has such a heart of gold.He's real special to me and Im glad Im getting to meet other fellow Christians like himself.But,He's like always telling me how much he thinks about me all the time and that Im the prettiest girl he's ever seen and Im just like sitting here thinking yeah right thats the funniest thing I ever heard.That is also really good that me and him can have really deep conversations about what love means and God and the bible and other deep conversations we have.We just so relate to eachother and everything.
More Than Words
October 02 2005
I love the old version of this song also but Frankie J. rocks my socks off wait Im not wearing any cause I always go the bear foot way.I wear sandles a little bit too much even in t he cold except when its in December late late winter.
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frankie j - more than words
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frankie j - more than words
It's So Hard Trying To Figure Out What I Wanna Do Forever
October 02 2005
I have no clue on what I wanna do for the rest of my life.Sometime's I just feel so stupid like Im a loser cuase I dont know.But,I know God will show me that light when he wants me to know what I wanna do with the rest of my life.I just wonder what it is he wants me to do.I think we always do in some certain way in certain things we dont know about he shows us only when he thinks its best for us to know.
*MY GRANDMOMMY (MY DAD'S MOM)*
September 30 2005
My Grandmommy is the sweetest lady and most special person in my life ever and will always remain to be.I dont know what I would do without her.She's the one person that I couldnt imagine life without.She's my very best friend and hero.She gives so much and never once thinks about herself.She just always puts others first.When she prays she kneels down by her bed on her hands and knee's and prays her heart out.She's such a strong loving christian.I go and visit her up the street at least once or twice a month if not more.She's the only one I can really pore my heart out to besides God himself.I love my Grandma so much.
THIS BLOG ENTRY IS DEDICATED TO MY LITTLE SISTER KAYLEI WHO IS MY BEST FRIEND (I LOVE YOU LIL SIS)
September 29 2005
Anyways without my sister Kaylei having me over to stay in the dorms last week of Lipscomb University I would never have my faith back.So Kaylei I Love You for it.Thanks,sis so much for having me over.Im glad I gained my faith back in the Lord and its a big huge Thanks,to my sis Kaylei for making it all possible to get my faith back.This is her My Sister Kaylei's Phuse Box page.
Focusing On You Lord
September 28 2005
Lord,
As I kneel to pray to you heavenly father.I want to thank you for today and all the day's you give me to live even though I worry about my future and my hardcore depression.Anyways Im not gonna and havent been worrying about guys anymore.Im focusing on my love for you cause I know Im still young and guys are always gonna come and go.But,with having you I know you will never come and go you will always be around.So Thank you lord for helping me realize I need to put you 1st and my focuses tords you.So thats what Im doing and keep doing.
In Him,
Kirsten
As I kneel to pray to you heavenly father.I want to thank you for today and all the day's you give me to live even though I worry about my future and my hardcore depression.Anyways Im not gonna and havent been worrying about guys anymore.Im focusing on my love for you cause I know Im still young and guys are always gonna come and go.But,with having you I know you will never come and go you will always be around.So Thank you lord for helping me realize I need to put you 1st and my focuses tords you.So thats what Im doing and keep doing.
In Him,
Kirsten
Just A Little More Love
September 27 2005
We all need love and on that this is a great killa video and its also on my myspace page that I use more than this.But,Im using phusebox just as much here lately.
David Guetta - Just A Little More Love
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David Guetta - Just A Little More Love
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Dear Lord
September 26 2005
You are truely so amazing to love us all no matter what and to always help us keep our faith alive for you.Lord alot of times I just feel so alone and cold in the dark and just dont know what to do.Does everything truely happen for reason?Im so lost and confused feeling. Sometime's Lord I just feel like there's no hope for me at all.Just give me the strength to stay strong always.Im not gonna give up on you.I know when my time come's for certain things you will show me and it will be special when those things happen.
In Him,
Kirsten
"Whatever you do,do it all for the glory of God."-1 Corinthians 10:31-
In Him,
Kirsten
"Whatever you do,do it all for the glory of God."-1 Corinthians 10:31-
MY PRAYER TO YOU
September 25 2005
Dear Lord,
Thanks,for just always believing in me.
Without you I wouldnt of ever had this hope to believe in anything again.I so cant wait to see Lord what you have in store for me each and everyday cause I know whatever it is that you will show me in certain ways.If its a problem I know you will always help me get through it.I know whatever problems or struggles you give me in life are given to me for a reason.I know the reason being is to help me fight to become straonger in my faith in you Lord to show me that I can get through it.Im glad I always have you to look upon no matter what problems I might be facing.Im just trusting in you now and forever to lead me down the right path.Im always wondering what you have in store for me in my near future.I wish you could just show me some kinda sign to where Im headed to in my life.I know Thursday was a special day you gave me to show me some sorta sign.I know it was a sign to get right with you and get up on my feet again to believe in you and Im glad I had that sign sent to me that day.
In Him,
Kirsten
Thanks,for just always believing in me.
Without you I wouldnt of ever had this hope to believe in anything again.I so cant wait to see Lord what you have in store for me each and everyday cause I know whatever it is that you will show me in certain ways.If its a problem I know you will always help me get through it.I know whatever problems or struggles you give me in life are given to me for a reason.I know the reason being is to help me fight to become straonger in my faith in you Lord to show me that I can get through it.Im glad I always have you to look upon no matter what problems I might be facing.Im just trusting in you now and forever to lead me down the right path.Im always wondering what you have in store for me in my near future.I wish you could just show me some kinda sign to where Im headed to in my life.I know Thursday was a special day you gave me to show me some sorta sign.I know it was a sign to get right with you and get up on my feet again to believe in you and Im glad I had that sign sent to me that day.
In Him,
Kirsten
About My Mom Reading My Xanga
September 24 2005
Well the last two entries I posted on my phusebox I posted on my xanga and my xanga user name is BabyGurlModel21.Well I called my mom and told her to read them two and she did and than called me back and was in tears no joke.She goes Im letting your dad read it cause it really teared me up which is really touching for me to read some thing you wrote that you meant that came truely from your heart.I didnt write it to touch anybody.I wrote it cause its how I feel and I write the truth no lies in that one.Well Im glad my mom enjoyed reading my last two entries.I hope everyone enjoy's comng to my page and reading the joy's of my everyday Christian life.I love everybody and I want everyone to know Im hear for you anything you need me to be cause you can always count on me.
-Redneck-
1] Do you believe the south will rise again? No
2] Do you drive a four-wheel drive automobile? No
3] Do you live in a mobile home? No
4] Is your car still primer gray? Nope
5] Do you like country music? No
6] Do you have a broken car in your back yard? No
7] Do you own a cowboy hat? No
8] Do you live on more then 2 acres? No
9] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home? No
Total YES: 0
-Goth-
1] Do you wear black eyeliner?: Yes
2] Is most of your clothing dark?: No
3] Do you think about death often?: No
4] Do you want to die?: No
5] Are you a social outcast?: No
6] Are you pale?: No
7] Do you like Hot Topic?: Yes
8] Do you enjoy Tim burton movies? Yes
9] Are you nice?: Yes
Total YES: 4
-Skater Punk-
1] Can you skateboard?: No
2] Do you wear Vans?: Yes
3] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends? Yes
4] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops?: Nope
5] Do you watch the x-games? No
6] Do you have any piercings?: Yes
7] Do you like/wear mohawks? Nope
8] Do you wear Band t-shirts: Yes
9] Have you called someone a poser?: Yes
Total YES: 5
-Prep-
1] Do you say the word "like": Yes
2] Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: Yes
3] Do you pop the collar? No
4] Do the people in Hot topic scare you?: No
5] Is the only nerd u like Seth Cowen? No
6] Do you watch LAGUNA BEACH? Yes
7] Do you like pop music: Yes
8] Do you want/have a little dog?: Yes
Total YES:5
-Hippie-
1] Is your hair long?: No
2] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?: Yes
3] Do you want peace?: Yes
4] Do you want to save the animals? Yes
5] Do you think war is unneccesary?: Yes
6] Is love essential in your life?: Yes
7] Have you smoked pot? Nope
8] Do you like classic rock and trippy music? Yes
Total YES: 6
-Gangsta-
1] Do you act ghetto?: Sometimes
2] Do you wear do-rags?: Nope
3] Do you like hip-hop?: Yes
4] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?: Yes
5] Do you believe he's alive?: No
6] Do you like afros?: No
7] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?: Yes
8] Do you like to dance?: Yes
9] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit: Yes
Total YES: 6
-Emo-
1] Do you cry often? Occasionly
2] Do you wear hoodies: Yes
3] Do you like soft music: Yes
4] Do people not understand you?: Yes
5] Do you write your own songs?: Yes
6] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark: Yes
7] Do you cut your hair: Yes
8] Are you lonely: Yes
9] Is Ohio for lovers?: No
Total YES: 8
-Surfer-
1]Do you surf? No
2] Do you wear flip flops all year-round?: No
3] Is your hair shaggy?: No
4] Do you wake up before 6 every morning?: No
5] Do you own any pairs of shorts?: Yes
6] Are you tanned? No
8] Do you want to be at the beach right now?: Yes
9] Do you hate tourists?: No
Total YES: 2
-Geek-
1] Do you wear glasses: Yes
2] Do you get good grades? No
3] Do you use an inhaler?: No
4] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets? No
5] Does your mom pick out your clothes?: No
6] Are you on the computer often?: Yes
7] Do you ever get picked on?: Yes
8] Do you look forward to going to school?: No
9] Are you shy around the opposite sex?: Sometimes
10] Do you have braces?: No
Total YES: 4
-Redneck-
1] Do you believe the south will rise again? No
2] Do you drive a four-wheel drive automobile? No
3] Do you live in a mobile home? No
4] Is your car still primer gray? Nope
5] Do you like country music? No
6] Do you have a broken car in your back yard? No
7] Do you own a cowboy hat? No
8] Do you live on more then 2 acres? No
9] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home? No
Total YES: 0
-Goth-
1] Do you wear black eyeliner?: Yes
2] Is most of your clothing dark?: No
3] Do you think about death often?: No
4] Do you want to die?: No
5] Are you a social outcast?: No
6] Are you pale?: No
7] Do you like Hot Topic?: Yes
8] Do you enjoy Tim burton movies? Yes
9] Are you nice?: Yes
Total YES: 4
-Skater Punk-
1] Can you skateboard?: No
2] Do you wear Vans?: Yes
3] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends? Yes
4] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops?: Nope
5] Do you watch the x-games? No
6] Do you have any piercings?: Yes
7] Do you like/wear mohawks? Nope
8] Do you wear Band t-shirts: Yes
9] Have you called someone a poser?: Yes
Total YES: 5
-Prep-
1] Do you say the word "like": Yes
2] Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: Yes
3] Do you pop the collar? No
4] Do the people in Hot topic scare you?: No
5] Is the only nerd u like Seth Cowen? No
6] Do you watch LAGUNA BEACH? Yes
7] Do you like pop music: Yes
8] Do you want/have a little dog?: Yes
Total YES:5
-Hippie-
1] Is your hair long?: No
2] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?: Yes
3] Do you want peace?: Yes
4] Do you want to save the animals? Yes
5] Do you think war is unneccesary?: Yes
6] Is love essential in your life?: Yes
7] Have you smoked pot? Nope
8] Do you like classic rock and trippy music? Yes
Total YES: 6
-Gangsta-
1] Do you act ghetto?: Sometimes
2] Do you wear do-rags?: Nope
3] Do you like hip-hop?: Yes
4] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?: Yes
5] Do you believe he's alive?: No
6] Do you like afros?: No
7] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?: Yes
8] Do you like to dance?: Yes
9] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit: Yes
Total YES: 6
-Emo-
1] Do you cry often? Occasionly
2] Do you wear hoodies: Yes
3] Do you like soft music: Yes
4] Do people not understand you?: Yes
5] Do you write your own songs?: Yes
6] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark: Yes
7] Do you cut your hair: Yes
8] Are you lonely: Yes
9] Is Ohio for lovers?: No
Total YES: 8
-Surfer-
1]Do you surf? No
2] Do you wear flip flops all year-round?: No
3] Is your hair shaggy?: No
4] Do you wake up before 6 every morning?: No
5] Do you own any pairs of shorts?: Yes
6] Are you tanned? No
8] Do you want to be at the beach right now?: Yes
9] Do you hate tourists?: No
Total YES: 2
-Geek-
1] Do you wear glasses: Yes
2] Do you get good grades? No
3] Do you use an inhaler?: No
4] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets? No
5] Does your mom pick out your clothes?: No
6] Are you on the computer often?: Yes
7] Do you ever get picked on?: Yes
8] Do you look forward to going to school?: No
9] Are you shy around the opposite sex?: Sometimes
10] Do you have braces?: No
Total YES: 4
MY OTHER PRAY TO YOU AS MANY MORE TO COME ALWAYS
September 23 2005
Dear Lord,
Hello my father.
Im praying to you cause I have so much love for you and Im always needing.Why must there be so many hypocries?I wish people could just be real and not judgemental cause were all human and gonna make mistakes.I have made mistake's but from each mistake I have learned something about myself and that you cant keep making those same mistake's but I know you loving me so much that you will get me through this.I have no doubt in my mind that you are behind me 100% in whatever I do even if its a mistake cause your behind me in the way of getting me out of it and just blessing me to learn from all the mistake's I make and to help me grow as a spirtual person.I know Lord I havent been true to you lately and that Im just now getting back up in believing in you again.I had strong high doubts in you cause everyone doubted me and juged me and hurt me bad.I lost my faith totally since about 8th grade and now Im getting all of it strong and back and Im the happiest I have been in a long time knowing that I have my faith back and its a Thanks to Sanctuary on this past Thursday.If I wouldnt of gotten to go I wouldnt be typing these blogs now cause it changed me like things started coming in real fast like boom boom hitting me left and right like a wake up call.Gosh! I know its personal and detailed but what Im trying to say in this prayer to you Lord is Im sorry and I own up to you now and I want to pray for others to never loose there faith in you.I used words and said things months and months ago I wish I never said like I hated you.But,I felt dark and alone cold and scared and like I had no one to go to.But,I should never say some of the things I said and I will never forsake you again my Lord like that I was wrong to.Now that Im praying and letting this all out in the open just please bless me to pass the good word of your name Thy Lord around.There's not a day that goes by now that Im not gonna stop saying to myself how much I Love You and that Im so Thankful to have such a strong Christian family meaning my parents,sis,grandma's and other people in my life.But,I couldnt of gotten through any of this if it wasnt for you.I got through it cause I wanted to and needed to and cause something a girl said at Sanctuary. Thank you girl from Hondorus that goes to Lipscomb and every one else at Lipscomb who touched my heart when they got up there and spoke.WOW! Lipscomb is what can I say a power touching school with so many beautiful people that just really pore there heart out to the Lord.I cant stop thanking you and wont stop.Lord your just so amazing to go and die on the cross to save our sins and wash them away.I dont think I or any human can sit there and say they would do that for any of us and for you to do that is something truely beautiful and amazing like that you are more than GREAT.I cant even start to explain how much Im glad I got you fully 100% back in my life.We dont relize how blessed we are to live in this world even though there is evil out there.Tempation is so hard and we go through it everyday rather we want to or not.
In Him,
KIRSTEN
Hello my father.
Im praying to you cause I have so much love for you and Im always needing.Why must there be so many hypocries?I wish people could just be real and not judgemental cause were all human and gonna make mistakes.I have made mistake's but from each mistake I have learned something about myself and that you cant keep making those same mistake's but I know you loving me so much that you will get me through this.I have no doubt in my mind that you are behind me 100% in whatever I do even if its a mistake cause your behind me in the way of getting me out of it and just blessing me to learn from all the mistake's I make and to help me grow as a spirtual person.I know Lord I havent been true to you lately and that Im just now getting back up in believing in you again.I had strong high doubts in you cause everyone doubted me and juged me and hurt me bad.I lost my faith totally since about 8th grade and now Im getting all of it strong and back and Im the happiest I have been in a long time knowing that I have my faith back and its a Thanks to Sanctuary on this past Thursday.If I wouldnt of gotten to go I wouldnt be typing these blogs now cause it changed me like things started coming in real fast like boom boom hitting me left and right like a wake up call.Gosh! I know its personal and detailed but what Im trying to say in this prayer to you Lord is Im sorry and I own up to you now and I want to pray for others to never loose there faith in you.I used words and said things months and months ago I wish I never said like I hated you.But,I felt dark and alone cold and scared and like I had no one to go to.But,I should never say some of the things I said and I will never forsake you again my Lord like that I was wrong to.Now that Im praying and letting this all out in the open just please bless me to pass the good word of your name Thy Lord around.There's not a day that goes by now that Im not gonna stop saying to myself how much I Love You and that Im so Thankful to have such a strong Christian family meaning my parents,sis,grandma's and other people in my life.But,I couldnt of gotten through any of this if it wasnt for you.I got through it cause I wanted to and needed to and cause something a girl said at Sanctuary. Thank you girl from Hondorus that goes to Lipscomb and every one else at Lipscomb who touched my heart when they got up there and spoke.WOW! Lipscomb is what can I say a power touching school with so many beautiful people that just really pore there heart out to the Lord.I cant stop thanking you and wont stop.Lord your just so amazing to go and die on the cross to save our sins and wash them away.I dont think I or any human can sit there and say they would do that for any of us and for you to do that is something truely beautiful and amazing like that you are more than GREAT.I cant even start to explain how much Im glad I got you fully 100% back in my life.We dont relize how blessed we are to live in this world even though there is evil out there.Tempation is so hard and we go through it everyday rather we want to or not.
In Him,
KIRSTEN
MY PRAYER TO YOU MY LORD
September 22 2005
Dear Lord,
Thank you dear Lord heavenly father above all name's for giving me this great beautiful amazing oppurtunity to come visit my sister Kaylei at her college David Lipscomb University for 2night and the rest of the week end.I went to Sanctuary with her at Otter Creek Church of Christ and I learned alot. Getting to go to that church and hear so many people praise his name with there amazing singing voices and the girls and guys who went up and read Scriptures and told stories really opened my eyes.It was like an eye opener for me to get right back in check with you.I need you not just now but forever until Im with you in Heaven even than I will still need you.Well one of the girls that got up there who's from Honduras really touched my heart by something she said.She said something like Hurricane Katrina that just hit not to ago should be an eye opener to us that these things are happening around the world all the time that its not safe and there are tragedies all over besides Hurricanes and that we should really just go to God cause were say lucky to have him and that people who just here about God in other countries just cry and are so excited cause they never knew how amazing he is.When she said that I just broke down in tears right than and there and was really thinking to myself about you Lord.I have made some horrible mistakes in my life that I wish I had never made and could go back in time and take back but I cant.Now all I can do is just sit here and pray to you and try and change and be a better person cause you and I both no Im far from perfect. But,see no one is but you cause we all make mistakes thats what makes us all human. Without God nothing is possible and I mean nothing at all.We wouldnt be here until this day if it wasnt for him.We are so blessed to live were we live and we so need to notice that more often.Well Lord you and I both know I have been going through alot here lately and Im always needing you and gonna need you.Please show me the light and lead me down the right path.I know I always question you and thats cause Im confused and I have so many questions for you cause only you and you only have all the answer's for me but cant just answer all of them.I know your here to answer them when you think the time is best for me.Why is there so much evil in the world? I mean what makes people judge others I mean I dont get why there's just so much hate.It seems like there's no good people like no good in anybody anymore.Why isnt it my time to be placed with my spouse yet?Okay I know its almost been a year since me and my ex-fiance Jake broke up.I know you remember he broke up with me the day after Christmas meaning 6 days after my 20th birthday.We were together a year and six months.I have been on alot of date's since we broke up and sometime's it seems like I try to compare every guy to him or sometime's it just feels and seems like all the guys care about is trying to get in a girls pants anymore and Im not all about that.Im not easy and I dont go sleep around with every guy I look at.So if a guy doesnt like that about me oh well cause I know there's more fish in the see.I know I will find me a guy who fits the nice guys finish last line.Lord I know your doing what you think is best for me and I know I have and we all have made mistakes.Im trying to change and become a stronger and better person. Please just show me some sign on what Im doing wrong or how you want me to be.I wanna please you Lord I really do.Its so hard on me and I feel like your punishing me for something I did wrong and I wish you would show me or tell me what I did wrong.I do not know what I did to not please you.Its just I dont get it sometime's.Im the girl thats always dreamed of her wedding day and finding her soul mate to love and to marry in sickness and in health until death do us part like that type of love they share in the movie The Notebook.God when your ready just give me a guy who fits my standards that I have set.I know every girl sits here and dreams of her wedding day.But,Im just like my Grandma and I know you know that Lord.She told me that she wasnt ever worried about a job or a car her main thing was to find her soul mate to spend the rest of her life with and Im the same way. Lord just show me the light and lead me down the right path you think is best for me.Im just gonna leave all this up to you and you just do whats best for me.
In Him,
KIRSTEN
“Not only so,but we also rejoice in our sufferings,because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance,character; and character,hope.â€-Romans 5:3-4-
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.Love never fails."-1 Corinthians 13:4-8-
My Standards
Im looking for a Christian in other words they gotta have at least faith in the Lord
A old fashion gentlemen
Someone really funny
Someone doesnt want me just for sex
Someone who doesnt mind that I dont drive cause I have a fear of driving
Someone who is ready to settle down
Someone who's funny
Someone who loves kids
Someone sweet
Someone romantic and affectionate
Some one who respects me and likes me for me
Thank you dear Lord heavenly father above all name's for giving me this great beautiful amazing oppurtunity to come visit my sister Kaylei at her college David Lipscomb University for 2night and the rest of the week end.I went to Sanctuary with her at Otter Creek Church of Christ and I learned alot. Getting to go to that church and hear so many people praise his name with there amazing singing voices and the girls and guys who went up and read Scriptures and told stories really opened my eyes.It was like an eye opener for me to get right back in check with you.I need you not just now but forever until Im with you in Heaven even than I will still need you.Well one of the girls that got up there who's from Honduras really touched my heart by something she said.She said something like Hurricane Katrina that just hit not to ago should be an eye opener to us that these things are happening around the world all the time that its not safe and there are tragedies all over besides Hurricanes and that we should really just go to God cause were say lucky to have him and that people who just here about God in other countries just cry and are so excited cause they never knew how amazing he is.When she said that I just broke down in tears right than and there and was really thinking to myself about you Lord.I have made some horrible mistakes in my life that I wish I had never made and could go back in time and take back but I cant.Now all I can do is just sit here and pray to you and try and change and be a better person cause you and I both no Im far from perfect. But,see no one is but you cause we all make mistakes thats what makes us all human. Without God nothing is possible and I mean nothing at all.We wouldnt be here until this day if it wasnt for him.We are so blessed to live were we live and we so need to notice that more often.Well Lord you and I both know I have been going through alot here lately and Im always needing you and gonna need you.Please show me the light and lead me down the right path.I know I always question you and thats cause Im confused and I have so many questions for you cause only you and you only have all the answer's for me but cant just answer all of them.I know your here to answer them when you think the time is best for me.Why is there so much evil in the world? I mean what makes people judge others I mean I dont get why there's just so much hate.It seems like there's no good people like no good in anybody anymore.Why isnt it my time to be placed with my spouse yet?Okay I know its almost been a year since me and my ex-fiance Jake broke up.I know you remember he broke up with me the day after Christmas meaning 6 days after my 20th birthday.We were together a year and six months.I have been on alot of date's since we broke up and sometime's it seems like I try to compare every guy to him or sometime's it just feels and seems like all the guys care about is trying to get in a girls pants anymore and Im not all about that.Im not easy and I dont go sleep around with every guy I look at.So if a guy doesnt like that about me oh well cause I know there's more fish in the see.I know I will find me a guy who fits the nice guys finish last line.Lord I know your doing what you think is best for me and I know I have and we all have made mistakes.Im trying to change and become a stronger and better person. Please just show me some sign on what Im doing wrong or how you want me to be.I wanna please you Lord I really do.Its so hard on me and I feel like your punishing me for something I did wrong and I wish you would show me or tell me what I did wrong.I do not know what I did to not please you.Its just I dont get it sometime's.Im the girl thats always dreamed of her wedding day and finding her soul mate to love and to marry in sickness and in health until death do us part like that type of love they share in the movie The Notebook.God when your ready just give me a guy who fits my standards that I have set.I know every girl sits here and dreams of her wedding day.But,Im just like my Grandma and I know you know that Lord.She told me that she wasnt ever worried about a job or a car her main thing was to find her soul mate to spend the rest of her life with and Im the same way. Lord just show me the light and lead me down the right path you think is best for me.Im just gonna leave all this up to you and you just do whats best for me.
In Him,
KIRSTEN
“Not only so,but we also rejoice in our sufferings,because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance,character; and character,hope.â€-Romans 5:3-4-
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.Love never fails."-1 Corinthians 13:4-8-
My Standards
Im looking for a Christian in other words they gotta have at least faith in the Lord
A old fashion gentlemen
Someone really funny
Someone doesnt want me just for sex
Someone who doesnt mind that I dont drive cause I have a fear of driving
Someone who is ready to settle down
Someone who's funny
Someone who loves kids
Someone sweet
Someone romantic and affectionate
Some one who respects me and likes me for me
Welcome To My Page
August 17 2005
This is my first time ever using this thing.I mainly use BabyGurlModel21's Online Diary
