WOW, is the only word I have for ya'll! God is breakin' the mess outta me! But in all of it....I am amazed!! The past few days God's really been calling me and woeing (did I spell that right?!) me! On Thursday, I'll only have 2 weeks left, and it's becoming more and more of a reality that my life is about to change forever! God's been calling out to me for so long and wanting me for so long, and now....His time has finally come! As scared and nervous as I am....I know God is so thrilled that it's His turn to captivate my heart! It's now time to be intimate with Him and Him alone! And I can't help but pick up on and soak up some of His excitment! Today has been a broken day! But I'm not down, and praise Him for that! But it's been an emotional day for me, and I realized this is what I get to look forward to for the next 3 weeks...the last two here and the first week there! It's going to be soooo hard to leave all ya'll behind, but I'm going to need all of ya'lls support! In these next few weeks...I'm going to be so emotional and so weak! I need ya'lls help and prayer! It's been awesome though, to have God have my heart already over there! God is preparing my heart for over there! And soon, for the next 6 months, my arms will be open to brokeness, healing, and finding out who I am in Christ and who He is leading me to be! I tell you one thing though! I can't wait to come back and tell all the amazing things that HE DID! And hear about all the amazing things He did here!

I was listening to the Jars of Clay song "Love Song for a Savior" and let me put on here what stuck out to me, in this song:
"In open fields of wild flowers
She breathes the air flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daisies and the roses
In no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all

He's more than the laughter
Or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat
Or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust him
And learn how to see him
Someday he'll call her
And she will come running
Fall in his arms, the tears will fall down
And she'll pray

I want to fall in love with you"

Ya'll.........this is me! I've been a little girl, playing in an open field...loving all my Daddy's creations and just having him as a best friend! But now, He's calling me! He wants to be more than my "best friend"....He wants to be my EVERYTHING! And I want and need to fall in love with Him! It's time to understand, and I mean fully understand...He's more then what I've been thinking He was! It's time to love Him, spend time with Him, for Him to mold me into who I need to be, for Him to take me where He needs to, and to trust Him! Trust Him in the fact that He really does know what He's doing, trust Him in who He says I am and who I can be, and trust that He is not with holding anything good from me...only protecting me and my heart! It's time to go! As hard as reality is for me....and it's finally caught up! It's not something I just talk about doing anymore...it's something that IS happening! Hummm......just please keep me in ya'lls prayers! I love ya'll so, so much! Take care, and have a wonderful night! *muah*!