i just erased the pics off of my digital camera. i didnt want to, it still had the pictures on there from the last few days of school. the bon-fires, the party at ashley and nolans house, which was one of the best parties, and from graduation. ya, they are on my computer and all, but still, it makes me sad.

i'm comin home tommorow. shannon said she cant hang out like we had planned on, and i dont mind, i understand, but it makes me sad. i seriously thought about comin home tonight, but it wasnt going to work out.

i played in a poker tournament tonight, i didnt get good cards, i stayed in as long as possible, but it didnt work out for me this time, oh well.

i think i'm going to make a cd for the trip home tommorow, it should be good.

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for those of yall who dont know, i have two brothers. but i also have two sisters, and their twins. i love em to death.

i've known amy and rachel for it seems like forever. their like sisters to me. i saw amy today and it made me so happy. i cant wait till i get to go home and spend some time with them. it always seemed like when i needed someone to talk to while at school, they were there. they were there when i didnt need someone. not only have i gone to school with them forever, i've gone to church with them too. if it wasnt for them, i would be crazy right now. i wish they were up here with me, but then again i could be down there with them.

i was doing laundry today, and the machine apparently didnt have a spin cycle and my clothes were dripping wet, so i rung them out in the trash can. ya, thats right, the trash can. think about that for a second.

i found this quote: "Sarcasm is jelousy in in bold disuise." ~ Gary B. Wright.  i didnt have to think about this at all to realize that this guy was right. but i remembered back to when i used to be really sarcastic, and then it clicked. when i started to like me for me, i stopped being sarcastic, so it is the truth, or at least it is for me.

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i know, i know, two posts in a row, thats a little much, but this one deserves a post all in it's own.

tonight when i was walkin in, i noticed i had an extra piece of mail in the box other than the junk mail that i've let pile up in there. i noticed it was blue, and i was like heck ya, someone sent me a package. when i opened it up, i noticed it wasnt a package, it was a blue envelope from where someone sent me a card.

julie brockwell is the coolest!

getting mail is so awesome, and julie sent me the nicest card. it's so amazing how just by doing something simple like sending a letter so someone can mean so much to someone else. not just the letter, but letting someone know how much they mean to you, or just how your there for the other person.

thank you julie

you know how sometimes you miss how things used to be, and how sometimes you miss certain people. well i miss both, at the same time. and i also miss how some people used to be. oh well. it's ok.

it seems to me that i've messed some things up lately, but at times i dont think it's been just me thats messed up.

harry potter was tight. it seemed to me like they left out alot of important stuff. but thats ok.

vandy game tommorow, should be pretty crazy.

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i'm loving this cold weather. i wore my leather jacket today, i love that thing. this... lets say good looking girl for lack of what else i want to say, was staring at me with a smile during breakfast this morning. she kept looking turning away everytime she saw that i noticed her. it was funny. too bad she was with another girl and i was in too much of a hurry to talk to her.

spanish quiz this morning blew. oh well. i got a worksheet in math today, it shouldnt be too bad. i dont think any of my classes will be cancled on wensday, so the earliest i could probably leave is 2, but probably later. cant wait till i go home. i'll get to see all my friends.

i wouldnt mind doing some trap shooting over the break. maybe i'll go with some of my cousins, it'll be fun. johns coming home i think, maybe we'll go. but i think he was wanting me to go and do some duck hunting, sounds fun, but i dont know, i'd rather stay home and hang with everyone.

sometimes i get those feelings where i really wanna go home, but then, at times, i dont want to. it's not that i'm homesick, but.... i dont know. i feel like if i was at home, i'd wanna be here.

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today was pretty good. finally finished up that english paper. i just now got done with another paper, i waited pretty late to start though. i still need to proofread it though. i think that i'm going to be up all night though cause david gave me some chili tonight and i ate it like 30 minuetes ago. i can feel it working against me if you know what i mean.

i'm loving this weather

(from right to left) me, aimee d., amy a., jason, and some guy i dont know

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just registered for classes, oh bizzle. right now i have 15 hours.

chem 110  MW 10:10-11 (and a bunch of labs and what not during the week)

Econ 201 TR  9:40-10:55 (lab on monday at 1:30

english 102 TR 11:10-12_25

math MWF 12:20-1:10

art sculpture F 2:30-4:25 (this class should be tight)

waitlist: history of rock, spanish 211

well i'm tired cause i had to wake up extra early to take care of all this, blah.

yesterday was alright, last night was........ different

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today has had it's ups and downs. right now i'm down cause i feel like i'm about to pass out, not good at all

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i feel like i've been popped and deflated

i talked to shannon peterson the other day, it was nice.

sometimes i wish..... it was still going on. if i had really believed everyone that told me that life flies by, i probably would of done some things differently, but who lives in the past right.

some people think they know whats going on and why i act the way i do sometimes. but they dont ask why, they dont seem to truly care, assumptions are made, and thats not cool.

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it all makes sense now. castro had JFK killed, and the government knows it. they just didnt do anything because if they did we would of started WWIII with russia. even until this day they would come after us if we invaded cuba on a major extent.

about to go to the game, it'll be fun. going to a play tonight, that'll be cool.

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i dont feel too good right now, and it could be because heath and i went head to head and ate a banana peel. and when i said we went head to head, i mean we both took a bite at the same time to see who would stop first. we both finished it. now i dont feel good, but it doesnt mean thats the cause.

today was pretty good. the lab went good. the anthropology test was ok. i got a math test tommorow, but i'll overcome it. i need to do good though. i didnt go to the game tonight, the lady vols game, i wish i had. i'll probably go to the guys basketball game tommorow night though. keep in mind tommorow is really friday for me, even though this post will show up as friday.

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so its 2 in the AM hours and why am i up, thats right, anthropology. i can now tell you why there is miscommunication between the different sexs, and even different races, which i've also learned in anthropology that there really isnt such a thing as a different race, but thats a whole nother post.

 i can tell you how different languages have formed over the centuries, even ebonics, ya, thats right, ebonics.

 i can tell you about status and stratification, but the question is, can you tell me?

i can tell  you about different marriages and what not for different cultures, such as why in tibet 3 brothers might marry one wife and share her. patrillenial (sp) polygyny, thats whats its called.

and did you know that there are 6 different ways to classify kinship. we use the eskimo system, the hawaiin system is pretty easy, but the sudanese system is pain, but i got the iriqouis and omaha system down pretty easily, they work off of patrilenial and matrilenial discent while the crow system works off of a bilineal discent.

so have i confused you yet? intrigued you?

i can tell you about modern day polygyny(polygyny is the marriage of one man to many women, but sometimes can be vice versa such as the thing with tibet) which makes since to me now, but i still believe it is wrong. and i believe thats how aids got started way back in the day after i read that section.

i can tell you alot more, but i'll wait, or you can just ask. theres some pretty crazy stuff i could tell you.

does all this really matter though, no, but it makes for some interesting reading. i'm going to bed. hopefully i'll sleep better tonight. last night sucked. :( but oh well.

anyone wanna go to winter wonder slam. the line up is toby mac, matthew west, grits, barlow girl, john rueban.

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my english class just got cancled again, for the second time in a row. i'm pretty sure that entitles me to a refund.

so the fan i bought donw on the strip for like 3 dollars i think has seen it's better days. i might have to invest in a new on, it's so hot in the dorms.

i went down to cookville last night to eat dinner with young, it was some good fun.

i got a quiz in a couple of hours, a test on thursday and friday.

we have a game on saturday, will we win, who knows. i think we're going to loose to vandy.

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theres so many things that i need to get out, but putting them on here is not the thing to do.

church was good, i'm glad i went this morning. i took a nap when i got back, really i just now woke up, but the important thing to realize is that i didnt get back till like 2.

last night was pretty cool, except for when the Vols lost, but oh well, i think we all saw that one coming. i got to talk to shannon moran last night for like 2 hours. that was basically the highlight of the weekend. it was definately cool. i went and saw "saw 2" friday night, it was pretty good. dont know which was better, the first or the second. they definately left it to where there could be a third one.

i got homework to do, blah. definatley got some major reading to do.

look at those studs

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"sweet jesus" by all star united

Sweet Jesus, wash over me
Would come and sweep me off of my feet, please
It's been two long weeks since You've heard me speak
And I was hoping that You might like to meet me
I heard You heal the broken hearted
Even those who've been discarded
Oh how I need You
I need to hear You say
Need to hear You say

Don't worry now
Don't worry how
Everything just seems to all work out
Would You sing me now to sleep

Sweet Jesus, wash over me
Would come and sweep me off of my feet, please
It's been far too long since I've sang Your song
And I was hoping that You might like to meet me
I heard You heal the broken hearted
Even those who've been discarded
Oh how I need You
I need to hear You say
Need to hear You say

Don't worry now
Don't worry how
Everything just seems to all work out
Would You sing me now to sleep

i feel hurt right now, but i cant bring my self to explain why and what for. :(

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english class got cancled today, so that was pretty dang cool. but it doesnt stop there, spanish is cancled for tommorow, and anthropology is cancled for next tuesday. how cool is that. i got a spanish quiz for tommorow though. oh well.

we went to the basketball game tonight. it was cool. we won, but i dont think their going to be too awfully great this year. i'm pretty tired, i might go to bed early, but i dont know for sure.

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so i dont really feel like i have time to write on this right now. i need to start studying more. i know i've been saying this, but this time it's going to happen.the chem test today was crazy. some other stuff is crazy too, but then again thats life.

i got my book in the mail today,i ordered ir off amazon. its "lies my teacher told me: everything my american history book got wrong" i hear from past history teachers that it's a good book.

theres some other stuff going on right now, its pretty much driving me crazy. and also, i was wondering, would anyone think less of me if i changed schools, or just dropped out? and if people did, does it really matter. i dont think i'll drop out, thats just not a good choice.

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so i didnt do too awfully much today/tonight. but it was cool.  it's the fact that it's just fun to get to together and watch scary movies and what not and hang out with friends.

i'm loving this weather. it's awesome.

i have a paper due tommorow, and a big time chem test. oh well.

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