My flesh patterns my spirit,
And I'll prove it.
Have you ever had a lingering love?
Like a distrust of divinity, or that mistake you made?
Did you lose sleep over it?
Did you try to solve, but the other won't return your calls for help?
What would you do?
Cause I've lied and lied around
To make this seem better,
Hid from people my feelings,
Expressed interest in unworthy things
Cause I'll leave this place and return home
To deal with both situations staring me in the face.

Why can't you both move on?
Or accept me as I am?
As lukewarm as the water seems,
All you do is ruin my dreams,
And it's unfair to me.
Is this vengeance for my infidelity?
Mistreatment, that I caused you grieve?
What do you pray that I'll change,
Because I'm trying if you give me a chance.
The distance I feel between us
Is 36 minus my age,
I run it so long and collapsed.
These are the words you understand.
My distrust of divinity, my misogyny,
All selfishness and hyperbole.
These are the words you understand.
In or out, I'll leave it to you
Because I can't understand your motives now
Ringing in my head the same old depressing tune.
I made a mistake. I made several mistakes.
These are the words you understand.

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Seeing as how I'm working on adding friends to the "friend box", I think I deserve a few interpretations of this piece. What do you think?

**Edit**To you I've asked a favor, don't take everything really personally persay, or extremist, just explain your emotions about this piece.  The author of this poem realizes his own fallible nature and bias, even in writing what he writes.  What do you think?