does anyone want a pen pal?

I want to :

• Sneek out with a cute boy


• Drive to anywhere


• Eat gummy bears && cookie dough


• hold each others hand through the dark


• go to the park && swing.


• Lay in a field under the stars


• && just feel [loved]?

i love lamp

Im on and adventure.

Going no where fast

 No where in perticular.

 Just somewhere to get away from my past

Im lost and confusied

No hand to grasp

My life is not my own

Ive attempted many times but this is my last

The lights that lead us there are blindingHaha. this boy makes me giggle.

My best friendCAPTAN POPPY!!!

http://www.myspace.com/artistic_beauty
GO GO GO!!!

Last week was amazing. Between Making spagetti and fazolies breadsticks for my whole 3rd period, stealing cokes outta the teachers work room, boys sneaking out of windows, kroger power shopping, car races, evil scamming, boys talking about me in the boys bathroom, uncontrolable laughter, lots of hugs, snugglin....and best of all

The guy ive liked for quite some time asked me out. It was adorable. Nervous...cute

There was no time or reason to be upset.

This week. The Dissapointment set in. I found out a secret i wasnt suposed to know just yet. That guy has to move. TO FUH KIN WYOMMING!!! gah.

And everybody wonders why i dont like to get close to guys.

The only guy ive ever truely fell in love with...Had to move to Chatanooga with his sister. I miss him like hell and theres nothing i can do about it. Now that im finally getting close to Tyler...he finds out he has to move.

I think im destined to be a single for life.

Yea this is when you tell her that you love her but you don't...Yea she is beautiful...but she doesn't mean a thing to me

I could be the girl surrounded by people and still feel alone...Forever alone

See this?
This is a tear of misery
every night i cant hear your voice is a night of blurred confusion
I try so hard to let you know how i feel...
try so hard and freeze up like a broken robot
Programmed to fail
My wires are sparking with fury
and are about to light this nightmare to ashes
Forever meant to be forgotten
Is this what you wanted?
I have a sickness...
A sickness drawn to be a sucker for a sweet talker
a fake, a heart crusher.
There is no cure. It's contagious
Were all one for ourselves.
Lock me up, Take me away
Let these sirens sing me away
Sing me Softly goodnight...Goodnight

Yall ready for a post all about MWAH?!?! teheh HUH? HUH? HUH? ...well hold onto your lil socks!

Dark side of me :0

RAWRRR! tehehe

 go check out the rest...i got a new digital camera so ill have new pics like CRAZY!

BLOOP!

OMG is that a snowflake?!?!?!...wait nvm forgot we were in Tennessee

CHRISTMAS IS 22 DAYS AWAY!!!

I wanna be kissed under the mistle toe like in the movies i love this time of year.....

old pic. new effect

*i put new pics on my binder from last year..everyone says i look "different" i asked good or bad and they couldnt say?!?!..maybe its the fact i was happy there*

So...im going to Riverdale next year. Thank god....

120 days left in school :( uhhhhhg

My away message- There once was a turtle...he pooped...THE END! 

duckxhead09 [7:47 PM]:  i said is his name Edward?
XlBeautifulMessX [7:47 PM]:  nope...its Edward
duckxhead09 [7:48 PM]:  aww
duckxhead09 [7:48 PM]:  i wanted it to be Edward
duckxhead09 [7:48 PM]:  :'(
duckxhead09 [7:48 PM]:  gosh jack
XlBeautifulMessX [7:48 PM]:  so but Edward is so much cooler
duckxhead09 [7:48 PM]:  no its not gosh
duckxhead09 [7:48 PM]:  Edward is lame
duckxhead09 [7:48 PM]:  now Edward is the coolest
XlBeautifulMessX [7:49 PM]:  psh...who are you to be talkin...your name is Gary Allen
duckxhead09 [7:49 PM]:  hahaha
duckxhead09 [7:50 PM]:  well my name was going to be katylan Eliabithe
XlBeautifulMessX [7:50 PM]:  woa...
XlBeautifulMessX [7:50 PM]:  i like Edward better than that
duckxhead09 [7:50 PM]:  well i like jack beter so name it jack
XlBeautifulMessX [7:50 PM]:  ahh...Jack it is
duckxhead09 [7:51 PM]:  ok
XlBeautifulMessX [7:51 PM]:  so its settled
duckxhead09 [7:51 PM]:  now we are going to make a story about jack ok lol
XlBeautifulMessX [7:51 PM]:  the almighty Jack pooped
duckxhead09 [7:51 PM]:  i write one line then u write the next
duckxhead09 [7:51 PM]:  ok
XlBeautifulMessX [7:51 PM]:  alrighty
duckxhead09 [7:52 PM]:  unce upon a time there was a turtle named jack
XlBeautifulMessX [7:52 PM]:  he was a fuzzy lil creature
duckxhead09 [7:53 PM]:  with a hard shell and red eyes
XlBeautifulMessX [7:53 PM]:  he was such a lil angle
duckxhead09 [7:53 PM]:  well one part of him was
XlBeautifulMessX [7:53 PM]:  the other side of him was a giant cyclops named...Edward
duckxhead09 [7:54 PM]:  well one day jacward (jack + edward = jacward) went into the pond for a swim
XlBeautifulMessX [7:55 PM]:  cept he didnt know that what he thought was the pond was a giant pile of shat
duckxhead09 [7:55 PM]:  wtf?? neways so he smelled it and ran backward and jumped into the REAL pond
XlBeautifulMessX [7:56 PM]:  and got swallowed by a microscopic beaver
duckxhead09 [7:56 PM]:  yes and lucky for him he just went straight out the bevers behind and survived
XlBeautifulMessX [7:57 PM]:  unfortunalty he suffered from minor injures for the beavers dam (hahaha get it like a beaver dam ..not damn) tail
duckxhead09 [7:59 PM]:  so now jacward is mentally retarded and every 10 ft he walks he gets domber
XlBeautifulMessX [8:00 PM]:  wow thats said you cant spell "dumber" maybe your the one that got hit in the head witha microscopice beaver tail.....anyways! Jacward is now a permant residant of the Loony Benn house
duckxhead09 [8:01 PM]:  and on sudays he is alowed to have 10 mins to go swim in the pond
XlBeautifulMessX [8:02 PM]:  but this past sunday...poor Jacward...drowned..how a turtle can do that...we do not know
duckxhead09 [8:04 PM]:  but see jacward was soo unluck because right before he died this wierd lil mexicon girl named jacqulyn pick him up and made turtal meat fro dinner because them mexicans are poor
XlBeautifulMessX [8:05 PM]:  but dont be haten on the mexicans...this crazy ass guy named Gary Allen Warren JR. (tehehe...Jr) bit jacwards wittle head off before the mexican could grab him
duckxhead09 [8:06 PM]:  haha lol
duckxhead09 [8:07 PM]:  cept u always end up with the lowe part of his body u know sice he is a boy. i mean i gues mexicans like turtal  parts
XlBeautifulMessX [8:08 PM]:  mMmMm..best part...makes a spicy flavor
duckxhead09 [8:08 PM]:  omgoshlol
duckxhead09 [8:08 PM]:  ok thats the end of the stupids story ever!
XlBeautifulMessX [8:08 PM]:  ...THE END!
XlBeautifulMessX [8:08 PM]:  thats a rap
duckxhead09 [8:08 PM]:  haha
duckxhead09 [8:08 PM]:  CUT!!
XlBeautifulMessX [8:08 PM]:  tehehe ....thats phusebox worthy
duckxhead09 [8:09 PM]:  haha ya it is
XlBeautifulMessX [8:09 PM]:  copy and paste...ahhh

So did the Andy Milanokis show get canceled of did my nightmare of him dieing come true?

Wouldnt life be fun as a gypsy? MmMm....

Where are all the Emo boys in Tn?

Ahh Music..my love and addiction..what would the world be like without music...gah i dont wanna know..i would have to be sent to a mental assylem...not good!

So i went shopping and i saw one of the most disturbing things in my life...a thong that had these things on the sides that can loosen it up if you need it to(size XL)..im sorry but someone that is that huge and needs spacers on their thongs...should NOT be wearing them in the first place...Have a nice day

i was trying to be a rockstar in the shower ..and i almost fell out of the tub and hurt myself...dont try to rock out to Fall out boy in the shower or YOU will fall out

OMG !! IF YOU WANNA SEE SOMETHING FUNNY GO TO MY XANGA AND LOOK AT THE BACKGROUND!! LIL_BITTY_ COWGIRL

Went to the RHS vs. BHS game...pretty fun i got to see all my friends from ICKY rhs lol ...RHS starten to get this attitude like "Were all big and bad" cuz of the football team..starten to get old. Hopefully someone will mess up their record and beat the crap outta em lol okay enough of that... I realized how much i miss my old friends :( *tear* and i met some new cool ppl lol i was just walken around and i heard someone in the bleachers and it was one of my bros old friends and he goes "SWANSON! looking goood!" hahah i was like mmk? i thought it was pretty funny. Then we went out to eat and my sisters X boyfriend was sitten right behind us and we had like one of the WORST waitors and i need some ketchup..she turned around and asked him for his ketchup..i was so embarised lol ...well im supposed to go to the lake later on and then the movies?!?!

HAHAHA im such a dork...our coach brought us candy from Tokyo and uhh i got this white one with golden gilter all over it and im like hmm these ppl put weird things on their candy! and everyones like woa yours is white! cuz everyone else were red and then i was like OUCH! ..the glitter scratched my gum up and then i was like..this cant be right. So i looked at the bag and there was this big ol display of this white candy with gold gilter all over it...couldnt read it so i dunno what my tummy won...pretty funny huh?

People amaze me...i never knew so many ppl pay attention to what i wear.. One day i dressed like alternative and i had so many ppl come up to me and go OMG you remind me of "so and so" and im like ok? and then i got woa thats hot..woa you look like madonna?!?! the funniest one was my brothers girlfriend came up to him and was like.."Jareth...did you know your sister dressed alternative today?" hes like umm yea she does that sometimes haha and she goes "Well its cute but my mom would just kill me if i did that!" i was crackin up..ive gottn like a compliment like everyday...these ppl have nothing better to do..sad lol but todays compliment was the weirdest...this girl in my English class said i looked like barbie..and then the guy beside her said no..a punk-rock barbie! i was like yall are HIGH! haha so now they call me barbie...What is the world comming to?

Hey guys!
Well school started...kinda cool kinda not lol...i onlt have one mean teacher...and it happend to be my favorite subject so that kinda sucks...Umm nothing much has happend really cept i went tot he movies Sat. night with a bunch of people to see Dukes of hazard..pretty funny! lol and umm we threw my mom a surprise 38th birthday party...that was cool i guess. Ive met some pretty cool people tho at BHS..all the hot guys are upperclass men..ive only seen like 3 hot freshman..o well lol well i just got home from soccer im gonna go...leave some remarks!

So tonight was freshman orientation...umm yall can officially say im gonna get LOST! lol i fel tlike i was keep going in circles and i was just lookin at all the ppl and not payin attention to my classes...o well i never pay attention to anything...i gotta work on that tho so i can get a scholarship and get outta this hell hole..and become a music producer! -back to tonight- haha well i saw like umm maybe 3 cute guys...there was this one..mMm lol ..i felt SO stupid! the principal was talkin to me and i was lookin at everyone and off in LaLa land and she was just talkin away and my dad was like...Jack...JACK! i was like huh? but yea i met some cool ppl...you can say im gonna be the kid sittn in the hall cuz i cant find my way around! lol well im excited!

photo from misunderstood