it was fun.

i met tons of new ppl..

and i kinda got dissed by someone i really wanted to hang out with..but thats ok.

O and i got to spend all weekend with stephy.

she's my favorite..

thats the tall brunette in my picture...

haha of course im the shorty.

Why does it always seem that "real" life only happens in movies?  I mean come on whats real about hollywood.  It got me thinking if that is "reality" then what are we living in....fantasy?

So if we are living in "fantasy" land why aren't we happy with the way life is? why do we want more than our life?  Seriously, come on, "real" life is better than "fantasy."  YEAH RIGHT.

just something to chew on.

so, i'm sitting here at work with 3 other coworkers and it's a sunday afternoon.  (aka real boring) but it's all good. steve's parents and best friend jeff came into town from florida this weekend to watch him graduate. it was real fun. i've met jeff before and think of him like a brother so it was amazing to get to hang out with him all weekend. and, i got to meet steve's parents. they are awesome. i think they like me (phew!) so that's always a good thing. we went out to eat a few times, watched shawshank redemption and went to graduation. my baby graduated! i was so proud of him. i took his parents to demos' for the first time and they loved it. they gave me rights to choose where we eat from now on. and steve's sister also had her baby either late friday night or saturday morning....so it's a good thing she didn't come down for his graduation!!

oh - i got a job being the manager of telemarketing for nashville opera....so i'll start working on that this next week. exciting! a leadership position for me in a copany...scary! i'm actually growing up!

i think we're actually gunna bring a tv back here in the office so i'm going to get busy with that....cya!

The worst moment for the atheist is when he is really thankful and has nobody to thank.

 Dante Gabriel Rossetti

So... it has been a while. I have been so busy. I started a new job and I have been planning like crazy! Wedding planning is so stressful... and now there are only 3 weeks remaining and it is really really really stressful! But very soon Nathan and I can finally relax and start our lives together.

So last weekend I had a Bridal Tea thrown by my lil maid of honor herself


the room looked beautiful

and I opened lots of gifts. It was actually exciting opening gifts that were for Nathan and I. Some of OUR first things! yay!


And as most of you know Nathan was in town for a couple weeks which was great! I miss seeing him. And thankfully he will be home again real soon! We had a lot of fun:



we went to the park and threw rocks

we went to the drive-in

we got an apartment

and we had a picnic in the park.


I really enjoyed spending time with him. It was fun! Now it is back to reality. Back to planning. Boo.

I hope everyone is having a wonderful day!

last night i got in a huge fight with a person i have recently realized i have fallen hard for. i think i screwd a good thing up...once again. i jumped to conclusions that i shouldnt have. i should have trusted him like the back of my brain kept trying to tell me. but would i listen ...no. way to go carol! i should have kept my mouth shut. youd think i would learned this by now. but i called him back and apologized. i just hope the whole thing will blows over. he has had such an inpact on me. even though weve only known each other for a little over a month. ive noticed that im more out going, even if it is just a little bit. hes help me show a side of me i thought i would never get back. ..... i might even....no...shurely, not already....

Skid preached today, and I was reminded of why I missed the youth group so much. He has a crafty way of turning some of the most meaningless things into the most meaningful lessons.

"I know your deeds, your hard work and perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked men, that you have tested those who claim to be apostoles but are not, and have founds them false. You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name and have not grown weary. Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first."-Revelation 2:2-5

You know those verses someone shows you and you're stomach kind of does a flip flop because it embodies everything you've been feeling for quite some time? That verse up there did it for me. From the middle of eighth grade through my junior year of high school, I felt pretty on fire for God, but once senior year started up, I started going through some weird stuff and haven't felt the same since. I know because of the trials and suffering I've been through I won't ever be the same, but I have been severely lagging in my time with Him through prayer and Bible reading.

. . . and now onto a completely different note. Hastings apparently sells used books at AMAZINGLY discounted prices. I bought two John Grisham books ((A Painted House and The Runaway Jury)) in hardback for right under $14.

Tonight is the senior banquet at church, and because Karen graduates this year, I will be in attendence with the rest of my family. This is a scary reminder to me that I have been out of high school for a year. What have I accomplished? The heck if I know :)

The retreat was absolutely amazing. I am crying right now becuase how much I am going to miss everyone. All the seniors have been outstanding this year. The retreat was amazing. We laughed and cried and watched nuns play air hockey and trying to kill us all with the puck. Sister Peter Verona is one crazy air hockey player! Well if I say anymore I won't make since because I think I am half dilerious.

so these past couple of weeks have been pretty dang cool.

so i got a pretty bad sunburn, but thats ok. i'll survive.

i got to spend some time with young friday night, that was awesome. i keep trying to convince her to leave that dinky school in cookville and come up to UT, but i dont thing she will. oh well. haha. but it was alot of fun. i had korean food for the first time. it was muy bueno.

i've got my two hardest test on tuesday but it'll be ok. hopefully. i need to go study, but i havent made it to the library yet today, but i'm working on it. heath and i are about to take down our beds. kinda crazy.

i'll be home soon. it'll be fun.

piece

the retreat was sooo AMAZING!  between making new friends, nuns playing air hockey, and getting closer to god its been just awesome.  i hardly got any sleep though so im incredibly tired.  talk to yall later!

jazz fest was really fun.....
..it started raining..thats always great!!
we ate lots of kettle-corn...yum
the music was really good.. duh
i saw these people swing dancing in the rain...uhh i wanna learn..anybody wanna teach me?

I went to see SHS play (Westside Story) on Friday night ...it was really good...(great job everybody!)

.........i love this song...

Wash away the thoughts inside
That keep my mind away from you.
No more love and no more pride
And thoughts are all I have to do.

Ohhhhhh Remember when it rained.
Felt the ground and looked up high
And called your name.
Ohhhhhh Remember when it rained.
In the darkness I remain.

Tears of hope run down my skin.
Tears for you that will not dry.
They magnify the one within
And let the outside slowly die.

Ohhhhhh Remember when it rained.
I felt the ground and looked up high
And called your name.
Ohhhhhh Remember when it rained.
In the water I remain
Running down.....

---ohh Josh Groban!!

I think rain must be the coolest thing EVER!!

I've decided to throw everyone for a loop and post more Phusebox material. Much like the Spanish Inquisition, NOBODY expected that!

i think my head just fell off...

Arrived in Angola on Saturday morning.  Overall, the 14-hr flight from Houston was ok, no real issues; but could not sleep well at all on the plane.  Landed in Luanda, cleared immigration, got luggage (mine was undamaged, unlike the totally crushed 42 inch flat screen tv that the Angola govt official tried to ship in [bet he gets a new one next week, free of charge and full of apologies ... its good to be the king ...]), cleared customs, went for a kilo ride to the house.  Ah yes, wonderful Luanda; still the same sites, sounds, and smells.  Got home, dropped my bags, and rested for a while.  Ate a big bowl of asian noodles with lots of chilies ... ahhhh, tummy satisification.

Visited with Decy and Chely (Tasya was with a friend). Oh oh, decision time.  Have to chose between girls basketball at 1pm (outside in the sun), attending adult party at 8pm, or shaparoning a teen party at 8am .... yikes, I'm jetlagged, this is nearly impossible !!!???!!! Or is it .... ok, think, think, think .... got it.  Laid down for a short nap (normally a no-no with jetlag) ... missed the girls b-ball game ... got up, did some karoke with Decy ... and scored a 100 on "Hold Me" ... don't know how, kasihan de lu Tasya .... he he he ... then shaparoned the teen party until 12-midnight (I even danced a bit).

Got home, head spinning, water ... water ... water ... I need water.  Drinking water ... stare off into space for 30 minutes while Decy is trying to keep me awake long enough to drink the water (almost 1.5 liter) .... fall asleep some time .... dreams dreams dreams ... where am I? What time is it?  What is going on?  Awake. Asleep. Awake. Can't focus eyes.  Finally can't sleep any more .... realized it is 1130am ..... wow, that is something for me.

Ok, so now it is 1pm, need to eat. Then have some paperwork to do ... then I will probably do a little karoke before falling asleep.

Ciao Ciao.

da game was fun,,da girls lost again,,but at least da guys won wit score 24-48!!!!!!yayyyy!!!!n then after dat,,we had a party last nite @ atlantico sul,,i was so tired..cuz i danced so much....even tho da music not all hip-hop,,but they still play samba n reggaeton' hehehhehe.......=p...n last nite i looked x-tremly beautiful......hehehehe......ven my bf was melting!!!!i'll show u da pics later....but da party wasnt da really best 1,,it was jst OK.....cu i had a fight wit sum1 who was acting like lil' kid!but its all gud now!!

cHe

While almost avoiding the thought of the Chariot concert on last night (or at least last night relative to the time at which I'm writing), Michal Mullane called about an hour before to save from me from too much boredom for the night.  At first, I denied the offer, being somewhat still longing for sleep and drowsy as well, but then, I realized and called her back to make a daring escape from home to Rocketown.  Once there, I was greeted with a surprise, actually he greeted me--Carter Hays, that is.  Apparently, Michal's boyfriend had become acquainted with Carter through Siegel in some fashion.  Also with our party, in addition to Carter, Justin (the aforementioned boyfriend), Michal, and me, was another couple--the male named Cody, and the girl whose name I've forgotten (but for clarity purposes I shall refer to her as Nikki).  Luckily, despite my late departure, Rocketown has honed its skills at being late even more, and we stood in line a while after the scheduled start of the show, much to Carter's displeasure, as well as a few others.  I didn't mind too much because the rain only sprinkled occasionally, not nearly enough to cause me any trauma.
In a sense I almost expected some of the awkwardness of discourse for a little bit, for I was a little riled from all the anxiety of rushing to Rocketown and locking my keys in the car, for which I would acquire help later.  Soon enough, however, things seemed to fall into place, and conversations generally went well.
Once inside, we discovered the house was not nearly full, or much rather, even close, a fact Carter remarked several times about later on.  The first band, definitely but not defiantly metalcore, was Alcina from Nashville.  Being a local band, I didn't expect much or receive much in return, but they were alright.
The next band needs an introduction.  Waiting in line, I stated that, at Rocketown, it was next to impossible to go to far with your outward appearance, a point with which Cody agreed; however, the second band, The Becoming, summarily disproved me.  While most of them appeared strange (as in stranger than usual fare at the venue), one of the electric guitar players on the side where we stood appealed to my taste in humor a whole lot better.  His hair, by far, is the strangest I've ever encountered.  Being starkly black on his pallid face, the front half was long, and draped the sides of face while the bangs were pulled back to resemble a cockatoo (bird).  The back, on the other hand, was shaved with the exception of a long mohawk running from the crest of the cockatoo to the base of his skull, forming what looked to resemble a tail.  Tattooed, and covered in the white/black fashion sense of Dracula, with some "cowboy" flavoring added, these fellows appeared to produce some similar, if not the exact same thing, as Alcina.  We were wrong.
While their execution wasn't so bad, the band was terrible, relapsing from the mundane to the sociopathic love songs of the band HIM.  I walked out during their performance to use the restroom; I decided not to waste my ears.  All in all, I think Michal pointed out the obvious truth: "You'd think these guys would be a little more hardcore."
The next band, despite odd beginnings, was a treat and the band Carter liked.  Their name was Maylene and the Sons of Disaster, and they lived up to the Southern Rock-flavored hardcore for which Carter acclaimed them so much.
By the time of the Chariot, I was forced to cut short my visit due to the locking of the keys in the car.  They were also good as well--first rate hardcore even--though I enjoyed Maylene much more.
None of us slam danced, and Cody and Nikki kept to themselves most of the show.
I called my parents and asked them to do me the favor of bringing the van key to access the car and travel home.  What I hadn't counted on was the depletion of my battery during the show due to leave the keys in the ignition with the batter on.  So then, my dad and I had to find a place with jumper cables and solve that issue.  I thank him for being kind despite my second fault in locking away my keys.
Overall, it was a fun night...way better than staying at home...

jazz fest..
nothings better than jazz in the rain.
nothings better than laying under a tree
nothings better than coffee when youre cold
nothings better than the soft lights on the square
and nothings better than sweet sounds driving home


it was a nice night. came home and me and emily ventured into my old journals from the last couple of years..it was pretty hilarious reading through my old thoughts and just reading what i was going through or prayin about.
..its funny how unexpected things happen and you go back and see how things were before they had happened...

did that make sense?...

anyways ive been obsessed with an artist named madeleine peyroux..so heres some lyrics:

I go out walkin’ after midnight
Out in the moonlight
Just like we used to do
I’m always walkin’ after midnight searchin’ for you

I walk for miles along the highway
Well, that’s just my way
Of sayin’ I love you
I’m always walkin’ after midnight, searchin’ for you

I go out walkin’ after midnight
Out in the moonlight*
Just hopin’ you may be
Somewhere a-walkin’ after midnight, searchin’ for me

i have this feeling
of being breathless
and confused
and it's amazing
and terrifying
and horrid
and i hate it
         I blame HIM

 

you know when you have a pretty good day, but then something [or a few somethings come up] and it turns to suck?

yeah.

C+ in history.

kinda wanted a B.

But no.

3 points off.

and those stupidheads have my portfolio thing bc i never got to come by and it has some of the best pictures i've taken within the past few months in it. knew i shouldn't have passed the job along to someone else.

and i'm being such a stupid girl over someone i shouldn't be being a girl over. and the sick part is at this point i'm half pissed at him, half sooo thrilled to be around him this summer. go figure. why can't he just make that one change that will make everything change and then it'd all work out the way it's supposed to, atleast in my head?

i hate being patient.

but i know.

patience is a virtue.

michael buble is going to sing me to sleep now. church in about 8 hours. oh yay. but atleast i get to see my kids- plus i start teaching sunday school on my own in a few weeks! eep! i'm excited tho.

atleast that makes me smile some.

<3

jen

what an amazinggg week its been.. we really didnt do anything in our classes and then this weekend was a blast. friday me kait and chris played a little volleyball and then that night oliv me kait abi chris and alex hung out at the jazz fest.. it was soooo much fun! i saw so many people and ate like a fat kid.. =) then i spent the night with olivia. today i washed my car and cleaned.. me kait alex chris abi garrett and zach went to erma siegel to swing and just hang out. then some of us went to china buffett.. mucho fun-o! it has been simply wonderful! i love you all and hope you had a delightful weekend as well..

O well welp Im single now, uhhh yea life sucks but what ever I didnt do any thing rong 

So now that school is over with for the semester guess what......my work has decided to start putting me borderline overtime every week......isn't that great.......oh wait no it isn't cause I would like to have a life outside of work........although I need the cash its kinda bad cause I have already been getting worked too hard as it is cause they seem to keep schedualing me by myself doing all the cooking and prep without any help what so ever.......not to mention I really haven't gotten to sleep much lately......really tired I must say......but anyways I am off I will try to keep a little better update on my life......peace out hommies bye bye

never has a line in a song described how I feel as much as this line does right now:

sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first.. sometimes, the first thing you want never comes

I was at sports com tonight giving swim tests for three hours. Three hours spent in barefeet on concrete was not my best idea ever. I also had to yell most of the time so that the kids could hear me while they were swimming so I wouldn't be surprised if I am hoarse tommorrow. It is always intereasting to try and guess which kids will pass and which won't before they get in the water, you would be surprised quite often of who actually passes and who doesn't.
I am frustrated that adults won't listen to me when I tell them how to do stuff correctly. I had two scoutmasters who did the rest of the test fine but couldn't float. When I would try to explain how to do it right they would just brush me off. I wouldn't let either of them pass because they couldn't finish. Mr. Tucker went and worked with one of them afterwards on it. He told him exactly what I had told him to do and he was able to finish then.
Frustrating.
Havan was there with me giving tests, he is back in town...fun stuff. We went to Mellow Mushroom afterwards and are going to go play raquetball tommorrow. Havan is da bomb...lol
Other than that my life is filled with more and more work...should have more than enough of it this summer.

P.S. Siegel's West Side Story is good...go see it

Benadryl = Bad...i shouldnt take anymore....This is what happens when....You take Benadryl....

<3

If I were taller, I wouldn't need mommy and daddy to help.  You see, I can't quite reach the keyboard, so I need mommy or daddy to hold me so I can post.  As I've already spit on the keyboard once, they seem unwilling to just put it on the floor for me.  So... I haven't been on for a while, because mommy and daddy have been too busy with that ridiculous college thing they do to hold me while I post.  I think we need to have a talk about priorities.  Sheesh... some people's kids.

I have been working on crawling.  As I reported, I discovered that moving hands and knees together is more efficient and less painful.  Well, the next level of training is all about speed.  I've started doing laps, and have gotten pretty good.  Unfortunately, my knees are a little faster than my hands.  My nose hurts.  Who's Rudolph?

Mommy and Daddy got me an awesome swimming pool.  I wish it were a little deeper, but it's still fun.  Daddy posted some pictures.  They also got me a cool spiderman swimsuit.  It's a little big, but I'll grow into it.  We took it to Nana's house, but their cat, Jack, peed in it.  Now it smells funny, but I'm promised it will be cleaned before I use it again.  The only pee I want in there is... wait, no... I don't want pee in there.

I'm trying to figure out what I want to do for a living.  Nana got me some camo shorts.  They were a bit too big, and I was kinda sagging in them.  And I wasn't wearing a shirt.  Mommy didn't think sagging camo and shirtless was a good look for me.  I guess I won't be growing up to be an east Tennessee plumber.

More to come!  And by the way.... I'm still cute.

hey im just sitting here with my baby mayahuel i love her to death she's 6year old!!!!!!!!!!!!!!she's the gurl in my pic

it makes me laugh when people give me advice. not in a bad way. just in a, well, way. i wish that people could actually see the thought processes i have, so that they could see that my end result is not completely random or stupid. does anyone know what i mean? i usually take advice (with a grain of salt) from most people, mull it over, and maybe act on it, depending upon who it's from. but sometimes i just don't. and people get offended. oh well. i just wanna do what would bring God the most glory. So usually, when i try to give people advice, i try to make sure it's backed up with scripture and/or what God says, not necessarily just me...but it's also kinda funny to me because people seem to ask me about things that i have no experience with. anyways, just a thought. so i'm really ready for school to be out. i'm not really looking forward to not having much to do, but i am looking forward to not having homework everynight. i'm also looking forward to being done with Algebra II ---goodness...the bane of my existence. i think next year, i will most likely be hanging out with a different group of people. or at least i hope so. not that i want to "separate myself from all those sinners"...i just feel like i might be being too influenced, and even if i'm not, i find myself between a rock and a hard place as far as loving compassionately, and accepting/advocating lifestyles and behaviors that i, as a representative of Christ (even one so full of short-comings as me), should not be associated with. next year, i really want to live boldly for Christ, and i want that to be obvious. i want that to be the main characteristic i am recognized by. anyways, i think that next year is gonna be an awesome year. challenging, but awesome. i also think that i am gonna attempt to stop thinking so much about guys. i really need to fall more in love with God before i fall in love with anyone else. besides, high school dating, from what i've seen, is pretty pointless, and just kinda sets people up for drama, and/or heartbreak. i'm not saying it's wrong, i just think it's wrong for me. if i actually ever dated, i would give up dating for a year, but since i don't, i think i'm just gonna commit to letting things like crushes go, and focus more on other things. well, i gotta go, but i'll be back later! much love to you all---Cari

Well... well... well... what happened to me today.  uuuhhh... I don't know really I did go to this cookout thing and saw all of my friends.  The only person that I didn't see was the one that I really wanted to see today. 

Yesterday I went to the youth cookout and saw Brantley (the one person I wanted to see.)  I played pool at the youth cookout and totally lost ever time.

I guess that I will go now.

Bubi!

quote of the day:

" AHH!! MOM!!! DON'T RUN OVER THE BIRDS!! OH MY GOD!!!"
spoken by the most amazingly paranoid person on this earth, emily...


haha...
what a day...

-singing veggie tales while bowling with tyler
-making fun of tyler and his "dance moves" because he's "down with it"...haha...
-bowling period. i love making fun of people bowl....(too bad when i bowl, everyone laughs as well...so...we're even)
-stuffing my face with oreos
-laughing at tyler b/c he had to go to a square dance party
-too many other things to mention...

i love it...

Last night was the cookout. It was...pretty cool. I kinda got into a water fight with Tyler Ramsey, but it was fun. After the cookout I went home with Amanda to spend the night. We stopped at Kroger on the way to their house and we got some ice cream stuff. They were yummy. We kinda just sat in her room for a while talking, then we watched a movie, and then we went back into her room and...I'm not sure what we did. I think we talked for a really long time and then had a pillow fight or something...not sure. Oh, and then we sucked helium...that was so fun! I think we should get a whole tank of helium and suck it all...it is hilarious. Well, we finally went to sleep, and then we got out of bed at around 8:30, had another pillow fight (I think...I'm not sure) and ate some breakfast and went on a walk. That was fun. Anyway...ummm...skipping some stuff...we went to a cookout thing and I played some football and horseshoe...that was fun. At the end Amanda dumped a bottle of green tea on me and Zay dumped freezing cold water on me...right when we were about to get in the car. Grrr...I had a good time though.
Well....I'll see ya'll tomorrow. Love ya'll

I'm watching Star Wars. 
That's happy I am. These movies are greatness... :)

Few have ever felt so pursued.  Sometimes we wonder if we've ever been noticed.  Father was too busy to come to our games or perhaps he jumped ship alltogher.  Mother was lost in a never ending pile of laundry or, more recently, in her own career.  We come into the world longing to be special to someone and from the start we are dissapointed.  It is  a rare soul indeed who has been sought after for who she is not because of what she can do, or what others can gain from her, but simply for herself.  Can you recall a time when a significant someone in your life sat you down with the sole purpose of wanting to know your heart more deeply, fully expecting to enjoy what he found there?  More people have climbed Mt. Everest than have experienced real pursuit, and so what are we left to conclude?  There is nothing in our hearts worth knowing.  Whoever and whatever this mystery we call I  must be, it cannot be much.

"In fact", we continue, "if I am not pursued, it must because there is something wrong with me, something dark and twisted inside."  We long to be known, and we fear it like nothing else.  Most people live in subtle dread that one day they will be discovered for who they really are and the world will be appalled.

The cast party last night was....different.

wow its been a while...  um yeah not much going on in my life.... Took my Algebra Gateway.. probably nailed it. yeah..... i'm good like that. LLL.

Um yeah i guess i'll go now!!!

Madison

List 10 influential people in your life in any order by describing them or something you love about them. If you know which one you are, message me and tell me which one you think you are.

1. You have been the greatest friend! I love you TONS! Who knew white out could create such an AMAZING friendship! studying, starbucks, special ed, moving, prom, and now graduation is here. It's all gone so fast! I couldn't ask God for anyone better. You're such an amazing person and I admire you for being so strong despite everything you've been through! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2.  We're such opposites. Pink and Black. That's all I see when I think freshman year. I still have moments I wish you weren't a morning person, but I'm gettin used to it. We've got some great memories: poptarts, art boy, the skank, obbessive people we shall not name, and lots more. You've been so amazing! I can't believe we're gonna graduate and I'm not gonna have you to make me wake up and function every school morning! AHH! I'm gonna miss it. And oh yes, you're so visiting me at Lee.

3. We go WAY back. You were the first friend I made at MTCS. We've grown up so much, and even now it still feels strange to go to school without you. You've always kept me sane. Thank God  you're the practical one out of us. And even if everything about us changes we'll always have Mr. Mitchell, MTCS, and all our crazy friend and experiences to look back and laugh at.

4. Where do I begin?? We've been friends 10 years now, and yet it feels so much longer than that. I'm not even sure what to say. You've been the one person I've always known I could come to no matter what happened. You've sat and helped me cope w/funeral after funeral. You've seen me be my best and my worst, and you've stuck by me through all of it. And besides who else can I laugh with about plastic food fights and the pain involved in those?? I love you!

5. You were my only friend for such a long time in middle school. And yea, you didn't exactly introduce me into the best crowd, but you gave me something I needed, friendship. I hate that you've sat and let your life go to where it is. You're so much better than what you've let yourself become. And I don't care what anyone else says. I know the real you and I know what you're capable of. I hope one day you'll see the truth. Until then I'll just continue to pray for you and love you.

6. You and I have grown apart over the last 4 years, but I'll always enjoy the year that you were my best friend. You introduced me to a whole new world, and while it wasn't a perfect one it brought me out of my fear of being myself. You taught me it was ok to be a complete idiot sometimes. I can't believe you're gettin married next week. I hope life comes to be all you've always dreamed of.

7. This one's for a group instead of one person. Ya'll have become my second family. I never knew I'd grow to love every single one of ya'll so much. We've been through SO much together, and it's been an awesome journey so far. I can't wait to see where this summer leads! I love ya'll!

8. You'll more than likely never read this. I haven't seen or spoken to you since the day we left Oakland High School three years ago. It's like you just fell off the face of the earth. You still come to mind from time to time. "If I had to go back and spend freshman year with only one friend it'd be you." I still hear those words every time I think of you.

9. WOW! Who knew hurting my foot could help me make such a great friend! I could say lots of sweet things, but I'll leave you with one little thing that'll say it all!...."He'll be back!" haha. I love you girl!

10. I hate that our friendship ended the way it did, and now all we can seem to accomplish is small talk once every six months or so. I'll never forget how much fun we had together, and all the memories we shared. Who knew hating a boy could've made 2 girls such good friends?

Well, life is pretty much on cruise control right now. I'm just sittin back and riding the waves the last 4 weeks of school. I've been pretty busy, but I like it. It keeps me occupied so i'm never bored out of my mind anymore. But yeah I met this really awesome girl who I have been meaning to hang out with forever, and finally got a chance. Her name is Trisha Thompson. Below are a few pics of me and her.


Me and Trisha at church

The first photo attempt where she wasn't looking at the camera haha.

Well that's about it for now. Be blessed.

~Garrett

SHWANG!

so, Jazzfest last night was muy divertido...but now i have a sneaking suspicion that someone is mad at me. but it actually solved one of my problems, so i guess that makes it ok. mostly hung out with Jared, but i saw about 1million people that i knew...i felt extra popular....ha! the clay cup is a really neat place. almost better than Starbucks! (gasp!) the OHS Jazz Band rocked the casbah....seriously, Josh martin and Chris Johnson were great....and Spencer Blake killed on that bass...congrats to all ya'll who did so well! 'twas super fun. so last night, i had a dream that i was married to a certain person, but we got the marriage annulled after a few days. 'twas very weird. and at some point in the dream, i was pregnant...weirdness. my subconcious kinda freaks me out sometimes...sometimes i wish i could see into the future, so that i could know who i'm gonna marry (if anyone) and if it will work out, so that i could just stop liking people. it gets old when nothing ever seems to come of it. but whatev. i guess there's some sort of purpose in all of it. well, i must go. tata for now, nuckahs...much love to you all! ----Cari

hey everyone

its been a while since ive been at school.  im finally getting better and hope to be back soon.  im so sick of being sick. you know what i figured out, THERES VERY LITTLE ON TV DURING THE DAYTIME. lol

well i just thought id leave some stuff so yall didnt think i was dead or something.

goalichik

     Well, I'm about to go to jazz fest again for the greatest time in the world!!!! i hope i run into to some good changes..... life gets boring when everything is the same ALL the time......

When was the first time you remember me? Doesn't matter if you just saw me or we actually spoke. The first time you remember me.

---------------------------------------------------------------

if you went yesterday, read my xanga.

www.xanga.com/benevolent_n_manipulative

Wow, it has seriously been a long time.

Took my AP US history exam Friday. It was easier than I thought but seeing as though I only read 7 of the 40 chapters, I dont think I did too well, heh. I left school afterwards and hung out at dana's house with some friends. We watched disney sing-a-longs in fastforward.

Went to Jazzfest last night. The main reason I like jazzfest is because there are so many cool people there. I met a lot of new people and saw a lot of old friends. Its nice to meet new people. I'm going again today, maybe tonight. Usually the old people and families take over on saturday so I hope some of my friends go.

So a lot has happened to me this past week.  I went and visited Steph
this Wednesday through Friday, and when I got back to Lee on Friday, my
tire was smoking really badly.  I had it towed to a shop and they
looked at it today, while I attended Lee's Graduation, and saw the
coolest RA, Josh Rice, graduate and then take off to go back home for a
month, and then to move on to Mexico to follow God's will.  I got a
call from the repair place telling me that they were sent the wrong
part, so it won't be fixed until Monday, so I'll be all alone here
until Monday.  I wish my cell phone was working.  It's all good though,
because God kept me safe driving when my tire was barely hanging on.  A
back wheel bearing malfunctioned and my tire started slanting inward. 
The axil ended up grinding through the tire and barely hanging on.  I
have a lot to be thankful for.  If anyone wants to talk online about
anything, I'll have plenty of time, so just let me know.  Otherwise
I'll just have to entertain myself with movies and videogames.  God is
always good no matter what you think in your head.  Pray for my car and
me this weekend.  

Man, this baby's bumpin' me (that's what Harrison calls it) as I type this.  Sometime's he kinda hurts. 

Harrison and I traveled with my mom, Granny, and sis-in-law to St. Charles, MO last weekend to meet with my mom's sisters and my cousins.  We had a terrific time, besides the traveling-with-young-child woes.

Tina Brandon and Brian Denecke
met for coffee in heaven last week.
He said, "I like mine black."
And she said, "Do you ever want to go back?"
He said, "No – we can be who we want to be."

Matthew Shepherd stopped by for desert.
And they asked Matthew, "Does it still hurt?"
He paused and spit over the rail.
It flew down to earth, just like hail.
He said, "No – we can be who we want to be."

Down on earth, he held her tight,
she held him tight, they held them tight.
It was morning; they'd cried all night.
He looked out the window at the hail.
And she asked him, "Have we failed?"
He said, "No – we can be who we want to be."
He said, "No – we can be who we want to be."

why won't my teachers post my flippin' grades?????

so JazzFest was awesome last night.there were alot of pretty awesome bands there.but i must say Oakland was pretty awesome, the solos where amazing...complainments of josh,chris,donald,drew, and jeremy.they all reocked the house it was great.

besides that today im going to a soccer game to watch the little girl a babysit play it should be interesting and then i don't know what im going to be up to so yeah just give me a call sometime today maybe we could get together and do something.

i'll talk to you guys later...much love

...Leah...

man i dont kno if i should go 2 jazz fest 2day.. but i really ohav notin else 2 do.. owell its still a long weekend... got a carnival at my church 2 morrow.. and its gonna be of f da hook....holla

jazzfest was way fun last night.
hung out mostly with michelle. phillip. REESY!! emily & ben.
it was amazing<3
especially the b a l l o o n s.... ; )
haha
& i made [2] wishes in the fountain.
= )

Last nite I wen tot see Chis preform at  BHS n he did great...that lasted to about 745 or so..After that I dedcided I wanted to go to the cookout..I had fun..until I saw that girl.  N today i guess Im going to hang out with Amanda and some other people from church...But thats it 

~Karus 

hola people what is up people

Hey, The Chariot, a Christian
metalcore band, is playing today at Rocketown.  I'd be willing to go
if anyone wants to...call me if you do...

been working on putting my room at home [chattanooga] back together.

well, gutting it then putting it back together.

so we're gonna tackle that today [with mom]

and hopefully chill with heather tonite since she's not going to prom...

have a nice day.

<3

jen

[np:iron and wine- "passing afternoon"]

so i woke up at 6 o'clock this morning. and was wide awake.

this surprises some of you. the rest of you are merely shaking your heads. (actually, all of you are probably shaking your heads, but that's neither here nor there.)

so i got out of bed, fixed myself a lovely plate full of french toast (oui, oui!), poured a glass of milk, and set about brewing a steaming cup of coffee.

finishing my breakfast, i put my dishes in the sink and sat alone (no one else in this house ever wakes up before 7:30) with my warm cup of glory, thinking.

in my short 18 years on this fair planet, i have found that the most profound thoughts usually come to people in one of the three following places:

1) the shower (i have no idea why . . .)

2) anywhere with friends at any time between 2 and 3 o'clock in the morning. (these profound thoughts, if recorded, are generally far less profound the following morning.)

and . . .

3) sitting alone over a cup of coffee.

this post, if you haven't guessed already (and if you haven't given up on reading my rambling thoughts), deals with number 3.

as i sat drinking the aromatic brew some of us have come to call "liquid Jesus," i did, in fact, have a very profound thought:

if God wanted you to be like napoleon, you would have been born napoleon.

now, before most of you say "what the heck?!" allow me to rephrase it so that it is applicable to the general public who couldn't care less about my beloved french (well, corsican, really) emperor:

if God wanted you to be like someone else, you would have been born someone else.

there's a lot in that.

if God wanted everyone to be the same (to think the same, to hold the same beliefs or convictions) there wouldn't be such diversity on our little planet.

basically, if God wanted us to all be the same, we would be.

and how boring would that be?

(the appropriate answer at this point would be, "pretty darn.")

so my advice to you this morning:

be yourself.

there's only one of you. and there's only ever going to be one of you. (unless they start playing around with this whole cloning mess, but that's another post entirely.)

so don't be afraid of what other people will think. don't be afraid to share what you think. don't be afraid of who you are.

because God made you that way.

and if anyone's going to love you for who you are, He is.

and who else matters?

this has been caffeinated wisdom with your host, the brian. thank you for reading.

yesterday was fun,we had to dress up as our hero @ skool,,n i dressed up as a thinkerbell....hahhaha.....i was wearing my lime green top wit a lime green skirt kinda long but it looks like da fairies kinda style...dunno how 2 describe it,,Mr. Mazibuko took lotta pic. of me!!heheh...but i still havent get any pic back yet...i'll show u guys wat was i look like!!=D....n i got da free ticket 4 da skool fair nxt saturday..yayyyyy!!!!!

cHe

so jazz fest has been awesome so far

the bands have been good lavergne is kind of really awesome and well....

that OAKLAND jazz band how bout them?

they really did rock pretty heavy i was plesantly surprized

cool kids are there even though iv just been wandering from group to group

by the way.....high school jazz boys in all black = beautiful

see you all tomorrow.... if your there

much love to you all

-me

tonight we played jazz fest... i dont know why, but i was pretty nervous... but the stage and the lights felt like friends..... wierd.... but we went through w it...... i had two solos which went pretty good.... i actually heard the crowd yelling... they were loud, i think i did good because i heard them yelling at the fast part and afterwords... then a drum solo, which was amazing, compliments to Jeremy..... Josh was awesome... but Chris won tonight..... ill post more later, when i wake up..... ~later

so jazz to the fest
was pretty fly

i am a fag hag.

i am in a weird mood.
can't trust too many
people any more

it's rather sad,
actually...

i am listening to cake.

<3

So...I didn't get to go to JazzFest. And I'm upset about it.

I was supposed to see some girl I like there...

Is it odd to like someone when you told know very much about them?

I mean sure I know things ABOUT her, but I don't truly KNOW her.

And when I know that she likes someone else, it doesn't help. Especially when I know he doesn't like her like that. And besides the fact that she trusted me not to tell anyone and I did.

I broke my first promise to her...

Though it's not a humongous deal, I feel so untrustworthy now.

I had planned to get a piano piece in a good enough condition to sing to her/with her, but now I know that her sister is sings the same song for the Talent Show, and I want to be original. So scratch that plan.

So many ideas of a possible future with her, but she doesn't even know what she means to me.

Danny

The Jazz Fest was a lot of fun. Retreat tomorrow! Yipee!

She still does it for me. 

It doesn't make sense to me.

We aren't even close anymore.

Yet, when I talked to her tonight,
she made everything feel alright.

I haven't felt that peace from a girl...

Since the last time I felt this from her.

I thought I had moved on.

All I can say:


She simply does it for me.

She is so beautiful.

And while I am in Alaska,

She will keep me warm.


Some day, when I'm awfully low,

When the world is cold,

I will feel a glow just thinking of you...

And the way you look tonight.


::b

Hey guy's this is one of my favorite poems so..... I guess check it out although alot of you have probably read it the ones who haven't are in for a real treat!

"We wear the mask that grins and lies,
It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes,­-
This debt we pay to human guile;
With torn and bleeding hearts we smile,
And mouth with myriad subtleties.

Why should the world be over-wise,
In counting all our tears and sighs?
Nay, let them only see us, while
We wear the mask.

We smile, but, O great Christ, our cries
To thee from tortured souls arise.
We sing, but oh the clay is vile
Beneath our feet, and long the mile;
But let the world dream other-wise,
We wear the mask!" - Paul Laurence Dunbar

Well, today, I was blessed in job searching: officially, I'm a team member at the Quizno's on Caruthers Parkway in Franklin, TN.  I also got offered an interview at Publix, but since this job is a sure thing, and, ahem, since Publix requires certain things of all its employees (it hasn't been five weeks), I just went with the sure thing.
After talking with my parents, I, more than likely, won't be returning to college next fall, except possibly on a part time basis at Belmont or MTSU.  Also, I've got to pay for my own car insurance and for the student loan, however small ($3000 at a max of $50 per month is the estimate), but not until fall for the loan.  This comes in addition to any other expense I might incur, such as gas, food, etc.  The discussion almost felt as if I was being kicked out.  On the other hand, my parents' actions were perfectly justified due to my irresponsibility with the gift of schooling provided solely by them at a high cost.  It's just hard to take.  Really, it's been a long time coming though.  I should've had a job long before this time...
The problem with getting over what lies in the past is that my parents, who happen to be the majority of whom I'm around, keep bringing it up.  Whereas I'm nonchalant about it, they digress into the dark depths about the whole thing.  But whatever...
Hey, The Chariot, a Christian metalcore band, is playing tomorrow at Rocketown.  I'd be willing to go if anyone wants to...call me if you do...

       

Ok.

So for those that have not picked up on hints in my last post, I am moving back to Murfreesboro. Rachael and I decided that the best place to start out our marriage was near family and friends. So, near the end of May, I will be back in Murfreesboro for good (or at least a year).

Rach and I signed on our new apartment today. EXCITING! And so Rachael then decided to conquer the fireplace.



is she not the cutest gal?


Anyways, I head back to NYC tomorrow to wrap up things there before the move and then the wedding and then the honeymoon. I will be glad when June is finally here. Whew.

{nt}

JAZZ FEST TONIGHT
so many people
jazz fest tomorrow
even more people
          i'll have my minolta camera tonight
          that means lots of fun pics
          so i'll get them developed then scanned then
           on here
guys+me=grrrrr

So...After looking for about 3 weeks for a house in martin for Jessica and I to live in, we finally found one today!!!! I am soo excited about it..It is not the absolute best that I have seen but it allows pets, it looks good on the outside and on the inside except from the mess that the boys who live there now have made!!! But i am soo excited!! We are putting a lease on it tomorrow!! WOO HOO!!! I am very excited!!!!

Finals are this week!! I am a lil stressed about it but I am doing good... I have 2 down and only 2 more to go....So we will see how everything goes!!!!

Well i am gonna go!! I hope everyone has a great day and weekend!!!

yay, tonight's the cookout! good thing, too, cuz im in the mood for a smore! sweet, 14 1/2 days of school left! im so ready for summer. usually at the end of the school year i say stuff like "wow, this year went by too fast! i wish it was longer so i can hang out with u more"....."yeah, im gonna miss mr.stinnet too!"....."awww, at least i'll see you next year." this year, no, none of that. this year is,"oh, you're not going to blackman high next year? too bad."...."GOODBYE, MR.MULLICAN! I ALWAYS KNEW U WERE GAY!"....."goodbye, middle school, im goin to high school!" wow, 14 1/2 days of middle school.

ive decided. that every freaking time i write in this bish. itz going to be a memory. of. something. what? well. you'll find out. but thatz b'cuz i have nothing really to say about my life right now. i mean. itz ghetto. so shut the hell up.

some time. last april. [over a yr ago] i went to someone i now despisez house to hang out with a couple people i [then] thought would be ridicously lame, [yet] i still went to see these people. that day. was pretty sweet. [minus ] the person i dislike now. anywayz. come to reasoningz. thatz how i met linzee, dan-o, && anthony.

a day of my past.

k, so it seems like these lyrics seem to apply to my life and me. 

Play for keeps by switchfoot

Do me a favor
Would you sing this to me slow
Cuz I'm thinkin' its my song

Do me a favor
Would you tell me when to let go
Cuz I think I'm holdin' on

Would you do it for me
Would you do it for me
Cuz I'm playin' for keeps

Tell me tommorow has come
With open arms
Open arms
Open arms
If you say it's time to move on
Then I'll stop holdin' on
Holdin' on
If you say that its time for movin' on

(Yeah ....time for movin' on ....yeah)

Do me a favor
Would you tell me which way's up
Cuz I dont know where I fit

Do me a favor
Would you tell me when to stop
Cuz I dont know how to quit

Would you do it for me
Would you do it for me
Cuz I'm playin' for keeps

Tell me tommorow has come
With open arms
Open arms
Open arms
If you say it's time to move on
Then I'll stop holdin' on
Holdin' on
If you say that its time for movin' on
Yeah
Time for movin' on

Do me a favor
Do me a favor
Cuz I'm playin' for ...... keeps

Tell me tommorow has come
With open arms
Open arms
Open arms
If you say it's time to move on
Then I'll stop holdin' on
Holdin' on
If you say that its time 4 movin' on
(if you say)
Yeah, time for movin' on
(if you say)
Yeah, time for movin' on

wow so much is going on in my life that i dont even know where to begin i miss my best friend who is in florida on a 7 month internship so much that its not even funny and missing her makes me miss candace and it just hit me that im actually graduating and im not gonna see half of these people again because our friendships werent strong enough and it really makes me worry and college is going to be such a big change i just dont know and i really want the summer to just relax and i hope it works out that way and when i go to college i have two degrees that i wnat to get my bachelors degree and my mrs. degree lol well anyway enough for now ill be on later

Edith

Jazzfest tonight.
Alaska in the morning.

::b

it is time

(thinks of lion king)

TIME FOR JAZZ FEST!!!!!!!!

for the rest of the weekend you know where to find me

much love... and much jazz

-emily

a view from my thinking place.

WEST SIDE STORY.
May 4,5,6,8,9 at 7pm
Sunday,May 7 at 3pm matinee.
Siegel High school auditorium.
come see it. it's fabulous.
and I'm doing the spotlight!!

Oh&&the braces are off.

Hey everyone i have a quick question for you, you ready?

Feliz Cinco de Mayo!!!

Jazz Fest anyone?

good grief!!!! west side story is up and it is awesome!! so yea i am really exausted! but i figured i would let you know about an post i put up on here about leading a fca rally on the 22nd of May. We got it! so yea between prayer and preparing for that and west side story i am pretty well on the sane side for once. we had a middle school show today it was ok better than i expected. So yea i got some songs picked out but i am still praying about 1 of them. so yea pray that i can get through this show and get a break! see ya later- stephen

Quote of the Day:

"which one of these tacobell regects clobbered you arab???"

                                                - Nick Keel (Shrank) in

West Side Story for the middle schoolers he was supposed tos ay bastards but yea he decided to say that on the fly!!

It's ovah!  The APUSH exam is no more for me.

I think I passed.

I think.

But you know what this means, don't you?

PARRRRRTAY!  El Torero.  5 PM tonight!  Be there or be an equilateral quadrilateral...  Hahah.  Try saying that five times fast.

I don't even know if that the right math-speak way of saying that.  Whatever.

  "Tonight"
                Written by Jason Courtoy

(PAUSE)

Tonight

(PAUSE)

Tonight

(PAUSE)

Tonight these tears wanna fall down like rain,
around my eyes.
I dont know what to do,
for you see it happened so long ago.

(PAUSE)

The only solution that I know of is...
To drown away my sorrows,
till the bottle is empty.
And Ive forgotten about it.
But what am I to do about these problems I have,
For the only solution that I know of is...
To drown away my sorrows...
Tonight.

(PAUSE)

I dont know why I let you go,
for you were everything to me.
The only reason that I had was,
that you wanted him. (PAUSE) And I wanted out.
The funny thing is that I could have fixed it,
for you begged and pleaded for weeks.
For me to take you back.
Maybe I deserve it.

(PAUSE)

But the only solution that I have is...
To drown away my sorrows,
till the bottle is empty.
And Ive forgotten about you.
But what am I to do about these problems I have,
For the only solution that I have is...
To drown away my sorrows...
Tonight.

Josh, Liz, and Daniel are here!!! HAPPY!!! :)

Hey yall!

i went to the renissance festival today it was so much fun except for it was raining for the first hour or two! anyways i saw some pleople from church and stuff i saw stacey dunbar,kelley powell, and for some strange reason kyle mcgee

so anyways g2g i will see ya later (hopefully)

Tootles,

Emi

Thank goodness that test is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just got back from chef wang's it was soooo good!  there were about 30 people there in all i think. 

hope every one that took the APUSH exam did well!

still need to get ready for the retreat this weekend.  AHHHH, IM SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

guess what!?

I got a job working at Knoxville Christian Center.  I'll be working there for the rest of this month through VBS!
Sweetness. 
Now, what I also found out tonight, that may happen ( for you boro friends whom I will miss! ) Is that I may end up coming home right after VBS because there won't be much to do.
Meaning that I may be able to work at a church, do VBS ( KCC's huge 1500 person awesome one ) and still
Come home with my friends there!!!

God is gooooooooooooooood.
I mean, maybe I won't come home, for sure, but it might happen that way, which would be sweet!
Well, because there's a great paying job that Russell applied for last summer mid way through and got it, so I'll go for that one when I come to town.

Man... I'M FEELING HAPPY.... AND GUESS WHAT!
MISSION IMPOSSIBLE THREE IS AMAZING! Yes, I saw it early.

Don't wish it away
Don't look at it like it's forever
Between you and me
I could honestly say
That things can only get better
And while I'm away
Dust out the demons inside
And it won't be long
Before you and me run
To the place in our hearts
Where we hide
And I guess that's why they call it the blues
Time on my hands
Could be time spent with you
Laughing like children
Living like lovers
Rolling like thunder
Under the covers
And I guess that's why they call it the blues
Just stare into space
Picture my face in your hands
Live for each second
Without hesitation
And never forget I'm your man
Without me girl
Cry in the night if it helps
But more than ever
I simply love you
More than I love life itself
And I guess that's why they call it the blues
Time on my hands
Could be time spent with you
Laughing like children
Living like lovers
Rolling like thunder
Under the covers
And I guess that's why they call it the blues
Wait on me girl
Cry in the night if it helps
But more than ever I simply love you
More than I love life itself
And I guess that's why they call it the blues
Time on my hands
Could be time spent with you
Laughing like children
Living like lovers
Rolling like thunder
Under the covers
And I guess that's why they call it the blues





Sometimes the advice of someone who loves you kicks in while you are listening to music. When I was sitting in my room hugging the bear he gave me for graduation and trying not to cry this song started playing. And I remembered what he told me before he left. He said live in the moment and it's not forever. And it's hard to follow, but it's good advice. I really owe it to him to follow it and try to be happy.

so basically... i havent been able to update... and when i DO have time... i just dont wanna

i stayed home today... no reason... just kinda felt like it...

umm... fine arts was.... eh... ok?... not the best... not the worst... but o well...

out of school in 16 days... so thats cool...

dont know if im goin to oakland next year or not... all ill say is this.... riverdale... prepare to make room... i MIGHT be joinin ya

cinco de mayo...always makes me happy that the US is not the sole country to call a holiday by the date.  i mean, we have Christmas, New Year's, Valentine's Day...you get the idea.  and then there is July 4th (i know some people call it independence day, but i've yet to meet them.)  so to know that Mexico also does it-well, it only makes me thankful that we're not the only odd ones in the world. 

what if we were to run down the streets proclaiming "CINCO DE DICIEMBRE!!!"  no hate mail, please.  just think about it.  cinco de mayo is a great day!  as is, dos de mayo cuz it's my niece's bday :)

Jonathan Andrew Wood

Spring 2006



Section

Course Title

Midterm
Grade

Final
Grade

Attempted
Hours

Earned
Hours

Quality
Hours

Quality
Points

GPA

SPCH-2410-800 
Intro to Speech Communication 
S 
A  
3.00 
3.00 
3.00 
12.00 
 

HON -2012-001 
Self Esteem 
 
A  
2.00 
2.00 
2.00 
8.00 
 

HON -4013-001 
Colloquium 
 
A  
3.00 
3.00 
3.00 
12.00 
 

HON -4013-002 
Colloquium 
 
A  
3.00 
3.00 
3.00 
12.00 
 

PSY -2010-002 
General Psychology 
S 
B  
3.00 
3.00 
3.00 
9.00 
 

HON -2071-001 
Special Topics 
 
A  
1.00 
1.00 
1.00 
4.00 
 


Current Term
15.00 
15.00 
57.00 
3.800


HE Cum Stats THRU Fall 2006
32.00 
27.00 
80.00 
2.963


Dean's List

That seems to be a large improvement over last years...I kind of doubled the semester GPA.  And with Calc I this summer, I'll have the UAS back, no problem.  Now, time to pack up.

mom and dad gave me my new laptop!! it's supposed to be my graduation gift but they went ahead and gave it to me! its totally amazing!!!

    So I am supposed to dress up as a pirate... actually a guy pirate... interesting... actually it's kinda fun trying to find stuff to do... it's like the opposite of what I usually try to do... I'm trying to find ways to make it look like have thicker eyebrows (usually I thin them out) make it look like I don't have as much of a waist (usually I try to make this look smaller not larger trying to figure out how to give myself facial hair (yea not a normal occurance).... basically tring to make myself look dumb... I mean ::ahem::.... masculine.... yea so it should be interesting

AHHHHH today is the day! Not only do i have to take the exam but i also have to buy candy and get packed for the retreat.  also i plan on going to chef wang's for lunch and then i was talkin about going over to a friends house....right now i really wish i had super powers or somthing.  ( :

Only Child + Overprotective Parents = Frustration!

well, i'm not gonna finish my last entry. ya'll will just hafta watch the movie for yourselves. so. what's been goin on lately? gateway exams....always good. kinda like high-school TCAP...woot. ok. so i've had this on my mind for a long time, and i figured that this would be a good thing to get off my chest. this is a letter that i will probably never write to 2 people, whom i probably should write to. but w/e. maybe eventually they'll get it. and please, don't try to guess who you are, because i probably won't tell you.

to person numero uno:

wow. i wish i had the guts to tell you these things in person. i won't say i love you, because i don't think that i know you that well. but it comes pretty close. you have made me less cynical about people, because i now know that there are people like you in the world. it's really weird, because i love you like a brother, and yet for a while, i kinda liked you otherwise. i wish that you knew that. you are an amazing person, and as long as i live, i will not forget you. i can't wait to see what God does in your life, because i know it's gonna be great.

love, me.

to person numero dos:

ha. i can't believe i am writing about you on this blog. it seems like we have been friends for a million years. i love you to death. and yet, for so long i was, like, madly in love with you, and you never quite got it. i find the whole situation quite ironic, and yet i'm glad it turned out the way it did. though i'm sure we will eventually part ways after high school, you have made these past few years fun, and i thank you for that. you know that i would do anything for you, and i love ya.

love, me.

to person numero tres:

gahlee, do i miss you. for the longest, you were my everything. which was probably not a good thing, but oh well. you were the first person to show me what a real Christian looks like, which is kinda ironically funny, because you also taught me how to cuss and such. you gave me a standard, and a Godly one at that. it feels like i haven't seen you in forever, but i know that eventually, i will see you again. and i can't wait. i love you so much, and i miss you. love ya like a fat kid love cake---

love, 4-hed.

to person numero cuatro:

we have been friends for many years, sometime not as much as others. i'm pretty sure that we have the exact same brain, and that makes for some good times. i have a feeling that we also may part ways after high school, but that's ok, because you are a great friend in the present. just stay true to who you are, no matter what anyone else says or does. i know that sounds cheesy, but i just don't want you to lose your identity amidst all of the fakers out there. never forget the unholy three (lol).

love, me.

to person numero cinco:

wow. it's truly interesting how people can be the best of friends, the worst of enemies, and then just kinda forget about each other. we actually kinda have a history, which i'm sure i will never forget. you made me want to go into law, and then you made want to stay as far away from it as possible. (ha). i wish we could've stayed as good of friends as we once were, but i think it all has a purpose nonetheless. i miss you, and i'm sure great things are going to come about in your life. i love you!

love, me

there are a million more people i wish i could write out all my feelings to, but that would just take up waaaaayy to much time. but just know how much i love you all. i don't think that i say that enough. aside from God and my family, you guys all make my life a little bit happier. thanks for being the awesome people you are, even when i get mad at you or treat you like crap. much love to you all---Cari

so.... I'm back home for the summer.  yayness :)

How do you tell ur heart to move on when you can't get over someone? I can't get over him....my heart feels like it's in a million pieces.

...and I don't wanna see you anymore
I'm just not that strong
I love it when you're here
But I'm better when you're gone
I'm certain that I've given and oh how you can take
There's no use in you lookin
There's nothin left for you to break
Please release me
Let my heart rest in pieces, in pieces...

Well, I saw aaron had this and thought "hey why not?" It's sorta like MySpace...Well anyway, meh name is Ric and I live in SUNNY CALIFORNIA! I loves it here. Im out here to be an ACtOr! Things are slow this season but hey another season shall come and more audition will come as well. Right now I'm doin hw for Gov't..ugh so much fun! >_> I will type moooorre later but for now I regrettably must do hw...damnit...

Alright so I am finally finished with all work that is for all of my classes....I did my project in english, turned in all my papers and journal, so basically all I have to do now is wait for grades to be posted......thank God for WebCT.....peace out

went to the josh mcdowell tour dilly & it was perty good.  lots of people made decisions for Christ, not sure how many, but quite a few.  mega kewl.  ive decided i need to read his book.  its a book he wrote trying to disprove Christianity, but it didnt quite work out that way for him. 

did you know that... if i were to cover the entire state of texas 2 feet deep in thin mint cookies and had one chance to find the one with no chocolate, while blindfolded.  that would be the same chance that someone could fulfill only 8 of the 333 prophecies made about Christ.  so honestly, did this just happen by chance? nope kids its one of those God things.