Happy Easter!!!!!

So how are ya'll! i'm doing great, kinda sad that i'm having to leave everyone...but i'm sure i'll be ok! i love that i get to see all ya'll again!!! if ya'll want an update on Thailand, one ask me, or two, you can wait till a couple days, when i feel like updating! :D But overall...i'll tell you this...it was GREAT and God totally showed up! It was the best 5 months! And I praise God that He called me to do this!!!! It was amazing and i wouldn't take back a minute of it! Even the hard times! The hard times were hard, and of course not fun! But now, I'm glad He put me through what He did! The hurt caused me to grow! And it was worth it all! God is amazing! And showed up a great deal in Thailand and all over the world! One story for ya'll! It didn't happen to my team, BUT one of my friends from the Japan team, told us an amazing story!!! Here it is: He wanted to see God move and actually wanted to see a miracle and told them team he did! So they prayed and then one of the women said why don't you pray for your teammate! His teammate actually was born with one leg 3 inches shorter than the other! So he prayed, and he was really pumped with faith at the time cause all the prayer and worship they were doing! And all of a sudden, he saw one tug on the mans leg, then two more! The guy seriously thought that he was just pulling on his leg, and thought he was being funny! But he totally had his hands off of him! His legs are now the same length! Also, the saw a half-blind woman be healed, she can now fully see...and has accepted Christ! And one story from my trip! We went to a village and we were praying for the people! One place we went to, there was a little girl who couldn't speak and she was about 3 i think! And we prayed for her, in faith, and the whole team didn't get to witness it, but about 3 of them did! They were walking away and the little girl spoke!! PRAISE GOD!!!! Anyways, i wanted to share a bit!!! Trust God and have faith and He'll continue to show up in amazing ways!!! i love ya'll and i'll see some of ya'll tomorrow!!! :D

I'll be home in 19 days!!! lol!! Can't wait to see ya'll and tell ya'll all about Thailand!! Love ya'll!!!

So I'd like to update ya'll on my little story of how I woke up this morning! I was sleeping nicely in my own little bed...just counting my z's....and all of a sudden I hear Chelsea's cell phone go off! (I bet you're thinkin'...ok...wow....nothing new! I'm not done!) So I hear Chelsea answer her phone....stumble around a little bit and she goes,"What...what are you talking about?!" And I watch her as she stumbles outside...and by that time I can hear people talking outside! And in my mind I thought..."What the flip...people are partying and woke us up!" Then I hear Chelsea, not really screaming but kinda yelling...,"Ya'll get up! Come out here and see this! Hurry up.......the campus soccer field is ON FIRE!!!" And I was like,"WHAT!?!?!" I dash outside to see what is going on, and all I can see is orange color flames and smoke! Now the fire wasn't right at my building yet...but I see the flames from where I'm standing! And then we're like ok! We have to leave the building! So we get out and walk down away from village 2 (my dorm) and it's just this huge line of fire! Course, I'm flippin' out cause, I've never been in this situation before and I haven't heard anything...I'm afraid our buildings were going to be burnt down! And so people are all out there praying and watching these flames grow! And then I talk to Christi and I have to go back to the room for something....and she said she'd go with me real fast! (Don't worry...the fire wasn't spread that way real fast) but we go back and my roomates are packing "important just in case things"! So I pack some stuff I would actually need and we left! And all we did was wait! And about 30 to 45 minutes later.....the flames were going down and finally they got it under control! And it's 4:12 pm here now...and I still hear the helocopter(sp...I know, I'm a bad speller) outside dumbing water on it making sure it's all cooled off! But the crazy thing about this whole thing is when the emerals starting coming towarded the housing and stuff the wind would blow it the other way! People said it was like there was a huge wall and it looked like it was bouncing off of! With a fire like that and no one being hurt and all our buildings still up.....God totally showed up and had His hand protecting us!! And if the wind had of changed at all, it could of got us! But God was there...and He turned this whole thing around!! And even though I been up since then...it's been a pretty cool day! lol! But yea...I thought that would make for an awesome drama story! But anyways...last night we had a thing called "Love Feast" and the Compassion group got together and had a nice dinner...some fun games and songs....and we got to get all dressed up!  It was great! And I had tons of fun! I just can't believe that I'll be leaving soon! I'm excited, nervous, and I don't know what else, all at the same time! I'll be leaving Dec. 23...which is in like 11 days! AHHHH! lol!! Well anyways...I gotta go...talk to ya'll soon! Love ya tons!!! And miss ya'll like crazy!!

ps. See ya'll in 10 weeks and 5 days! :D

SAVIOR

i'm everything you've wanted
i am the one whose haunting you
i am the eyes inside of you, stare back at you
B verse:
there's nothing left to lose
there's nothing left to prove
surrender your love, it's all you can do
Chorus:
what you got, what you want, what you need
gonna be your savior
everything's gonna crash and break
but i know, yeah i know
what you got what you want, what you need
gonna be your savior
everything's gonna crash and break
your savior
v2:
it's time to redefine your deophobic mind
don't hesitate, no escape
from secrets on the inside
(B verse)
Bridge:
i am the eyes inside staring back at you(2x)
you need me(2x) yaaaaa

I really like this song!

Hey ya'll!

 What's up!? Not much here, chillen and stuff! Flippin' out that I only have 24 days until Thailand! AHHH! But anyways! This past week has been GREAT! I got to see my family for Thanksgiving! And we got to stay at the Hilton Hawaiian Village! And it was AMAZING!!! I almost forgot what a nice bathroom and bed felt like...but I'm thankful that I even have that here on campus! But it was tons-o-fun! They even have all these animals and shopping centers and really cool stuff! Then Sunday we came back to Kona! Went to class on Monday and Monday afternoon I sat up for my parents 25 ann. and my dad and mom renewed their vows! And then that night at dinner I got sick and was sick the next day! And then my leaders let me have today off...and my parents left today too! Pray for everyone on campus! Cause we're all getting sick and alot of people are breaking things! And getting hurt! But yea! Things are going better! And like, the campus is doing really great about making it feel like Christmas around here!Sure it's hot..but during the night time it cools down and they have the Christmas lights are turned on! Hummmm....and Polar Express was offically played on my laptop today, during my resting time! lol!

And an up date on what God is up too! I'm totally being streched, but I know here is nothing to how I'll feel in Thailand! So yea! But tonight it was pointed out that lately I've been living with lies...and I have been letting myself believe them! So I'm praying and asking God to help me overcome those! I wanna know and understand God's heart more! And how He feels about me and BELIEVE it..fully! And all the time! I don't want to think negatively about myself anymore...but I need help to overcome that! And I can't help it...I just don't believe any of the postive things about myself! It's a struggle! So ya'll pray for me about that! That's great!

Well ya'll! Have a wonderful night! I love ya'll tons and tons! I'll see ya'll in about 12 weeks!

".....No sweeter name than the name of Jesus, No sweeter name have I ever know......"

Hey hey! What's up ya'll!? Not much here! Just thought I'd update, while I actually 1) have time and 2) feel like it! :D So how's everyone back in M'boro?! I miss ya'll tons! And would love to hear from you anytime you would want to talk! Sure, I might be busy...but I can call back! ;) Anyways! It's been a pretty crazy and busy week! We talked about Injustice this week, and it's crazy about some of the things that actually go on in other countries...and kinda sadly, how Americans are apart of this injustice! For example...the sex trade industry! At least in Thailand and Camobida(sp?) the girls who are sold for sex are anywhere from the age of 5 and up to the teenage years! And they say most of there "customers" are Americans! Which is fueling them to do this even more....because that get lots of there money this way! It's a sad thing, really! I guess it really opens my eyes to think about all the times complain, go to sleep at night, have my mom take care of me when I'm sick, etc.! There's someone out there that doesn't have that! A 5 year old girl that is being sold for sex! Blah! I hate to think about that! And I'm not saying...feel guilty for having the things God has blessed you with! Cuz He wants you to enjoy those things and praise Him for it! But I'm just sayin is all!

Anyways, this next week should be good, we're going to have a lady talking about our destiny! And finding out what that is! So, I'm excited for that! It should be good! But anyways...I'm going to write some of the songs on here, that've really stuck out to me lately! Awesome songs!! But anyways, I love ya'll tons....and I'll talk to ya'll later! Take care and stay strong!

"Thank you for hearing me, Thank you for loving me, Thank you for finding me, Thank you for saving me, Thank you for hearing me!"

"I love you Lord, And I lift my voice. To worship you, Oh my soul, Rejoice! Take joy my King. In what you hear! May it be a sweet, sweet sound, In your ear!"

"You are the way, the truth, and the life. We live by faith, and not by sight. For You, we're livin' all for You. One Way.....JESUS! You are the only one that I could live for!"

thailand

Hey ya'll! just thought I'd let ya'll know!! I found out last night! I love ya'll and I'll update more later!

ps. sorry ya'll, i thought my flag of thailand showed up! at least it did on mine! kinda stinks...i thought the flag would be a sweeter touch! lol!

What's up ya'll!!! Wow....what a day!! Holy cow!! lol! I hurt like non other!! I'll get back to that in a second! But, things are good! Plumb Line week was great! There was some things in my life God brought up, that I didn't even know I had!! But it was great! And Mary came home today! Not even a week later! And my small group leader Dawn said she thought Mary would be in a wheelchair anywhere from 6 months and a year! And she walked 100 ft like Tues!! It's amazing!! But back to my day! One of my friends Jenna, asked if I wanted to go with a group of them to go to the beach and go see a waterfall! I was like "HECK YES!" So today 15 of us drove an hour and a half to get to our place! And ya'll, I feel ya'll pain about the cold! Cause we drove on a part of the island where it was SOOOOOO cold! And we were riding in the back of a truck, with me wearing a tank top, shorts, and flip flops!! Cause I had no idea! Then when we got there..ya'll it was BEAUTIFUL!!! We had to walk down these HUGE hills, and what you walk down you have to walk up! :P But then we came to a place and the said we had to wade the rest of the way! I was like WHOA what?! People I didn't even have my bathing suit on! So some of the girls had to go over to the side with me, hold up a towel and I had to change right there! The worst thing I've ever done in my life! lol! Then they said that we could that a trail, so we didn't have to wade! Mind you, I'm wearing FLIP FLOPS from Old Navy! And ya'll this WASN'T HIKING!! This was actually hard core, adventure! We had to wade, walk through leaves and plants, on a trail that only animals have made! We had to climb rocks and slide down rocks...all this took about 2 hours! Finally, we got to the waterfall! It was beautiful and cold! And was probably about 400 feet tall!! And actually it's something that most people don't see up close! Because there was a group of like four people behind us and at the waterfall the said they were actually suprised we made it, cause most people give up and turn back around because of how hard it is to get there! So pretty sure, it's once-in-a-lifetime thing! And I'll actually upload pictures soon!! But, as bad as I hurt...I'm so glad I did it!! I feel so good that I actually finish and did something like that! It feels great to know I had such an adventure! I even had a thought, while walking today! I was looking at the ground making sure I wouldn't slip, not paying to much attention to what was around me..cause I was watching my footing...which is ok in this situation! But God brought to my mind, "Amber does this remind you of your walk with me, at times?! You spend so much time watching out that you won't slip and fall...to notice all this beautiful creation around you! You need to look around and not strive so hard! These rocks and trees are like obstacles in life, but YOU CAN overcome them and get to the end! Keep pressing on! And if you slip and fall...you won't stay there..you'll get back up and keep going to get to the treasure waiting ahead!" I was like WHOA! So, even while watching were I was stepping, I was looking at all that was around me! AND IT WAS BEAUTIFUL! *sighs* :)

Take care ya'll! I love ya'll so much, and I'll talk to ya'll soon! Take care and stay strong...and remember to look up and enjoy God's creation!

Hey beautiful people!!!

         So this week I'm going to take a week from everything back home! Because it's a Heart to Heart week! Meaning a lot of brokeness week!!! We'll be finding out what walls we have in our heart and focuse on healing things in our hearts! Very hard, emotional week....I'm sure! One that I need to focus on and that I can only walk through with Christ! That's why I can't talk to anyone back home I feel...because I'll try to go to ya'll with how I feel!! And what's 5 days, right?! It'll be 5 amazing days!! 5 hard days!! And 5 days that I'm growing and becoming more of the woman God wants me to be!!

        But also...I wanted to just tell ya'll a story of what happened yesterday! A woman from our Compassion group got REALLY hurt! Her and her husband got caught in a wave and was tossed 10 times! He was fine but she got hurt! They took her to the hospital and had to fly her to Honalulu(sp) for better treatment! Well we had heard she broke her back, neck, and that there was bleeding going into her brain! They were scared she would be parilized(sp) and that her husband couldn't get a flight out that night! So the Compassion got together at prayed from like 7 till about 8:30 or so! We prayed for comfort, for healing, for a flight for her husband! 1st call for an update...she only had 3 vert. in her spine broke...around her neck! On to more prayer...2nd call...trying to get her husband a flight....more prayer 3rd call....her husband has 20 minutes to get on this flight! Another call...her husband is on!!!!!! Another call...she is in alot of pain...as much as that stinks it's a good sign...she won't be parilized! Only worry now...the bleeding to the brain! And we wouldn't get any more updates for the night!! But we decided to get in pairs and pray throughout the night!! A group every 30 minutes! So that there would be prayer for her and her family all night long! Update this morning....THE BLEEDING STOPPED AT 11:30 last night!!!! Yessssss!!! She's still in pain!! So please pray for her, her name is Mary! Also a guy named Andy broke his knee cap yesterday as well, playing soccer!! Pray for our week!! That would be great!!

     I love ya'll so so much!! I miss ya'll tons!!! But God is up to great things in all our lives!!! Take care...and I'll read and write, hopefully, this weekend!!! *hugs and kisses*!

OH MY GOSH!!!!!! God is amazing! Here's a story to rock your world...it has mine!!! Tonight we had a worship meeting and then this guy got up and was talking about how they wanted to raise $25,000 for India for some kinda house or something! And anything extra would go to some other building they would do later!! And course in my mind I thought $20,000....and I was like "No, ok...God, you can do this! Bring in the money! You're going to do it!" We were still worshiping....then they anncounced...$46,465!!!!! Ahhhhh!! Were people done giving!? Heck no!!! By the end there was $53,154...and maybe a little more!!! HOW AMAZING!!!!!! That's not even the end, the man got up there and said that a girl came up to him and told him that God gave her a picture of Buddha! And then told her, that eventually India would be known as a CHRISTIAN country!!! No longer have buddhism, but Christian!!!! CRAZY!!!!! Awwww!!! Wow!!! Kinda makes you realize you don't have to worry about how God will provide, but know that He will!!! I mean...this isn't something that happened in hours ya'll! This took like 30 min. if not less!! So my $2,000 that I still need...doesn't look so big anymore! lol! Anyways ya'll...I just wanted to share! I love ya'll tons!! Talk to you soon!! Stay Strong...stay faithful!!

Hey ya'll!!!! What's up! Not much here! Bet ya thought I would never update! So did I! lol!! Jk! I just haven't had to much time to sit down and write! So how's life with all!? Things are pretty good here! Just getting into the swing of things, with classes and all!! We've had some really great speakers! The first week, Loren Cunninghum, the second week was Joe someone and he talked about God's love! And that was something I needed to hear! Like I know in my head that God loves me, but I didn't get it fully in my heart HOW MUCH He loves me! I'm still trying to understand it! And this week a guy named Steve from Columbia South America is talking about street kids!! That stuff is CRAZY!!! But it's good that he's filling us in on things we are going to see, and not sugar coating it! He was telling us one story how he knows a grandmother over there at the age of 28! The age were most people have there 1st or 2nd child maybe...and she's a grandmother!! Wow! And also just talking about how street kids will sleep under newspaper to keep warm and sleep under overhangs to stay dry and people will beat them to make them leave and even some cops will pour gasoline and light a match! Breaks your heart, huh!? But he also has been teaching us that the reason we helps these kids or anyone for that matter doesn't need to be for the kids, pressure, ministry, passion, for yourself....it needs to be about glorifing His Holy Name!! And if at anytime you wonder, "Why am I even here, What am I even doing" and you just feel like you can't figure this stuff out that we need to remember that it's not about us, we're being obedient to Christ, and bringing glory to His name! If you're out working with street kids just to work with them or cause a passion or whatever....ask God to change it to being about Him! This is a great, wise man! With a real passion and love for the street kids! Because God gave him that passion and love! So I'm real excited about the rest of the week and the follow weeks after! I'm also exciting to see my parents and brother! And to get off this island! lol! See some other things besides this campus!! lol! Well anyways...I'm gonna go! I love ya'll tons and I hope to talk to you soon!!! Take care! Stay strong!

"Rise and follow me, I'll make you worthy. Rise and follow me....I'll make you fishers of men." --Christie Jennings

Ya'll, if ya'll haven't heard this song....whoa! I love it!!! Right now, I'm still waiting for classes to start, and I can't wait! Tonight at dinner, I found myself eating with people from all over the world! Not one was from the states! I loved it! It amazed me, because one of the people at this table was from a country I've never even heard before, and I can't even remember what it was called! And even though I know that I gotta go through this time of learning and growing with God...all I wanna do is be out there in Asia! Hummmmm...I can't wait for then!
And ya'll, can I just say that God is AWESOME!! He's already opened up two doors for two different roomates of mine! To hear their stories and them open up! I love that God would chose to work through me! I LOVE IT!! I love being here for these girls, and then them turning around and wanting to help and love on me in my times of need and comfort! Having Jesus work through them, to tell me what I need to hear! I love being here, even though I get homesick! And missing all my friends and family! (And I mean it..I miss and love every single one of you guys!) But thank ya'll so much for being willing enough and loving me enough to let me go for this long...to spend time with my Lover...and my God!! Ya'll today He told me 1) I was beautiful, 2) He loved me...not just loved me....but LOVES me! and 3) that I have a beautiful heart because of him! That I really do, as much as I doubt it sometimes, I really have hope in Him and that I do love Him! I'm so excited for what He's up to! Not only in my life, not only in the life of the girls in my room or the people on this campus, not only for what He's going to do in Asia or any of these countries that He's taking us too, but also for all of ya'll lives! I'm excited for it all!!!
But anyways ya'll! I love ya'll tons! And I'll talk to ya'll soon! Take care, and write, call, or just even send me a message! ;)
......"I will praise you Lord my God, even in my brokeness, I will praise you Lord. I will praise you Lord my God, Even in my desperation, I will praise you Lord......My life is in your hands, and though I can not see you I choose to trust you. Even when I my heart is torn, I will praise you Lord. Even when I feel desertated(sp), I will praise you Lord. Even in the darkest valley, I will praise you Lord. And when my world is shatered(sp) and it seems like all hope is gone, yet I will praise you Lord...I will trust you Lord my God, even in my loneliness I will trust you Lord. I will trust you Lord my God, even when I can not hear you, I will trust you Lord...I will not forget that you hung on a cross, Lord you bleed and died for me. And if I have to suffer I know that you've been there and that you're here now..." --(yet another great song by..)Christie Jennings

HEY!!!! What's up ya'll!? Man, oh man! I can't believe I'm here!! It's awesome, but hot! lol! Go figure that Hawaii would be hot! But anyways, ya'll keep me in your prayers! The home sickness, goes in and out! And I have awesome girls in my room! They're so sweet! And I even had a moment were I cried today with them and they supported me! It's awesome!! I can't wait to get to know these girls more! And I love it because one or two of the girls is girly...like me! :D ha! Anyways! Keep me in your prayers, please! I love ya'll so much! And I already miss all of ya'll! Take care and I hope to hear from ya'll soon!!

Well today is my last day! I'll be leaving at 4:30 in the morning! I love ya'll tons and I'll see all ya'll in Feb! I'm gonna miss all of ya'll!! And I'll update, as often and as soon as I can, when I get out there!! Take care!
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Hey ya'll! Just thought I would update...cause it's been a little since I wrote on here!! Things have been absoultly CrAzY!! Even though I don't have work or school, my days are still being filled up, by the people I wanted to see and hang out with and all the things I gotta do before I leave! And sure I guess for the most part I'm like...."omgosh....I'm not going to get it all done! I'm going to go crazy!" But once I stop and take time to think about it, I like staying busy like this, so that way I'm not so focused on leaving! Gosh, how time flies! I've had all these great things planned with my friends this summer, and I can't believe they've all already flown by! I've got great memories to take out there with me and to share(some of them...lol) with the people I'm about to know as "family" and friends for the next 5 months! And then I'll be coming home and sharing all the great new memories with my family and friends! And ya'll have awesome and amazing things to share as well! How exciting! I just need ya'lls prayers!
But anyways! Here's what's been going on, last Sunday my parents gave me a going-away party! It was fun, and I loved that the people who mean the world to me where there (except about 3 and they have reasons :D ) And then this past Thursday was my last night of work...and I ended just like I would've wanted to! It went by fast and no stress! lol! Then....the best part of my week was this weekend! Me and Sarah went on our first road trip together!! And we didn't even get lost!!! YAY!!! lol! We went to Chat. to vist with my sister and brother-in-law, so I could spend some time with them and say bye. But we watched movies, went and got pizza and just hung out! Then the next morning we all sat in their room and had coffee and donuts! lol! Then on the way home my and sarah brought lottery tickets! lol, it's was fun cause it was a first for me! Then we headed home! After that my cousin came by and took me out to eat! And I had a great time hanging out with her and just talking with her! Then after that Tara, Becca, Hunter, Michael, and I went to the Rascal Flatts concert!! And I had a blast!!! (There's a whole story behind that...but that's for another day!) ;) Then yesterday, went to church and then my family and some friends went out to eat! Came home and my family and I played some games together, went to have cake at my grandma's house, then the Dillon's took me out to eat, and then I went to Power! It's good because I'm getting to get all my "good-byes" or "see ya laters" in! And I don't want to leave without being able to do all that! So anyways! DTS emailed me yesterday and sent me my mailing address there! So here it is, if you'd like to write me or anything:
Amber Hasler
Compassion DTS
University of the Nations
75-5851 Kuakini Hwy #430
Kailua Kona, HI 96740

Well anyways, I'm gonna go, I got many things I need to get done today! I love ya'll! And I'll talk to ya'll soon! *muah*!

WOW, is the only word I have for ya'll! God is breakin' the mess outta me! But in all of it....I am amazed!! The past few days God's really been calling me and woeing (did I spell that right?!) me! On Thursday, I'll only have 2 weeks left, and it's becoming more and more of a reality that my life is about to change forever! God's been calling out to me for so long and wanting me for so long, and now....His time has finally come! As scared and nervous as I am....I know God is so thrilled that it's His turn to captivate my heart! It's now time to be intimate with Him and Him alone! And I can't help but pick up on and soak up some of His excitment! Today has been a broken day! But I'm not down, and praise Him for that! But it's been an emotional day for me, and I realized this is what I get to look forward to for the next 3 weeks...the last two here and the first week there! It's going to be soooo hard to leave all ya'll behind, but I'm going to need all of ya'lls support! In these next few weeks...I'm going to be so emotional and so weak! I need ya'lls help and prayer! It's been awesome though, to have God have my heart already over there! God is preparing my heart for over there! And soon, for the next 6 months, my arms will be open to brokeness, healing, and finding out who I am in Christ and who He is leading me to be! I tell you one thing though! I can't wait to come back and tell all the amazing things that HE DID! And hear about all the amazing things He did here!

I was listening to the Jars of Clay song "Love Song for a Savior" and let me put on here what stuck out to me, in this song:
"In open fields of wild flowers
She breathes the air flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daisies and the roses
In no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all

He's more than the laughter
Or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat
Or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust him
And learn how to see him
Someday he'll call her
And she will come running
Fall in his arms, the tears will fall down
And she'll pray

I want to fall in love with you"

Ya'll.........this is me! I've been a little girl, playing in an open field...loving all my Daddy's creations and just having him as a best friend! But now, He's calling me! He wants to be more than my "best friend"....He wants to be my EVERYTHING! And I want and need to fall in love with Him! It's time to understand, and I mean fully understand...He's more then what I've been thinking He was! It's time to love Him, spend time with Him, for Him to mold me into who I need to be, for Him to take me where He needs to, and to trust Him! Trust Him in the fact that He really does know what He's doing, trust Him in who He says I am and who I can be, and trust that He is not with holding anything good from me...only protecting me and my heart! It's time to go! As hard as reality is for me....and it's finally caught up! It's not something I just talk about doing anymore...it's something that IS happening! Hummm......just please keep me in ya'lls prayers! I love ya'll so, so much! Take care, and have a wonderful night! *muah*!

So what's up all my homeslices?! lol! I thought ya'll would like that! Anyways!! Not to much here, chillen by my lonesome self and thinking that it's time for an update!! I haven't done so in awhile cuz I haven't had anything important to say, and still don't! But owell....I decided I'd update anyways, for the fun of things!!! I haven't been up to to much lately! Just hanging with friends, while I'm still here and working! How was the first day of college everyone!? Awww, I hope it went well!!! Ya'll are goin' to have an awesome year!!! I'm sooo excited for ya'll!!!
Lately I've been really thinking about YWAM, I'm excited and nervous all at the same time!! Pray for me!! I know things will be ok, and all this nervousness and stuff will go away once I get there!! But still right now it's hard, because I know it's coming! 4 weeks! Ahhh! Time has really flown! But I am ready all at the same time!
Anyways...while I still sit here in all my boredom, I'm getting every excited that there's going to be a thunderstorm tonight!!! Yesssss!!! lol, I'll sleep like a baby tonight! I love storms...they're soooo neat!! :D But yea, anyways....I'm gonna go do something! Ttyl! Take care! And I love ya'll so, sO, SO much!!!!

....."And you said I know that this will hurt: But if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse: If the burden seems too much to bear: Remember: The end will justify the pain it took to get us there"

Pretty awesome song I must say!! And I really believe...or actually know that in a little less than 7 weeks this will be a song that will help me out! Because my heart is about to be broken!!! I will be broken!! And God will be the only one I can absoultly lean on!! I can't say I'm looking foward to being broken....does anyone really?! lol! But I am looking foward to having that time with God!! And just being able overcome some things in my life! For a while I was afraid of being totally changed....I mean to absoultly let go of my life....but now....I am ready!!! And something I realized last night...before falling asleep I've became lazy in my walk! You know when you can just feel something isn't right and you can't put your finger on it...but at the same time your so tired of feeling that way!? Well God points out to me that I've been lazy!! And confirmed what He said to be this morning in Hewbrews..." We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through faith and patience inherit what has been promised " ......so yes, God told me that and He also let me know that it's ok, just to work on getting back into the race!! Course that's another thing God's working on me with! I know I try to hard to please Him...for Him to be happy with me! But I know He already is! But I guess my mind-set is..that I want to be perfect for Him(and I know I can't) but I just try and try because I just want to do anything I can for Him! But God is trying to tell me to REST in Him...rest and not be lazy!! And another thing He's going to heal me from is doubt! All kinds of doubt! That's a big struggle for me! I came accross some notes the other day, in my Bible, and it said," Even when I doubt myself, God doesn't " And that just made me smile!! Cause even though I really struggle with self-doubt....God doesn't doubt me!! WOW!!
Anyways ya'll!! I gotta go!! My family from Virginia just pulled up! lol!! Take care! I love ya'll!!

So I can't believe it...last night I was sitting here, or actually in my room! And it dawns on me! It was Aug. 4!! I'm sure you're like, "Ok, Amber, I'm glad you can actually realize what day it is! Big step up for you!" But...lol...let me finsh!! After I realize what day it was, I realized what happened 3 years ago! I commited to not dating for one year!! And God had longer in store! Cause it's been 3 years since I've dated!! WOW!!! That's amazing to me!! I went from a girl who couldn't go a month without a boyfriend, to a women who doesn't want a boyfriend.....but Jesus!! And not just a boyfriend, but in Gods timing, my husband! Hummmmmmm!! It's mind-blowing!! In the past 3 years, God has taken me through many things! And a lot of changing and breaking! And continues to do so! The first year I learned, I can handle not dating and God changed my mind on who I was choosing to date! The second year I learned, that the only man I need is God! And my views on dating completly were changing!! I desired a Godly-man, one that desires God above me, and much more! God gave me desires and standards for my husband! And last but not least...this past year! WOW!! God's blown my mind with all the stuff!! He changed my heart!!! (And is continueing to!) He taught me several things through one of my friends!! He blessed me with a friendship that I've prayed about for a long time and through that friendship, God changed me and my views! And helped me gain wisdom and joy! Don't get me wrong, it wasn't my friend who did this changing....it was God in him!! (Thanks to this friend, who has been willing enough to allow God to work through you, to impact me!) But I learned that love isn't a fairy tale!! (READ THAT AGAIN GIRLS!!!) It isn't!! It has it's up and downs! Fun times and hard times! A time for being joyful and a time for brokeness! Also, marriage...isn't about us!! It's about God!! It all is!! Marriage is an accountablity!! It's promises to be there in the good and bad times! It is so that the two of you can imbody the full image of God and to GLORIFY....who?....HIM!!!!! It's not about all the stuff the world pulls us into!! It's for God's story! And it's God's blessing!! Also, I've learned guys aren't perfect...don't hold them to be!! They can't say or do everything we want or dream them to do! The only man like that...is Jesus!!! (He's the one to fall in love with! lol!!) But I also learned that the reason I sat starands so high, was because, I knew not one single man on this earth could meet that! So I knew they'd fall and I knew I could protect myself and push them away! Which comes to what God is doing in me right now!! He is healing me!! He is wanting to take my heart and mold it the way He's wanted to all along! Sure, it won't be the most enjoyable experience.....there will be tears, the will be hurt, there will be questions, there will be brokeness and loniness....BUT I'm not going through it by myself!! And the reason I am and will go through this, is to bring glory to God! And have a story to share with the lost, the searching, etc.!! Don't you see..your pain and sufferings are so you can relate to others!! It's not to destory you...our God isn't about that!! It's so you can go into this world and relate with His people!! I know God is preparing me for my husband...and that is so exciting for me!! But until God has me to a point where He knows I'm ready and trusts me with such a Godly-man, man that is so amazing I can't even dream of, a man that desires God, a man that has a heart like mine and will treat me as I should be treated....I will have to wait! Cause I want to be the wife that he needs!! The kinda wife that can stand strong behind my husband, that can build him up, that can hold him accountiable, etc!! Course God's taught me so much this year! And done so much awesome stuff I could probably write a book! But...for ya'lls sake...I won't ;) lol!!
Anyways...ya'll have an AMAZING night!! I love ya'll every much!!

So I thought I'd finally update! lol! And let ya'll know that DTS called! They've accepted me into the Compassion focus!! And when the man told me that I squealed with excitement and told him, "I'm SO EXCITED!!" And he just laughed at me and was glad I was so happy about it! They said they had looked over my application, or something and saw I was interested in working with children...funny thing I don't remember writting anything about children! *Course, I don't remember a whole lotta stuff* lol!! But yes, my friends, I'm headed to South East Asia to work with the poor, needy, and children!! And I couldn't be happier about where God has placed me to go!! I can only pray that I can give these children the love and comfort they need, and introduce them to the eternial love and comfort!! Just pray for strength and an open heart! Pray that those peoples hearts will be open! And pray for safety! Course I don't know exactly what part of South East Asia I'm headed to, I'll find that out when I get there!! But anyways, beautiful people, I'm gonna go!! Take care and I hope ya'll have a WONDERFUL day!!!

lol, I know this is gonna sound weird, but I felt the call to write on here and encourage ya'll!! lol! Weird comin' from a girl, huh!? But I know alot of the times, I do get on here and encourage girls and talk about girl things! But I felt it was time to say something to ya'll! And I know I'm not a guy, so I dont' really know stuff that ya'll go through, but don't let me not being a male tune you out to what I want to say to ya'll!! :) Anyways...as I drove home today from lunch...it dawns on me that guys struggle through hard times and stuff just like women do! I bet you're saying,"No joke...I know that!" But hear me out...it finally hits home!! Not only do women hide from things in this world...men do too! As men, ya'll hide behind your strength!! Am I wrong, cuz if so...let me know! But as women, we hide our hearts...afraid to let anyone hurt us anymore! But as men, I believe ya'lls strength is what keeps ya'll safe!! Ya'll feel that you have to come accross as strong, successful men....and if not ya'll are failing or being to soft! I realized how much pressure ya'll have on ya'll! And it's hard because you need to have control on things!! (Women do this too, and I'm sure that you guys are saying "Amen to that!" as I am writting this! lol) But for guys...I think that your control on things comes from a different side then womens...sure control is control, but women want control on situations...men want control on life! Ya'll need to know that things will fall into place! You need to know that you can support yourself....and one day a wife and family! You need to know that you've been successful!! And ya'll feel if you don't have a grip on these things...that again you've failed...and that's hard and stressful on ya'll! Women, I think it's very important we let these men, our brothers, know how important they are! Ya'll play a BIG role in God's story, men!! And as sisters, we need to help our brothers with confidence!! Because I'm sure as a man...it's hard to keep that!! But guys...I want to encourage you to NOT hide behind your strength and success!! Let go of control! (girls you too!!) Don't be afraid to show your heart men!! God did give you one of those!!! lol! I know you hear that from women all the time! "They need more emotions...blah, blah, blah...nag, nag, nag!" Women, realize men aren't made to show emotions LIKE US!! But men, that also doesn't give you the excuse to not show any at all...that's hiding behind your strength! I think that God has to soften hearts into that! Allow God to do so! Because men...Jesus was a strong man....but He did show emotions! He showed love, He cared for people, He showed compassion...but He was strong!! Showing emotion doesn't always mean, crying and being all excited and jumping up and down at things, like girls!! lol!! It's loving on people and not being afraid to do so! It's being willing to open up and let yourselves be healed...and not keeping it inside to "deal with it on your own"! It's showing that you care and you're willing to take time to encourage and listen!! I think real strength is shown when a man is willing to put himself on the line...and open up about things!! Don't try to be perfect and put on a face....things in life do go wrong!! (And I'm talking to girls, and myself as well in all this!) I'm not trying to sit here and call out guys by any means...please don't take it that way!! I'm saying it's ok....don't be afraid to be the man God has made you to be!! And remember God has put hearts in each of you men....not just strength!! Ya'll are important...and just as men need women....women DO need men!! Ya'll play a very important role...and don't let the stress of strength and success bring you down from being that man!! Thank you so much to all my guy friends.......for everything!! Ya'll mean the world to me!! And if it wasn't for men...I wouldn't know what to do! Because ya'll have every imporant qulities of God!!! Be men of God!! And let God change ya'lls life...let Him take control! Depend on His strength, and not your own!!
....anyways!! Those are just my thoughts and me wanting to encourage ya'll!! Sorry if that's not how it is, if so let me know ;) lol!!! But anyways..today's been a great day...VERY HOTT!!! lol!! I think I might go for a swim! lol!!! But anyways...if ya'll didn't hear Bro. Dean's message today....IT WAS GREAT!! Ask me if ya wanna know!!! It was about judgement...go figure a chruch that preachs on judgement! lol! But this was a different type of sermon! It was very very good! And Dean is such a wise man! Wow!!! Anyways!! Ya'll take care! Stay strong and safe!! Love ya'll!!

Ok...so I'm so so so excited!! I have a huge smile accross my face!!!! Ahhhhh, I can't wait to see where God takes me!!!! So I get a call today saying DTS will be a bit different this year, and they give me six different places I could possibly go!! And I give the man my top to choices...where I have a heart to go! And the first two oppions, made my heart leap for joy!!! A China focus and the other, which would be a real life changing and oh my gosh amazing....and totally me.....a Compassion outreach!!!! AHHHHH!! lol!! This outreach is in South East Asia and around that area and it deals with the poor, needy, and.....children at risk!!! ASIANS!!!! AND CHILDREN!!!!! It's like a dream come true!!! lol!!!! I know I'm so crazy!! But man....I can't wait to go and wrap my arms around these kids!!! :D I can't wait to let my heart pour out on them and do anything and everything for them!!!! I'm so excited!!! Well anyways...thought I'd share!!! :D Take care...I love ya'll!!!

"Every woman was once a little girl. And every little girl holds in her heart her most precious dreams. She longs to be swept up into a romance, to play an irreplaceable role in a great adventure, to BE the Beauty of the story. Those desires are far more than child's play. They are the secret to the feminine heart.
And yet - how many women do you know who ever find that life? As the years pass by, the heart of a women gets pushed aside, wounded, buried. She finds no romance except in novels, no adventure except on television, and she doubts very much that she will ever be the Beauty in any tale.
Most women think they have to settle for a life of efficiency and duty, chores and errands, striving to be the women they "ought" to be but often feeling they have failed. Sadly, too many messages for Christian women add to the pressure. "Do these ten things, and you will be a godly woman." The effect has not been good on the feminine soul.
But her heart is still there. Sometimes when she watches a movie, sometimes in the wee hours of the night, her heart begins to speak again. A thirst rises within her to find the life she was meant to live - the life she dreamed of as a little girl.
The message of Captivating is this: Your heart matters more than anything else in all creation. The desires you had as a little girl and the longings you still feel as a woman - they are telling you of the life God created you to live. He offers to come now as the Hero of your story, to rescue your heart and release you to live as a fully alive and feminine woman. A woman who is truly captivating."

...This is off the back of the book Captivating, of course! I'm sorry that my last "blogs" are on this book, and boys I'm sorry if all I talk about is women and our hearts..and mushy stuff! I'm not a girl who is trying to be all hard-core...women rights, kinda thing! God has laid a passion on my heart for women! Girls, I'm encouraging you....if you can, read this book!!!! It's amazing!!! And guys, if you'd like one of the author's of this book is John Eldredge and he wrote Wild at Heart! And that book is for men!! But talk about changing your heart and opening your eyes!! We are wounded women....I'd love for our generation of women to realize this and allow God to change our hearts!! For us to become healed, women of God and be sure of who we are and who God has made us!! Wow, wouldn't it be awesome?! So that one day when we have little girls of our own....we'll know how to help protect their hearts!! For them to grow up and know they are captivating and beautiful!! To me...that'd be awesome!! My prayer for women is that God would change our hearts! That He would heal them up! That we would realize how beautiful and presious we are!! Man, I can't even describe that passion that God has laid on my heart to inform women that WE ARE ALL beautiful!! Hummmmm....it's so easy to say this, and so easy to read something that encourages us about this kinda stuff....but it's another story when we wake up and try to believe it and remember it throughout the day, isn't it!? Something I've realized lately.....God's trying to get through to women...I've talked to several of my friends that are girls this week....and they all have something in comman! "My heart is wounded...I am wounded from the past.....I know God is trying to heal me!" (This includes myself!) ...God, may you heal up your daughters hearts...we are hurt and broken! I pray you come to our rescue!! I LOVE YOU!!!!
Well anyways...thought I'd feel ya'll in on something God laid on my heart! Not much happen today...I got my passport info sent off, should get it first week of Sept.!!! It's exciting to think in 10 weeks...my life will be turned upside down!! YAY!! I have ready the money I have to send off to make DTS a set in stone thing! lol! And!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol!!! I got this cd, which I shouldn't have because I need to SAVE my money...course I really don't know the meaning of the word...lol! But I got this cd with the song I shall someday get married to, on it!! lol! I know what your thinking...you're shaking your head and thinking, "Amber....hunny-child, you have a while!" That's right I do...but so what!! Let me be the girly-girl God made me to be! :D Well I'm goin' to bed!! Night night...sweetdreamz!!

Carrie woke on her sixth birthday to the sound of singing. She knew instantly that it was her birthday, her very own day. She opened her eyes to discover that balloons had been tied all around her bed - a canopy. The celebration had begun. Her mom was standing by her bedside, holding a coffee cake with a lit candle in it, and her dad was there, too, and both of them were singing, "Haaappy Biiirthdaaay tooo youuuu!" Oh, unhindered joy! Squeals of delight, kisses, hugs, and "hoorays!" welcomed her into this day - just as she had been welcomed into the world six years earlier. Her father whispered to his "Little Princess" that he loved her. Her mother reminded her again of how happy she was to have such a wonderful daughter.
There was no doubt about it - this little girl was delighted in.
Life for Carrie was closer to life as God meant it to be for every little girl. She KNEW that her father cherished her. She was his princess. He was her knight in shining armor. He wanted to spend time with her. Carrie KNEW her mother loved her and wanted her. Hers was a world where her father protected her, her mother nurtured her, and she was enjoyed. This is the soil a girl's soul was meant to grow in; this was the garden her young heart was meant to flourish within. Every little girl should be so loved, so welcomed - seen, known, treasured. From this place she can become a strong and beautiful and confident woman.
If only that was how it was for all of us.
---John & Stasi Eldredge, Captivating

Wow, I have to say when I read this....this brought tears to my eyes!!! Even more so when I read, "She knew that her father cherished her. She was his princess." When I read that, I thought....wow....God....King of Kings....CHERISHES......me! Let that sink in!!!! He cherishes you! Say this aloud and fill in your name....I, ____, am CHERISHED by the Almighty! WOW!!! (and that's not just for girls...guys goes for you too! lol...I dont' wanna leave ya'll out!!) But for girls...this story is the kinda love we look for! We are so big on being accepted, loved, wanted, CHERISHED, and DELIGHTED in!!! I think that's why so many girls are so longing for love is because the don't know or understand that someone does love them that way! If they only knew, or if we could only always remember that!!! Girls....there is a love for us beyond words...an EVERLASTING love!!!! An AMAZING, adventures......LOVE!!!! I'm so blessed and excited that God has called me out to find out about it! But He's not only called me, He's called all of us.....even you! Who's willing to take an adventure with me!?