....."And you said I know that this will hurt: But if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse: If the burden seems too much to bear: Remember: The end will justify the pain it took to get us there"

Pretty awesome song I must say!! And I really believe...or actually know that in a little less than 7 weeks this will be a song that will help me out! Because my heart is about to be broken!!! I will be broken!! And God will be the only one I can absoultly lean on!! I can't say I'm looking foward to being broken....does anyone really?! lol! But I am looking foward to having that time with God!! And just being able overcome some things in my life! For a while I was afraid of being totally changed....I mean to absoultly let go of my life....but now....I am ready!!! And something I realized last night...before falling asleep I've became lazy in my walk! You know when you can just feel something isn't right and you can't put your finger on it...but at the same time your so tired of feeling that way!? Well God points out to me that I've been lazy!! And confirmed what He said to be this morning in Hewbrews..." We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through faith and patience inherit what has been promised " ......so yes, God told me that and He also let me know that it's ok, just to work on getting back into the race!! Course that's another thing God's working on me with! I know I try to hard to please Him...for Him to be happy with me! But I know He already is! But I guess my mind-set is..that I want to be perfect for Him(and I know I can't) but I just try and try because I just want to do anything I can for Him! But God is trying to tell me to REST in Him...rest and not be lazy!! And another thing He's going to heal me from is doubt! All kinds of doubt! That's a big struggle for me! I came accross some notes the other day, in my Bible, and it said," Even when I doubt myself, God doesn't " And that just made me smile!! Cause even though I really struggle with self-doubt....God doesn't doubt me!! WOW!!
Anyways ya'll!! I gotta go!! My family from Virginia just pulled up! lol!! Take care! I love ya'll!!